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Wheeling, WV, USA
Post Op - BMI: 43.1
Surgery Type: RNY
Member ID: T1042001745
Surgeon: David Ghaphery, M.D.
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I QUIT SMOKING TODAY....
I went for a two mile walk today hoping it would calm the day's events.
02-01-03 Just trying to keep busy and not think about the wait. Walked for 5 miles today. Did some soul searching. My surgeon Dr. Gaphery said he has done 50 of these surgeries and all have been Laparoscopically. He says my gall bladder scar will be an obstacle but others have been done with it. He hasn't done an "open" yet. God I hope I'm not the first one. He said "well, if you're willing to give it a try, then so am I". A little scary. My husband and I own a DJ business and summer is a very hectic time. I need to be healed as much as possible by then. Our other jobs continue in the summer as well.
02-02-03 Last night my husband asked me if I couldn't try another method of dieting before resorting to this. My sister came over and I educated her on gastric bypass and showed her and internet film of the actual surgery. She said "you do what you feel you need to do". That's the most support I have gotten so far. Today is day 4 without a cigarette. I'm doing this for my health.The waiting is tough. I am looking forward to my first support meeting. I walked 5 miles today. I need to be ready for this surgery,whether or not it actually comes about.
2-0-03 Well, as some of you have read I WAS APPROVED! I can't explain how that felt. There are no words to describe it. I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS GOING TO HAPPEN FOR ME. It was a very busy day, I got the word I was approved, then had to go to work, babysit the grandkids for the weekend etc.. It finally hit me today when I got to log on and read the postings and messages that people sent. I cried and cried. I don't have any real family support and you guys have become my family. I am grateful for all of your postings. I must become a better supporter of other people here with low posts. I am still not smoking but today was harder than any of them so far... I was miserable. I have to concentrate on the bigger picture and do my part in making this surgery a success. 30 MORE DAYS OF THIS LIFE LEFT. THE OLD ME WILL BE DYING and the new life will begin. LOOKOUT WORLD!
2-11-03 Just wanted to thank those that signed in on my profile.
3-11-03 will be here before you know it. Trying to stay busy. I have lot's to do before then.The words of encouragments mean a lot to me. Lacking on family support here. You guy's are my support. I'm busy transcribing a thank you letter to the medical review board for giving me a second chance at life. I do hope all of you will do the same. I'm still battling the smoking monster but have not touched one since I started. Had lunch with another smoking friend.They're EVERYWHERE! I bought a journal to jot down my new life. I will go back and read it after I have reached my goal. I don't even have a goal. Just wanna get a lot of this weight off so I can start jogging again. Imagine me, at 250 jogging?? I did it for several months until my joints said "STOP"! That is what started my research for solutions on getting this weight off. Mind you, I had never ran 10 steps in my life. Last summer I started walking and just out of nowhere, started jogging and LOVED it! The rest is history. The journal will help pass time. I'm writing letters to each of my 3 kids, my two grandkids, my sister and my husband for them to read just in case fate has it that I don't survive surgery. If I do it can stand for my exit whenever it may be. I have worked for years with Hospice patients and I think I should have done this a long time ago. I think my family would love to recieve a letter at the time of my exit. We ALL go sometime and I want to leave some nice words. Call me morbid but I watched my mom die a slow and painful death with Cancer and I don't take my days for granted. I know how fragile life can be. I am an organize freak! Like to have all my ducks in a row. ô¿ô Tomorrow is my first support group and I am very excited to be a part of it.
2-12-03 Went to my first support meeting tonight and we saw a lot of success stories. Everyone was honest about the "good, bad and the ugly" reality that sometimes comes our way. It was nice to get to see Jennifer O and Stacey. Stacey reported that her mom Carol was released today which was wonderful news. Carol had some obstacles to overcome before she could go home. MORE GREAT NEWS! Nancy Jo wants to be my angel!!! I hope she has a great set of wings! She's gonna need them! I'm very grateful to have her support. The big day will be here before I know it. I'm just busying myself with a lot of small stuff. I am still very worried about the emotional aspect of eating. I'm gonna ask around to see if anyone suggests OA. Thanks everyone for caring!More later. (P.S. Still no cigarette) YEAHHHHHHH
2-15-03 Still not smoking and have even quit using the patches! It is a very anxious time for me and I was prepared to keep using them but I'm really getting better with it with each passing day. Was thinking about all of you waiting for approval and remembering how difficult it was. I'm sending you good vibes that the waiting will soon be over. that's such a cruel time. The time is flying by and it is only a matter of a few weeks now. My angel is just outdoing herself. I'm very grateful to have her and her strong wings. I now have a cold which makes me very nervous. I don't want ANYTHING to stand in the way of this surgery so I'm overloading on vitamin C.
