Not sure if this counts as a co-morbidity but its on my mind

Oct 19, 2016

Today i go for a ct scan on my knee. i need to  have extensive reconstructive surgery on my knee. i know it is a problem that is seperate and yet goes along with my wieght. my knee would need this surgery if i was obese or not. but the weight i carry makes the joints weaker and the surgury more pressing. i have taken to using a cane. and i even have a walker. it sits in my condo mocking me with the fact that i am actually not to far from  using it. i know the weakness in my joints is from all this excess weight. i know that i would heal faster and be able to get stronger if i could just put less pressure on the joints after sugury.

my Psychiatrist suggested strongly that i wait six months between surguries. that i have the bariatric first and then do the knee. (the first knee the second is in a few years) i just want it all over with i want to start my new life i want to walk more than a few minutes at a time. i want to not spend the last 3 minutes of my walk home from work (a 6 minute walk) looking for somewhere to sit or pushing myslef to make it home. sometimes i cannot even make it up to my condo i have to sit in my buildings lounge and rest my knees. 

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. i just want to be healthy. that is the whole reason for this surgery i want so desperatly to be healthy. i know my mental heath will never be more than Managed but i want my physical health to be well. i want to be well. is that so much to ask. 

15 pills a day. plus 3 vitamin d and 2 anti anxiety pills so 20 20 pills a day. im not even fourty for crissakes. its got to stop. i have to do this. i have to heal myself. no matter the cost. 

 

just needed a wee rant.. 

 

ttfn

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