Mar 01, 2018
Well...Here is March 1st and I am stuck, no where near my goal of being in the "one hundreds" by my birthday. To say that life has been so horrid to me lately is an understatement!! All of my stress coping mechanisims using food have reared their ugly heads and EVERY day, all day is a struggle not to bend. Some days I can resist and some days I can't. To anyone who may read this...I am in therapy!!!! Whining is not my point here; sometimes the unexpected struggles can de-rail the most thought out plans and then, throw in a cronic illness to the mess and you have a real, serious struggle. I hope the up coming "CAMAW" week will put me back on track, 1 week at a time, 1 day at a time -- what ever it takes!!!
Jan 25, 2018
Just realized it was 5 years ago today my surgeon and I decided to remove the crap band and revise to RnY. That surgery happened in May 2013, but no bypass. That really hit me hard, but in hindsight it was for the best. I needed to get things sorted out in my head. Now, 1 year and 4 months since bypass I'm still struggling with head hunger and trying to convince myself that just a little taste isn't so bad. Today I started Spring cleaning to keep my hands and mind busy!!! The good Lord had/has a plan...
Dec 10, 2017
So happy to have has a loss this past month, even if it's only 0.8 lb. Tried to stay on plan, but the drive to Florida from RI with my parents left very few good choices!! Usually stress makes my appetite almost unmanageable, but being served with divorce papers made me nauseaus! Yay me. Knew it would happen, but still stung. His behavior had been criminal and was dealt with throught the proper channels -- could his behavior be in responce to my life changes, who knows! My journey continues and I will be a success story!!!!!
Nov 14, 2017
This is not exactly the forum for this, but I need to publicly celebrate my son's success. My older son has been dealt some really difficult blows in his 23 years. Really, not just in his Mom's eyes. He recently "hit the bottom of the bottle" and chose to accept help. I have the child back that I have been missing for a very long time!! He wants to keep his "situation" private. I honor that by keeping quiet with my family and friends, and of course social media. This site is not a place where any of the previous mentioned would visit, except for some WLS friends. I know they will honor his privacy.
NOW, my stress level has somewhat decreased, I can get back to the job of shedding the remaining 40 or so lbs. I want to lose!!
So much to be thankful for during this Thanksgiving season!!!
Nov 06, 2017
The high levels of stress continue; the Good Lord thinks I have the shoulders of a linebacker I guess! My weight is trickling down, ounce by ounce --- I WILL REACH MY END GOAL! My birthday is in March, I want to be in One-derland by then. I have been getting the stress snacking under control, we shall see...
Sep 08, 2017
Wow, 1 year has passed so quickly!! So much has changed in this past year, much good but some devastating...
I will never regret having gastric bypass surgery!! My weight loss journey has been long, starting more than 10 years ago with my well documented struggle with the lap-band. This is NOT a magic fix, it is a lot of work and when I have a good "emotional" day, it's also a small pouch day. Lately it's been big pouch days, but as long as the scale keeps dropping, I am succeeding!! I do feel the urgency of the "honeymoon" ending, but I can't survive if I beat myself up. If baby steps are what will get me to the finish line, then baby steps it is!!!
Aug 08, 2017
11months post op today!! Will not reach my goal of 100 lbs in 1 year, but I will reach my goal!! So many unforeseen things in my life trying to derail my progress, but I WILL succeed!! Yay me!!!
Jul 19, 2017
FINALLY, some downward movement in the scale!! 4 weeks of testing requiring IV fluids every time have left me floating for weeks!!!! Down .08 lb WIN Now, if I could get to the cause of the pain. One step at a time...
Jul 01, 2017
This journey is long and has many ups and downs. Right now this down has taken a strange twist. I will overcome and continue towards my goal !
Jun 04, 2017
Prepping for my 1st AMAW/CAMAW week. Hope this week will jump start my lagging losses at only month 9