
I'm a 43 year old female who wants her life back. I'm so tired of living in pain and isolation because of my weight. I am so ready for this surgery.
I love so many things in life and I'm not able to enjoy them because of my weight, that's the bottom line and I now know it. That is why I chose to have the gastric by pass surgery on July6th and I can't wait.
I love to do things with my children and shop, take long walks just about anywhere. I love the beach and most of all I love life and soon one day I will be able to enjoy it again.

May 23, 2005
Went to the Dr.s today for a physical and an ekg so far so good. I lost a total of 8 lbs so far on my own. I'm so worried about gaining any weight because the nurse told me that if I gain any more than 5 lbs. they will cancell the surgery until I lose 50lbs. on my own and lets face it, if I could lose 50lbs. on my own I would'nt need the surgery. I also have to go and get a stress test done on my heart to make sure I can handle the sugery and my regular Dr. said it should'nt be a problem I pray to God I don't have any problems because I need this surgery so bad, it physically hurts to even stand up. I have a seriously bad back. I had magor surgery on it 2 years ago and it was the biggest mistake I made.I'm praying that when I take off 100lbs. or more it will help.

May 24, 2005
Today I did alot of research on the OH site. This place is great. I've learned even more today. Each and every story I read teaches me something different. The support here is great.I am finally done with most of the dr. appoitments now. The only 2 things I have left are the stress test on my heart and the pre-admission part at Yale. I can't wait to start my new life.

May 25, 2005
Yale called me today to verify all the dates I have to keep. My first one is June 20th for a stress test on my heart to make sure I can stand the surgery. Now of course I'm worried about that because what if I don't pass? What will I do? One of my problems is projection, big time. I always think the worst. Then I have my one on one with Dr. Bell on the 28th,of June, the same day my husband has his 2 week check up after the surgery. Of course I'm jeoleus that I'm not going first because I really want to do this but at least it's all coming into place. Then I have to go over to Yale Hospital to do my pre-admission testing. Then as long as all goes well off to surgery I go on July 6th.:)

May 26, 2005
Feeling pretty anxious today. Maybe because my husband goes for the stress test tommorow and then he has his first one on one with Dr. Bell on the 3rd. To be honest I wish it was me, I really want to get started. I can't stand this back pain and the way I stand anymore, it is so embarressing. I should be so excited for my husband but for some reason I'm not and I don't understand why? I might ask for help regarding the way I feel but to be honest I'm a little ashamed of it. Don'y get me wrong I'm happy and very grateful he's getting it done, God knows he needs it because if anything ever happened to him I would die, inside and out. John and I have been married 28years this Augest 4th. and we have been together since we were children around 12 or 13.years old. We have 4 wonderful children together a 25 yr. old daughter, a22yr. old son, a soon to be 16 yr. old son, who by the way is very over weight and he needs to do something about it too, and a 6 yr. old little girl soon to be 7. We are very blessed and that is one of are reasons besides many other that helped us make up our mind on the surgery.WE want our life back with the kids. As many of you know you can be so limited on the things you can do as a overweight parent. No rides, can't fit. can't walk around much without being in pain or my husband out of breath or me ashtma attack. embarressed of other kids making in fun of us and having the kids hear it and then they get upset and even sometimes some of them would end up sticking up for us and then a whole argument starts, just because of our weight. You all know children can bre very cruel but adults arew just plain meaqn and ignorant. Well enough about that just needed to get that off my chest. My son is going through some stuff at school because of his weight and he is such a good young man, student and a wonderful son. I hate to see him hurt. If I could I would take it all away. We are putting him on a diet this summer, he'll be working also and going to the gym with his father.So that should help him. plus with us having the surgery we can start to teach him better eating habits as we learn them too. I'll keep praying everynight.

May 27, 2005
My husband went and had his stress test done today and all the people who told me that it wasn't that bad were right, thank you. Anyhow it went well and he's all cleared for the surgery now. I can't wait till I'm all done as well. That is the only thing I have left to do is my stress test and then my one on one. Then off to surgery I go. Thank God.

May 28, 2005
Well I just got off the entire site of OH and checked my mail and so on. To be honest I'm a little hurt that "NO" one visited my surgery support site and wished me good luck or anything at all for that matter. I'm hoping to get all the support I need from this site and I'm going to need it as well. My brain has been rasing with thoughts about food all morning. It's getting harder and harder everyday for me to stop eating so much because I quit smoking a month ago and I'm going nuts and my poor husband is also. I wanted this surgery so much I quit cold turkey as soon as I was told they would'nt perform the surgery if I did due to complications which I think was a good idea just very hard. To be honest I did'nt think it would be this hard but like I said I truly want this surgery and I'll do whatever I have to do to get it. I'm going out shopping right now first a shower and out I go, I need to get out of the house for a while, maybe take in a movie and kill some time BBL.

