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9/21/04
Open RNY distal 8/27/04
I have been morbidly obese since the birth of my first child and the 70 pounds I gained from being pregnant with him. He weighed 10#. My precious little girl weighed in at a whopping 10#4oz. Unfortunately I had gained about 68 lbs through out the pregnancy. Now lets just add the 46 pounds I gained after my latest addition who also weighed 10# 71/2 oz. WHEW!!! All natural deliveries and all overdue. Anyway I topped out at 306 pounds. Other than the fact that I found out I had sleep apnea, my health was ok. I am extremely high risk for diabetes and high blood pressure. Runs all the way up both sides of the family. Matter of fact I have lost two dear relatives to diabetes and one from complications of high BP. I watched them all take their last living breaths, and guess got really scared of having this happen to me. Right now mom and dad are battling diabetes and are starting to have some serious problems. I am so afraid of dealing with this disease that I decided the surgery was the right choice for me. It took 2 years of research and even an episode of cold feet a year ago to decide to have surgery. It also took the last 2 years of not being able to enjoy my 3 beautiful kids. It's hard to watch your kids live and play without you. I love to play ball and slide and run and play kick can. But at 306# it get's to be kind of painful and tiresome. So I went through all of the consultations for the Bellin Bariatric program. The ultrasound, the psych eval, the physical, blood work, and visits with the nutritionist. The process took about 4 months. Then the insurance wait. This was the worst. I was approved after the first try. Surgery date scheduled, 8/27/04.
Surgery went very well. The nurses were super helpful. Especially SUE who I definately want to see again. I had no pain, and no problems what so ever. I was sleeping in my own bed within a week. no pain meds needed after I left the hospital. Even went to work 10 days later. Not bad...if i do say so myself. The whole surgery ordeal was anything but an ordeal. I had expected it to be so much more.
Today I am down 26 lbs from 306 pre-op. feeling pretty good for the most part. I work with 250 kids ages 0-5 daily and I think I may have picked up a little bug of some sort. Not suprisingly.
I was kind of hoping for the massive weightloss like you see in some of the male profiles. No such luck. But I guess -26lbs. isn't so bad for 3 1/2 weeks out. I see my surgeon on Thursday. Hope all goes well. Will update later
9/24/04
POSOH Nemat!
(hello friends) Well...all went well with Dr. Tom yesterday. Weight loss was confirmed at 27 lbs. Not too shabby. The combination of pureed and soft food is going well. At times I eat a new soft food like braunschweiger and cheese. And at times I go back to the pureed. I am kind of just experimenting right now to see what I can tolerate. I still eat the very small portions for the most part. I am starting to feel hungry now, where before I just kind of ate because of the surgeons schedule of meals and drinks.
Foods that have been bad are: Ramen noodles, pinapple orange juice, coffee (decaf), and that is pretty much it. I have tolerated most everthing I have tried otherwise. Today Ill be having some pea soup for lunch (campbells healthy selects) of course.
I hope the weight loss continues at this rate. 3 # a week. I may make my goal before the 1 year anniversary. 180 is my 1st goal. and my second goal will be a size 12-14 clothing and what ever weight it takes to get to that size. You know...regular size clothes.
I know it sounds kind of backwards but, I am very large framed. (I think I was supposed to be man or something.)HAHAHa I have huge shoulders, no boobs and massive feet and hands. LOL, so 180# for me was anywhere from size 16 to 18. (tight) if my recollections serve me right. I was pretty buff too, from all the working out for the track/field tournaments. Hard to believe I once had muscles....sometimes more than the fellas my age at that time. Good thing they were all my buds or I may have been teased a lot.
My frame never bothered me though. But the boob thing, gosh my family would tease. (they have kind of a morbid, cruel sense of humor) When I had my 1st child, I decided to take a stab at breast feeding. My dad was sitting in the living room one day when it was time to nurse and told me with a giggle, Gee Love your gonna starve that kid.....LOL. (Needless to say all three of my kids were breastfed and very healthy weights.) Even my little sister used to laugh at my cup size. My 10 yr old sister would say, "Oh lovey your "taydaydays" (boobs in her language) are just cute!"
