STARTED RESEARCHING IN 2000
MY JOURNEY ACTUALLY BEGINS 2001

I am a 31 year old female with a wonderful husband and 2 children.
I have been overweight for years now. I am in the stages of going
to my first consultation appointment & from there should know the
date of surgery. I was approved by my insurance company (Blue Shield
of California) within a week of my Program Manager, Patty Maycroft,
at Liv-Lite sending it in.

I am so glad that I will finally be able to do something about my
weight. As you all know, it gets more difficult with time to lose
weight on those "yo-yo" diets. The were definately yo-yo's for me
because all I did was lose and gain, lose and gain.

I am diabetic, have extreme lower back pain, shortness of breath from
being overweight.

I just want to be able to go outside and play with my kids and show
them mom can have fun too. They ask me to go on bike rides, etc., but
I never go because I wear out within minutes of leaving the house.

I appreciate everyone sharing there stories. I have learned so much
from all of you.

I go for my first pre-op appointment on 9/13. I wish it was today.
I am so very excited that they insurance company approved me for
this surgery.

9/12/01

Tomorrow is my day to visit for my first consultation appointment.
I am so very excited. Seems like it has been forever. Hopefully, I
will get my surgery dated scheduled tomorrow. I'm gonna try to get
them to give me my date.

After tomorrow, all I have left is to do my pre-op test and the surgery
itself. I will be glad when it gets here.

9/14/01

Went to my consultation appointment today. The whole staff at Liv-Lite
in Junction City, KS are wonderful. That made you feel welcome and a
part of. Dr. Bollman is wonderful himself. That puts me at great
easy about this surgery. I know I am in very capable hands.

**Drum Roll** Got my appointments scheduled today for both the pre-op testing
and the actual RNY Bypass Surgery. My pre-ops are scheduled for
Nov. 6th & my surgery for Dec. 12th. I can't wait to have this all
over with & be on the other side. I am looking forward to losing this
weight and being happy and healthy once again.

9/25/01

Just got my computer back. Had a virus and had to get everything reloaded onto the hard drive. I am finding it is very difficult to get through the months following. I have to wait until Dec. 12th for my surgery. That seems like an eternity. I am so siked and ready to get on with a healthier, more productive life. I talk to my husband about the surgery and he so wonderful. Says I will make my goal and then some. He has been so supportive. All the times I've tried dieting, he always tells me "you can do it honey" or whatever else that might make me feel better. He will be with me thru my pre-ops and also the surgery. He said he would be no where else except with me. I thank God for sending me such a wonderful husband. I missed reading all the good things this forum offers when my computer was done. Glad to be back. If anyone has ideas of how to get thru the waiting part, please let me know? Thanks to all of you...and good luck to the ones making it to the "other side".

9/27/01

Hello all. Been catching up on reading the entries you all have made.

I just wanted to let everyone know how I found out about gastric bypass. It all started about a year ago when I seen Carnie Wilson on "Oprah". She looked so good. I proceeded into reading her clips and listening to what she underwent with interviewing her doctor, etc. (all of this I found on the computer). From there I continued on searching through different websites, gaining as much knowledge about this surgery as I could. I ran across a website called "Liv-Lite" and I emailed them for information. Liv-Lite is the closest facility to me. Erin Diep, a client representative from Liv-Lite, contacted me and I sent her some information. In between this research time, I tried another diet (called LA Weight Loss). Well another fad (yo-yo) whatever you want to call it, I spent about $500 or so just to get started (heck, that's 1/2 of what I need for this surgery) only to come to a dead end when I found out I had an ulcer. I was doing ok until I found out about the ulcer, then I couldn't use their products any more which in-turn I started to gain weight again. Well, then the point of discouragement came in. Then after gaining 5# back, then more, I became tired of it. So, I gave in and emailed Erin Diep back. She gave me the Patty Maycroft's name which is the Program Manager for Liv-Lite in Junction City. After filling out the papers of the different diets, co-morbid conditions, etc., Patty faxed them to my insurance co. and I received approval about a week later. I was out of town when the news came. My husband called me as soon as he got home from work and told me. I jumped for joy. I was so excited. After that, I got the necessary Psych Eval done and sent to Patty. From there, I had my consult appt. on 9/13. Now I am just waiting on my pre-op testing appt. (11/6/01) and my surgery date (12/12/01). What a wonderful Christmas present. I told my husband this was the ONLY gift I wanted. He is so wonderful. I will close for now. Take Care and Good Luck to those heading to the other side.

9/29/01

Well, the count down begins...I have about 5 weeks till all my pre-op testing, then about 10 weeks for my surgery. I am so ready. I was sitting here thinking...my mom is overweight also, and when I told her she seemed kind of said. She did mention that her insurance would not cover this surgery. She is like me and has struggled her entire life. I can remember, years back, when she went on this one diet and got down to about 120#s, the wind could just about blow her away. I was so thrilled for her. But, as we all know, before she knew it the weight was back on. I just wish my mom could have this opportunity also. She is happy that I have the chance to do it, since I am still young (31). I love my mom. Well, I felt I needed to share this with you all because you will understand. Thanks for listening. Until next time.

10/09/01

Haven't posted for awhile, so thought I'd drop a line to tell everyone hello. I have been reading such wonderful things (whether they are good or bad). Makes the decision I've made more worthwhile. I know I am doing this for me even though I know it will benefit other areas of my life.

My husband asked me last night, "Why do you visit that website so often...seems as though you would of read everything by now?" I replied, that things change as do the days and I learn so much from it. After explaining it to him, he realized that it was a wonderful source of information and support. He loves me dearly and wants what's best for me.

Well less than a month I go for my pre-ops. I can't wait to get those out of the way. Then my surgery date will be here sooner. I am so excited.

Everyone have a wonderful day and God Bless.

10/11/01

Hello all. For some reason I felt compelled to write. I got word on Tuesday that the doctors have decided to send my grandfather home for his last time. He has cancer. He is no bound to wheelchair because he is too weak to walk. They are also providing him with a full-time RN nurse for home. My grandmother has been by his side since she's known. I just hope he doesn't have to suffer too much. I also have a good friend that I work with that is in surgery as we speak having a tumor removed from her brain. She has been a nervous wreck for the last couple of month. I feel for her too.

I realized as of Tuesday I have 4 weeks till my pre-op testing. Hubby will be going with me. He will be able to meet doctor and ask anything if he needs too.

Well, thought I'd update. Not much else going on with me. Just waiting for my turn. Good luck to all with whichever stage you are on.

10/13/01

Hello Amos Family. Hope you are all having a wonderful Saturday afternoon. As for me, I went to the mall today and pick up Carnie Wilson's book "Gut Feelings". I have made it through Chapters 1 - 2 and it is wonderful. Oh, how I identify. I thought I was reading my story. It is so similar, but then again alot of our stories are similar. I feel so compelled in my heart to help everyone learn of the choices there is for obese people. I thank my dear God above that I have been given the opportunity to have this choice. Well, just wanted to say hello and let everyone know about Carnie's book.

10/17/01

Hello AMOS Family. Hope all is well with everyone on their journeys. I got some very disturbing news today. I mentioned prior that my grandfather has cancer. Well yesterday I guess they had an incident where he passed on for a while. My grandmother was able to revive him (she was a nurse) while waiting on the ambulance. He is now in the hospital. The said he had heart failure. I know this has nothing to do with weight loss or surgery, but could everyone please send your prayers my way. My grandfather & I are very close so this is devastating to me today. Also, I heard my sister that has Lupus had to be rushed to the hospital...still waiting on word about her. I appreciate all of you and wish you all well.

10/22/01

Hello AMOS Friends. Just got a call from Dr. Bollman's office and they moved up my pre-op testing a couple of hours. I go in 2 weeks for all my test. Can't wait. Then my surgery will be about a month away. Everything is going pretty good. I told someone I work with today about the surgery and she, of course, said, Don't if you don't have too...I know someone that blah blah blah blah blah...well, you know the routine. When I heard the first part, my immediate thought was..."this is me and my decision. No one elses." I'm ok with my decision. I know the reason I am doing it. Well, that's all from my end. Hope everyone is doing well.

10/27/01

Good Morning all. This has been a very strange week. Well I have one more week till I go in for my pre-op tests. I can't wait. I am on the downhill side to getting my surgery. I have about 6 more weeks to go. Not much else going on so I guess I'll say goodbye for now and post more later.

10/31/01

Happy Halloween everyone! Just thought I'd update a little. Well, less than a week until my pre-op testing. Boy, the time seems to be slowly passing. I'm 5 weeks away from surgery. Wish me well that my pre-ops go smoothly. I realized the only fear I seem to be having is something could come up on my pre-ops that could result in my date being pushed back. Please send your prayers my way that all will be well. Otherwise, I have no fears and am ready to take on this surgery. I have waited so long that I am ready to be on the "losing side". I appreciate all of you and wish everyone well in there journey. May God belss us all.

11/9/01

Good evening everyone. Hope everyone's weekend is starting on a good note. Had all my pre-op testing done on Tuesday and Dr. Bollman said I'm ready for 12/12/01 (my surgery date). Got everything set up for the kids. My Christmas party at work in on 12/11/01. My boss wanted to make sure I could be there, so he wanted to do it then. I work with a great group of people. I love my job and will miss it greatly. I will probably try to go back in a couple of weeks since I have a hard time with just being home and doing nothing. Plus my job is so easy I could do it blindfolded. I'm excited and ready. One more month to go and I'll be with the losing club. Well, gonna run. Talk to everyone later.

11/11/01

Hello all. Happy Veteran's Day to all. Thought I'd jot down a few lines. Well, my surgery is exactly 1 month from tomorrow. Boy am I so ready. I have been getting a few things here and there so when it's my turn. These next few weeks should fly by. There is so much going on...this week have to go to court because stupid ex-husband won't pay child support, then the following week is Thanksgiving and then on December 11, 2001 is our Christmas Party at work. My boss wanted to make sure we had it before I go into surgery. After the party, we have to get in the car and head north to Junction City, so that I can be there very early that morning to begin surgery. My husband and I have been discussing this in depth. I am so very ready. I have such wonderful plans instore for when I am able to do strenuous exercise. I want to do weight training/toning. Get my muscles into shape. I have decided that I will set a bunch of little goals for myself to meet. I think that would be better. Well, guess I need to go finish my last load of laundry. Thanks all for listening. I look forward to reading all your post. Big hugs to all the losers and the ones heading toward the losing side.