May 29, 2005
Hi it's me again Just got done writing a lady from Branford Ct. to thank her for writing something on my surgery support page. I feel alot better knowing I have a little.She also has the same Dr. that I have and said he is one of the best. I read her profile and I found it to be very helpful as I do with reading pretty much anybody's but I really enjoy reading all the great stories these people tell me and actually getting a chance to talk to some of them. It's pretty cool.Still going nuts over not smoking and also watching what I eat so I don't gain any weight before the surgery at least not more than 5 lbs. I'm kind of scared about that too though.Took some new pictures of me and my husband and this woman I met on OH is going to help me install them so I can keep track on film what we look like now and after the surgery. I just have to get it delevloped now. That's the hard job, going out, Walking is'nt one of my favorite things to do since it brings me sooo much pain in my back and because of the way I hunch over, I get very embarressed. I can't wait til the day where I can stand up straight again and hold my head up high with alot of self asteem. I used to be able to do that and feel that way and I want that feeling back again. You know what bothers me alot is whaen a person takes there health for granted. They are healthy as an ox and don't work or do things with their family of children I see it all the time and it erritates me to no end. Well it's 11:00pm and past my bedtime.I remember when I would just be going out at this time, never mind bed. LOL.I can't wait to go out dancing again.Good night and God bless.ooxxooxx

May 30, 2005
Hello, today is a blah day for me, mt husband and I are both in alot of back pain. My knees are bothering me too. Just have to deal with, but not for long. I'm so tired of doctors telling me that this is something I'll have to live with for the rest of my life and that they cannot help me. That's ok because I'm helping myself. The both of us are. Wanted to go out today and go to the store for a few things we need and develope the pictures we took yesterday but I guess that will have to wait til I feel better. BBL going to the chat room for a while.

June 2, 2005
Hi today is an off day for me. My husband and are not getting along right now and it's due to my attitude, not all me but he's just a little aggravating also. I don't know what's going on with me it just might be my nerves, cause to be honest I'm absolutly miserable and don't know why. God knows I have alot going for me with a chance at a new life and all but I can't put my finger on it. I've been like this since yesterday. My husband goes to Dr. Bell for his one on one tomorrow and then off to Yale we go for his pre-admission, maybe I'm a little jeoules that he's going first and that I have to wait for 3 weeks after him I don't know what it is to be honest. He has so many health problems like diebetes, high blood pressure, c-pap machine at night, oxygen during the day, pain in his back, knees, legs, neck and severe arthrtis, never mind all the stomach problems he has and meds he has to take, So I understand why he's going first. As I only have severe back pain and knee problems and asthma( which he also has). I think they take people with severe medical problems first then people who's job is on the line due to there weight causing them problems on the job and their about to lose their job and then people like me without severe medical problems (at least not yet!). I guess that's only fair, right? BBL going on chat line for awhile..............................

June 3, 2005
Hi well today my husband went to see Dr. Bell for his one on one and he thinks he is great. He said he was very nice and extremely helpful. He answered all the quetions he asked with no hesitation at all to answer. My husband also answered alot for me too. So this is helpful for the both of us. He told me that he gained 10lbs. since our seminar with the Dr. because he stopped taking his water pills. Theyn are still doing the surgery on him though. That is one of my biggest fears today, is gaining weight, they told me that if I gained more than five pounds they would cancel the surgery until I lost 50lbs. on my own. Of course I'm scared because I've came such a long way and put alot of time and effort and income just getting ready for the surgery. We have spent quit a bit of money preparing for this. Gas alone going back and forth to all the appointments, Dr.'s office. Yale, vitamins, ensure drinks, phsyciatrists appts., nutrionist appts., ect;, ect;. Don't get me wrong I'm not complaining but I don't want to get turned down for weight gain when that is the main reason I'm getting this done. BBL

June 4th,2005
Well today is a bad day for me pain wise. I did way to much house cleaning yesterday and too much cooking. My son Anthony will be 16 years old on June 6th but we are celebrating it tomorrow with the family. We are having macaroni salad, potatoe
salad and I made a huge pasta salad that is to die for. I had a small bowl for my dinner this evening. We bought hima car a few weeks ago and we are giving him $200.00 also. His brother and sister will give him money too. He wants tp put it into the car. I'm a little nerv ouse that my son will be driving soon, not so much him all the idiot drivers out there. Went out this morning to do some shopping and picked up a few items for my husband. He goes in 11 more days. His one on one went great. He's all done with the anestesiologist too. He might have to have a breathing tube inserted while he is awake and is very nervouse about it. I don't blame him. I'm scared of that myself. I don't want to wake up with one in my throat. John gained 10 lbs. of pure water. I'll die if I gained any weight at all. I don't mind the 5 lbs. or so but that's it. BBL ok?

June 6, 2005
Well hellow again, today actually is turning out pretty good. I think I'm finally over the hump of not smoking.:):):) Thank God because it was getting to the point that I could'nt stand my own self. LOL I haven't have one single attitude problem all day.
I got some bad news from Dr. Bells office about my husband. They said that his blood work came back and that he is anemic. I don't know exactly what that is but we are goping to the Dr.s office tomorrow morning to find out what is going on. Please dear God what ever it is let it be fixable because he needs this surgery more than me. He is so sick with medical problems and pain. So I'll say a prayer for him tonight and I know everything will be ok/BBL

June 7, 2005
Hi well my husband went to the doc's office for some more blood work so they can check up on his enemic problem and then the Dr. called back and said it's just a iron defiency, wer'er hoping anyway. He'll go back to the doc's tommorrow for a one time visit to figure this out. He's having his surgery one week from tommorrow(June15,) :( I wish it was me oh well.
Anyway today was also a better day for me smoke wise. I truly do think I'm over it now, now it's just a mental thing. Which can be just as bad as a food addiction, which I also have. I guess I have an addictive personality period.BBL going to the oh site and see what's new.

