Starlene02
Approved and Surgery Date Set
Oct 16, 2015
My last weight loss visit was on Oct 1st. It was a full week later before my surgery coordinator sent off for insurance review and nearly another full week with several false alarms before I had an absolute YES!! This has been a VERY long, lonely, stressful process. Since it took so long to get my approval it will still be another month before I actually have surgery which sucks but at least I have plenty of time to get my head on straight and everything taken care of for my kids. I go in Oct 29th for all of my final preop testing and classes. My surgery will be on Nov 11th. With my surgery being pushed back I have a lot more time to push myself through the complete terror to the finish line but on the bright side it means that I won't miss my daughters student athlete ceremony at school, my sons last football game of the season and I'll get to be active for Halloween. I'm trying really hard to be positive and keep myself distracted at least until closer to time but the truth is that it's ridiculously hard. I mean I've had fear through this process, it's a big surgery and a scary lifelong change! However when that absolute YES came in, so many massive mixed emotions washed in. It's like being told your pregnant for the first time! I'm excited for the change but completely terrified at the same time. On one hand I know this is the best thing that I can do and I know I'm going to do it but on the other hand I'm terrified and that "What if I'm making a mistake?" creeps in when I least expect it. I'm going to keep pushing forward because I know I need this and want the change but the terror is massive.. the struggle is so real!