11/18/01

Hello all. Well, I have 3 weeks left till my surgery. I hope they pass quickly. I still need to get a few things, but I think I will wait and get the the day before I go into surgery. We are also going to my mother-in-laws for Thanksgiving, so that'll take a little time. Then the week after that week are going to celebrate my sons birthday party. His birthday is December 15th, but I will still be in the hospital, so we are doing it early. Hard to believe my baby is going to be 9 yrs. old. Then the week after that we will have our Christmas party at work and then off to the hospital I go. Putting it into words makes my time seem busy. Maybe that's what I needed. I've not been feeling to well the last couple of days. I think I've been fighting off the "cold bug" and I think I may have won. Let's hope any how. That's all I need is to get sick right before my surgery. Well, guess I'll close off for now. Thanks for listening. Will update again later. Bye all.

11/20/01

Hello AMOS Family. I called yesterday and talked to the nurse at Dr. Bollman's office and she said as long as there is no fever then they will proceed. I have been dosing myself with OTC cold meds hoping I will be clear by surgery day. I still have 3 weeks to go, but they will be here before you know it. Trying to come up with ideas for presents for my kiddies for Christmas, but have no idea where to begin. The want so much, pricey items, but mom can only do what I can do. They usually wind up being very happy. I know I need to get it done before I go into surgery. Don't think I'll be up to fighting the crowds afterwards. Well, pray that my cold will go away and I will still be able to have surgery. Nothing will stop me from doing what I know I need to do for me to live a healthy, long life. Have a great day everyone.

11/25/01

Hello everyone. Hope everyone has had a wonderful Thanksgiving Holiday. Well, 17 more days till my surgery. My husband (poor baby) is in bed with the flu. He's running temps and swollen throat which I think may be strep. Please pray that all goes well and I stay healthy for surgery. I do have a little cough, but otherwise, I feel pretty good. Guess that's all I have for now. Take care everyone.

12/02/01

10 days & counting. Well the countdown is on. Feeling better. Coughing has subsided. Stayed pretty healthy considering husband and daughter have been sick. The days are passing a little quicker now that I'm on the downhill side of things. Well may God bless you all.

12/3/01

9 more days.

12/4/01

8 more days

12/5/01

7 more days. The days are leaving. I was asked today by someone if I'm getting nervous and NO not really. I think that I know that my decision was the right decision and that without this surgery I would not live a healthy life, much less a long life. So here's to the new us. "We" can do this. I'm happy and thankful to Liv-Lite which has given me this wonderful opportunity. They are just the best (in my opinion). Merry Christmas to all and to all a Happy New Year.

12/6/01

6 more days. Woooohoooo!!!

12/7/01

5 more days... I'm almost there!!! Happy Happy Happy!!!!

12/8/01

4 more days. Well, today we are celebrating my son's 9th birthday. I am having a party for him today since I will still be in the hospital on his actual birthday of 12/15. Tonight my husband is taking me to my favorite steak house for my last "big" meal. We will go to Amarillo Steakhouse. I think they have the most wonderful steaks in the world. To all of you heading to your "BIG" day congrats. And good luck to all on their journey to a better life. I am still full of excitement. I just hope all works out and nothing comes up at the last minute 'cause like I told the hubby...I will walk to Junction City even if it kills me. Nothing is going to stop me from making my life better. Talk to you all again soon.

12/9/01

3 more days. Well some things has changed. My sister-in-law will not be able to watch my kids while in the hospital. The hubby will be able to stay because at yesterday a friend of mine opted to come stay at my house and see the kids off to school. So I guess hubby will still be able to stay w/ me after all. I'm so grateful for him. Well, till later. Love you all and good luck everyone.

12/10/01

2 more days. Had a wonderful call today from Sarah. She is researching WLS. Good luck to you, Sarah. And thank you for your love & support as I go through my surgery. Well my big day is on Wednesday. Like they say...seems as though it will never get here and before you know it you're wondering where all the time went.

12/11/01

Well (1) more wake up and then I'll be on the losing side. Tonight is the Christmas Party @ work...everyone has been so wonderful. Got calls upon calls yesterday from co-workers wishing me well. That means so much to me. I work with a wonderful group of people and you couldn't ask for a better boss. He is awesome. He says family & your health is first. We will manage. Got to love a person like that. He still asks "You are going to be here tonight right?". I said of course. As soon as it's over the hubby & I will be making our trip to Junction City and in the morning I will be headed into the hospital for my 4 day stay. I have never looked so forward to having surgery as I am now. It's a wonderful feeling knowing you have to be in a pain for a little bit and then beyond is a life that you can control. That you can live with peace and good health. Well, to all of you....good luck and I'll see you when I return. Love you all very much. Thanks for all your love and prayers.

12/16/01

Well had surgery, first 2 days are rough, but they do get better!! Dr. Bollman said I did wonderful. He even let me come home a day early. I wasn't scheduled to come home till tomorrow. I return on 12/27/01 for 2 week check up. Will update everyone more later. Thanks to Connie, my angel, for check on me and letting everyone know how I was doing. Missed everyone here. Love to all & thanks for thinking of me in this time.

12/20/01

Hello all. The WLS so far has been just wonderful. Following is my adventure to the other side:

I arrived @ hospital @ 7:00 am on 12/12/01. From there they checked me in, hooked me up and finally after all the pre-surgery stuff, husband said I was wheeled off about 10:30. He gave me a kiss goodbye and waited patiently in the waiting room until they told him he could come & ride the elevator up with me to recovery. He was such a trooper. He stayed by my side for 3 full days. He was beginning to do a better job than those nurses..lol. The first 2 days were rough with moving around, but I did it. The second day I didn't use the morphine pump as much. I had doctor changed my pain meds to Tordal. I wasn't so out of it then. From there I concentrated on getting up and walking. The husband would take hold of my arm and help me get down those halls, but today I am grateful for that because with that it has helped me be pretty independent today. My hospital stay was 4 days in length. I got out on Sunday, 12/16/01 and arrived home @ 2:30 pm. The trip wasn't too bad, I did have a pillow to cushion my "new tummy" on the ride home. On Monday I went with the husband walking through a Super Walmart from one end to the other - had to pick up a few things while there. On Tuesday, I started driving...went and visit everyone at work (I work 2 min or less from my house), the husband & I walked outside. Wednesday, I went a walked the mall which is almost a mile (probably walked about 3/4 of it). Today, got up and did what I needed to and went for a walk in the neighborhood. All in all I feel wonderful. Better than I did before surgery, I should say. Well, gotta run. Merry Christmas to all and good luck with your journeys.

1/01/02

Happy New Year everyone!!!!!! A new year and working on a new me. I went 12/27/01 for 2 week follow-up and have lost 12#'s. You can definitely see a difference in my face. The double chin is starting to disappear. Well tomorrow will be my first day back to work. I am so very glad...staying at home is wearing on me. I will go tomorrow after work and sign up for my 2 year membership at a health club. I am excited. Go back on 1/31/02 for 6 week follow-up & then doctor should release me for weight training etc. Can't wait to begin. Well, that's about it for now. Talk with you all later.

1/6/02

Hello Family. Things are still going well for me. I eat about anything (haven't tried fried foods or sweets...too afraid of them). I weighed this morning and saw that I am now down 2 more pounds which puts me at 202#. Can't wait to be under that 200 mark again. Been going to the health club and walking all this week. Am anxious to get started on full body workouts though. This surgery is great. Had a friend of my daughter's mother asked for me to call her. Gave her info on the surgery and this website to come to for more info. I feel like a walking billboard for this surgery, but I feel so great that I guess I am gleaming. Being able to share my joy of this surgery with others is wonderful. A gift that I will share w/ the world if they ask. Well, thought I'd update and say hello to all. Keeping busy here. Love to all and thanks for your continued support.

1/8/02

Hello AMOS family. Hope everyone finds themselves doing wonderful. Today has been such a wonderful day. It has been in the upper 60's weather wise and not expect for this time of year here. It's usually very cold. Following is a note that I posted on the OSSG board on yahoo. I thought I would share it with everyone here so you all know how I feel. Words just cannot describe what I feel in my life right now, but the following gives you an idea.

Hello all. Hope all is well with everyone on their
journey's. Well I am having the most enjoyable life.
I am so much more happy now than I was 2 months ago.
Dreading every day to get up and out of bed. Now I
look forward to mornings again and am willing to rush
around and do what needs to be done so that I may run
off to the gym for my morning walk. My sister-in-law,
who has had the surgery, has joined me in the endeavor
to become healthy. It is great. We went & did the
walk this morning and was done before we knew it. I
weighed at home this morning and am showing a 15#
total loss in 3 1/2 weeks. I'm happy about that. May
not be much to you all, but I am thrilled to death. I
go Jan. 24th for my 6 week check-up and hopefully will
be released to begin toning these stomach muscles. I
am so excited and can't wait to begin my routine. I
am also going to tan in a tanning bed for the first
time in my life. Life is so awesome today. I feel
well, not taking any meds, and loving to exercise once
again. Things I didn't or couldn't of done 2 months
ago. Life is grand. Thanks to all of my friends in
the WLS world. Your support is wonderful. May God
bless everyone as much as he has blessed me. Love to
all. Take care and enjoy your life!!!!

Oh, I just realized that as of 1/5/02 I have been employed at my current job for 1 year now. It is the most wonderful place to work. They all believe family is everything. My boss didn't even hesitate to say go ahead when I told him I was having surgery. He said "take all the time that you need to recoup. I was ready to go back when I did though.

1/15/02

Hello everyone. Wanted to share with you all that my joy continues. I stepped on the scales & also weighed @ the health club on Monday and I am finally under 200. I now weigh 198#. The numbers are slowly moving downward, but I will take them however I can get them. I continue to go to the gym every day. One more week and I go for my 6 week follow-up and am hoping to be released to do some toning. Want to get beyond just the walking thing. I am ready for some challenges in the workout dept. I got the best comment today. Someone at work called me skinny. I have a long way to go to be skinny, but that was a wonderful comment. I can see that my body is starting to take on a different shape (one for the better). I got an email from my mom the other day that was good. She says see you are losing and looking good. That was good. My mom, god love her, has struggled with the weight issue. She said if only my insurance would approve and I was younger (mind you she is only 47 yrs. young). I think she would do it if her insurance would cover it. She has went up and down up and down as we all have. Something else that has been wonderful, the husband can't for some reason keep his hands off me. He can't wait to see me when I lose another 50#. He said you think it's bad now. Oh my, what do I do? I know...enjoy the ride. I love it when he comes behind me and touches me. He does it all the time now. This surgery has just been so wonderful. No matter what, I will work so hard to achieve my goal. I am so grateful for the small things now that I didn't realize could make a person happy. The feeling of enjoying getting up in the morning is so awesome. Well everyone, have a bright, uplifting day. Take care and will update more later.