June 8, 2005
Well today he went to the doc's office for his anemic problem and they think it's just low iron, THANK GOD he can still have his surgery on June 15th next wed.. Tommoroww he has to go back for a rectumm exam just to make sure that he is not bleeding, thr Dr. doesn't think so just better to be safe that sorry.
A little worries about a friend who had the surgery on the 31st of May and still haven't heard from her, really getting worried now. I emailed her again and I'm praying that everything is ok. BBLok

June 10, 2005
Good morning- John talked to his Dr. about his blood work and they said he's just low iron and will need to take iron pills probably forever and the surgey is still on for June 15th. He's starting to get nervous now driving me nuts, oh well he has a right, right?
I've been on the oh support site message board and their a great bunch of people. I'm so glad I have these people to talk to about what I'm going thru because they understand cause they are going thru the same thing. BBL have to go out and finally pick up film for the before pics I want to put in my profile and postings.Have a great day I know I will have to pick up Anthony for the weekend he'll be driving me around from now on since he has his permit now. :):)Getting tires and a oil change and charge up the AC in the van as we will be doing alot of traveling back and forth to and from Yale in New Haven BBL

June 12, 2005
Good morning,
Well I went out and bought a scale that goes up to 330lbs. and I weigh 329 1/2 lbs. I think I weighed in at Dr. Bells office on May 12th and I weighed 328lbs. so this means I only gained 1 and 1/2 lbs. not to bad for a person who quit smoking. I'll weigh myself every other day now to make sure I don't gain any more weight. I've been getting alot of support from family and friends and people who I met on this (OH) site. My husband John goes in 2 days and a wake up, again I wish it were me. I'm not to far away now, I have 26 days left now. That's not to bad. BBl making dinner for my kids and my husband, he can't have anything fried from now on. The doc said no fries foods before the surgery. BBL OK? *hugs*kisses************cheri

June 14, 2005
Well I had my stress teste and it was a horrible feeling. They gave me some nuclear stuff IV and then took pictures of my heart, then I went upstairs where I was given another shot of something that put my heart thru some kind of stress and it made me sick, gave me a headache and a stomach. Then they gave me a shot to take "SOME" of that feeling away. Check this out, on my way home I stopped at a store and there was a cop and he pulled me over as I was trying to leave because he said that his beeper he had on was going nuts. He asked me if I just left the hospital or something because the radiation was really strong coming from me, imagine that? That's because of the 7-11 episode.
Another thing my husbands surgery is off for tomorrow. The 2 Dr.'s called and said there is a problem with his stomach. He's definitly bleeding in his stomach and there also might be a tumor. Of course we are both very upset and we will find out today excatly what they are going to do. He'll have the gastric by-pass sooner or later, but for now we'll wait for the doctors. BBL>
June14, 2005
Well just another little update on John. So for now still NO scope on his stomach. I think it's ridicluous, I can't believe there making him wait all the way to June 29th, the day after my 1 on 1. But their the doc's right/ Right? Dr. Bells office gave him another surgery date already, the new date is July 11th.Five days after me:):) I'm going first and I'm thrilled, I'm happy because I want to be there for John and start him off in the right direction Be Back in a Little While
June 16, 2005,
Well it's been a few days since I've updated my profile. I've been busy with my husband John who is still not in the hospital with him bleeding internally. I think the Dr.'s are wacko. He talked to a uper GI Dr. this morning and they want to admit him in the hospital, get this, next week on the 23rd. I just can't believe that they are letting him go this long. If anything happens to him I'll get an attorney so fast they won't know what hit him. We picked up Anthony for the summer now but I have to take him all over this afternoon for a job. He also has to go to Montville Youth Center for a application and hopefully a job offer. That would be great. I'm watching everything he eats because I want him ti lose weight this summer and go back to school alot thinner and healthier. Working will keep him busy too. I weighed him and he is 306lbs. as of June 5th. I'm going to weigh myself right now. BRB Back it actually hurt me to walk in the bedroom pick up the scale and put it in the kitchen to weigh myself and out of breath. What a shame, anyhow 325lbs. don't ask me how but I lost 4 1/2 lbs. I actually feel pretty good about myself. Eating no candy bars and devil dogs and other cupcakes paid off.:):):)OK bbl

Hi hope I'm doing this right, I seem to be messing up my profile. If this does
nt work I'll e-mail Barb

June 19, 2005
Today is Fathers Day and I feel so bad for my husband, he wanted to have his surgery soo bad but because they found out his recent condition it was cancelled. We have to go out today and buy another new, heavier, built better, stronger bed frame. The, one we had broke last night on my husbands side. He felt so bad about that too. He weighs 422lbs. he was 510lbs, but we had to put him on a diet ot else. Thats what the Dr.'s said, but he's staring to put it back on. He thought he was getting the surgery, ya know. Sooner or later it will happen. I can't wait for mine just 16 days and a wake up:):):). I"m so happy it's finally coming. Yesterday when I was taking a shower I started to cry because I just couldn't stand the pain and believe me I'm so tired of standing the way I do, it's so embaressing, so much I don't like to go anywhere out of the house. It's starting to get that bad.BBL have to go finish dinner and vaccum again. Be back later tonight on the OH chat site. We are all meeting for a open chat. It should be fun. I've met some really nice woman on this site and very supportive.

June 23, 2005
Well everything is ok with my husband thank God. We went to Backus hospital this morning so he could get his stomach scoped and they didn't find anything at all. In other words they could have done his surgery last week on the 15th. Oh well at least we know that theres nothing wrong and he's all set to go now. I actually feel pretty today no problems at all. Just my usual back pain but I'm dealing with it. I go to the docs today so we can discuss my back I go to Dr. Paenennso in Norwich at 1:45 pm. So I'll be back later have to go and shower. I feel so happy. Even the smoking thing isn't bothering me at all, I think I'm over it. Well just got back from the back doctor and he said that I might have another herniated disc in my back. To be honest I would'nt go anywhere near him and let him do surgery again I'd have to be nuts for real. He left me the way I am now, totallbent over and in alot of pain all the time. Oh well I'll deal with it because once I lose the weight I will be able to stand up and I won'y be in so much pain either. So it's not happening. See you tomorrow and goodnite.. HUGS AND KISSES

