wannabesupermommy
Keep on keeping on :D
Jan 04, 2016
Oh my. Its been almost 3 months since I last wrote! I had been hoping to check in every month with my monthly appointments at my surgeons office, but being a mommy and my baby's first holidays coming and going pulled me away from that. Atleast in my time away I have learned alot, accomplished alot, and found lots of questions to ask.
First off, this coming month will be my 4th with my surgeon. Time is FLYING. I have to consult my doctors office about my estimated surgery date. I have my "final" appointment set for April, but at this time, it will be my seventh monthly visit. Is this normal? I'm trying not to get my hopes up about going in a month earlier then I orginally planned but... I can't help it!
Ringing in this new year was the first time in a long time I actually could genuinely celebrate-not just with my friends and loved ones around me, but within myself. I couldn't help but think, this is actually it, this is ACTUALLY the year I will start living the way I always said I would. I would do the things from all my resolutions' past, and would be happy and healthy not just for myself, but my little one as well. These thoughts have propelled me forward in other ways too. I have been eating much less everyday, which is a good thing, since I have a terrible over eating issue. I somehow conjured the energy to get up early everyday, get off the couch and clean clean clean AS WELL as care for my little one, who is starting to crawl (so I'd better get used to running around chasing his butt everyday.) Things are good. Really, really good.
At my last visit with the doctor, he mentioned schedueling a pre-op endoscopy. Gulp. How about no? I've already been trying to cope with my crazy fears and anxiety of being put under for surgery.. But this is potentially worse. I am a complete wuss. For some reason I didn't know this was a requirement, and this is the only roadblock in my path. Because I seriously doubt my ability to go through with that. No no no no no. Mmm, no.
BUT, assuming I stop bitching and do what I ultimately just have to do... I have questions!
At my second visit, I met with one of the nutritionists at this practice, who gave me a nifty little packet with TONS of great info. I have been scouring over it since. In some ways it has really comforted me in my ability to do this, but also has made me concerned that I might be limited to very specific choices in meals. There are lots of sample menus in the packet for different stages in foods, and alot of it is stuff I like, but alot of it is stuff I just don't. For example, I HATE CANNED TUNA. Or cooked tuna. Anything that is not sushi-grade raw tuna is not going in my mouth. Or, cottage cheese. Nope. I HATE the texture. And its things like this that worry me I'm not going to have enough "good choice" recipes running through my head and make me reach out for the wrong stuff. I don't wanna sit there thinking "Shake, or shake... Or maybe a shake?" That's just not gonna get me anywhere. SO if anyone has suggestions for reading materials, cook books for WlS, etc. please share! I'm going to consult my nutritionist, and also continue to allow my fiance to push me into trying these things again post op, because he seems to think that it is a window of opportunity for me to now enjoy these foods, especially since eating ANYTHING other then liquid, at some point, will feel like a priviledge. Bleh. We shall see!
In the meantime, Happy New Years all, and keep on keeping on.