1/21/02

Hello everyone. I have such a busy week this week. Thursday I go for my 6 week follow-up. I hope it shows I've lost more than my scales show, but nonetheless everything I have lost is a blessing and I'm grateful for that. I am no longer over 200#. Can't wait to go, so I can start on some different exercises besides just walking. Ready to tone this body. Then on Friday I have to go to court. The stupid ex-husband refuses to pay child support, so they got him for contempt of court. Hopefully, they will do something to make him pay. Then, on Saturday, I am taking 2 people to the support group here in Wichita. One is starting the journey and one has set up there appts. already. Helping people and showing them there is another way is my way of giving back to everyone that helped me. Thanks to all. Not much else going on just staying busy with work, kids and walking. Good luck to each of you and love to all.

1/24/02

Hi all. Had a rough day yesterday. I had this awful pain in my right side all day. Not sure why. I also had my first encounter with being nauseated and almost vomiting. I ate a couple of bites and felt totally full. I went to lay down for a bit and then got up 1/2 an hour or so later (after the hubby was home from work) and tried to eat the rest cause I was still a bit hungry and before I knew it I was off to the restroom. That was enough for me. I go today for my 6 wk check-up and I guess I'll find out while I'm there what is wrong w/ my side. I called doctor last night and he doesn't seem to think it's too much of anything. It still hurts this morning, but not nearly as bad as when I went to bed last night. I also weighed in this morning at 196. Can't wait to see what the doctor's office weighs me as. Other than that I still feel pretty good. Didn't go walking this morning, so I feel a little tired. Well, I will update when I return back from my visit. Have a nice day all.

Ok. Been to see Dr. Bollman and I have lost 21 pounds and 18.25". He said I am doing wonderfully. He also released me to do other forms of exercise. As far as my side, he gave me Vioxx and said my ribs are sore. I knew it wasn't anything major. Well, talk to you all soon.

2/1/02

Hello everyone. Boy, the last 2 days has been hard. The weather was terrible with nothing but ice falling for 2 whole days, the kids out school and the husband having my car so I couldn't go to the gym. I felt like I was going through exercise withdrawal. Now mind you, I have been going to the gym for over a month now, and even when I first got home I would go to the mall and walk, so I have been exercising in some way shape or form since I've been home from hospital. I've really gotten into the exercise thing. I know I'm not as stressed now either. Well, I had something good happen to me last night. I bought these size 16p a long, long time ago and wore them after a diet I was on, so I kept them to hopefully wear again some day. They are carpenter jeans and I just love them. Well, I jumped for joy last night because I was finally able to fit them comfortably. Now mind you, 2 weeks ago I couldn't even as much think about wearing them. I was so ecstatic. I ran to the bathroom where my husband was and said, "Look, just look at me, I finally made it back into these." I was so happy, so I wore them to work today. They just look good on me. Now, the wait to get back into my Levi's. They are regular 16's. Maybe after working w/ this personal trainer, I will be able to squeeze into them really soon. This surgery has just done wonders for me. I can't say enough about my dear Dr. Bollman and Eileen, his wonderful nurse. The team at Flint Hills Surgical Group are just the best. They literally saved my life and made me happy once again. And thanks to all you dear people who listen to me rattle on and on. Good luck all.

2/4/02

Hello all. Today is the day I chose to weigh on and I am on my monthly cycle, but I still lost a pound. I am so surprised. That makes a total of 22# in 7 weeks. I will be glad when I get out of the 190's. I still have about 72# to get to my overall goal. But making these smaller goals is good enough for me. Hope everyone had a good weekend. I am still hanging on to the gym thing. Still enjoying it. I have spent time w/ a trainer and am doing well. My body says "thank you" after each workout.
Well, need to run pick up my kiddies from school. Have a wonderful day.

2/5/02

Hi again all. Well, I got up this morning and something was bugging me about weighing again. I weigh myself every Monday morning, but something was just telling me to do it today too. Well, I did and am down to 192.5#. Can you believe it? I am so excited. The weird thing is I am coming off of my monthly cycle and losing weight. That is so cool. Almost out of the 190's. I am so excited. I went into my closet tonight and was trying on all my 16's. I got into ones that has been very long time since I've fit this body of mine into them. I am getting rid of all my clothes that are over 16's. I use to hang onto all clothing because I thought I'd always return at one time or another. Well, not this time. This time it's for good. The hard work of going to the gym each and every day is paying off. I asked the husband if he was excited for me and he said yes, but you won't be in 16's long. At the rate your going you'll be at a 14 in no time. It's kind of funny how things change. Two weeks ago I couldn't fit into a 16 now I can. That is so cool!!!!!!! I am so proud of me. I can see a change everyday and am grateful that I've had this opportunity. Good luck to everyone and I will pray for all of you.

2/7/02

Hello me again this week. Can you believe it? I just had to weigh again this morning and the scales show 188.5#. Looks as though I just keep losing and losing. That is a good thing. I am so grateful to finally be out of the 190's. My husband said last night, I was looking so good. My body is finally gaining shape. I am so grateful for this surgery. Water, diet & exercise are the key to this!!! Hope all of you are having the time of your life. I know I am. And so is my husband...oh la la!!! I showed him my highest weight & goal weight in the virtual model and his mouth was watering. This is so wonderful. Well must be going. Got to get to work. Love to all of you.

2/10/02

Hi friends. Well went to workout again today while the kids played in the pool. After I got down, my son, who is 9, walked by and said mom will you run around the track w/ me...and guess what...I ran around the track. It actually felt good. Then just because I could - I ran around it once more with my son. After running around it w/ him, he just looked at me and smiled. They are so happy that I can finally do things w/ them. The surgery has given me so much. Given me my life. Good luck to all of you.

2/24/02

Hello everyone. Been a couple weeks since I've posted. Not much going on here. I'm down to 182# as of this morning. The workouts are still going well. Went for a walk in the park yesterday morning since it was so beautiful. I am so very grateful for this surgery and the fact that (knock on hard wood) I have not had any complications. I am now wearing size 16's, but they are starting to get loose on me. This has been so easy which leaves me wondering if it is going to stop soon or what. I appreciate all of you. Oh, we had our support group here in Wichita on Friday night and it was awesome...we had a wide range of people from just getting started to 2 years out and everything in between. These people are the best. Have a wonderful rest of the weekend and talk to you all soon.

3/8/02

Hello everyone. It's been a while since I've posted. I don't have a computer at home any more so I will be checking in from work whenever possible. Well, I've had to travel down to Alabama my dearest grandfather passed on last Saturday. We are heading back home tomorrow morning and will arrive on Sunday just in time to return to work. It has been a very sad week with lots of tears and heartache. I have lost a few more pounds it feels like which is a good thing. My mother gave me a pair of size 14 jeans and guess what I could put them on and they fit very well. This surgery has given me such a wonderful life. Well, guess I'll check in later. Have a great day all.

3/12/02

Hello all. Exactly 3 months post op today and doing great. I am down 38# and 32.25". This is so amazing. This morning to work I wore a size 12 dress. I can fit snuggly in a 14 jeans too. I am wearing medium shirts w/ room left inside.

Last week was very hard and stress...my grandfather, whom I love dearly, passed away on Sat., March 2nd. We were down w/ my folks in Alabama all last week. My grandmother is having it hard, but she is strong. I miss him dearly. I do know that he is in heaven looking down on all of us. He also isn't suffering the long, tough road w/ cancer any more.

I have 56# left to reach my goal of 122#. I know I can make it.

FYI...I no longer have internet service at home, so if anyone tries to reach me...just email this address & I'll get back w/ you.

3/14/02

Hello everyone. Feeling in wonderful spirits. Iam finally down 40 pounds which is 43% of my excess weight gone forever. I have 54# more to go to be at goal. I am 3 months out and doing wonderful. I got lots of compliments yesterday on how skinny I am looking...and boy does it feel wonderful for people to refer to you as skinny. I am blessed!!!! Also, hubby and I have been having such wonderful sex lately. I have to say this...I still have some tummy ok (keep that in mind, but overall looking good)...I wore some sexy thong undies yesterday and a demi-bra (both in black...black is sexy) and felt so good...when hubby came home I whispered in his ear what I was wearing and boy was he ready. He took me to the bedroom and good gollie miss molly was the sex ever so good. WE both got so worked up. So see, it does get better. I normal don't talk much about my sex life, but I just had to share this.

I have finally made it to the point in my closet where I have nothing small enough for me any more. The 16 slacks I was wearing to work the last couple months are starting to literally fall off me. Guess it's goodwill bound.

I am just having a wonderful time on this weight loss journey. It has been a gift sent from GOD and I will always treasure it. Everyone keep your chin up and fight forward. Your day will come and you'll be glad you continued the fight.

3/17/02

Hello everyone. Thought I'd jot down a few things for everyone. I got a call Friday afternoon and asked if I'd come in a for an interview for another part-time job I applied for, so I did. Got a call on Saturday and now I have another job. So I will be working 2 part-time jobs. Before surgery, I had a hard enough time working the one part-time job that I didn't do much at...now I will have 2. I will have my weekends totally free. But my weekdays will be shot. That's ok...we'll get some bills paid off. Well, I got rid of all my old clothes today. Took them to the support group here in town where we have a clothing exchange. Maybe someone can get some use out of them. At least I don't have to look at them anymore. This time I'm giving them away knowing that I will not return to that size anymore. The only bad thing...my closet is pretty much empty now. Clothes shopping I'll be going soon. Well, I must run along. Have a wonderful day everyone.

3/28/02

Well hello everyone. Update for everyone. I decided it wasn't worth me being gone and not seeing my kids until Saturday, plus, I haven't been able to go to the gym or even concentrate on my WLS so I gave up the new job. I had WLS for a reason and I wasn't able to do what I needed to do with working like that. I am happier now. This morning I weighed and am at 171# which is 45# down. I have 49# more to be at goal. Yippee. I am so happy. Almost half way there. Now being able to go back to the gym everyday I'll be able to increase that or at least I hope so. Well, I am doing wonderful still and can't wait to be at goal. Will update more later. Have a great day.

4/1/02

Hello everyone. Hope everyone had a wonderful Easter. Mine was ok. Hubby & I worked on the house a bit. First off, we got up yesterday morning (what a nice morning for a jog) and went for a walk/jog. I am enjoying the jogging part of it. It feels so good to my body. Right now I'm down 46# and loving every minute of it. Can't wait to be at goal though. I am getting anxious for 4/18 to get here. I go back to see my doctor and can't wait to see his expression. I think I am doing wonderful. I'm sure he will be proud.