2-18-03 My daughters birthday and we have spent the last 3 days digging outta this white stuff. Just south of Pittsburgh Pa. and 24 inches. I managed to get a lousy cold (the thing I feared most pre-op).With a few weeks to go the weather has preoccupied me somewhat. I have thought many times lately of those with surgery scheduled this week on the East Coast and how they are dealing with the possible cancellations. I hope things are resolved quickly. There is such a build up just prior to the big day. Even with all the drama here lately, still no cigarette! I can hardly believe it. Stopped using the patches all together. I live beside a creek and now the news is warning us about the flooding. This week-end is NOT going to be fun. I fear the worse cuz we haven't had this much snow in many years and it's starting to warm up rapidly. Just one more obstacle..... One in soooo many. Somehow I will survive to spite everything. Thanks to all of you for caring and spending the time keeping us informed. That is our biggest weapon. Goodnight Nancy(my angel)
2-21-03 OK guys..... 23 days since a cigarette(tired of me talking about it?)just 18 days till the "big one". I found out that 4 or 5 days prior to surgery I will have to be on clear liquids (to shrink the liver) so that means I have 13 more days to eat everything in the house! I think I can do it! All this snow thaw and threat of flooding has preoccupied me and that is a good thing. If the flood actually gets in my yard, I will REALLY be distracted. I'm just hoping for the best. Sometimes it sucks to live by the creek. It also has it's advantages so I'll stay (unless I get floated away). Thanks to you that have taken the time to post information and answers in order to keep us informed. Karenann's surgery was postphoned and I really felt terrible for her. I'm hoping they will re-schedule her fast. I can't imagine what a let down that is. Hopefully it was for the best. I'm soooo hoping my pre-op tests will go smoothly and cause no delays. Well, I lived up to my promise and almost all the wine is gone in the house now! Boy was that fun! I'm ready to go buy some more. It's late and I'm rambling. Haven't posted here in a couple days and I was having withdrawal. More later..... Goodnight NancyJo.(my angel)
2-28-03 Lots of very good news found me when I got home from work tonight! First of all I am finally able to update my profile. They have been fine tuning things here for a few days. My angelic angel got the OK for a letter of medical necessity! I was holding my breath for her. Things are beginning to look good on her end. She is a never-ending source of happiness and encouragment each day. (she truly did fall from the sky). Jennifer O is having her surgery in a few hours and I can't wait to go see her. She deserves this second chance on life. Karenann will be having surgery in a few days and I'm so happy for her I could just cry. Her surgery for a couple weeks ago got cancelled at the last minute. Boy did my heart ache for her.My new friend Suzanne is keeping me laughing all the way to the 11th. We both will be on the chopping block that day. She's only an hour away and I wish I could visit her that day but I will be busy (if you know what I mean?)I am just very happy with all the good news I got via e-mail when I got home from work tonight. I'ts hard to settle down and go to sleep after e-mails such as this.We were given the opportunity to win 1 million dollars at work tonight (Wheeling Island Casino).Of course, I didn't win a red cent but it was a nice thought. A lot of changes coming soon at work but I won't be there for the ones in March. I'll be puking, hurting, complaining, crying, etc. (maybe all of those) but I WON'T regret my decision. A customer brought me some diamond and ruby earrings as a gift tonight and when she found out I was having this surgery, she was very upset. She said she is an anesthiesiologist for some gb patients and thinks I am dealing with too much risk. That kinda freaked me out. Sorry, but I gotta move forward and not look back. This surgery was approved for me and there are soooo many people that would give their right arm for this chance.I feel very fortunate and besides, I didn't quit smoking for NOTHING! I have to now! ô¿ô I just don't know how I'm going to do the clear liquids for a week prior to surgery. Whewwww, that