June 25, 2005
Well good morning and it is just that. John and Anthony went out today and got Gary a riding lawn mower. He's disabled and can't push one, I thought that was nice of them.
I joined a new site on the internet yesterday, it's called ez board. My frind from OH told me about it and it's real cool. We can all chat too, something we can't do on OH.
John bought me some popcycles called PhillySwirl, they are sugar free and are sooooooooooooooooo good. I could eat them after surgery too. Ther only 10 calories. BBL Eating one right now LOL

June 27, 2005
Hi today is the day before my 1 on 1 with Dr. Bell and then I go to Yale for the pre-admission testing. The only thing I'm worried about is my weigh in. I pray to God that I didn't gain any weight. If so then I hope he understands that I just quit smoking awhile ago and that he takes that into consideration. I have'nt had any chocolate or cupcakes or anything good at all since I was in his office May 12th. Believe me it was hard to at first. I'll be back tomorow and let you know how I did but at least I'm all done. I have 8 days and a wake up now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I had my 1 on 1 with Dr. Bell who is extremely nice. Linda, his nurse is also very nice and very busy. I see she is very important to the doc. Anyway I did'nt gain any weight at all. That made my day. The Dr. was happy to. So it's a go next wed. I'll have my surgery on the 6th. I have to call Yale the day before to check my time thats all. Everything went well. I knew the girl who drew my blood and gave me my EKG, she was cool. The people there were also very nice. The anestiologist was very nice also. I liked the entire crowd!!!!!!!!. I know I'm in good hands.John is all set gfor the 18th of July. I'm going to Rite Aid to fill my liquid percoset today so I'll have it in time for when I come home I don't have to wait or run around trying to get what I need. I also need 500 mgs. Tums for calcium, pepcid for my stomach and I think diet instant carnation breakfast. Oh and I have to go to Catherines for a sort of like a bathrobe but not one because it would be a waste of money since I'll be loosing weight so soon, I want a short terry cloth like bathrobe,. This way I'll wear it outside when I'm all done with the surgery. I'm so happy I swear to God and pray to him that everything will be fine and that I know I'm doing the right thing. BBL Have to go check in with some very nice people I've met here. Oh by the way I ran onto a few people there I met May 12th at the seminar and they had there surgery 2weeks ago. One of them lost 38lbs, in 2 weeks. I sure hope I do that well. BBL

July 2, 2005
Well it's finally July and believe me it took along time to get here. At least that's how I felt. I feel pretty good today, Went shopping the other day at Catherines hopefully for the last time. I bought a new shirt to go with my new white pants, a new short set and a silk bathrobe for the hospital. A bra too. I nreallt just needed the bathrobe to cover up my nightgowns while I'm in the hospital. I certainly can't walk around the hospital with just my nightgowns on,. I would'nt want to excite anybody with my sexy body>LOLOLOL Yeahn right!!!!!!!!!! Oh well next yearb I'll definitly be sexier than I am this year. My husband John is doing well too these days. he's still on for the 18th. I met a friend of my daughters on my profile, and the OH site. She's only 25 and has alot of health problems and having the Lap Band one done. Tasha, my friend Debbie's daughter. Her mother and I used to be very good friends at one time, don't know what happened/. Anyhow the support is great on the OH site and my new one, EZBoard. I really enjoy them both.bbl Going to the fireworks again. Might as well enjoy myself while I can before the surgery, cause God knows, whatch out afterwards.

July 3, 2005
Good morning and it really is so far. Right now I'm on my husbands new computor in the kitchen while everyone is still sleeping. It's 6:00am and nice and quite, The only one bothering me right now is my cat Smokey. Who , honest to God thinks he;s a dog. I love him to death, we all do. He;s very spoiled. My husband made him that way. Well today is Sunday and I have only 2 days and a wake up now and still doing ok, in other words I" not freaking out.BBL Checking out the message board right now.

July 10, 2005
Well I'm home anmd I feel pretty darn good. Hardly any pain at all, at least not yet anyway. The 1st 2 days of my surgery were very painful, not crying painful but painful. As the days gone by the pain let up more and more. So far I have NO regrets at all and believe it or not I can actually feel the weight coiming off. Even if it's only 5 or 6 lbs. I can still feel it. My sister Margaret, Debbie and Anna were the only ones who called me while I was in the hospital. See you find out who your real friends are, thats why I don't have any friends. John says these people called , Jim, Joe and Gary . Lora on the other can kiss my ass, Sue'q called too,.I'm very happy that I did do thid surgery and I'm glad it's over. BBLGoing over to the EZ board now and see what's going on there HUGS, KISSES, CHERI

July 13, 2005
Hopefully today will be a better day tan it was yesterday. I cleaned my butt of in this house and I want to get some sun in my little POOL.LOLOLOL Hey it will do the trick to cool me off right? All my laundry is done do. Even the stuff on the walls. I'm not so miserable anymore either. I hope we get some money today we are starting to go broke again. I don't want to go into the bank at all if we can help it, ya know what I'm saying.
Anyway check this out this guy Timothly I know had surgery the same day as I did and he lost 32lbs, yes 32lbs already/ I can't believe it. I hope I lose anything close to that.Well going to go check out the EZ board brb HUGS< KISSES, Cheri

July 18, 2005
well today is Johns day for his surgery. We are both a little nervous , he more than I. I know God wouln't lrt anything happen to him God knows if anything ever happened to him I dobn't know what I do, He's all packed and ready to go. We have to pick up JJ too since he doesn't have a ride. I was very dissapointed when he did'ng come and see my. But I'm sure he has his reasons, Oh well bbl. Gotta go shower

