yvonneowens
I am a woman 5'10 going on 400 lbs. I have no insurance & I suffer from SEVER pain in my hips & legs. The pain is so bad I want to die. It is AWFUL!! I BADLY need a hip replacement but can't have one because of my weight. I NEED & WANT Gastric Bypass to help me lose nearly 200 pounds. When I did have insurance last (2010) I was told I need to lose the weight before any Dr will do a hip replacement. My husband & I have been married over 30 years. He is 10 years older than me & is disabled with his back. We have 2 grown kids with their own lives. I am an only child & when I say I have no friends I literly mean 0. There isn't 1 person on Earth who ever calls me or visits me. Not 1. I am so lonley & in so much physical pain as well as emotional pain. I said I want to die & I honestly do. No I will not take my life because first im Christian & then there is my family & what that would do to them & honestly that makes me soooo mad because it is sorda like I am being forced to live in this pain. Every week I write & email celebertys begging them to help me to pay the Dr. for me not to give me cash but to actually pay the Dr. I have been doing this for years. Not 1 reply. It seems no one cares. I mearly exist in this life. Things are getting worse also. The longer I wait the more weight I gain & the less ability I have to stand or walk. I know I am nothing but a burden on my husband & how ashamed he is of me. I can tell my kids are ashamed of me as well. I am really stressing anymore about what happens to me when I can no longer stand up or walk at all. How I will use the bathroom or bath etc. My husband isn't abled to turn me or clean me. I have no way to pay for being in a nursing home & don't qualify for any SSI/SSDI. We live on $1100 a month his SSDI. Once we pay our monthly bills we have $300-400 for food,gas etc. I just don't know what to do. I stress over all this so much & anytime I catch my husband gone & im all alone I breakdown & cry alot. I HAVE to keep all this emotion inside & built up & can't let him see me cry etc because it makes him angery he can't do anything about it & he isn't mad at me he is mad at the situation but it emotionaly feels like he is mad with me. All this & I also have to look after my 73 yr old father next door who has beginning dementia. He is also being taken advantage of by women from the "dope hole". Im talking drugs,hookers etc. There is nothing I can do because he is still in his right mind basicly & it is his money & he can do what he wants with it. He got life insurance when my mom passed & these people found out about it. I have so much stress in my life it isn't funny. I wish Dr. Marema in Saint Augustine Florida would do the surgery pro bono. He charges $17,000 for it. I will never see $17,000.