will be rough. I keep thinking that if the others did it, so can I. This may be the least of my worries in the long haul. I've been eating at all my favorite places. I've even eaten at a few I DIDN'T like! Just for the hell of it. I will look like Winnie the Pooh trying to get through the hospital doors. The last 3 days I've been very restless and irritable. Can't put my finger on the exact reason. I have several possibilities........... It's like I'm feining for something. Maybe I'm already missing the food I won't be eating? We eat out all the time. That will need to be handled properly. Gotta find a way to deal with that one. Plus the fact that my husband is a GREAT cook! And I mean GREAT!. will add more later. Gotta go eat more. Goodnight NancyJo
3-5-03 Haven't posted in a while and so much has happened. 1st Karenann has finally had her surgery and I'm very happy for her. My new friend Suzanne was gonna share my big day with me but it looks like she will need a little longer. My phone lines have been down a few days and she has been going through hell with her pre op tests. My dear angel has NOT missed a beat. I've gotten the most beautiful cards via snail mail! She will single handedly keep me afloat through this process. I had my last lunch today with my daughter and grandson at my favorite cafeteria and just before we left, the baby picked up a big ol handful of mashed potatoes and FLUNG them! They landed on my purse. He's never done that before and we were shocked! I thought my daughter was gonna piss herself. That ended that! I stopped and bought my favorite "DEATH BY CHOCOLATE" cake. It is outta this world! Tonight I'm going to dinner with my youngest son at "Cracker Barrel" and then the starving will begin! 5 days without food will either cure or kill me but I must do what the doc says if I want this done laparoscopically. I can't forget Vickie here at obesityhelp for creating a beautiful garden for me to grow. This journey has been so rewarding from the very beginning as people like her, my angel and some wonderful new friends since finding this site. My life will never be the same because of people like them. Oh yeah, Jennifer O is home now and I'm sooo happy for her! She did a splendid job with her surgery. I'm anxious to hear from her. She has the attitude needed for this to be successful. Tomorrow is another big day. Pre op testing! Hopefully they will give me the go for Tuesday surgery. 5 DAYS AND A WAKE UP! It hasn't sunk in yet. I did manage to get sick again and I will be going to the doctor to get something to dry this mucus up hopefully. I'm so scared something will stand in the way of this happening Tuesday. I packed a little today and bought some benedryl to help me sleep through this 5 day stint. Will post after my pre ops and when I find out if Suzanne has been cleared. Goodnight NancyJo, you are the best!
OOPS! I forgot to acknowledge my dear angel in my last closing. I never want to forget that so,here goes... Goodnight Nancy
3-8-03 Today is day 3 of the 5 day pre op clear liquid/starvation miracle diet that my surgeon requires for the lap proceedure. I had all my pre op testing two days ago and all went well. It looks like this surgery will really happen for me.The reality has not hit me yet. I'm still in the "it happens to other people" mode. I'm really upset that I had to find out about the required 5 day fast from this site and his patients. His office has not contacted me for anything since Jan. 30th when I had my 1st appointment. This surgery would have been rescheduled had it not been for Carol Masilli and Jennifer O. At the pre op clinic I asked them to call the surgeon's office and confirm the 5 day prep and when they did, his assistant said she was sorry, she forgot to call me. Maybe they don't realize all the changes that are required when someone has to be off work. I could go on for 10 minutes about the necessary changes in order to take this time out. Anyway, my angel has been keeping me sane during this process. I'm so dissapointed that Suzanne can't have this surgery with me. She has her plate very full right now. I'm waiting to hear when she is scheduled. My phone lines have been down for days and days and I have missed so much here. I had e-mails out the ying yang when I finally got on today. I have been working till 2:30am and babysitting during all this chaos lately and getting weak. My daily diet consists of soup broth and water with some jello. I keep telling myself that others have done it and so can I. I'm still thrilled with my profile work that Vicky did! Since I still have a cold, my PCP gave me something to clear up mucus and I'm good to go. I'm still trying to realize that this is actually gonna happen for me. I kept thinking something would go wrong with pre op testing and my cold and hadn't thought much past that point. I am 2 days and a wake up. I'm saving several errands for Monday so that day will go quickly. 