3 months post op- and I forgot!

Oct 27, 2011

I just had a realization tonight that yesterday was my 3 month surgiversary and I completely forgot!  I've been a little pre-occupied lately with the whole job situation but am finally on the road to sanity thanks to some Xanax and Prozac.  Sane and medicated is better than crazy and not! 

So four months!  Crazy.  I've lost 60 pounds already and although it comes off "slowly" it seems (I know that 60 pounds in four months is not slow but it feels like it at the time) it's really adding up!  My size 24 pants are history, as are the 22s, and most of my 20s.  I'm starting to squeeze into some 18s and it feels great!  Clothes I bought thinking they would fit me for awhile (used of course :) are already getting too big!

On one hand, it's awesome.  I can move and breathe so much better!  On the other hand, I don't feel like much has happened because it hasn't been that long since I was at this weight.  About 5 years ago I went on an upwards climb and hit the big 250 and decided to do something about it.  Through Weight Watchers and exercise I took off about 45 pounds and was down to 205 before I started going up again.  Up, up and away, actually to my surgery weight of 303 pounds.  Now that some of the "air" has been let out of my body I've finally settled around the 240/250 mark for right now and it sort of feels like I'm finally back at "square one" the place where my original journey all began.  I think the next 40 to 50 pounds are going to be just as difficult as the last because it hasn't been that long since I've been there.  I wonder if anyone else is experiencing this. 

Although my doctor says I will be a "success" if I get 60% of the way towards my ideal BMI (205 pounds), I can't help but feel like that's the complete tipping point for me and that's where I REALLY start my journey.  Getting to the 205 is a cake walk (not really, but you know what I mean) and I even managed to do it without surgery once.  But getting below that...finding the elusive 199, 190, 180, 170 and GOD FORBID, 160 or below will be the real test.  I wonder what will happen when I get to that point of possibility?  

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07/27/2011
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