October 8 Thoughts
Oct 08, 2011Today I talked to my husband about my options for weight loss surgery. I explained all three... he wonders why I can't just limit certain foods, or amounts and just do it myself. I think the idea of surgery really skeeves him out. I've had 30 years of gaining 50, loosing 50.. and never taking off that "other" 50 that I needed to. I'm tired of being embarassed at how I look, tired of being embarassed someone takes a picture of me, sick and tired of hating to get dressed each morning. All done with hating the reflection I see in the mirror. "Is this really me?"
Anyway, in tears I said something I think is pretty profound. This will be my "prior to surgery" statement on how I feel.
I said.... "If I were to die on the operating table, I would be in a happier place than I am today".
That... says it all!