9am Tuesday I will show up and surgery will be at 11am. Hopefully we won't all be wearing gas masks! Gonna go have some more yummy broth. Till tomorrow.... goodnight Nancy. ô¿ô
3-10-03 Okay guys, within 24 hours I will hopefully be a loser! I have been very busy with last minute details but really wanted to take the time to thank all of you that have given me a lifeline through this journey. From the very first wish, the research, the questions and the need for support, you guys have come through for me. Tomorrow would not be possible without this site and those of you that showed you care. Out of nowhere comes this Angel from Florida that has enhanced this whole experience and made the anxiety tolerable. I have taken my "before" picture, packed, written a letter to all the family etc. so, Off I go into the unknown as I have done so many times before. If fate has it that I don't survive this surgery I hope all of you know that I wouldn't have done anything differently. I also hope someday my daughter seeks this surgery as an option. I'm personally sick of the way society has treated me all my life. So..... all you guys, keep your fingers crossed for me. Hopefully some day soon I'll be able to actually cross my legs! Love to you all, especially you- NancyJo ô¿ô
3-20-03 WHOW HOW TIME FLIES WHEN YOU'RE A LOSER! Yes I'm a loser and still can't believe it myself. I know a lot of time has lapsed but a LOT has happened. My surgery was uneventfull. I woke up out of anes. as if I had just had a nap. Denise in the recovery was wonderful to say the least. I got put in a room and wanted to walk. Had to wait till the next morning to get up and walk cuz the nurses were busy. I told the doctor on them the next day and I'm sure he fixed that. By the second evening, I didn't need anything for pain. Surgery was on Tuesday and I was going home on Thursday!I did walk a lot and everything went perfectly. I got home to a big black recliner chair that Jami rented in case I couldn't sleep in my bed. I got stuck in it reclined a few times and that was comedy in rare form. My hubby did have to wipe my behind for me a couple of times but "for better or worse" came in handy. Each day I got stronger and felt great. recovery was so easy except that ugly liquid protein i drank twice a day to stay one step ahead of the game and not get weak. I also decided to take liquid centrum for my vitamins being that it had a lot of biotin in it. well, had i paid better attention, liquid centrum has sugar in it and by sunday evening, i was in a great deal of pain. sunday night took me to the emergency room and i am still in the hospital recovering. will post the hospital story tomorrow...... goodnight NancyJo.........
3-21-03 Yes, it is Friday evening and I'm just now getting out of the hospital. Since Sunday I have been a very sick puppy. We're hoping the culprit was the liquid protein and the liquid centrum. As far as the gastric part, i am fine now but still having severe spasms that start on my left side and travel to the middle of my stomach. The pain builds and gets severe, then eases off. Surgeon nor anyone else knows what is causing it. Each day will tell the tale I guess. I'm home but scared to death to put anything in my mouth. I am down 15 pounds. That's not a lot given the fact that from Sunday, i had nothing by mouth, not to mention the starvation 5 days prior surgery and the days of clear liquid in between. Good news is, i know the pounds will come off. Just wanted to let you guys know I'm gonna live after all and PLEASE READ ALL LABELS LIKE IT IS A BIBLE. Very tired, will write more as i get stronger. Goodnight NancyJo. You have shown us all what angels are made of! Linda
PLEASE SCROLL DOWN AS I GOOFED AND SKIPPED SEVERAL SECTIONS. MORE WRITING IS BELOW!