Truth is it was really funny. We still get a kick out of it, BUT ya know what, as big as I am....I can skip without holding my chest. LOL. All my family have huge boobs, and with them boobs come aches and pains, so I guess I don't feel too cheated. But maybe I would like to get PS just to get them a little more proportionate to my large frame. LOL! OR NOT!heehee.
My kids are very impressed with the change in my weight. I haven't told them how much I've lost, but they comment everyday on how much lighter I look. My little angels. See upcoming Photos. Will update soon.
10/6/04
306 # - 33lbs
The weight loss continues but at a slower pace. I am trying new foods. Potato salad is a big NONO! Also had my first dumping episode. It was late dumping so I cant really figure out what caused it. It happened like 2 hours after I ate. I only drank water and it was well after the 45 minutes the surgeon said to wait after eating. Maybe it was too much water. I may never know....either way that is not a good feeling. Wooeee.
I have been trying new beverages. the crystal light and water are getting pretty sickening. I tried a diet snapple raspberry tea, YUCK! I have also tried regular snapple. So far it's okay. I am really nervous with the sugar content though. I will only be drinking this one I think. The surgeons instructions leave room for most juices. So I may try to drink a little more fruit juice. I treated my self to a burrito from taco bell today.....this isn't a habit, I was just wishing for a spicy food.
My friend Mel has told me that she is down -130 lbs in 9 Months. amazing! I hope and pray that I do as well. I have started walking with my mom again. Hopefully that will give my weight loss a little boost. I plan on going to the gym as soon as this head cold is done. I have had problems with getting in the water and protien. It's not that I can't fit it in, it's that I am so busy at work most days I don't have the time. I also haven't had the time to do any ff/sf grocery shopping. Lack of funds, and transportation have been a factor. I have been eating small portions of what my family has been eating for meals. This worries me because not all of the dinners are healthy. I hope this doesn't hurt my weight loss too much.
My monthly pal came this week and has caused mega crunchy munchies. I'm trying to settle them with chex mix and it's worked for the most part. Hopefully this works for the duration. My hunger has been hitting me pretty hard lately. I know it's mostly because I haven't been getting in the fluids I should. That will be my goal for the rest of the month. To push fluids until I hit the mark I'm supposed to be at.
I must confess, I miss the guys at the bar. I love shooting pool, and havin drinks with my chums. And this past weekend I went out and drank. I know....not good, but geez I been a shut in for the last 6 weeks and I'm a very social person. anyway I have come to find out am an official Light Weight drinker. It no longer takes half a dozen tequila's to get me tipsy. Now it takes 1 mixer. LOL..Anyway that's enough of that business, Ice water will have to do for awhile. I want to get to goal asap and if alcohol inhibits that, I need to stop.
Well today's stats are
5 1/2 weeks out
273 lbs
-33 from 306 preop
My goal is 165 lbs or size 12 clothes
10/11/04
Okay, Today I weighed in at 269. Down another 4 lbs. Thank Goodness. I was beginning to worry my monthly visitor would keep the weight on forever. I still have some concerns with the water and protien. I need to find some recipes to try to get the protien supplements in. I may try a coffee recipe I saw on the main message board today. the smell of the protien is what makes it hard to drink. Yuck. Not much else to post.
10/22/04
I stayed at 269 until just yesterday when I finally dropped another 3 pounds. All is going well. Still having problems with the protien intake. I'm forcing it, but it's not feeling very good. Water is pretty good. My appetite has picked up quite a bit. I actually ate a whole lean gourmet meal today. They arent very big but I've never been able to eat that much before. Kinda scary.
I am down to a loose fitting 22w from a tight 26w. That feels good. Anyone else have a crooked tummy. The scar is a little off to the right and the left side of my jelly belly seems to stick out more than the right. as a matter of fact the right side is downright flat. weird. But not complaining the weightloss is making life so easy now. I have so much more energy than I've had in the last 9 years.
My baby girl (9yo) thinks it's so cool! She says, "Mom your gonna be skinny" and always remarks how she sees me getting slimmer. I like the way she says these things to me. They make me feel soooooGooood. My 12 yo son even thinks its cool. He hugged me one day and said, mom I can feel how skinny your getting. WOOOO HOOO. I love it. My Hubby can't keep his hands or eyes off my new slimmer butt and legs. (I've been working out.) I know it sounds goofy for all this change with only -40 lbs gone, but it does look pretty dramatic on my frame. I'm a very big boned woman.(size 12 shoe, size 11 rings) Very Big boned. So it has made quite a bit of difference. Everyone is noticing the weightloss. It's great.
