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WELL ITS BEEN 4 EVER SINCE I POSTED ON

MY PAGE.. IM STILL HERE STANDING

STRONG..LOL.. TRYING TO ANYWAY.. WELL

IM GAINING WEIGHT AND I AM DEVASTATED

BUT THATS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN U ABUSE

UR TOOL AND THINK THAT UR GONNA LOSE

WEIGHT NO MATTER WHAT JUST BECAUSE

U'VE HAD WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY.. THAT IS

NOT THE TRUTH.. IM PAST MY HONEYMOON

STAGE WHERE THE WEIGHT JUST FALLS

OFF WITH HARDLY ANY WORK... I WISH I

COULD GO BACK TO THE BEGINNING OF THE

YEAR WHEN I WAS 15-20LBS LIGHTER I

WOULD HAVE DONE THE RIGHT THINGS LIKE

EXCERSISNG AND EATING WHAT I WAS

SUPPOSED TO EAT NOT WHAT I WANTED TO

EAT .. BEING GREEDY AND THINKING THAT

OH ILL BE OK IT'S JUST A LITTLE. BUT NOW

THAT IM FURTHER DOWN THE LINE I HAVE

STRETCHED MY STOMACH AND I CAN EAT

ALMOST ANYTHING NOT AN EXTREME

AMOUNT BUT ENOUGH  AND TOO MUCH FOR

A GASTRIC BYPASS PATIENT. AND IM HATING

IT RIGHT NOW. I FEEL TERRIBLE. I STARTED

GOING TO THE GYM AND IM TRYING TO GET

MYSELF IN CHECK AND ALL THE

OVEREATERS KNOW WHAT I MEAN. IT'S SO

HARD BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR ME AND

MY KIDS BECAUSE I REFUSE....TO GO BACK

TO WHERE I STARTED FROM. I HAVE COME

ENTIRELY TO FAR TO BE DEFEATED BY

WEIGHT AGAIN IN MY LIFE . THESE PAST 2

YEARS HAVE BEEN THE BEST TIMES OF MY

LIFE AND I FELT SO GOOD ABOUT MYSELF.. I

FEEL LIKE IM FAILING NOW AND I WANNA

GET BACK ON TRACK.. AND I AM GONNA GET

BACK ON TRACK. MY LIFE WILL NOT BE THE

SAME AS IT WAS BEFORE I HAD SURGERY..

SO WHOM EVER READS THIS AND U R ON

THE SAME ROAD AS ME.. STOP AND

EVALUATE UR SITUATION AND TAKE

CONTROL.. I AM.. EVERYDAY IS A NEW DAY

AND IM STARTING TO REALIZE THAT. I JUST

PRAY THAT I GET IT TOGETHER BEFORE IT'S

TOO LATE..

i haven't posted in a while. all is well here. im just praying for a better year than 2008. im im leaving all the garbage in 08 and  starting anew..

WOW A YEAR HAS PASSED ALREADY. I AM SO BLESSED. I LOOK BACK AT THIS PAST YEAR AND I CANT BELIEVE IT. IM WONDERING WHEN I WILL WAKE UP FROM THIS DREAM. I HAVE LOST OVER 110LBS SINCE MY SURGERY. I WOULD HAVE NEVER THOUGHT IN A MILLION YEARS THAT I WOULD HAVE LOST ANY WEIGHT. THIS SURGERY WAS THE BEST GIFT THAT HAS EVER BEEN GIVEN TO ME. THANK YOU JESUS. MY LIFE HAS CHANGED DRAMATICALLY.I HAVE REACHED SO MANY OF  MY GOALS. THERE'S A LOT IM STILL WORKING ON BUT IM WELL ON MY WAY. MY QUALITY OF LIFE HAS CHANGED SO MUCH. I AM ENJOYING MY LIFE. I HAVE MISSED OUT ON SO MUCH IN MY LIFETIME. I WAS AFRAID OF ENJOYING MYSELF AND I AM SO HAPPY NOW. SO WITH ALL OF THAT SAID "HAPPY SURGIVERSARY" TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AND THANX TO EVERYONE FOR ALL OF THE SUPPORT.

EVERYTIME I SEE THES PICTURE I FEEL LIKE CRYING. I AM SO HAPPY THAT SHE IS IN THE PAST. I NEVER WANT TO BE IN THAT BODY EVER AGAIN. THANK YOU LORD I AM TRULY BLESSED.        MAY 2007

IT SEEMS LIKE IT'S BEEN 4 EVER SINCE I BLOGGED. WELL MY WEIGHT LOSS HAS SLOWED DOWN 2 ME. BUT EVERY ONE STILL SAYS IM LOSING. BUT I KNOW IM NOT. MAYBE ITS INCHES. BECAUSE IT'S NOT POUNDS. BUT I GUESS IT WILL WORK OUT FOR THE BEST IN THE END. I'VE COME SO FAR IM GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE LOST EVEN IF I DONT LOSE ANOTHER POUND. MY EXERCISE OF COURSE I S NOT THE BEST . I WORK OUT MAYBE 3 TIMES A WEEK IF THAT. I KNOW I NEED TO DO BETTER. MY EATING HAS INCREASED SOOOOOOO MUCH. I FEEL THAT I CAN EAT A LOT. AND I CAN EAT ALMOST ANYTHING.IT SEEMS LIKE IM ALWAYS HUNGRY. ALWAYS.  BUT I CAN EAT ALMOST  ANYTHING. AS FAR AS SWEETS. WHICH WAS MY DOWNFALL IN THE BEGINNING. B4 SURGERY. IM SO AFRAID THAT I WILL GAIN ALL OF THE WEIGHT BACK . BUT I REFUSE AFTER COMING SO FAR. IM OBSESSED WITH THIS NOW. IF IT'S NOT ONE THING ITS ANOTHER. BUT I JUST HAVE TO GET MY EATING UNDER CONTROL. I KNEW I WOULD BE ABLE TO EAT MORE GRADUALLY. BUT I FEEL THAT THIS IS TOO SOON FOR THIS. BUT I WILL TALK TO DR SEIGAL ON THE 11TH OF FEB.