3-22-03 A decent day outside and can't wait till the 60's plus roll around. That will help my recovery alone. Today I'm 11 days post op and each day is better. Each day I can last longer before needing a nap. Still on clear liquids and very sick of it. I am using cubes of watermellon and chewing them, then spitting them out. Hubby put some fresh apples in the juice tiger and made the most delicious apple juice ever! I never would drink apple juice but this tastes like eating them fresh. No pain today except the occasional spasm. (yes, they are still here) and stamina is getting better. Need to concentrate on the water more. My breakfast consists of sugar free tums, broth from beef soup, water. lunch is water, apple juice and fruit juice bar. dinner is watermellon juice and broth. I don't like using sugar substitutes and can't find a good tasting coffee cream or flavor. I bought some french vanilla with splenda but i'm very paranoid to put splenda in my mouth after my hospital experience. I'm gonna stick to nothing rather than use it until I've researched it more. Tomorrow is supposed to be in the 60's so I will get out and walk around. Angel is staying close. (she dosen't trust me)Ha. I can't wait till she has her surgery! She has been most attentive! Hubby has babysit me a lot since I've been home. We sit and play scrabble on the computer at night when we are bored. Will update in a couple days.It still hasn't hit me that this really happened. I feel like I dreamed all this. I never new of a day in my life that I could say I was not fat! I'm aprox. 20 lbs. down now. I still cannot imagine 70lbs! I won't believe it when it happens either.Goodnight Nancyjo
3-25-03 It is 71 outside today and the last time I saw that temperature here was back in September. I've been outside raking leaves and meditating. Walking the perimeter of this property and making mental notes of all the things I plan to do outside this spring. Boy, my hubby is really gonna be pissed when he see's all the things I want him to help me with. He likes to take 14 naps a day and it is hard for him cuz he works 7pm till __ am. Sometimes 4,5,6 or later, so he sleeps strange hours and he hates it but it enables him to have every weekend off to D.J. so it's the shift he needs. It does suck sometimes but I do a lot of things without him. In a few weeks I will be digging, shoveling, cutting, raking etc. and I can't wait. It may be another 4 weeks before we have more nice weather like this but it will allow me to get a lot of inside stuff done. Trying real hard to just sit and relax. Still not getting nearly the water in that I should. Gotta concentrate more on that. Will write more when it's cold outside.Thank you Nancyjo............
3-27-03 Another nice day out (65degrees) but wanted to take the time to update. It is now 2 weeks and 2 days since my surgery and each day is clearly better. No more spasms, no more clear liquids..... who could ask for more! Getting enough water in will be my priority right now. Hubby used the juice tiger and made some carrot juice, apple juice and grapefruit juice. He also cubed watermellon and I'm set. Yesterday I did go to the mall with my daughter and we ate at Eat N Park. I had mashed potatoes and gravy. I had been waiting to try it with great anticipation. To this date, I have not had any problems with cream of wheat, watermellon, cream of chicken, cottage cheese, and now the potatoes. I'm yet to have the "full" feeling so I'm trying to stay within the 3oz. limit. I am gonna try skim milk today and unsweetened applesause. I'm really afraid I stretched my new tummy too far in the Emergency Room when they insisted I drink all that white crap for my CT scan. 2/3rds of the first bottle and I said "forget it", "I'm NOT drinking any more". I guess time will tell. I'm very grateful for the new stomach and the new lease on life. It's still like a dream and I'm not sure this actually did happen to me. The weight will come off slowly so I need to stay busy and not pay attention to the numbers cuz I'll get discouraged. I see Dr. G on April 3rd and he'll weigh me but that won't be a full month so I wish I could change it to the 11th cuz I'm only gonna weigh myself once a month. I'm trying to whittle away at the enourmous list I made for myself while I'm sitting around recooping. It seems as though there isn't even time to recover. I do it to myself. The day care business and the D.J. business requires a LOT of time and paperwork and I try to save it for the cold days. I won't go back to the Casino till the middle of April so hopefully I'll get some time for it all between now and then. Thank you NancyJo for your total devotion. I hope I can be half the angel you have been when your time draws near. And Carol Marsilli: thank you for keeping in touch.
