Oct 13, 2017
Aug 28, 2017
I in the struggle of getting a divorce from a man whom I DID NOT say my vows to, just less then 3 years ago. I don't like the idea of divorce and so badly wanted to remain married and never divorce, but I don't love him, after all that has gone on and not gone on in this marriage I just feel we are continueing to wound each other as we remain in this marriage and together. He thinks we are going to do a short trial seperation, therapy/counseling and then do everything we can do to get back together. But I can't live with him, I can't stay where I am not in love. I am not satisfied. All the foundations of this marriage doesn't exist, or has crumble shortly after saying I do. Mr Husband is Mr. someone I didn't and wouldn't had married if he hadn't hid this part of himself away from me.
With all this going on, it is extremely hard to even think about reaching ANY WEIGHT GOALS. So I am just going to make attenpts to make fitness goals, get healthier then once he is GONE, AWAY, OUT OF MY LIFE, I can then go back to being less stressed and more able to eat the way this surgery and my genics intends for me to eat. Thanks for reading my vent.
Everyone, have a great successful day. If there be set backs, know tomorrow will always bring a new day for new beginnings. God bless. IF you pray, pls say one for me that the husband gets a place and soon.
Well good night here in Western Washington state.
Some older to newer photos. This one of me in the pink is abt the largest I got after the surgery. then the red I am starting to lose down to the lowest, and then the last one is pretty much me now after the regain of being down to my lowest. God is good. IF He has seen me through all this, he can see me through more. My power comes from HIM above.
Aug 11, 2017
Spoke to the revision Dr and he said that I have 3 months to see how it goes then he will make the choice then. However the surgery is high risk, low results and of course only lasts a year. So at this point I am on my own, Well can't say that fully as I have the wellness plan, to support me, and help see me through this, and with God on my side, I have lost weight many times before, I can lose it (50+lbs) to reach my goal
How ever, living with mother, and husband for temp time until he gets a home of his own so he's not booted out on the streets, they eat completely different then I do. So I have dig deep inside of me and find the power to fight mostly to prove to my husband I can do this while he is still here. Let me assure you, those few who read this. first of all I AM DOING THIS FOR MYSELF, AND MY HEALTH. God is good. He has seen me through before, and I know He will for sure see me through this once again..
blury due to husband being the one taking them,
My Annie, before my service dog I have now, (Starr) and this was taken back when I was pretty much my smallest and I am SO going to meet this and see this once again. I am looking forward to getting there. No pain no gain.
Aug 05, 2017
I am seeing my revition dr. put off the surgry for many months and tried to lose it on my own. followed and worked with the dietions and of no changed and no goal nothing happened excepted I have gained a bit of weight, trying to get my husband to move out while I file for divorse. I know, I must not allow myself to eat in such cases, but sadly I did. And So I gained a bit amount of 6lbs.
Monday I see him, he will say yes or no to the surgery, willing yes, as it was all set up to have it when I thought I was doing so good I would see if I could continue, Well now he has to apply to the insurance again, and doing so shouldn't take much time as it has been accepted and approved once before. Thank you Lord for I know it will be aproved once again.. Amen.
Sorry to those who don't think the revisiton is the way to go, but I have to make this for myself, and I know how my life, my weight is a struggle and the effect it is having on me. So it is what it is. It will happen, If all goes as planned such as it did the first time.
Jul 21, 2017
I am believing that insurance AGAIN will have no probledff'ms reapproving me for the RNY revision. It will be a great blessing from God about this surgery, so I pray that I see the doc of the 17th, and he will schedule me for the very next week. That will be great, this will keep me from having to wait to lon to it to happen.
Well I must say my good nights, I am making many mistakes. I have to get my beuayty sleep, hahahahah I am much to far from this. There is to much flaws to catch me up...
Good night and God Bless you all so for being there and taking the same journey.
Jul 20, 2017
Hello fellow readers, if any?
I was to have the gastric bypass revision back in Oct. but held off to see if I could lose any on my own with out going under the knife, well I have been UNSUCCESFUL at my attempt, so am on the attempt on my own, so lets see if I get is this time.
Jun 02, 2017
should had had the revition surgery, weight bouncing between 196-202. I would be 30+ lbs lighter if I had gone throughwithit, now I am unsure I will ever get it What am I to do? Can I do This on my own, like I have b4, or have I ran out of chance on my own, am I to set ino the bad habbits now to return to usinig the tools I am sure I still have. Temptation by husband and mother, both junk food addict
Apr 14, 2017
Keeping is short and sweet, since I DID NOT GO INTO HAVE THE REVISION I am working to lose it on my own. I lost 10 lbs in 5 months, WOW, and then gained it back so am back to square one, unsure if I will ever have another chance at the revision, if I do I might take it, this yo yo weight stuff isn't good. So I am trying my best on my own. Walking dog with her stroller due to her having a knee issue and heart issue, so a bit more work out both ways, but on the way home more so for she it sitting in it. Also doing the WII, in competion with the husband, whom I know will kick my butt in some areas and as I will his in others. But we keep it fun, and I am trying to work at keeping myself one the 1000 cals a day that she has put me on, OMG. how can anyone stick to that??? lots of prayer will see me through God is always on my side. Good night everyone. it is almost 4 am here on the west coast of the states, wow, really got into this Site. Well here I come, I am back again, I hope any ways, lol.
Poor quality photos, HUSBAND TOOK THEM, LOL.....
This photo is the bigest I got after my WLS, I was so ashamed of myself, Lord don't EVER alow me to see this weight again. It is only 65 lbs from where I am now. God is good, and I will be ashamed like this ashamed like this again.
Nov 03, 2016
I went to my 2 week pre op meeting, to explain what the diet will be, what to expect after surgery, ect. the pre op surgery isn't gong to be to hard for me, been almost doing it for awhile now, just have to add another protein drink, or two to the day.
On my way out, the surgeon schedular called me into the room, and explained that I can't have my surgery the 21st, how bummed I was to hear this, thought I was looking into Dec. But, yes there is a but, I am having it the 16th. YES YES YES, It is further away from Thanksgiving. Hurray. Thank you Lord. Prayers that all goes well and that this is what I am going to need to get back onto track and stay on track? Thanks to the support I am getting, and the sceptics even. What would it be if there wasn't those who don't think it should happen. I am so very blessed with such a wonderful great support team, God, my husband, mother, caregiver Helen, and other caregiver, who ever they get to replace Helen until she gets her knee taken care of. Plus can't leave out my service dog Starr.
God bless you all who have had, and is having, and is working towards having surgery of some kind, May the good Lord Keep you safe and allow it to happen, and allow you to stay on track to keep you from going through what I am.
Oct 31, 2016
Will be 20, OR 21 days until I go in for my life altering surgery, again, and must be forever. No letting bad behaviors and ways come back into my life, with this surgery, it is all a new start and a new way of life that I will obstain to and with the support of my weight loss/ surgeon group and team I have pulling, and working with me, I know this one is going to be the one to be the final end to this obesity I have battled over half my life. I do ask for your prayers and pray for you. Pray for those who are seeking the first and second surgery. Work, work real hard once you get it.
Well it has also been a bit of a battle for me to get this done, that is doesn't really seem real. I give God and my person support group, God, my husband Leighton, My mother, My caregiver Helen, and service dog Starr, they have and are there with me through this. Well sadly, Helen won't be, she has an injured knee that has taken her out of work until surgery, and reabiltation. But she is there praying for me, just a call, text away. I pray for her surgery to come fast, so her pain will end soon.
Well time for me to retire to bed, should had long ago. Good night and God bless you all.