Today is the 20th of July
John has had his surgery done on the 18th and he had a really rough nite with pain. It took them awhile before they could get it under control, I think they are usind Dilaudid and Pentanal. I could be wrong though. I talked to him yesterday and he seemed a little still out of it.Actually so did I, even at the Dr.office. Between the meds they gave me at the hospital and what I took at home I just wasn
t myself. I almost caused a few accidents on the highway. Thank God no one was hurt and no damage to the van. I called Anthony crying because I didn't know what to do so I picked him up and went straight home. I was just to tired to drive anymore. If I did I would have killed myself or someone else,.I have to lay off the benzos for good now, no more. II'm going to end up hurting myself or someone else. So NO MORE as of today. I promise myself and John, Smoking too, I have ti at least try,
This chair is killing my back and I really need a desk for this kitchen, a small one. Maybe I'll go out today after the doc visit and see what I cn do. I have to make a few calls today. Now it's my turn BBL going to check out the EZ board. Love and kisses, Cheri

I would have gotton alot of head of myself. Well good news for once I weighed in this m orning and I'm 290lbs. When I started I was 328. sooooooooooo excited i could scream. Honest to god I did
nt thing this would work this fast but it did and I'm in my glory. I don't know how much John lost because the scale only goes up to 330lbs. Pretty soon he'll be able to weigh himself. Who knows he has a long way to go, he weighs more than 400lbs. How he let himself go like that I;ll nevder know. I think it had to do with us breaking up for awhile. John could'nt
handle it. He did'nt know what dto do without me. I've always paid the bills and cleaned the house, did the laundry, took care of the kids and anything else thatg had tgo do with the house or kids. It got lonely. he could'nt handle it. Things will change now, He never hitg me or the kids or drank it was me now himand i never get along bedtter. Of course we have are differnces like any other person but we get through it.BBL Love ya kisses ab=nd hugs, CHERI.com/morbidobesity/mempix/bratz_cheri/dwbar.jpg">
July 25, 2005
Well hi everyone everything is going ok right now, Im just finished of a smalll baked potatoes with that new spray on butter and it is delicious,You get them in the regular grocery srore and there 2 for like 89cent. Can;t beat that, right? I'm getting really tired fior some reason toodaty and keep my eyes open' i don;t know why i;m so tired but i'll find out.Going to go check out ez board bbk loves, kisses and hugs, chedri
July 27, 2005
I've been trying to stick to a diet that I'm able to hold down ans it;s getting more and more difficult. Last night was the first time that I held down a turkey and cheese sandwhich on rye , a little over a half of piece, well almost a half. It took me forever to chew it because I know you must chew your food very, very well or it's coming right back up.I would really like to get up my pool today but it has been so hot to even think of putting up. Come hell or high water it's going up TODAY. Cliff the landlord has been being a real asshole latlety regarding ht e new lawnmower. He wanted Anthony to push the the push mower to use on the grass and the surroundind area. It's alot of grass. So I Aasked him If I could use it and he said yes but Anthony will have to use the push one whetre I'm not able to get ast. Which won't be much. Also we will use the gas operated weed wacker to get at areas where the mower can't get at.I'm also going to ask him if he wants to let me have the sand he has on the truck too so the bottom of the pool will be nice and soft. If not we'll figure something out,Wernt to PO yesterday and that went fine too. Went to the docs and they caled me freaklin out and telling me that I have a major problem regarding my fet. They said i had alot of blood clots and I'm on meds for it,hopefully that will keep it under control.I too am startimg to get very scared and do
t know what to do exceprt what the Dr.s tell me.It's 3:30am and I'm getting tired so I'll be back later. Love, kisses and hugs Cheri

July 28, 2005
well back to the doc to find out whats up with my feet and anles. Especially since the pain and swelling is getting worse,I really wish John and my landlord Cliff would start to get alon. O truly do like ir here abd don;t want to have to move. It's to dammexpensive anyway/ My sister Margaret called me again today for the 20th tiome and I still havven
t valled her back. She probably thinks owing her off and I would never do that especially since we started talking again after7 or 8 years. I really have to remind myself to call her tonight, No
if and or buts about it. God knows I don;t want her getting mad at me again. There are only 2 of us left after9 and it's realy sad how they are all just leaving us!!!. Got my new eye coctacts this week, Have to try them on, maybe later I don''t ewant to mess up mt makeup.They are the color Amethist. I hope theyb look pretty on me. , trying so much different stuff to look good fdor when I loose a;; the wei=ght. talk to you tonight. Love me kisses

Well today is August &, 2005
I'm 295.5 lbs on my scale and I can actually feel it and it feels so good to finally be under 300lbs actually 328lbs. I know it's been awhile since I've updated but in realitgy I've been busy, like as soon as I get off this compuer I have to sit and pay all my biils, which you know I love to do, well at least I have the money to do so. John is down 30lbs as of his 2 week check up and thats been 1 week ago and I actually can see the weight coming off him too. He's not eating the way he's supposed to, he's jumping the schedule Linda made for us. I'm on stage 3 and for the first time I had a protien drink and was gross. I have to find something thats not going to take me all day to drink and at least like it a little and don't gag when I do drink it. I'm glad I made the decision to have this surgery and John is not. I think he's still recouping from it. It takes some people a bit longer than others ya know. At least we are losing and we feel itg and look it too. At leasdt I know I do. I thank God for this and for watching over me and John. Be back soon loved me