10/26/04
306/264/180
Down another 2 whole pounds, but as long as it's down, I am a happy camper. All is going well. Still no problems with food. I can eat almost anything. I still avoid sugar and most junk foods. I did eat the topping off a pizza the other day though. I go out and shoot pool on Wednesday nights with the fella's,and so far we are a winning team. We hope to take the championship this year.
I am so happy for this gift that was given to me. I could never have dreamed of losing -42 lbs in less than 3 months. ever.....I thank the creator every day for what I have been blessed with. My Husband, My children, and now my health. I live a very modest life. I don't have nice cars or a 2 story home, or all the luxuries that many have, but I have more than I need. As long as my family is happy and healthy, nothing is more important. I am a rich woman with many blessings, and for every one I thank the Creator himself. (and Dr. Tom too)
11/9/04
306/259/????
Hi There my WLS friends! Today I weighed in at 259. that puts me down to -47 lbs. Not a huge dramatic difference. But considering my monthly visitor has arrived, I'd say not too bad. I just went bought myself these really cool pink suede high heeled boots. I wore them this weekend. That was so much fun and I got a lot of nice remarks on the weightloss. I even did the CHA CHA with my little sister.
My kids are doing well. Hubby is doing great, and all are impressed with my weightloss. I have such a supporting family, their just wonderful. DH compliments me every day on the new slimmer me. I still don't see it, but he's starting to call me skinny. LOL! Not quite there yet, but gimme a few more months. I'll be going to Michigan this week end to visit some of my family. My grandfather is from Baraga, and I know of my family from there but haven't seen them in at least 12 years. I am very excited. Daddy is going to be playing in the Casino there. The "WOLF RIVER BAND". they play mostly country and oldies rock n roll. But they're pretty cool. so I'm expecting to have a great time...
that's it for now I'll post later
11/15/04
Hello again comrades.....Great weekend in Michigan. The band was great, seeing the family was fun and exciting, and not the mention the beautiful scenery. Down another 2 pounds today. (smile) I have come to accept, I will be a slow loser. Thats okay with me. 49 pounds in less than 3 months is more than I could have ever done in the past. I have to admit though I havent been exercising or getting in all the water. I'm not too concerned with protien shakes any more at this point. I get alot of meats and cheeses in my daily diet. Dr. Tom didn't seem to concerned with it either when I told Him I just couldn't gag down another one of those horrible things. I haven't set any kind of goals for my weightloss really until just today. I want to get back down to my high school weight of 172. That makes a total of 85 more lbs to get to that goal. I hope it's not too unrealistic. I will start with water tonight, and look for a different kind of protien supplement. Did the atkins edge bar and ate too much at once and got the worse tummy ache in the world. so I haven't done those in about 3 or 4 days. I'll definately try again though starting this week. Salt has been my enemy this week. I just want salt for some reason. I had a tomato and ate it like an apple with salt. OOPS! not a good thing considering I tend to hold a lot of water weight. I think I'll buy some of the Mrs. dash or low sodium salt for these times.
306/257/172
11/22/04
Two more pounds gone forever! Very pleased with the results. Although it may be a bit slow, I seem to be melting away at a nice steady rate. Ready to go down to a size 20W officially. That means no stretch, regular jeans. WOO HOOO! Time to go to the local (FIFI's) or goodwill as you may all know it. LOL!
Having a few problems with my hubby. He is watching me lose and realizing how much he has gained and is having a hard time dealing with it. I got a lot of good advice from members here on the main board. Thank goodness for all of you! I was so stressed out about this situation. We will make it though. How? I don't know yet, but with love and encouragement I know he will make a decision that is right for him. Whether it is WLS or not. And of course I will support him in what he wants to do to make his/our life long and healthy.
I had two minor milestones this weekend....I discovered that their is a wrist bone in my wrist and that I can now tie my shoes without holding my breath.LOL! Believe it or not, that was a small goal of mine. Gee back when I first started by journey, tying my shoes was a situation where I would almost pass out It was such a chore!
I go to see Dr. Tom on Wednesday. I am a little nervous, due to the fact that my weightloss has slowed so dramatically. I hope all goes well.