3-30-03 It's darn cold out today but probably the last snow we will see for months. Hubby and i spent the day together. He took me to the support meeting in Martins Ferry Ohio. He is stuck since I'm still not ok'ed to drive. He enjoyed meeting everyone and got to hear what actually goes on in the support group since he has had to eat, breath and sleep this bypass stuff since late December. I think he's lucky. Most people have to wait a year or more to get this far. He is being creative in trying new recipes and food to see what I can tolerate. So far 19 days post i can eat mashed potatoes and gravy, nuts, cheese, Wendy's chili and scrambled. He even found a way for me to have coffee again that tastes like I had but not the same sugar. The support group were very warm people willing to share. I already knew Jennifer somewhat and she looked great. Just one month out and she is doing good. I could get used to seeing those people but when I go back to work, I'm usually 7 days a week. I don't think they will warm with 2 little kids running around as I am a day care provider and usually always have em on Sundays. Jon and I went to his favorite Chinese place and the nice waiter made me some egg foo young. He only charged me 1.99 for it. Of course he got a big tip. When we went to Bonanza yesterday I told them I had had stomach surgery and wanted to know if they could charge me for some mashed potatoes and gravy like the side dish of shrimp which was 1.49 and they said I could have it for .99 and they brought me this HUGE bowl full. I ate a minute amount and left the rest. We ate out a lot and tipped very well so these people are being very good to us as a result of that. Jonathan is an excellent cook but I prefer to eat out and not have a mess to clean up. Got some soy nuts and sugar free Russell Stover chocolate for those desperate times. The cigarette monster keeps lurking and I'm really upset with myself as I don't want those chemicals in my body robbing my vitamins but old habits die hard. I'll keep fighting with it. Still getting beautiful handmade cards from my angel. How could I be the lucky one? I got a get well card from one of my customers at the casino and was so surprised. She teaches nursing at a nearby hospital. I also got a card from the receptionist at the day care agency that pays me to provide day care. Still not getting in enough water and asked those at the support group about their experiences. They are doing fine so I need to step it up. Hubby and I watched a lot of movies this weekend both at the theatre and rentals. I went through my closet today and took out some stuff to either sell, give away or keep. Two more closets to go. I'm sure each month I'll do some more as things get big. Still trying to believe this has all happened. Some people have been small at one point in their life and can see this process unfolding but I have NEVER been small so this is all foreign to me as I haven't weighed under 230 lbs. since Jr. High. This is all going to take some time to believe. Suzanne O keeps getting road blocks thrown in her place. Some people are really tested and I don't understand why but perhaps it's not for me to question. My heart breaks for her as she hits one problem after the other. My dear angel is getting closer and I know she will be ready but she will be in disbelief once weeks turn into days. Gonna devote a couple days for taxes before the nice weather hits again in a couple days. Thank you NancyJo!
4-2-03 It's official: I'm 22 days post-op! Finally got my post-op doctor appointment changed to the 10th. That will be perfect as I only want to weigh every 30 days. Not gonna sweat the scales every week as I think it will help with the plateaus and worring about the numbers. It is supposed to be glorious out today so I will spend the day outside. Drove for the first time yesterday (shhhhh), not supposed to be yet but took my sister to Pa. in my hubby's van to get fencing. Walking from one end of Home Depo to the other tired me out so I came home and jumped in bed a couple hours later. Youngest son called from my daughters and said he want's to move back home. I will clear out the spare bedroom and we will be a bigger family by the weekend! I'm getting frustrated for not being able to work outside or help with much. I can do dishes and light house work but that is getting old. Oh well, I found out several times that with this surgery- you can't cheat in the recovery. EACH AND EVERY TIME I TRY TO OVERDO, IT COMES BACK TO HAUNT ME, so I give up and do what I'm supposed to for pete's sake. They came to pick up my big recliner I rented to sleep in. I have managed to get the cold that everyone else has around this town and pissed to have it. I also ordered some real meals today. I hope I enjoy them but boy are they expensive! Does anyone know of something comparable but not so expensive? My angel Nancyjo is still hammering away at the good tidings and I am grateful for her. Suzanne O from Ohio is still jumping through hoops like mad. She was supposed to have this surgery the same day as me and I'm really sad that we couldn't go through this the same time. I will try to guide her down the right path, having gotten several weeks ahead of the game.