4/9/02

Hi family. Hope this update finds everyone doing well. I am still on the road to a happy, thinner me. I feel so blessed to have been able to have this surgery. I am now at 168# which is -48# down and -39". I am in size 12. Haven't been in this size for years. It feels so good. I was doing exercises last night and was doing crunches to the sides and it was so much easier to do and I was able to feel it more. I can run up and down stairs, jog, and do other things that I haven't for years. The husband and I will be taking my kids down to spend the summer w/ their great grandmother. After dropping them off, we are going to pay a visit to the beach in Pensacola, FL. They have such wonderful beaches. I will actually wear and swimsuit and feel comfortable doing it this year. I hope to be down another 20# by then though. I will continue to strive to my goal. I'm over half way there. Well, have a wonderful week. Take care and good luck to all.

4/15/02

Hi everyone. Hope everyone is doing well and losing lots of weight. Well, I think I finally hit a dreaded plateau. I am 4 months post op and have been losing constantly, but since a week ago, I haven't lost anything. I was wanting to get about another 10 to 20# off by the end of May because we are going on vacation. Going to Pensacola Beach in Florida. Now for the positive news. I went to Walmart shopping Saturday and found these capris (which for some reason I am starting to love to wear) and found them in Medium (which says size M 8 - 10 on the tag). Can you believe it says 8 - 10. I know its probably the material, but what the heck they are still an 8 - 10. I never remember ever wearing that size before. Everything else is a 12. Shirts are Medium to Large now. Large for t-shirts only. This is wonderful. I am battling the thought of this skin issue in my abdomen region. Seems like there is alot for being a size 12. I go this Thursday to see my doctor again. I plan on asking him about this excess skin and see what his thoughts are. I have heard conflicting this about abdomnioplasty. I also research about mini-abdomnioplasty. They do not do the full hip to hip cut, but everything else is the same. I think I may check it out. Don't want this skin forever. We'll see and I'll keep you updated on that. It'll be awhile before I can do that anyway. My doctor won't consider it until you are at least 12 months out or at goal weight, which he prefers. Well, that's all for me. Have a wonderful day. Talk to you soon.

4/19/02

Hello everyone. Went to see my wonderful Dr. Bollman yesterday. He said I am doing great. They took blood work and gave me a B12 shot. They also weighed me and showed I weighed 165 and -51# gone, gone forever. He says I am looking great. Gosh, I love that man. I am in comfortable 12's now and loving it. Will probably be past that in a month or so or I'm a hoping any way. We girls can hope can't we!!!!! lol. Had a wonderful trip to Junction City. I rode up w/ my friend and co-WLSer, April. We just had an awesome time. We plan to do it again on our next 3 month visit in July. Can't wait. Well, good day to all. Talk to you soon. Bye bye.

4/23/02

Hello everyone. I talked with Eileen (Dr. B's nurse) yesterday. I had to have my bloodwork done last Thursday when I had my check-in and she said Dr. Bollman said the bloodwork was awesome. My blood sugars was 86 when they took it. My blood sugars stay pretty much like that any more which is good. I don't worry much about then like I use too. Any little thing before would through them out of wack. I went tonight and took a beginners aerobic class. I am so uncoordinated, but nonetheless it was fun. I had a blast. I thought I'd try aerobics to break the monoteny. Hope everyone is doing well. Good luck to all and light speed ahead for all those waiting.

4/28/02

Hello all. Well, I am officially on a darn plateau. I know eventually I will begin losing again. I was on a roll though. I'm going south the 1st part of June and was hoping to be in the 150's when I left...oh well, I knew it was going to happen sooner or later. I know what to do. So I will persevere/strive to reach my goal. I meet w/ a plastic surgeon to discuss an abdominoplasty on Wednesday. He did my breast reduction in '99, so I know he will do a good job. Can't wait to get info on this and to see his thoughts on this. If he doesn't then I will have to travel back to Junction City to get the surgeon from Dr. Bollman's office to do it.

Good sunshiney day to you all.

4/30/02

Hi all. Well, I go tomorrow to check to see if the surgeon that did my breast reduction will do my abdominoplasty. I sure hope he will, if not, I'll be on the road to search for another one. My appt. is at 4:30 tomorrow. I'll update more on that later.

Well, still on a darn plateau. Thursday will be 2 weeks. I wish it would break. I see how everyone can get discouraged when on these plateaus. You work so hard and don't see the weight dropping. I have to wait about a week and a half to do my measurements. I'm sure something will show up there (or at least I'm hopeful). To help the plateau break, today I walked for 30 min. on treadmill before work. After work, I rode 1.5 miles on my bicycle.

Oh, I tried this cool beef stick kind of thing today. It was made out of Ostrich & Beef. Following is the breakdown of protein, calories, etc.

Calories 80g
Fat 1.5g
Sat. Fat .5g
Sugars 0g
Sodium Under 400g
Protein 13g

They come in Teriyaki, Pepper or BBQ flavored. They are very, very good. I find them to be much better than a protein bar and taste delicious. They are $1.69/bar or $14.98/box of 10. I found them at Smoothie King where I get high protein Smoothies that you can have fixed however you like. They can be low carb/fat and high protein. Yummy.

Well, thats been the scope on my day. Hope everyones day was bright and enjoyable. Keep focused and be happy w/ you. Love to all.

5/2/02

Hello everyone. Hope everyone is having a wonderful day. Be glad when my plateau decides to break. I have tried everything to get it to break and to no avail. Oh well, I'll let it do it on it's own.

Went to see plastic surgeon yesterday. He said he will look at me again when I am at goal to see what it looks like then. At least he didn't say he wouldn't do it. But he is concerned about blood flow to the abdomen area where he will do the abdominoplasty. Says if you've had a breast reduction the blood flow is restricted. Like I told him, if I knew then what I know now I would of waiting and down the reduction now. He is just taking precaution as to this being a very invasive surgery. So I will wait till I hit goal and see what happens. Have a great day all.

5/3/02

Hello everyone. Well, I started out w/ a very scary day today. It started out yesterday. I came home from work feeling really bad. I went to get my kids from school and by the time I got back was very light headed and feeling awful. I layed down. Went to bed very early last night was burning up w/ fever, chills and very weak. I did drink my fluids yesterday as always. I woke up about 4:30 this morning to go to the restroom and the last thing I remember was the husband came in and picked me up off the floor. He was very worried. I have a bad mark and bruising on the left side of my head where I fell and my left had is very sore. I don't know what happened. He talked me through the morning and I decided not to go to the hospital. I had another episode like this when I was very, very sick before and my kids found me lying on the bathroom floor back in 1996. I don't know what happened to me today. I feel somewhat better now, but not 100% yet. I still get a little dizzy if I get up too fast, etc. I'm assuming it was from the fever and maybe lack of fluids through out the night. I just hope this doesn't happen again. Well, good day to all and good luck to you on your journey.

5/7/02

Hello everyone. Well, I think I am beginning to be human again. I am feeling better after the horrible weekend of feeling less than human. I am still struggling a bit w/ having a little blurred vision and if that doesn't change in the next few days then off to the doc I go. I'm going to give myself a few days then I'll get back to the gym. I don't want to hender my recovery from whatever it was I had. Must of been a virual thing. Well, for some good news, I have lost 4# since the weekend and have broke my plateau!!! Yes oh yes. I will have to say leave the caffeinated coffee alone because it will keep you from losing. I quit drinking that and went back to my decaf and began losing again. Good day to all.

5/12/02

Well today is Mother's Day! Hope all the Mother's are enjoying there day. Not much going on today. Not totally sure if I've broken the plateau or not. I lose a pound here and a pound there, but I've only lost a pound since my before my last post. I just hope I can get the other 38# off before December. I was hoping like hell I could be to my goal by my one year anniversary. Well, I'll keep chugging along and see what happens. We will be leaving on May 31st to take my kids to stay with their great grandmother for the summer. The hubby and I will have the summer alone her at home. Oohh la la!!! Bet we can find something to do. Well, good luck to all. Have a pleasant day.

5/14/02

Hello everyone. I finally broke down and went to see my PCP today. I have still been experiencing some lightheadedness/dizziness. Come to find out when they took my blood pressure it was low. He did some lab work and I will get the results tomorrow. Can't wait to find out what is going on. This not knowing thing is for the birds. I will update everyone when I get the results tomorrow. Otherwise, I guess I am doing ok. Still haven't lost any weight. I'm hanging on to this stupid plateau I guess. Wish it would find another body to hang on to. I have 38# more to lose and I guess I will really have to work doubly hard to get it off.

5/19/02

Hello to all my wonderful AMOS friends. This is two days in a row that I feel wonderful. Yesterday was a great day. I went out shopping and just doing all kinds of things. This past week was the River Festival. It is like a small scale version of Marde Gra. Last night was the big fireworks display that is an ending to the River Festival. Most of the city comes out to see them. We walked to get down to the river to find us a place to sit, then we had to walk all the way back to where we parked. It felt good to walk that distance without all the extra weight. This time last year I was huffing and puffing trying to make it down by the river. This surgery has been great for me. Oh another wonderful thing happened. I saw this friend of mine I hadn't seen in a couple months or so and she was just in Awh of how much weight I lost and how good I looked. I do look so much happier and healthier than I did this time last year. This is a lady that is alot taller than me and is not really heavy. She has a few extra pounds but nothing major. It made me feel so good. Life is good today. Guess I'll close this for today. Take care and have a blessed day.

5/24/02

Hello all. Well thought I would update and let you know what's been happening the last few days. Well, Wednesday evening my blood pressure dropped again. I went to the doctor's office to have them check it yesterday and it was 84/50 which is too low. So last evening I called my doctor and he told me to go in today. I went in and it was still low. He called and spoke with a cardiologist and the cardiologist said to give me florenif pills to help raise it. I'm not crazy about it cause there is a chance for weight gain. The doctor did tell me that the weight gain is more in higher doses. That is the down side...the upside is I need to do what I can to get my blood pressure back up. The cardiologist also ordered for me to go in on Wed., May 29th and have an echocardiogram and a 24 hr Holter monitor. I'm not looking forward to it, but I guess I don't have a choice. Wish me luck everyone that they find out what is going on w/ this body of mine. I told with Dr. Bollman, my gastric bypass surgeon, and he said that the low blood pressure are not caused by my surgery. I guess we will see what's going on in the next week. On June 1st I will be leaving to take my kids down to AL to spend the summer with my grandmother. They are so looking forward to that. Well, guess I'll go. I will update once I get the results back and let you all know what's going on. Pray for me please.

