Just Ducky - The Meditative Hag

Today I was "Normal"...

Nov 27, 2010

One of the reasons I had this surgery was to be "normal"... When I was obese, what did I consider normal? To me, normal was not having everyone "ignore me" or worse make judgments because I was the "fat girl"...
Being Obese before meant, doing ANYTHING physical (whether exercise, or doing stuff with my family, was excruciating on my joints and muscles)... Before, being obese meant my clothing selection was limited...Being obese meant I was "existing" but not truly living or enjoying life.

Since having the Roux-En-Y surgery the greatest gift it has given me is that it is allowing me to be "normal".... Like many other ladies (or men) I now agonize over ALL the clothing selections I can buy! It is often hard to choose just one thing! You're talking to a "tom-boy" gal who fishes, hunts, plays outdoors, and normally could have cared less WHAT I was wearing... A yucky but comfortable size 3XL was just fine as long as it was black, plain and hid my fat tummy. Now I enjoy trying on form fitting comfy and feminine jeans and "girly girl" T-Shirts or other clothes... Believe me! The hubby loves the change!

But this Thanksgiving was a chance for me to truly BE and EAT like a normal person. I didn't "fret" about the holiday. Before I would have loaded my plate and eaten 2nds, 3rds, and then around 10PM had 4th's and 5th's of whatever Thanksgiving day bounty we cooked up.

This thanksgiving I was able to actually eat normal portions and enjoy the holiday and be mindful of what it meant to be "thankful". I had 3 oz of dark meat turkey, some green beans with bacon, homemade sweet potatoes with brown sugar splenda, cinnamon, nutmeg and a little almond meal in it, I enjoyed a tablespoon of mashed potatoes and a wee bit of gravy on my turkey and potatoes. There was no "obsessing" if I was eating to much, or not enjoying the meal... Nor was there ANY guilt afterwords for blowing my carb count on the sweet potatoes and mashed potatoes.

Since I don't eat like this every day, I was thankful for my surgery, thankful that I could enjoy the meal (since I don't dump or have pouch problems). I was Thankful that I can now walk nearly 2 miles in around 25 minutes, can wear a size 16 (at least right now!) Thankful that I am off 4 different types of medications. Thankful that I have met WONDERFUL people in the WLS community who have been supportive and inspirations and thankful I was given a 2nd chance to be "normal", to actually LIVE life and enjoy it day by day.

Today, I was thankful to be a "normal" person!
Warmly,
Jackie

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Belleville, IL
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RNY
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06/29/2010
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Nov 24, 2001
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