My baby boy (almost 3) will be starting school on the 13th of December. I hope he does well. He's still having some problems with potty training. He goes, but he needs to be reminded almost hourly. Maybe when he sees the other kids going, he'll pick up some good habits.
Today's stats:
306/255/172
-51 lbs
12/6/04
Hello everyone! Today I am happy to post a -4lb loss. I am now down to 250 1/2. I get to move down to the 200 notch on the scale pretty darn soon.
As far as everthing else....ppppsssttthhhh! I just seem to be having all kinds of issues. Well, not me really but my husband and I. He is having such a hard time with the insecurity issue that it has got me in an outright tizzy. I'm angry, and confused and most of all hurt by the things that he says. I have tried to be loving, understanding and compassionate to the way he feels. (NOT WORKING)!!! I love this man, Always have....I even loved him when he left me for that *&%#! other woman 5 years ago. I managed to work through all the insecurities and issues that come with that, why can't he do the same. I haven't been with another man, nor do I have the inclination to do so. But, he does and says everything to make me feel horrible about my Weight loss. Just last night, he told me I look too sick and that I don't even look healthy and that I look like a cancer patient. First of all, I am not that skinny, second of all, I am in total PMS mode. So I didn't fix my hair or put on make up. But just the idea that he needs to say such mean things to me to make himself feel ok, breaks my heart. Been crying over this for the last 3 days. I have never cheated on my husband, I don't even flirt with other men. I have never given him a reason to think I would. I just wish he would find some kind of peace with himself, before he pushes me right out of his life. I just feel like he hates me sometimes. Well enough of that....too much self pity. I'm over it now....
Anyway, I hope all of you are doing well. I apologize for all the negativity. Thanks for listening.
306/250/172
12/20/04 Whooo, what was up with that nutty hormonal bag of junk that week...I will officially apologize for that terrible day and for dumping on all you nice folks. I am now doing well and the above mentioned issues are steadily being resolved.
To date I have dropped -60 pounds which puts me at 246. I havent been there since #1 son was born. wow....things are going steady as usual. 1-2 lbs a week. THIS IS A GOOD THING!!! I really need to cut out salty stuff and cut down on carbs. I've been doing a lot of crackers. Not a good deal. I know these foods are not good for me, so today I am officially knocking them off my menu! More veggies and salads. More water. Maybe even more protien shakes! yuck....Maybe. Anyway I hope you all have a fabulous holiday break...I know I will. Love and Best wishes to you all....Merry XMAS and all that Jazz....LOVEY
12/28/04
Boy, am I glad the holiday's are over. I love my family and the gatherings, but holey moley that's alot of cooking. WHEW! I gained about 4 lbs. Water weight I'm sure. I had quite a bit of salt, and since the month is coming to an end, my monthly visitor is going to be visiting soon. I won't be too discouraged, but it still makes me sad to see the scale going the wrong way.
Some issues for me the last week include; portion size is getting me nervous. It takes alot more to get me full these days. I'm trying to get the protien shakes in but am so inconsistant. Water needs to be upped. and of course the 4 lb. gain. Have a Happy new year all!
306/250/172
1/31/05
Sorry I havent updated in a while. This time of year Head STart gets so hectic. Well my stats for this week are: down -68 lbs, yes I broke that plateau. God it just kept hanging on. Glad that finally changed. I am getting back on the fitness wagon again, and am pretty sure that's what kicked the plateau to the curb. I'm just sitting here in my office munching on my afternoon snack of fat free cottage cheese and a few sunflower seeds. I know they are really salty but they keep me from munching the bad stuff. Got work from my girl-friend today that we will be attending the Kenny Chesney / Gretchen Wilson concert in Green Bay next month. I am soooooo excited. I love both their music.
OH yeah. I was in New Orlean the week of the 10th. HOLY Party Town batman! It was a crazy week....crazy, but fun. Friendly folks in that city. Loved it, and yes I am going again. Soon hopefully.
Well that's it for now. Hope everyone is having a great journey. Take Care..
LOVEY
306/238/172
2/25/05
Whew, Been a while since my last update. I don't have much change to report anyway. I'm still at 238. No change in weight, but feels like my clothes are starting to get a little loose. I have my six month visit with dr. tom next wednesday. I hope I am doing okay by his standards. I feel like I should be losing more, but havent yet.