5/27/02

Hi all. This is going to be a busy week in my household. Tomorrow is my daughter's 5th grade graduation and then I'm off to work after that. On Thursday is the last day of school and to take son to dentist. On Friday, I work, come home get laundry together and get the kids packed for their long summer at great grandma's. I will miss them, but then again it will be nice. The hubby and I can have lots of fun together this summer. With the weight loss I'm not as afraid of being seen in a swimsuit even though I'm not adventurous enough to wear a 2 piece yet. Well as for my BP it is getting better. The Florenif is helping to raise it to a more acceptable level. Well, guess I'll run.

6/11/02

Hi everyone. Haven't posted in a couple weeks or so...not been anything to really say. Well, took my kids down to stay w/ great grandma and they are enjoying it. I may call them tonight. I have lost 2 more pounds as of this morning putting me at 155#. That means I have 33# more to go to goal. I have people telling me all the time how skinny I look. All I see is this big flabby stomach. Wish it would decrease, but I guess I'll have to wait for a tummy tuck to get it to go away. I feel good. Yesterday was my first day back to work in a week and boy was I in for it. I work for a real estate office and about every 2 years the state audits the "trust acct". It was a pain in my butt and it's not over yet. I am only a part-timer, but I worked all day yesterday. I felt good after I left, but I know that if it had of happened this time last year I don't think I'd of made it all day. Well, enough for me today.

6/12/02

Hi all. Guess what? I am down to 153#. That's 31# more to goal. Woo hoo.....boy am I excited. After not losing for about 2 mo. here I go and lose 3# in 3 days. Yeah. Have a great day. I'm happy. Losing weight, walked 2 miles straight and enjoying life. What more can I ask for.

6/21/02

Happy Summer time. Boy, today is definitely going to feel like. Well, going to see PCP today to hopefully get my meds changed for the low BP. I think it is making me hang on to the weight, so I'm going to see if there is something else I can take. Also, I'm going to have my cholesterol checked. I'm curious to see where my levels are. Well, I'm enjoying my time. Tonight is our support group meeting and can't wait.

6/22/02

It sure is a hot day here in Wichita. We'll I've lost a couple more pounds over the past few days. I'm glad. I go to see Dr. Bollman on 7/9/02 and would love to be under 150# when I go. I've had a hard time losing lately. I lose a pound here and a pound there...it's very sparatic. Well, I decided to try to seek out another surgeon and will probably go w/ a tummy tuck. I don't like my large tummy. I set another appt. to get info on 7/3/02. Can't wait to see what he says. I did send an email to see what he would say about my previous breast reduction and he said I should be ok for the tummy tuck. I will get more answers from him in a couple weeks and will let you all know. I checked and my BMI is 28.7. That's the lowest it has been in quite a while. I am so excited. I went Friday to see my PCP about the low BP and there are still problems with that. He was suppose to talk to a cardiologist yesterday and let me know when some bloodwork comes back what could be up. He said I could quite taking the Florinef since it increases my appetite which I didn't like. So today is the first day not taking it. I guess next week I'll know if my BP drops or stays up. Guess that's about all for now. Take care and good luck in your journey.

6/25/02

Hi all. I am so excited. I weighed this morning and to my surprise I am 149#. Can you say happy? I go to see Dr. Bollman on July 9th and I wanted to be in the 140's. Oh, I've made it. I am so happy. That means I only have 27# to goal. This has been so wonderful. I can't remember the last time I weighed 149#. Well, thought I'd share my excitement. Have a great day and enjoy your journey.

Good afternoon everyone. Got some good news this afternoon. I had to go back in last Friday to see my PCP and had some more bloodwork done and I had him do my cholesterol while he was doing it. He called this evening and gave me the results. I was so excited. My total cholesterol is 147 which is excellent. My LDL (bad) is 79 which is on the low end range, so thats good and my HDL (good) is 53 which is on the low end range too. My B12 level is up this time. It is 347 and the range for B12 is 200-900. So all in all my blood tests were good. I was so happy to hear that my cholesterol was down because this time last year it was over the high end, so it has greatly improved. My BMI is now at 28.2...3.2 more points and I will be in the normal range. My weight today is 149#. This has been a wonderful day. I am so happy.

6/28/02

Hi everyone. Good Friday to you all. Well, I am holding right now at 148#. I told my husband last night, I don't feel like 148# because of my flabby tummy. All the loose skin is driving me. I will have to have a tummy tuck in order to be happy about it. I'm grateful with the weight loss, but I feel if I went to that level then I want to look right. And I will. God willing. Well, that's about all for now. Take care a have a wonderful day.

7/4/02

Happy 4th of July to all! We will be going later to watch the fireworks which is usually a really good show. Well I've taken my measurements for my 7th month post-op and currently I have lost 68# and 56.75". That is alot. I am so very proud of myself. I still have 26# to go to get to my goal weight of 122#. Since Dec. '01, I have lost 73% of my excess body weight. So, I guess if I look at that, I have truly been successful. Today, I took a pair of my hubby's 501 Levi's that are men size 33 and they fit...a tad loose, but nothing major. They were too small for him, so he said take them, so I did and made me a pair of cutoffs. I like them. I have always wanted to wear pants smaller than the hubby and I have made it to that goal. I am now wearing size 10's in womens jeans. I cannot ever remember a time when I have wore a size 10. The smallest size in high school I remember are 11/12's. Well, guess that's all for me. Everyone have a wonderful holiday!!!

7/10/02

Hi everyone. Well in 2 days I will be 7 months out. I went to see Dr. Bollman yesterday and he was very proud of what I/we have accomplished. They figured up that I have lost 85% of my excess body weight. I am so proud. I still have 25# to go to goal. He recommends that I wait till I'm 1 year out to have my tummy tuck. I did let him know that I am going to see the plastic surgeon on 7/16/02. Hubby will be going w/ me. I just want his opinion on what he will be doing for the tummy tuck cause it will take me 6 months to be ready for that. I know it's painful, but I would also like to look good. I'm happy w/ where I'm at for now.

7/12/02

Well good morning everyone. Got up this morning and I know weight 145#. That puts me needing to lose 23# of these stubborn pounds to make it to goal. I am slowly but surely getting there. I plan on increasing my exercise to hopefully help in getting these pounds off my body. The body is saying good bye, but the pounds are saying no way. I will defeat those pounds though. Have a wonderful day. I plan to.

7/17/02

Hello. Hope everyone's having a wonderful Wednesday. I went to see my plastic surgeon yesterday to find out about having a tummy tuck and something done w/ these flabby legs. Well, he said I would be a wonderful candidate for a tummy tuck and a possible brachioplasty (for the excess flab on the inner thighs which will help tighten the outer thighs). So he is submitting to insurance to try for a possible approval for tummy tuck & brachioplasty. I will do them both at the same time. I would rather have the pain over and done w/ all at once. I've only lost 3# so far this month and need to get at least 3 more off. I sure hope I can do that. I am leaving tomorrow morning to go back to AL to pick up my kiddies. They have been spending the summer with great grandma. I dread the long drive by myself, but at least I am getting it out of the way. Guess that is all to add for now. I look forward to give more good news later. Take care all and have a wonderful day.

7/24/02

Well got home from picking up my kids for their summer vacation. I am sure glad to be back home. I have been feeling a little discouraged though lately. I am to the point of not really losing any more weight and wondering if this is the end for me. I am exercising, eating right (just eating more than I was at 3 to 4 months), and getting my water in. So I don't know what the deal is. Yes, I know that I will be having a tummy tuck with the excess skin removed from my upper inside thighs. Dr. Bollman doesn't want me to have any plastic surgery until I'm 1 year out, but if I am not losing any more why should I wait? I do want to get to goal weight. Guess I will see how much weight I lose by October when I go back to see Dr. Bollman and if I'm still not losing by then I will probably schedule the tummy tuck and thight lift. Hubby thinks I will be looking oh so good after that. He's so excited. He loved me when I was fat and loves me now. Couldn't ask for a better supporter. He's so great with keeping me on track, etc. God only knows I need an enforcer cause we all have our moments. Well, that's all for me. Talk to you all soon.

7/25/02

Hello everyone. Suppose to be a scroacher here today. Well weighed this morning and to my amazement I weigh 144#. That makes my weight loss this month so far 4#. I need to lose 4.6# a month from now on to make it to my goal of 122#. I just want to make it so bad. I think I am going back to basics and make sure I'm only taking in my 3 meals a day w/ the needed protein. I know I'm getting the protein intake. I have been doing a tad bit of snacking...nothing major, but maybe I just need to cut that out. I feel like the old brain to stomach baggage is starting to affect me. The feelings of wanting to eat knowing that I'm not truly hungry, etc. Well, hope everyone has a great day.

7/27/02

Hi everyone. Had our monthly support group meeting last night and it turned out to be wonderful. I am so very grateful for my group of WLS buddies. Other good news, I got up this morning and have lost another pound, putting me at 143#. That is 21# to goal. It also gives me a 5# loss for this month. If I stay on this track, I will make my goal by my one year anniversay. Guess that's about it for now. Take care friends.

8/3/02

Hi all. Not much going on w/ me. Took my monthly measurements today and was kinds disappointed. I've only lost, since this time last month, 2.25" off of my overall body. That stinks, but I'm still grateful I lost some. My weight has really slowed and so have the inches. I will continue to try. I am still waiting to see when my letter to insurance company for tummy tuck will be sent. I am anxiously awaiting that. Once I have my tummy done I think I will like my body better. I have noticed that for the last week I seem to get really tired by 2 pm. I want to be able to go for a walk before work then go after work so I can try to get about 5 miles in everyday, but in the afternoon I'm just too tired. I will try tomorrow and see what happens. Well, guess that's it for now. I'll talk to you all later.

8/4/02

Thought I'd list my inches lost along with my weight loss:

Date Inches Lost Weight Weight Loss
(overall)
11/24/01(Pre-op) 0 216# 0
1/8/02 (Post-op) 12.50" 201# 15#
1/23/02 (6wks) 18.25" ? ?
2/17/02 (2 mo.) 26.50" ? ?
3/10/02 (3 mo.) 32.25" 178# 38#
4/7/02 (4 mo.) 39.00" 168# 48#
5/5/02 (5 mo.) 46.00" 162# 54#
7/3/02 (7 mo.) 56.75" 148# 68#
8/3/02 (8 mo.) 59.00" 143# 73#
9/ /02 (9 mo.)
10/ /02 (10 mo.)
11/ /02 (11 mo.)
12/12/02 (1 yr.)

