One year, victory, and the future
Mar 01, 2015
I'm 15 months post-op and finally navigating the treacherous waters of "maintenance." Secretly, it's kind of kicking my ass, but if I could lose that much weight in a year then anything else should be manageable, right? I mean, after all, I've pulled off a lot of great things since Surgery Day, and this is just one more thing to go for.
Good things since surgery:
- In November, I rode 40 miles in el Tour de Tucson, the big city bike race, and finished in 3:08. I was worried about being able to finish in the allotted 7 hours, but I totally kicked butt! My dad flew in from WA to ride with me and it was a blast, and I never could have done it pre-op.
- I'm also going to do a 5k! I signed up for one that's probably a bit too soon, since I'm not a runner and my knees hurt when I do too much time on the training. But even if I have to walk, that's totally OK. There's a UV color run next weekend, and I'm signed up for a mud run at the end of the month, and I can at least try, even if I don't get a super-fast time!
- I now wear a size 2/XS, when I started in a 22. Mind-blowing! I'll admit that I have trouble looking at myself and believing that I'm that small, but it's getting better over time. I have the weird problem of being able to shop in some places because things don't run small enough-- good luck finding cheap yoga pants at Wal-Mart! I still have a serious muffin-top from the loose skin around my middle, but it's something I can live with when I (apparently) take up so little physical space.
- I've received the all-clear from my surgeon, GP, and OBGYN to begin Operation Respawn! Husband and I are hoping to add to our family for the first time, and the surgeon says my health is in tip-top shape to get going on that. It's going to take a while, but I'm still looking forward to it.
Granted, it's not all happy peachy good times. I'll admit that I'm having some trouble; finding the right balance of what to eat in maintenance is HARD. I eat more carbs than I should, so I'm trying to reign that in. And even though the scale reads what I'd like it to, it bounces around within a 2lb range and that makes me super nervous after watching it so closely for a year and change. I'm happy where I am, and even if I gain a few back I can make peace with it. But it's not magically easy when you hit the finish line!
Overall, though, I feel awesome. I have energy, I can do things I never expected, my bloodwork and stats and whatnot come back in great shape. And I'm SO incredibly glad that I did this. Even though the watching and measuring and mindfulness is never going to end, and sometimes I feel like being smaller (I don't ever think I'll be able to use the word "thin" or "skinny") isn't going to last forever, it's absolutely been worth it.