Last week me and my crew went to Wisconsin Dells for a short vacation. We stayed at the Kalahari resort. Very nice. The indoor water park was so much fun, AND I wasn't even too embarassed to ride the slides. My kids loved it and so did I. I think at one point I was having more fun than them.
Well, I guess that's it for now here's this weeks stats
307/238/172
Good luck every one!
LOVEY
5/16/05
Sorry I haven't updated in a while. Had some health issues and have been off work since 4/17/05. I am down to 229 as of today which is 9 more pounds gone since february. The weight loss is still pretty slow, but at least the scales are moving. I still need to get back into walking and exercising. Being sick really made it hard to do that. Anyway, I'm back. My appetite has increased quite a bit. I catch myself grazing occasionally and try to put a stop to it when it happens.
I hit a pretty deep depression these last two months and am now on anti-depressants which are helping a bit. I know once I start exercising again regularly that will help too. I have lost contact with most of my friends since I got sick but will be again making contact with them soon.
The kids and my hubby are doing fine. OMG I forgot to mention that my hubby is actually considering having the surgery!!!! I had no idea. He was soooo absolutely against it when I talked to him last. Then all of a sudden he tells me that he may be considering having it. I won't push the issue, I know it's a personal choice and everyones views are different, but I would so love it if he does. I worry about his health so much! I know he would do great!
Anyway, I got sick last month with some kind of stomach virus and doc also found a hernia that will eventually need to be repaired. I was in the hosptal for a couple of days. But am feeling pretty good now. In the time I was off work I managed to make my daughter 2 fancy dance outfits and the beadwork to match. I am now working on my youngest sons bustle and should be done in a day or so. My two youngest should be ready for the Veterans pow wow this weekend. My oldest really had no interest in dancing this year so I didn't bother to make him any regalia. I eventually want to get back into dancing myself. Maybe next summer I will. I need to grow my hair back out though. I cut it boy short a few months back and it'll take a little more than 3 months to grow back long enough to do braids. Well, I guess that's it for now.
Everyone keep up the great work !!
306/229/172 57 pound till goal!
June 15, 2005
Hello Again my Friends!! Well....the latest stats are as follows:
Down to 220 on last Thursday and back up to 228 this Wednesday! But I ain't the least bit worried. My "sick time" is more than due. Havent been able to get regular for a few years now. But anyway. Not much going on with me other than bouncing around these last few lbs. I haven't gotten back on the gazzelle yet for a couple of months. I ended up with a nice sized hernia after a bout with pneumonia a month back. I still find myself in a bit of pain when I try to work out. Ended up in the hospital for a few days on that dreadful liquid diet. All is going well now though. Accept for this huge alien sized bulge in the middle of my abdomen. That kinda pisses me off cause this old tummy of mine was shrinkin down pretty flat. Now I got this funky bulge stickin out. Looks like I'm stashing a football under my shirt. yuck! Well doc says hernia repair surgery is going to take care of that when all the weight is done coming off. That's fine, I suppose I can deal with a bulge for a few more months, heck I dealt with a huge belly just about all my life why would this lil bulge bother me now right???teehee. Anyway, my goals are still about the same as before. But my short term goal is to get under 200 before my year in August. The day I do that, I'm gonna try a cartwheel. Something I haven't done since the early 1990's. Anyway, I'd better get back to pretending I'm working. hahaha!
Best wishes to you all!
& Hi Pam! I updated just for you!!!!
As Always,
Lovey 309/220/172
September 26, 2005
Wow It's been awhile huh......Well I still am at 220 and havent really gained or lost since my last update. I have been going through some personal / financial issues so haven't been focusing on the weightloss like I should. Nor have I been watching what I eat. I have tried just about every type of food, good and bad. My pattern of emotional eating has returned and I am having a hard time breaking out of that mode. I at least am aware of it and hope to change it soon. I am going to do may best to get back on track starting today. My diet and exercising will become again a top priority. (It's so easy to say these things and yet, so hard to actually do them.) But by putting this in writing and out there for all of you to see will hopefully make me stick to it. I'm glad to be back and I love the new look of the site. By the way, the reason I haven't updated in so long is that our funds were cut and basically internet was one of the budget cuts.
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