8/7/02

Had another busy day again. Started out by going to my daughter's middle school to enroll her today (she is officially a 6th grader). Boy, they grow up fast. Then left there and enrolled my son, and from there stopped off to work for a few hours. Then left there and had to go pick up my daughter from school (she had jump start today) and we went shopping for school supplies and clothes. Then came home from there and waited a few for my hubby to get home 'cause he wanted me to go to the doctor w/ him. He got his splint off his hand today. I am just pooped out. But couldn't of ran around like that this time last year w/out pooping out by noon. Well, I am still stuck at 143#. I have 21# to go to reach goal. Can't wait for school to start so I can get back into the routine of my exercise. I know that will help to get me going. I went to the gym the other day. I walked/ran on treadmill 2.5 miles then did another 1/2 mile and ran most of it. I felt great. I always feel good when I exercise. Can't wait to be able to concentrate more on that again. I am still waiting to hear when my plastic surgeon, Dr. Fischer, get my letter back from dictation so it can be forwarded to the insurance company. I am so anxious to hear whether or not they will cover it. I sure hope so. If so, I'm looking to have it by the end of the year. That will help w/ some of the weight I need to lose, but I want to try to be at goal by the time I do that. We will see. I am going to work hard the next few months, so I can try to get there. God willing I will be. Oh, I tried a pair of size 16 girls jeans on the other day and they fit. I am in a misses size 10 right now, so I was ecstatic. My size in between 8 - 10 depending on how the clothing is made. Well, that's all the news I have for now. Will update later. Take care and have a good journey all.

8/9/02

Hello everyone in AMOS land. I'm doing good this morning, so far (children haven't yet rose lol). Well I weighed this morning and to my wonderful eyes should appear...I am down to 141# this morning which gives me 19# to go to be at goal. Boy, am I anxious for that to happen. Just 2 more pounds and I will finally be in the 130's. I have waited so long for this time. I have been walking a minimum of 3 miles each time I walk. I will continue to try to increase that amount. I do run part of that. Wish I could get my endurance built up so I could run a continuous mile w/out stopping. That would be so cool. My endurance has picked up some though, cause before I couldn't run one lap around a track now I can run 2 continuous times. I almost cried the other day when I did that. I was so ecstatic, I came home and told hubby "you know what I did...just like a little kid". He was happy for me, but he always is. I'm grateful for my hubby, he's a wonderful, loving, caring man and would give his life for me to live. Well, guess this is about all for now. I'll talk to you great people later. Wishing you all the best in your journeys.

8/11/02

I'm ecstatic today! Last night the hubby & I went to a meeting that we regularly attend and I wore a pair of shorts that was a size 7/8. I was surprised at how comfortable they were for me to wear. After I washed them today when I was doing laundry, I held them up and freaked out because I never in my life remember wearing anything that small in my life. I was on cloud nine. I know I tried them on a month or so ago and couldn't even get them completely over the hips to zip them and yesterday I actually wore them. This is so weird. The only thing is I have my loose skin that hangs over, but I hid that w/ a T-Shirt. Hopefully the loose skin can be repaired soon. I am still waiting. I received my letter from the surgeon yesterday that he wrote to the insurance company asking for approval of a tummy tuck. We will see what happens w/ that in the next couple of weeks. Please keep your fingers crossed and prayers coming. Hope everyone is having a good day. Oh btw, I am up to doing 3 miles a day instead of 2. I hope to be increasing that as the months come on. Another thing that happened today was I realized that Gwen E. lives in Blakely, GA where my mother does, so the next trip down to GA I plan on stopping in a saying hello to her. Until next time, take care and enjoy your journey.

8/12/02

Morning everyone. Well, guess what I am 140# this morning. I have 1 pound to hit the 130's and 18# to hit the 120's. I am so very happy. Been somewhat a good weekend. That's it for now, but had to let everyone know.

8/20/02

Well this month has been a waste as far as trying to meet my goal by my 1 year anniversary. I haven't lost anything since the first part of the month and that was only a couple pounds. I need to lose at least 4 to 5 until 12/12/01 to be at goal. I see others that are close to my weight or a little over that make it and then some w/ less problems than me. It would be different if I never exercised, never watched the fat/carb intake that goes in my mouth, etc. but I do all that. Guess it's just not enough. I am finding it hard just to sit back & relax while I wait on the approval for tummy tuck because I know there is a bigger chance of being turned down for that than there was for WLS. But guess I don't have much choice except to sit here and wait. Guess I'm gonna try to go to the gym today and do my walking haven't been for 4 days or so. Too much going on here at home both mentally and physically. Can't wait for next week to be here, so the kids can go back to school and I can get on a regular exercise schedule. This doing it when I can get time doesn't work. You know what...Damn it I will make my goal even if it kills me. I have got to remain positive. Well good luck and have a great journey.

Ok, so maybe I will have a good day after all. On Tuesday's here at the office there is always a staff meeting. One of the ladies that work here came up to me (mind you I was standing in the doorway of the boss's office) and said you sure do look good and very small. I said "thank you, but I've still got about 18# to lose". She said you don't need to lose anymore and my boss said no you don't need to lose any more. They both said you will be too little then. That just made my day. My boss is a man mind you. I think I would feel good at this size if I could get rid of the flab on my tummy & legs. That just made me feel so good. I needed a boost since I've been in a real funk here lately. Thanks for all of your support everyone. It means alot.

Oh, another good thing about today. I went to Goodwill with my daughter yesterday and I found these pair of pants (very nice) by American Eagle that were a size small and I could wear them and they looked good on me. I even wore my shirt tucked in with them. My body is so different now. This is just amazing. I called the insurance company and they don't have my stuff yet. Guess I'll wait another week.

8/21/02

Hi everyone. Hubby & I had a wonderful talk last night. His support for me is just awesome. I felt down because it's been about a month since I've lost anything. As always he knows how to get me feeling better and back on track. I guess I should feel good because like I told him at least now I can wear clothes from 7/8's up to a 10, but they are loose on me. I don't ever remember being able to wear anything small than an 11/12 growing up. So I guess I have come a long way. I could probably wear 6's if I didn't have this flab on my tummy. Well, thought I'd let everyone know what a wonderful hubby I have and grateful to have him. Love to you all.

8/24/02

Good morning everyone. Well, I am down as of yesterday to 139. Now I have 17# to go to goal. I am excited again. Had our support group meeting last night and it was wondering. I enjoy being a part of something that is such a big part of my life. It gives me courage, hope and peace knowing that I will make it this time. I took my angelee (Kathy Brotton) out for her last dinner last night and had a wonderful time w/ her. I am so excited for her and all the other pre-'s heading over to the losing side of life. She will do well. Have a wonderful day.

8/25/02

Good news...I am 138# today. That is 78# gone forever!!!!!! I now have 16# to go to goal. I'm happy, happy, happy!!! Thanks to all for your support.

8/29/02

Hi everyone. Well, called BS of CA today and they have all of my papers and they are in review as we speak. The kind lady I spoke to today said to call back tomorrow afternoon and see if they have an answer. It normally takes 24 hours she said. Please cross your fingers that they approve me cause I really need to get insurance to pay for this tummy tuck. I need something good to happen cause the last couple of days have been torture. I will update more as I know. Thanks everyone.

8/30/02

Well, today I should find out if I'm approved or denied for "TT". Lord, I hope I'm approved. I will cry, cry, cry if they deny me. Keep fingers crossed. Lord willing, they will approve.

8/31/02

Hi everyone. Called yesterday to find out about "TT" and insurance said they sent it out for review and I should know something next Friday. So I will find out then. I feel miserable today. I drank water, etc. all day today and only ate an egg for breakfast and then I went grocery shopping and when I returned home I made some Ceasar Chicken Salad. I sat down put a bite in my mouth and before I could take a chew I felt nauseated. I ran spit out the food and barely made it to the toilet. I was dry heaving something fierce. Nothing came up cause I haven't eaten for many hours. After the dry heaving, my tummy ached really bad. Now I feel I really need a bowel movement but nothing wants to leave. My stomach looks swollen and is hard. This is so weird. I took some Colace we'll see if that does the trick. If not, I'll be calling my dear 'ole doc. This was just so weird though. Not sure why I started the dry heaving, glad it's over though. Well other than that not much going on. Keeping my finger, toes and everything else I can think of crossed till I find out if I'm approved or not. Good evening everyone. Take care and have a great Labor Day weekend.

9/4/02

Here it is September. Heck, it will be Christmas before we know it. Well, nothing new w/ me. I continue checking with the insurance company. Still in review. They sent my stuff to a surgeon that specializes in TT & medial thigh plasty and hopefully he will return with an approval for these procedures. I will scream if they don't. As for my tummy, I wound up taking a fleet enema. It helped. I don't have a round, hard tummy any more. Don't look like a skinny girl w/ a basketball for a pregnant stomach anymore. Guess that's about it.

9/6/02

Well, still nothing from insurance for TT & medial thighplasty. I sure hope they come back next week w/ an approval. I'm scheduled to go see my surgeon on 9/17. If I don't have it by then, then I will have to reschedule the appt. again. I hope I have something. I am ready to get on the ball & get this over with. Well, nothing else has changed. I'm still holding at 138#. Have a great weekend everyone.

9/7/02

Hi friends & family. Doing ok here. Still no word from insurance, but I will continue bugging them each and every day until I get my answer. God let it be a good one. Got up this morning and weighed in at 136#. Woohoo. That's 2 more pounds off what I need to be at goal. Talk about surprised. I had to weigh twice to make sure of what I was seeing. Well good luck to all having surgery this coming week. We've got 4 in our group. Taunja Chadwick had surgery yesterday w/ Dr. Sifers; Christine Jarrett (Dr. Sifers) & Leasha Hughes (Dr. Gorospe) are both having surgery on Monday 9/9/02; and Kathy Brotton on 9/12/02. You guys are going to do great. Can't wait to see you all on the "losing" side. Take care everyone and have a great day. I plan too. Oh btw, I bought a long jean skirt yesterday (I've wanted one since I've lost weight) and it was a size 8, but a little lose (I could of used a 7). I can take it up if I need too. I am just so ecstatic. That's it. Bye now.

9/8/02

Hi everyone. Well, my daughter gave me some short overalls today. Been wanting some forever...and they were a 7/8 and fit w/ a little room to spare. I wore them w/ only a sports bra underneath and it felt great. I have always wanted to dress like this...and now I can finally do that. It feels great to be able to wear almost whatever I want. This surgery is awesome and has been one of the very best things I could have ever done for myself. I enjoy my life now and know that it is so worthwhile. I have pleasure by being able to give to others what was freely given to me. We went to hubby's company picnic yesterday and it was in the mid 90's. Normally, I would have avoided that w/ the plague especially since it was so hot. But it was great. Rode the amusement park rides and it was just a great weekend...all in all. Take care everyone. Good luck to everyone having surgery this week.

