9/28/09 Update

Sep 28, 2009

Saturday I went to the Auburn / Ball State football game.  Last year I went to an Auburn game as well.  The major difference between the two experiences is this year we parked and walked and last year I parked and rode the transit to shorten the walk.  Last year I had a much smaller distance to walk and I remember being so out of breath and tired from the walk.  This year we walked briskly (because of the rain and following after 3 teenage girls!) and I didn't get tired at all. 

While I was sitting there I began to think about me at my highest weight verses now.  I was 110 lbs heavier last time I went to a game.  That is another entire small adult!  That is the reason I was so tired while walking last year.  Then I thought back to the people I was sitting with...they were probably croweded because in my seat there was enough of me to be 2 people!  That is just amazing to me when I think about it.  It is wonderful to feel like a normal person.  That's all I want.  Just to be normal!!!

I still battle self image sometimes.  Even though I am obviously smaller because of the numbers on the scale and the size of my clothes, there are times when I feel like I look morbidly obese.  Granted I am still overweight (barely over 200 lbs.  and goal is 160),  I am no where near as large as I was....this is the mind thing!

In the last couple of weeks I have found myself eating too much.  Not intentionally.  However I was eating my meals until I was really full - you know what I mean...you get done and are like "Oh man, I'm stuffed!".  That stopped Friday when I realized it.  I am determined I am not going to fall back into bad habits again.  I do NOT want to gain this weight back.  I know better than to give myself an inch when it comes to overeating!  If I keep my habit of stopping when I first feel full then it will work much better.  I am proud of myself though (yes, pat yourself on the back - you deserve it).  I still do not eat fried foods or foods high in carbs.  (On rare occassion I will - as a treat only!!!)  Fried foods were my downfall prior to WLS.

This Wednesday I go to my surgeon for my 6 month check up (guess it should be called the 7 month check up since I'm almost there).  I'm looking forward to getting the interpretation of my blood work.  Even though I've already done the research and pretty much have a good understanding of what it means. It will be good to hear it from the professionals! LOL

Well, for now that's all.  I'll try to post after my 6 month appointment.

God bless!!!

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