wls2011
PS Complications
Jun 25, 2013
Let's see...of all the common post op potential complications, which will I have..
Incision openings...check.
Spitting sutures...check.
Black dead tissue spots...check.
Seroma..check.
Excessive swelling, ie "swell hell" especially in legs...check.
Back pain...check.
Unhappy with results that will need revisions...check.
Add in allergy to the paper tape and rash...check.
Also rare nerve thing in my right thigh, forget the name, but happens sometimes because of wanting that low incision.
Ugh. Maybe this is why I had anxiety before this surgery, when I haven't had anxiety with previous surgeries. Maybe somehow I knew...
Maybe this is why I had a sinking feeling about the breast implants and decided to skip them, as much as I would have liked to increase my size. I thank the Good Lord, I did that, because I just know I would have been the one to get capsular contracture or infection.
Yet, I just hoped I would sail through, like I did with the VSG. I just had this notion that surely, I was in better health, on no medications, no active disease, physically fit, low BMI, minimal skin, less procedures than the typical WLS patient, that I would be back to normal at 3 weeks. Hah! No way, not even close to the same recovery, and instead of progressing nicely each day, it is like 2 steps forward, step backward each day. It is frightening, not having control of what my body will do.
I thought I had researched this to death, researched all the angles, because that is what I do, I obsess, I read everything, hours and hours, and try to make a logical decision. Still as prepared as I was, I figured it would be 2 weeks of pain and then start to feel better. I knew there was the 6 months before things "looked right" and a year for scars, but didn't realize that it could take so long to feel right.
Could it be worse? Sure...I know there are worse possible complications, the god forbid, death, leg clot, etc....and I guess I shouldn't feel sorry for myself, but man, I find it hard to not feel depressed some days. It just doesn't seem worth it yet. It is so polar opposite of my positivity to the VSG and how it changed my life, and how each day I felt better and better and healthier. Now I undress in fear, afraid of what I might see, afraid of seroma getting bigger, afraid of a new opening. Also checking temp everyday, praying no infection.