9/10/02

Hi everyone. So far no word from insurance on approval/denial for TT/medial thighplasty. I'll try again today and see if they have anything back yet. I will be glad when they hurry up. Sometimes I think no news is good news, then I want them to hurry. Well, I am wearing my new long jean skirt today and I got a comment from one lady that says you are going to become anorexic if you keep on. I said nay, got a long way to go before that happens. I am starting to look pretty thin. But if they could only see me nude...then it would be a different story. I know what they mean when they talk about the Shar-pei look. I've got it going on. Guess, that all for now. Oh btw, got calls from friends/significant others of Leasha, Christine and Taunja and they all did great w/ there surgeries. One more to go this week...my angelette, Kathy. I will go up and visit her on Friday...her surgery is Thursday. Take care and good luck w/ all the surgeries this week.

9/11/02

Hello everyone. First off, let me say...GOD BLESS AMERICA!!! Today is a sad and solom day here in America. My heart goes out to all of the victims of 9/11/01. I will pray for the families that were deeply touched by this tragedy.

Now, last night we had a very good support group meeting. We had 4 new people. It was wonderful. I really enjoy the enthusiasm w/ this support group. It has been a good thing for it to fall for me to lead this group. I hope to see it grow much more as time goes by.

As for me, still nothing. I will be glad when I get some kind of reply back from insurance. I have an appt. schedule for next Tuesday, 9/17. I was hoping to have an approval, so that I could go in and discuss it further w/ surgeon and get a date. Right now I set about 14# from my goal weight. I will try again today and see if insurance has received anything. God's speed to those in waiting. Congrats to all w/ dates.

Got to share something funny that happened to me today. I went to the car dearlership to get an oil change and ran into my salesman. He looked me up and down and I thought he was going to just drool all over himself. He's funny any how. I said what's wrong Darren...all he could say is I can't believe how good you look. Made me feel so sexy. Amazing!!! When he last saw me I was only a couple months out from surgery. I am now wearing size 8's and kids size 14/16. I shared last night at the support group that I never wore those sizes before...I just skipped right over them. So I'm happy to be able to fit these sizes now. I love the new me and just wished I could get rid of the flabby skin. Thanks everyone for the love and support. You guys are awesome.

Guess what? I'M APPROVED....I'M APPROVED....I'M APPROVED!!!!!!! Talked to insurance and they approved me for the tummy tuck, but not the medial thighplasty. I'll take what I can get. If I decide to go ahead w/ the thighplasty then I will have to pay for that, but that's ok. I'll figure it out some way or another. I'm so happy. What a good day this turned out to be. After all the sadness today...there ended up being some happiness for me. Thanks for all the good wishes everyone.

9/12/02

Hi everyone. Well my angelette, Kathy Brotton, had her surgery today w/out complications. She is resting peacefully in ICU (which is common). Got up this morning & weighed 135#. I love losing weight. 4 days & a wake up and I go see the plastic surgeon. I'm so excited still!!!!! I woke up so happy this morning. Now to get a date and move on. Thanks everyone for you wonderful support. My strength comes from all of you. Take care and be good to yourself.

9/14/02

Good morning everyone. Sitting here drinking my coffee. I'm 134# on this wonderful am. Lots will be going on today. First off, got to try to get to Enterprise Rent-a-Car today. This young girl (not paying attention to what she was doing) ran out in front of hubby yesterday and messed up the front end of his truck. We can't do w/out our vehicles. It's very, very difficult. Well, I'll sign off and try to check in when I have more time. Till then, hope everyone has a wonderful day.

9/16/02

Well, tomorrow is my appt. w/ the plastic surgeon to discuss further my tummy tuck. Can't wait...I'm excited. I went to a garage sale on Saturday and found a couple pairs of slacks in a size 7. Can you believe a size 7. I'm fastly moving away from the 10's. Boy what will my tummy tuck do for me? This journey is so awesome. I can't explain it in words, but I am so grateful to have had a wonderful, knowledgable surgeon and that my surgery has gone relatively uneventful. I love seeing how my body changes w/ the loss of this weight...now to lose the flab, that is going to be exciting. Just wanted to share my enthusiasm of what I'm feeling. Love to you all.

9/18/02

Hi everyone. Update...went to see plastic surgeon yesterday and I am tentatively scheduled on 10/25/02 for a tummy tuck provided Dr. Bollman says it's ok to proceed. I will let everyone know for sure in October. I have an appt. with Dr. Bollman on 10/8/02. I am excited and looking forward to it. Also, I am now down another pound to 133#. I'm happy, happy, happy. I now have 11# to goal. Thanks everyone for your love & support. It is greatly appreciated.

Talked to the scheduler @ the plastic surgeon's office and here's the info:

**10/25/02 @ noon I will be having TT done @ Manhattan Surgical Center. I have to be there @ 11:00 am for check-in & prepping. I will have to stay overnight, but should be released the following morning. I want to have this over with though. That's it for me today. Take care and have a wonderful evening.

9/19/02

Hi everyone. Weighing in at 132#. 10# more to goal to be at my wonderful goal weight. Sometimes I have the fear of being to thin especially after having the TT. Never in my wildest dreams would I ever of thought I would be "too" thin. I have bones in places I didn't think bones existed. This is just amazing. My husband is just loving all the changes...and you know what...I am almost that "fantasy woman" men dream of (hubby says I will be after the TT for sure). He is loving it. I checked yesterday and my BMI was 25.1, this should or close to put me in the ideal range. Happy, Happy as Emeril would say. Thanks for all my wonderful supporters. Love to all of you. Have a great day!

9/23/02

Hello everyone. I'm still hanging around at 132#, but my BMI is 24.9 I'm actual in the "Ideal range". For my weekend, we got a call from brother-in-law and his wife's father passed away and husband was asked to play guitar at the funeral. Well, since I didn't have anything at all to wear we had to go buy me a new dress and shoes too (since feet has reduced in size as well). Believe it or not, I was able to buy a small 4-6 dress and it looked really good on me. Thought I'd let you all know. Guess I better be going, got to shower & get ready for work. Talk to you all soon.

9/26/02

Hi everyone. I have now fallen to 131#. That brings me to 9# of my goal weight. Yeah!!!! Well, today I took off work to join my friends Princess Jane and April in Tulsa, OK to see Carnie Wilson. I am so excited about this I don't know what to do. This will be something I will always remember because she's the one that gave me hope in having the wonderful life I do today. It's amazing the wonderful wishes God grants to us. I am grateful for all of them. Have a great day everyone. Talk to you soon.

9/27/02

Went to the Carnie Wilson seminar yesterday in Tulsa and it was wonderful. We had an awesome time. Went with Jane and April and we laughed. Met up with Kathy and her husband at the book signing. We arrived at 1:30 for the book signing at 2 pm. Got through that line and took a group shot w/ myself, Carnie, Jane, April and Kathy. From there we went to Jane's doctor's appt. and after that met up with Kathy and John. From there we proceeded to the pet store and then finally made way up to the Tulsa Jr. College for the 7 pm seminar. Got home at 11:56 pm. I am now up at 6 am to get ready for work. Who knows if I'll make it or not off of 4 hours sleep, but we'll give it a shot. It was just awesome though. Well everyone take care and have a great day. Support Group meeting for us here tonight, so I got lots to do today.

10/8/02

Hi everyone. I leave shortly for my check-up. Next check-up will be a year out or so. I am hanging around the 131# mark. Went down to 130# once, but only for a day. Guess I may be settling in. Who knows. I will update everyone when I return. Hopefully I won't weigh more than usual. See you all later.

10/9/02

Well, didn't get home till 9:20 last night. I forgot that I was suppose to go to the support group meeting last night when I got back into town. So I did that. I was so funny, we laughed and laughed. I was tired though. The check-up w/ Dr. Bollman went very well. We talked and I let him know I was scheduled for TT on 10/25. He says that as far as he's concerned and if I'm happy, he'll consider me at goal weight. This morning I weighed in at 130#. I said well I will see how much I can lose between now and when I have the tummy tuck. I should be able to get most of the weight off by then. To meet 122#. We'll see. If not, I will not beat myself up because I am happy with where I am and I don't want to be too small. By the time I have the TT, I will be thin enough. I do not ever remember being this small, so it is an adjustment. I go back to see Dr. Bollman on 12/10 which is 2 days before my anniversary. I am so very excited. I will take a picture with Dr. Bollman. He has been such an inspiration to me and has saved my life. I just can not find the words to express how I feel for this person. And his office staff is just the best. I just love going to see them. They are wonderful. Guess, that about all this morning to report. Time to check the message board and see what I missed yesterday. Love to all of you and you can succeed at this.

10/10/02

Hi everyone. Well, I'm very excited this morning. I am down to 128#. That leaves me with 6# to goal. Doing the happy dance!!!! I'm doing wonderful. My tummy tuck will be in exactly 2 weeks from today. I should definitely be to goal with that and probably then some. This journey has truly been awesome. Can't wait for Sunday when we have our 2 year anniversary get together for post-ops in Junction City (this is a get-together the doctor's office & hospital put together to celebrate their success and the success of their patients). I can't wait. I may wear my sleek little black dress. Can't wait just 2 more days. Well got to head off to work. Talk to you guys later. Love to you all.

10/16/02

Hi everyone. Well I am 1 week and 1 day from my tummy tuck. I leave on next Friday morning to head to the Surgical Clinic for my procedure. I can't wait to have it over with. Went to the 2 year anniversary in Junction City. Met the Assistant Surgeon, he's just as great as my Doctor. I don't know how to let them know just how much they have changed my life. I am so grateful to them. Right now I am standing at about 127#. That leaves me with 5 more pounds to lose to be at my actual goal. I'm sure between now and the when I have the tummy tuck that that goal will be met! This has been an incredible journey. Everyone that I come across has just been so wonderful to me. I appreciate everyone. Thanks.

10/20/02

Hi everyone. Hope everyone is having a great Sunday afternoon. I am doing great, just gearing up for my tummy tuck surgery on the 25th...just 5 short days away. I will work till Thursday and then will be off to recover. I am still maintaining my 127# weight, but wish I could get these other 5# off. But with the tummy tuck I will surely be able to get those off easily. Earlier this week I suffered with low blood surgars. My blood sugars dropped down to 46 which scared me to death. I grab all the sugar substances I could find to get my reading back up. I had used some honey spread that the hubby likes to eat and had to go lay down because I was very weak. When I woke the next morning, I was fine. Boy, that was scary since my blood sugars have never fallen that low. That has been my adventure for the week. Have a grand one and I will talk w/ you all later.

