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I am dealing with edema and I do not know why. I havegas like a little baby. I had to ask my coworker to burp me rofl! My knee hurts and is swollen!

Today has been a good day so far. You know people are so rude and feel they can say whatever they would like. I am so tired of people thinking it's ok to say any and everything to me. I try really hard not to unleash on their azzes. For instance, I have loc's in my hair an dthis one particular lady has asked be 3 or more times when am I going to take my hair down. I finally had to tell her I hadn't planned on doing this I have made a lifetime commitment would not have done it if I was planning on changing it up. This person stood in my doorway 2 days ago and told me my dress was pretty and then asked rather loudly if I was wearing a Spanx. Today she implied that a fellow coworker would not be able to find any clothes at the store we were speaking of. My coworker said why wouldn't I we wear the same size. I am like look I no longer have to shop in the plus size section and that is very obvious that I don't. Geesh, people. Such is the life when you live under a constant microscope. The people on my job have appointed themselves to be Monica's Weightloss/Gain Monitors. I man everyone was excited when I gained 30lbs from medication however, faces are dropping because they have seen the weight drop back off. Yes, I am properly utilizing my tool and I am no longer taking hormones or steriods which cause weight gain. So I have about 30 additional pounds I would like to lose. I have lost 5 just this past week.

God is good!

Monica

I have to really become consistent in posting it has been 2 years. Well November 18, 2011 was 3 years for me and I am so thankful to God. This 3 years have been a journey. I have maintained weightloss. The only weight gain I have was because I was placed on a steroid and hormone unawares however I am no longer on any and the weight I gained from those are dropping off.

3 years have been a challenge and I have learned not to listed to peoples opinions about the decision I made for weightloss surgery and to ignore the ignorant comments people have made and continue to make about how I look or what I should do. For example: Oh, do you have cancer? Oh my you are too little. I thought you were prettier when you were fat. I hope you don't plan on losing any more weight. Or the teacher that told her students that I am the lady that works in the front office and I didn't make good food or nutrition choices so I had to get weightloss surgery because I was lazy and fat and that now I have to deal with all of the excess skin. I have been working on a book that I will release in the spring.

But, I would not change a thing at all and would do it all over again. I have a new outlook on life.

God Bless,

Monica

Today was a good day I was able to overcome alot of temptation and hurdles an I feel good.

November 18, 2010 was my 1st Birthday. Wow, the year went by so fast. I had a few setbacks this year. I caught a really bad stomach virus in August and my weight dropped from 126 to 116 and I just did not like the look or the feelings associated with being sick. I was down for 2 weeks. The school nurse on my job weighed me today and I am at 124 which is pretty cool for me. I am noticing that I really have to focus on am I really hungry or is this head hunger. You know that old emotional eating demon keeps trying to rear her ugly head every now and than so I am using strategies to overcome. I have made up my mind that in January and no this is not a New Years Resolution that I am going to go to my monthly support group and classes. I just wish there was a little more for me to choose from in Arizona. I am trying to plan my school schedule around the group so I can make it but, it is looking pretty tough. If that doesn't work even if it does I am going to become more active beginning now on the message boards and support groups on this site.

Well, I experienced hairloss I am sure this is no surprise right?!. Here is the story I have not had any chemicals in my hair for at least 2 years and at about my 6 month my hair started coming out and yes I had 3 different hair textures. So in October I decided to go to the barbershop and have the BC Big Chop and cut my hair in a cute little afro. My mom was like oh it is cute and then said oh you lost a lot of hair I can see your scalp. I was like thanks like I didn't know that. But, nevertheless shedding has reduced I am just experiencing the everyday normal hairloss a few strands not like the clumps before. My hair has grown tremendously and I have a completely different texture of hair that is strange huh! I have heard cancer survivors talk about how much their texture changes.

Now I am working on strenght training and core toning. Any suggestions for excercises?

I have also learned how to overlook the comments that people make about my weightloss the negative comments I should say.

Peace and Love,
Monica

It is so amazing how people feel the have the right to walk up to me and say whatever the heck they want. I was in this ladies work area along with my sister last month.  She knows that I had surgery and my sister just recently had WLS surgery. She told my sister don't lose too much weight like your sister here and than preceded to tell me that she told several other people that I looked better before I had surgery. I said oh so you are saying that I am ugly now? Well, I just think you look better with more weight on your face. Wow! And than I have the "Oh, you are so skinny!" I am like man how would they feel if I said "Oh, you are so fat" "Uh, you are so ugly" But, that's apart of the adjustment.  I have taken sometime to learn polite yet to the point ways to let people know there negative comments are not appreciated.

Check this out my grandmother went out of her way Saturday to call me and tell me the only reason she called was to tell me I need to stop losing so much weight. Mind you this is the grandmother that will tell you any illness you have is because you are too fat or overweight. So you are damned if you do damned if you don't. She asked me Sunday to give her a ride to church and as soon as she sat in the car and repeated you know what you need to stop loosing weight.

Well that is my tirade for today.

But, I am loving my new body and a body without aches and pains. Praise the Lord!

I had LRNY November 18, 2008 and it has been an adventure. MY start weight was 272 the day of surgery and I am down to 226. God is so good! I just wanted to write a quickie.