August 16, 2005
Hi today is Tuesday and I brought John to Backus Hospital so he could weigh himself, my house scale only goes up to 330 lbs and John started weight was 442 lbs. and now he is 375 Lbs and we both can see it. He was so happy today and I'm very proud of him. He stuill eats things he's not supposed to but he always learns the hard way. As for me well I'm doing really well except for the exercise part. I still have alot of back pain but I'm trying. My energy level is definitly coming back. I'm feeling good when I wake up and can get ready to go out quick. I too can see my weight lose and I feel terrific and getting in all my protien and vitamins and believe me I learned the hard way too on the things I tried to eat and can no longer do it, but hey that's ok. Like I tell my Hubby what we have is a tool and it will teach us how to eat right for the rest of our life. At least I know it's teach me. I just want to be able to walk more without being in so much pain still..
Went to the mall today with my son and my back started to huet so we had to call the day. Of course I felt guilty because I've been like this for about 6 months now with extreme back pain and learning how to deal with it. Like I said this is one of the main reasons I had this surgery to help with the pain.
I now weigh 286 lbs and I'm very proud of myself. I am really working this.
Now that I have lost this weight I decided to try on new clothes , well the old ones in my closet that have'nt fit me for years, you know the ones that you won't get rid of because someday you'll get back into LOLOOL , anyway I did. I wore a really nice button down shirt and it fit and looked good. My pants were kinda big but maybe tomorow I'll pull everything out and try it on and see what fits so far. That should make my day. I'm going to go for these jeans I have not been able to get in for about a year or so and another pair for about 6 months and see how many inches I lost. I lostn more inches than weight so far. That's alright with me as long as it shows. BBL Love me

Good morning.Today is the 21,August 2005 and I'm starting to weigh myself only on Sundays from now on. This morning I weighed myself and I'm 278.5 and OMG I was so happy when I saw that. I lost a total of 8 lbs. this week. I am so proud of myself. It's not the surgery because I see alot of people eating pizza and cake and other things that put the weight on, it's a lot of disaplin too. I don't eat one thing that is fattning at all. I'm trying to learn how to eat right for the rest of my life. After going through all of this I don't want to gain it all back and then some in a couple of years. I read about so many people gaining all their weight back and that is not going to happen to me. I worked really hard to lose this 50 lbs, finally and believe me it's hard work. I can't even exercise like most of the people because of my back but I'm hoping with losing the weight more and more I'll be able to walk a long distance again. John went to the hospital last week for his weigh in and he's down to 400 lbs from 525. Since the surgery down 67 lbs. Both of us are doing great. Be back later. Love me.
Oh I also tried on some of my old cloths in the back of the closet and they fit. I could'nt believe it. One pair of shorts were actually big. I should have tried them on last week. Oh well. John too.

August 26, 2005
Well today is Friday and I went to the docs office for another blood test. It's low as usual but when they weighed me in it changed everything. I weigh 275 and it feels so good. I am walking better now and definitly more active and more energy. My husband john walked through the stores with me for the forst time in years. He has used the electric cart for so long. It was agreat moment for him and me too. I was so happy for him. I can't imagine how he must have felt. I still have back pain but it's starting to let up. I went for a cortazone shot in my knee today so that should help with the knee pain I get and it has worked already. I have'nt have any pain all day. My son went home today for school so it'll be alot easier for us when we are eating. He still can eat anything and I had to prepare his food for him and sometimes it was kind of hard and very tempting. Now it's just me and John. I'll be saving alot of $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$. believe me. Plus no more cooking like I was. That's a big relief for both of us. Weel goodnight be back over the weekend after I weigh myself. Love me.

September 3, 2005
Today is Sat. and it's labor day weekend. I'm sitting here watching the after effects of huuricane Katrina and it's a dam shame. I can't believe this country is taking as along as it is to get food and water there. Also the people that are looding anything but food should be ashamed of them selfes. There are so many deaths and families that don't know weather their familiy are dead or alive. Are goverment finally went there today after 5 days of no water or food. When Sunami hit we were there the next day. What the hell is going on with this country???
I signed up for school last week and I start on this Thursday. :) I'm so happy with me losing this weight bevcause I'm starting to live my life again. I went shopping yesterday to buy some clothes for school and was able to buy them at WalMart and Dots. I went down to a size 22 from a size 28 to 30 in pants and a size 3x in shirts and I was a size 4 and 5 x. I wish it was more but oh well. At least I'm not gaining. I weigh myself tomorow morning but I think I'll do it now. WOW I'm finally at 270 lbs. I can't wait to see me in the 60's. BBL Love me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

September 11, 2005
Hi I know it's been awhile since I've been on but I need to update this. I'm doing great. Hardly any back pain at all. I'm finally starting to walk long distances without holding on to anything at all. It feels wonderful. :) As far as John goes he's also doing great. No more diebeties, cpap machine, no high blood pressure and walks without oxygen now. He even walks threw the stores with me without using a cart. He's lost over 80 lbs. so far I'm very proud of him. I'm also very proud of myself. I now weigh 268 lbs. from 328 lbs. I'm feeling so good. Each and every day I get better and better.
I started school last week to get me GED. Class was gfood. Only one problem, when I went to sign up I sat at a round table with chairs all around it. But when I had to take a few test they sent us over to another room. A room where the chaoirs are attached to the desk. :):):) One of my biggest and embarressing fears, the fear of not fitting. But since I've lost the weight, I FIT :):):):)
I was so happy honest to God. My teacher is so cute too. I already made friends with my class mates. They seem pretty cool. I've always been able to make friends I guess it's just my personality. People like me right away also. I can't wait to wear some of my new clothes. I'm starting to look so good and people can definily see the difference and it makes me feel good too.
I feel like the doc made my pouch too big though. I have to watch how much I eat at each sitting. On the other hand my poor hubby can hardly eat anything, he made his way to small. We both have appts. on Sept. 20th and I can't wait cause we have alot of questions to ask him. My son Anthony is getting so big I would love for him to have the Lap Band surgery. I don't want him ti go through what we did. He's 6 ft. tall and weighs over 315 lbs, probably even more. He won't get on the scale for me anymore. He's a wonderful, bright, very smart, funny, kind, great sense of humor. honest,caring and a good looking young man. I don't want him to miss out on things like I did and believe me I missed out on alot. No proms no school dances. No boyfriends in HighSchool. Then of course I turned to grass and drinking then good ole food. All of those things are my enamies for ever. Well close for now just wanted tp update a little. BBL LOve me and I do love me today

