ObesityHelp

I have thought and prayed over this for a long time and I
realize this is the only way I can help myself. I would appreciate any feedback and support.This website has been a
real inspiration to me. Maybe one day I can help someone else. I have lots of questions.. God bless, Pam


Jan.25,2006
I got a call from my PCP late yesterday afternoon,I am to meet with a surgeon on Feb.! for a pre-qualifying meeting. I go to a mandatory seminar an Feb.6. and then I guess I wait to see if I
qualify and my ins. will cover it. I sure hope so. I get so excited when I think about the end results. Oh I can't wait.
I know in my heart I am doing the right thing, but I am so scared(afraid, worried?) Sometimes I think I might not be worthy of all
this. Does that make any sense? I have given this so much thought and this website has really helped me put things in
perspective. I know I'm doing the right thing. I want to be healthy
and LIVE again. Boy, how's that for an intro,huh?
Let me tell you a little about myself. I am49 years old. My b/d is
in June and I 'll be 50. I have a 27 yo son, a 24yo son,and a 22 yo
daughter. They are my world. My 24 yo son is married and have
blessed me with 3 beautiful children. A 6yo and 4yo daughter and
a 2yo son. They are all mama's babies.(I'm mama)
I have a wonderful husband. His name is Bo.We will be married
for 30 years this Sept. I am so thankful for him. God has surely blessed me.
I know this is a lot of stuff, but it feels good to put it all down.
I don't have any real friends here. I do go to church,but the one
friend I had made there was brutally murdered a few years ago and
I just never got close to anyone else. I miss her so much.She never judged me or my weight.
Also, it seems the more my weight went up the more distanced I am from people. Not sure if that's a reult of my being embarrased
about my weight or them not knowing what to say.Anyway...
I am trying to get the hang of all this so I can get better at
journaling my path,and having all this to look back on some
day and say"Look how far I've come!"
I hope I get lots of posts and e-mails. My family says "it's your decision" about the surgery but I really need support and encouragement. I am unable to work and am at home by myself a lot,too.
OK, enough pity party. I am going to finish on a happy note.
I know that because of a lot of prayers I am here today.
I also know that i am going to be praying a lot more now so that
I can have the body that God wants me to have, and I"ll appreciate
it more because of the second chance I"m getting.Maybe this is God's way of getting me to spend more quality time with Him???
God bless, Pam