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My weight issues have been with me all my life. I marveled many times in high praises over being "socially acceptably thin" to painfully enduring ongoing ridicule as "your size is a problem." I have wondered was because I was more of a private, solitary child and still that way as an adult. I was a normal healthy weight until I began school then became a child of slightly higher than the average weight and height without any major health concerns. Maybe because I discovered that I was a "big boned and even contagious" child just for being heavier than anyone else in my age group. I recall standing in tears as heard my family criticized and informed " Your child is too fat and we don't want anyone to catch it. Best to keep the child away from other children so it won't spread." My family defensively said I was "big boned" but very healthy. I know it was to defend and protect me but as a child it confused me. Who.. what did everything mean, all I knew that every word hurt deep. Many years have passed since I was that child and I forgave the uneducated, unprofessional person who first said those damaging words. "For thy heart & mind shall overcome those of weak, foolish beliefs with education and inner strength." I am continuously filling my mind with knowledge and gaining courage in order to overcome those who faslely believe I am heavy solely by "my choice to inconvience them." When I first learned about WLS, I'll admit it scared the bits out of me. My fear has been replaced with a strong confidence in favor of my decision to have vertical sleeve gastrectomy surgery and change my nutritional habits. Along the way I learned that those "awful words" and my fear of "not being the perfect weight" are only a few examples of many deep rooted reasons why I have struggled with food, self worth and trust. I have entrusted only very few people with my WLS journey and surgery date. I need to be better prepared to deal with those other people in my life. Truthfully I'm simply afraid of how they'll react but I will fight that fear later as I must save my energy for my upcoming surgery. I hope & pray for an uncomplicated surgery with a full recovery afterward.
This is my story, I hope you may find knowledge & strength in reading a small part of my journey that has brought me here to this point.