Today is September 28, 2005
I know it's been awhile since I've beeb on here writing about my WLS and like lately so I'm going to try to keep it up.
Well first of all John has lost over 100 lbs. and looks and feels great. Me too, I now weight 258 lbs. I joined Curves a gym for woman only and I'm going to school for my diploma. I need 22 credits more before I can get into Darc school. This is a school for Alcohol and Drug Counseling. I've been wanting to do this for years and I'm making it happen. I go to the gym 3x a week now and I'm able to work out on all the mac hines without no problems, so far anyway. With the help of God I know i can do this. My goal weight is 180 lbs. That's what I want to make my goal. When I make that one then I'll ma,ke another one. I want to be realistic about this too.
I put on jeans today that I haven't worn in years and they are too baggy.I should have put then on last and at least got a week out of them, ya know what I'm saying?
I really think I strechted my pouch because I'm able to eat way more food than what John can eat. I'm watching what I eat and how much now. I know I'll have to cut some of my foods out.
Trying to buy a house in Lebenon, there are 2 of them right by the lake. Me and the kids all want to be a family again and I've been waiting for this for a long time now. I've been clean for so long they are trusting the both of us to get a house that we will all own together. The kids know that they can depend on me and John again.. Those days are all over with..
Gonna go lay down, my tummy is a little u;pset so I need to lay down, plus I got up at 5:00am this morning. I'll be back later because there's still much more I have to tell you. Love Cheri

October 3, 2005
Well today is my 45th birthday and I'm feeling really good. Going to go to Curves this morning to get my daily workout. I'm also thinking of getting my hair color changed at the hair dressers. I'm tired of coloring my ownn hair and my husband said go and get it done professionally. Hey he's paying for it so I might do it. I've been looking at certain profiles and pictures of people and they are starting to look so good from this surgery. I'm just starting to show the difference in my clothes and so on. I can also get on a few of my outfits I bought almost 3 weeks ago because they were on sale and I knew sooner or later I would get into them. Well i did and I look good in them LOL. I'm also going to the OBGYN doctor today for my anual checkup and a mamogram for the first time since Gabriells was born in 1998. I'll post later and let you know how everything went. I know my blood work has been very low almost enemic and my iron is also low. The Dr. will let me know what''s going on.
Sarah, my goddaughter and Jamie came for my birthday yesterday along with Anna. It was a really nice day. Anna bought me a beautiful black, huge pocketbook and my favorite personal body spray, Hawwian Ginger. Also a candle plus Sarah and Jamie bought me a candle as well with some socks, well needed. Anthony bought me what Anna bought me. A friend of mine bought me a beautiful bracelet sterling silver that reads #1 MOM and some work out socks as well. It was really nice of her, especially since we are not really good friends. . By my choice because of she still uses and I've been clean for so long now I can't risk my sobiety. Not for nobody.
The house in Lebenon fell throght since it was only year round. Oh well we'll keep on looking. Be back later. Love ya, Cheri ME!!!!!!!!!!

Today is October 11, 2005
I figured it's time I up date a little. I'm finally 252lbs. and I feel woderful. John is doing so good too. We are both very proud of ourselfes. I am no longer super obese or mobidly obese either, just plain ole obese and I'm so happy. Went to see mu Phyciatrist today and she thinks I'm doing wonderful so I'm only a med patient. That means no 1 on 1 just call in my meds. Unless there is a problem she'll be right there.
Finally learned how to put a picture on my profile, my son Anthony taught me how.I'm not a picture person so I really don't like taking them. Self asteem is still a little low!!!!!Not to much to talk about right now so I'll let a little time go bye and I'll be back on. Oh before I forget I'm still waiting to hear from thr doc that took the mamagram and I'm waiting for those results and my anual at the OBGYN office' LOVe me again