4-6-03 It's Sunday night and the war is a furry. I had a nice weekend but spent it indoors since it's cold out. Went to the movies Friday and found blood in my navel. I wanted to freak but assumed it was because of this lousy cold and my coughing a lot. I got on a chat in this site and they said "contact your doc immediately" and that scared the shit outta me! I called him and felt so bad cuz it was 11pm and i hated like hell to wake him but that was as soon as we got back from Pa. He called me back instantly and didn't seem too worried. Said put peroxide in it and if I was worried, go to ER. I would rather take a beating as to go to ER! I have no veins whatsoever! they always have an impossible time finding a vein. they are flat when you do actually find one. I thought i would play the waiting game and it has since cleared up. Really scared me to death. I did go to Taco Bell with hubby yesterday and ate mashed potatoes and gravy but also brought home a chicken quesadilla for dinner. I didn't eat the tortilla but the insides were great. So far everything has stayed down. Friday I did mix Real Meals with ice, peaches and almond extract. I drank it too fast and was nauseaus for about an hour. i had it today and did not feel sick. It's good but I hate that kinda stuff. I will use all the packets (1/2 packet per day) because of the peptides. My nails are growning like crazy since I'm not doing so much work. Hubby continues to be very tenative. It's getting easier to get all the water in. I'm fighting evening cravings. Maybe I'm not eating enough. 3 meals of 3 oz. and one snack. I made deviled eggs today and kept that down too. Can't wait till Thursday to weigh in but I'm really afraid I'm gonna be disapointed. It will be one month and I know this weight will come off slow. I've never ever even lost as much as 50 pounds before so it will be quiet a shock for me. I'm scared I will get discouraged. With my angel by my side, this is all so much easier and I know she will be there for me whatever the scale says. Thank you Nancyjo! you were truly sent from Heaven!
3-10-03 Today was the big day! At one month I was to see the surgeon and get weighed. When I got there he said his scale was broken. I explained it may seem insignificant but since I am only gonna weigh myself once a month, it was important to me. I went to plan B and tried 3 differnt scales. Two said 231 pounds and one said 220 so I can probably say I have lost 24 pounds this past month. Can't complain. Couldn't have done better any other way. Haven't weighed 199 pounds since I was 15 so that is the day I'm waiting for. Perhaps in 2 more months. I did get my new measurments and did my 2nd video. I'm gonna be really glad I did that. Suzanne is finally having her surgery in the morning and I'm very happy for her. She has been through a lot since hers got cancelled. We were to go the same day. It's her time finally. My dear Angel is hitting road blocks now and it is very depressing. Why do insurance companies put people through all this then approve it after you are emotionally emptied? Really bummed that she is gonna start jumping through hoops. My doc is releasing me on the 20th. Can't wait till next week when the weather is supposed to be in the 70's. I'm really tired of the cold.Still fighting to get water in. Not hungry at all till around 2 pm and then the hunger hits hard around 8pm and lasts for a while. Old habits suck. I'm still taking a nap from 2-4 during the day then can't sleep at night. It is almost 2 am and here I sit. NancyJo don't loose hope. I have enough for the both of us. Support meeting was nice last night but I kinda like the smaller ones in Martins Ferry Ohio. The people there are so friendly and you get to ask all the questions you want. Gonna go and sulk for awhile. NancyJo I'll be hangin' in with you all the way...................(after the shock wears off).
4-16-03 So glad to hear that Suzanne from Zanesville is finally a loser AND is home! My angel is one month away from another doctor apt. and getting closer to a new life. I am plugging away and working a lot in the yard. The day I saw the surgeon his assistant was supposed to send my "release to go back to work" info and didn't so I probably will be out a week's pay. I told her when I was there that 2 simple sentences were to be faxed to the toll free number "that day" and when I called one week later she still hadn't! I typed it myself and sent it to her so she could sign her signature and fax it. This is very frutstrating because each and every time I dealt with her it was a disaster! She is the one that almost cost me my surgery by NOT informing me I couldn't eat anything 5 days prior to surgery. She said she forgot. I happen to find out what I needed to do from a couple of local ladies that have the same surgeon. Perhaps the doc needs more help or better help? Do ya think! My weight is sloooowwww coming off still. I'm trying to be patient but I've been looking at this body in the mirrow for so many years I just want a magic wand and have it be gone. I am released to go back to work on the 20th so life will get busier from here. I think hectic explains it better. I do have one final weekend to enjoy so we will do a lot I'm sure. I'm still trying to deal with the constipation and get more water in. Trying to remember to eat one prune a day. I did get a hard shell taco supreme to go down and was thrilled. Not having trouble with any foods so far. Can't wait to eat salad or steak but not ready to try it yet. Chicken fingers with Ranch dressing is very yummy also. I'm finding cottage cheese, peanut butter and string cheese to be a good staple during the course of the day. Still getting the most beautiful hand made cards from my angel. Each one has it's own life form and I am so impressed with her creativity. Thank you NancyJo for gracing my life!