10/22/02

Well just 3 more days till I'll be heading out to Manhattan, KS to begin the journey of recovery from my TT that I will be having Friday. Today is a quiet, peaceful morning now that the kids have left for school. I enjoy this time alone so much. I'll be heading off to work in a few minutes. Just wishing these fews day will hurry. Well, it'll get here soon enough I guess. Well, I'll check back in before leaving. Take care all and have a great day!

10/23/02

Hello AMOS family. Sitting here at work with nothing going on on this drizzly, cold, rainy day. A day thats nice being spent at home wrapped in a warm blanket and being lazy. Trying to pass my time as best I can until Friday gets here. Now I remember what is was like waiting for my day for my RNY to arrive. My hubby just says "one day at a time dear". But he doesn't understand that I just want to get on with this. I can sometimes be very impatient. Tomorrow I will probably be pretty busy, but today I am not, so that leads me to having a long, drawn out day plus the rain doesn't help. Well, I'm just being whiny. Will update more later. Oh by the way, I'm still stuck @ 127#. I was hoping to be 125 or less when I had the tummy tuck, but oh well...I'm not far off. Bye for now.

10/27/02

Hello everyone. Had my tummy tuck done on Friday, October 25th. Did wind up having to have a few hernias repaired while in there. That wasn't expected. The surgeon nor myself even new I had them, but he fixed them any how. When my hubby told me I thought he was lying...I said "I didn't have any hernias...you're joking aren't you". Well when Dr. Fischer came in he said no, he's not joking you did and we fixed them. But I have a pretty little smiley face and the bottom part of stomach/upper pubic area. Goes hip bone to hip bone and it looks nice. Should heel well. My surgery was about 2 hours long. I had some pain meds before getting to my room, but nothing after that. I didn't fill my Vicodin (pain med script), but did the Keflex (antibiotic) he gave me. I have an appt to go see him next Thursday, October 31st. They took 2# of excess skin off of me. Not much, but enough for me not to like it as it looked all wrinkly and things. I weighed in the morning of surgery at 126#, so I should be once things level out at about 124# or so. Oh, I just wanted to mention that when you have a tummy tuck depending on where the surgeon cuts your pubic area can be really sore. Mine the day of and yesterday, but this morning isn't too bad. Well, guess I'll go get ready for my shower and find something for breakfast. Thanks for all the support everyone. Have a blessed day!

11/03/02

Well, here it is November. The turkey's will be out soon. I'm doing ok after my tummy tuck. Just wishing I could hurry up and get this other stupid drain out of my body. My body is hating it. It hurts. I guess if I had to rate it...that has got to be the worse part. I'm hoping to be able to let hubby pull it today or tomorrow...if not it will come out on Thursday when I go to have some of my stitches removed. I have dissolvable in the actual incision and removable sutures in the belly button. Thank god he doesn't have to remove that tremendous amount of sutures. I would just die. I must say that this was easy for me pretty much. At first I wasn't looking forward to it, but there has really been any pain, just majorly uncomfortable. Now that I'm where I can move and do things a little easier, I need to get back to basics. Right now with my tummy tuck, I'm still swollen some and healing in the incisional area. Can't wait for the swelling to go down so I can wear normal clothing again. Don't know what I'll do this week since I've got to go back to work. I guess I'll wear the few sweats I've got until I can fit back into my work clothes. I will start my maintenance in December when I go back to see Dr. Bollman for the last time this year. Well, guess I'll run along. God bless you all.

11/7/02

Hi everyone. I am doing great. Went for my 2 week follow-up appt for my tummy tuck and he said things look great and so far looks like the best he's done yet. We'll see when the swelling goes down. So far I'm happy. I had this funny thing happen last night. I didn't wear my binder to bed like I normally do each night and I rolled over on my side to lay by my hubby and I looked down and said "oh my goodness" I can see the bed. I didn't have my extra flab take up room on the bed. I said oh yes this was worth it, meaning the tummy tuck. I feel great and am starting to really get around good again. Boy, do my legs need it, but I will be waiting a while before any more surgical procedures are done on this girl. I've had enough of the OR room and surgery all together for a while. Well, hubby and I are headed out for dinner w/ brother in laws, so I'll see you later.

11/12/02

Well, good morning AMOS. So far this morning, not too bad provided I can get my son to behave. Well, yesterday we (kids & I) went shopping in Newton at the Outlet Mall. I found a pair of jeans I've been wanting for quite some time. They are the ones you have to have a decent figure in order to wear them. I picked up a size four (with my daughter's help) thinking all along they weren't going to fit, but I got to the dressing room (mind you I still had on my binder from TT surgery), tried them on and Oh me oh my, they fit nicely. I held my wonderful feeling all afternoon 'till my hubby came home from work. I grabbed his arm pulled him to the bedroom proceeded to put them on and he was in ahhh of what he saw. I modeled them for him and then took them off. He grabbed them and said oh my they are a 4. I said yep and they look good. He leaned into me and said baby I like how they fit, they look very sexy the way they fit your behind (well he used another phrase, but I'll keep it clean). That was such a wonderful feeling. That couldn't have come at a better time. Today marks my 11 month WLS anniversary and I'm just ecstatic of where my life is today. For once in my life I actually have a waste. I am beautiful today. Well, I'll write more later...gotta get kids off to school.

11/14/02

Hi everyone. Boy am I feeling wonderful. The comments just keep coming. I really am starting to feel skinny now. It's taken a while, but I think I'm feeling it. I weighed this morning and I am at 123#. One awful pound to goal. Think I'll actually accomplish my goal this time around. I can't wait to walk into my surgeon's office next month and hop on that scale and it read my goal weight. He will be just ecstatic for me. I'm happy. My life is great and my husband...well, let's just say he loves the new me. I asked him last night if it felt like he had a new wife and he said no, just a new & improved wife. That was wonderful to hear. He has just been all over me lately. Wonder what's up with that...giggle giggle...lol. For anyone reading this, go for your dreams, don't let anyone take away from you what you want/need. Life is too short to live unhealthy and miserable. Go for it. It has been the best thing that has happened to me. I just love what I'm doing in life today. I can finally say I LOVE being me.

11/25/02

Hi everyone. Well, last week was a big struggle with lots of stress all at home ya know. Well, went Saturday to a dance and then went to a coffee shop w/ some friends. Had a blast. I wore a sexy pair of jeans. Before we left hubby took some pics of me which will probably be my after pic. I love it. I look sexy and felt sexy. Dressing in a way I never have before. Went to Gadzooks (this store caters to petite young girls) to check out some clothing. I found a nice pair of pants & top. My daughter, who is 11 yrs old, said "mom, you never wanted to dress like this before" and my reply was "because I could never wear stuff like this before". She says "I am so glad you had the surgery cause now we can go shopping together". I said yeah. I am enjoying this part so much. It is wonderful. Well, must be off to work now. Will update more later.

11/29/02

Hi everyone. Well, seems like I am back to normal now. I have went up to 124# and can't seem to get down below that. I think now since Thanksgiving is over I am really going to work and get to my 122# mark. I go on 12/10 for my one year check-up. I really wanted to be at my goal weight by then, but I am happy about where I am. I am running into the being scared of gaining my weight all back now that I'm where I've always wanted to be. Why do we do this to ourselves? Don't know, but the thought is always there. Watch the program on 48 Hours this evening and it was awesome. I think they did a really good job on that. Of course, there are little things I could complain about, but it was better than some I had seen. For our December support group meeting we will be having a meeting/party. I hope alot of people show up. Guess we will see next weekend. Last weekend the hubby and I went out to a group dance and to coffee at a coffee shop afterwards and had an awesome time. We slow danced to a song and I finally felt comfortable w/ dancing. He said I did a wonderful job. Normally, I'm so worked up that I step on his feet or mine or whatever. I looked beautiful and he was in ah of how I looked. He couldn't keep his eyes or hands off me. That felt great. He loves my new body and so do I. It feels good to be normal for once. My one year anniversary is in a couple of weeks. Can't wait. Well, guess I'm done for this evening. Oh wait, I am finding that I can eat about as much as a normal person. May be that is why I am starting to freak out a little. This is something I will be discussing when I see Dr. B on 12/10. Otherwise, I'm doing fine. Talk to you all soon.

12/8/02

Well here it is 4 days before my one year WLS anniversary and I am sitting at goal weight. Got up this morning and felt the need to weigh and oh my goodness I'M AT GOAL WEIGHT!!!! Am I excited...yes...do I love it...yes...would I do it again...yes, yes, yes. Things couldn't be better with me. I am one sexy, healthy, loving myself woman today. I go on Tuesday the 10th for my one year check-up...it's going to be awesome. Can't weight to see doc and let him know I'm at goal. I'm just so thrilled. I've been fighting this last couple pounds for I don't know how long. Now it is here. I'm just on top of the world with knowing I've made it! Well, gotta run. Lots to do.

1/5/03

Well, it's been a few weeks since I've posted and thought I had better get on here and update. The holidays were wonderful. Still at goal weight which is good. My family and I went back to Alabama for Christmas this year and had a wonderful time. My grandmother said something to me that just floored me. She said "if only your grandpa could see you now. He would be so proud". He passed on in early March of this year and so it has been difficult for everyone. My grandmother called me when I got back home just to tell me "thanks for you & your family being here...it made the holidays easier to get through since 'Pop' isn't here with us". I'm so glad I could make it down. My family is not a rich family...I guess we struggled, but made the best of what we had. But one thing I can say with everyone pitching in a little here and there, my grandpa is in a beautiful place...his spirit in heaven...his body in a wonderful gravesite. It is so beautiful. My grandparents mean the world to me, as you can probably see. So this year was extra special for me. We were going to just stay home for Christmas, but something told me about 2 weeks before we left that I should go and be with them this year. God gives you what you need when you need it.

As for me, I get more hungry and can eat more at one sitting than I could before and that is scary, but I'm trying to eat only things that are good for me. If I could tell one person, one thing to help them, that would be....if you don't push the envelope and try sweets or whatever then never do that...don't try to find out how far you can go without dumping. I've never dumped even though there has been times that by all rights I should have. I want my pouch to work for me for the rest of my life, but I am the only one that can make that happen and to make it happen I have to follow the rules. I have enjoyed my journey and want to continue on the path of good health. So in order to do that I MUST follow the rules handed to me by my dear Doctor.

Well, that's all for me today and I hope if there is anyone out there that would like to talk that they will email me. This is so very near and dear to my heart and I love helping anyone that I can. Love and best wishes to you all. This is a new year, lets make it the best we can.