October 14, 2005
Today is Friday and I now weigh in at 254 lbs. Not too bad but wish it was more. I get so worried that I won't lose antmore weight but that's crazy cause of what I eat. I really don't eat to much, trying to stay in the 800 calorie mark. I am getting lazy again and i really need to push myself especially when it comes to going to Curves. I should be going 5x a week instead of 2 or 3x a week. I also didn't go to school last night to find out my grades on all my subjects. I feel so weak lately and don't know what's going on with me.
John is doing great. He's lost well over 100 lbs. in less than 3 months. They all say men lose faster than women, but I don't understand the reason why!!!
I need to get back on track with this dieting stuff. I need to start to drink more water and definitly more protien. NO more snacking either. I'm going to promise my self that I won't do it anymore from now on. I want to be under the 249lb. mark by the end of next week. I really don't mind losing slow as long as I lose. BBL I'm going to save this cause lately people have been losing thiers. I put too much time into this to lose it. Also the people on this site have been wonderful and they really are concerned about one another. It's like we are one big family.
December 8, 2005
Well it's been awhile since I've been here. I haven'ent been feeling to good latlely and I know it's from the surgery. My hair is falling out like crazy and I'm starting to get affected by it. BBL I think there is a animal in my son's closet and I'm scared to be here alone and I am and it's time to get out. I now weigh only 214lbs or less and John weighs only 307lbs. Love me!!!!!!!!!!!!
December 16, 2005
Well back on the computer and it feels so good to be back . I really missed being here. Right now I'm down loading some songs I really like but don't like the whole album. My son Anthony showed me how. God knows I'll live back here noe again. It really does feel good to be back.I weighed in yesterday and weighed 210 lbs. still am not yet under the 200 lb. mark yet. John is 298lbs. He's catching right up to me now weight wise. He looks so good too. I do too. I'm actually too skinnny in some of my clothes. Like I have no ass to begin with and definitly don't have one now. LOL. Gravity has not been to good to meLOL> It has been good to John though. BBlater ok Have to go and try to eat. Love me..
January 3, 2006
Well it's the New Year and I now weigh 206 lbs. I'm considered obese now instead of morbidly obese. I'mlooking forward to just being overweight. John weighs 290 lb. now. He's looking so good. But we both have a problem, we both have NO sex drive and we don't know why. I'm thinking it's the medication we are on, We are both on all kinds of different meds so that might be are problem . Alls I can say is thank God it's mutual. That's the kind of thing thatv can either make or brake a marriage. We have been married for so long now (28years) so the sex thing isn't that important. It'll help but though. I personally think it bothers me more than him. I was even wondering if he even found me attractive anymore but who knows. I ask him and he tells me yes but he doesn't show it sexually.
I'm going back to Curves this week and have to get some new jeans again, and also starting a new job. It's only a few days a week but I think I need a little time to myself amnd then I can bank my pay and use it for a 2 week summer vaction with the kids. Whom are wonderful by the way. Anna and Anthony and I went to Ruby T's and a Movie yestewrday and we had a great time. John wasn't feeling to well. He still has alot of vomiting and diarea. I feel so bad for him sometimes. He also has a rough time holding down his food. I'm seeing the doc on the 10th of this month for are 6 month check up and we are both going to talk to him regarding john's problems. I know he's not getting all his protien in and vitamins because he's always vomiting so that can't be too healthy.
I seem to be doing pretty good. Probably too good. I can eat pretty much anything now. I still don't eat sugar or soda or anything like that just healthy food but I know I stretched my pouch. So i'm starting to count calories again and watch my portion sizes. Well have to shower it's my first day of my new job and it's really bad outside so I'll be driving really slow so I'm going to need a head start.
Today is April 5, 2006
Today I now weigh 175 lbs. Finally I am looking good. Jihn weighs 265 lbs. and he looks so good too. My sex life is finally back to normal. Actually it's getting better each time. For awhile things have been pretty bad between John and myself because of pain pills. Ever since he lost all that weight he thinks he's a kid again and that he can do whatever he wants but it's not like that and I won't tollerate it. He's now away for while and when he comes back things will be so much better between the both of us. I'm finally back on track and if I mess up one more time my PO will violate me with no problem what so ever. Back to jail for 5 months, that's what time I have left on a 6 year probation period. It's almost over with and I can't wait. I'm so tired of being told what to do and that I can't leave the state unless I get permission. I'm 45 years old and it's time I get my life in order.the way I want it. I want to buy a double wide mobile home soon. I have a law suit pending and it's almost over with and i'll be getting the money really soon and I want to do the right thing with it. This money will help us get our own home for the first time. I love my husband with all my heart and soul and I won't give up on him. Not yet anyway. The kids are great and they are all working. Anthony will be up here soon for the summer anfd he will also get a summer job. JJ is doing awsome with his new girlfriend Lynette, Anna is working at a cable company and is doing great too. Gabrielle is doing fantastic also. I'll be writing her this month when I send her a savings bond from the bank for Easter. Hopefully Michele will send me some new pictures of her. I hear that her brother Arty is on the methodone program for his addiction to herion and oxycontin. I pray that he does good. I also pray that his siter stops smoking crack and gets her life back on track.
I now go to anger managment on Mondays and go to mental health for a one on one with a phycologist. I've seen her before and she'sa really good.
Be back soon..
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Member Interests:
Family & Friends - Family and friends are so important to me, I love my husband and children very m
Home - I love to do anything that will inprove my home or my yard.
Humor - Without a sense of humor you are going to have a boring life.
Cats - I think my 5 month old cat, Smokey thinks he's a dog:) I absolutly love my cat.
Writing - I love to write in my journel and keeps my head on straight and lets me get rid
Music - I love to dance
Outdoor - Just about anything I can do outside I love, especially the beach and parks.
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Surgeon Info:
Surgeon: Robert Bell, M.D.
My first impression of Dr. Bell was he was very nice and informative. He seemed like he enjoyed his job of making people that are over weight get there life and health back, very sincere.
His staff so far are great, extremely nice and concerned. His nusre was also very informative and talked to us regarding the complications if we do now follow the Dr.'s orders, just the way he tells us. There is nothing I don't like about the Dr. or his staff. At least not not up until this far and I don't forsee any.His bedside manner is great. He seems so nice and caring. He explained all the risks involed in the procedure to me as well. He talks about how important exercise is after the surgery and just to follow all orders and do one exercise for the rest of your life and stay with it rain or shine and the weight will come off faster and you learn how to eat right and keep it off. He also stated that I go to a support group that it was important also for before and after the surgery. In overall, I like the Dr. and his staff very much. This is my sole opinion of him and like I said so far there are no problems with him or his staff. Everyone has been very helpful and extremely nice.
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