5-11-03 It is exactally 2 months since my surgery and so much has happened. I went back to work and have not as of yet recieved any negative feedback from co-workers so that is a plus. Before I go any further: MY ANGEL (NANCYJO) WAS APPROVED ON 5-8-03 AND I COULD NOT BE HAPPIER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel sooooo much better just knowing she will be having this surgery. Words don't describe how happy I am for her. Can't wait till the big day! I will keep everyone updated as her journey continues. Tonya Harris had her surgery last week and all went very well. I met her at the last support meeting locally and will help her any way I can. She has a little boy named Brandon so he alone will keep the pounds coming off her. My sisters scale says I have only lost 7 pounds this past month and God I hope they are wrong. I will do my video tonight and take my measurments. This is very slow for me and I try not complain but having never been small it is hard to play the "slow loser" game. I may stop by the surgeons office tomorrow and see if he has a scale yet. I have been very busy outside in the yard lately so may have built plenty muscle. That is both good and bad for the scale numbers. I will keep plugging away and make protein my priority. The powder protein remains a struggle as I haven't found any I can tolerate. The constipation is hardly a problem anymore but I need to get more water in. I did start B-12 sublingual this week and don't feel as tired. Also found calcium citrate at GNC and it was reasonably inexpensive. Glad to have started them both. Still take one to two Flinstones a day with my thyroid medicine. Life is back to hectic once again. My oldest son is now living in Los Vegas. I recieved some nice Mothers Day gifts from my daughter, my youngest son and his girlfriend. No day care this weekend so my hubby and I did a lot of shopping. The weather has been rainy all week so I spent a lot of time indoors but got a lot accomplished. I missed the Ohio support meeting in April but do want to catch the Wheeling one this week. I am finding I can tolerate most all foods but have not tried much meat, sugar and the only bread I eat is croutons, crackers and a tiny bit of toast. For breakfast I have been making oatmeal with generic equal and adding peanut butter and cocoa. It is filling and yummy. Eating out has not been a problem as long as I keep to the protein and within the proper portions. Occasionally I eat chips, then feel guilty. Just found out that hubby and I have to DJ a wedding July 26t. It's the same day as the OSSOHG WLS picnic so I was disappointed that I won't be able to attend. Suzanne is now 1 month post op and doing well. She invited me to join her to the picnic and would have been happy to go with her. I will update soon with more measurments. Thank you NancyJo for being the perfect angel.
6-11-03 Today is 3 months post for me and I finally got to find some digital scales at the hospital. 40 pounds and 44 inches off! Not bad for 12 weeks so I'm not gonna beat myself up over it. I see the surgeon tomorrow and will continue my quest for 100 something. Don't really have a number goal but have waited years to say I am under 200. Looks like this is gonna happen. My dear angel NancyJo had her surgery May 27th and all went well. Sad to say she was only home one week and ended up back in the hospital in ICU with an infection behind her spleen. Very scary stuff. Her hubby e-mailed me tonight saying she is better and may get into a regular room tomorrow. She will do great but has had some obstacles in her way this past week that are life threatening. I know her son must be very worried also. I attended a support group tonight and it was so nice to get to talk to Carole Marsilli. She looked good and I always learn something from her each time I talk to her. I always look forward to seeing her changes. Her daughter Stacy has done an amazing job at loosing and looks very happy. What an inspiration those two are. Stephanie H. took me upstairs to get weighed and I was thrilled for the opportunity. She is always a bundle of laughs and has lost a LOT of weight. Dr. G was the speaker tonight and I was so glad to attend. When the weather is nice, I keep working and don't stop long enough to go but I get so much from the meetings, I need to make it a priority more often. Can't wait for the Martins Ferry meeting on the 22nd. Smaller group and it offers me a chance to ask questions and connect with those wonderful people. Tomorrow I will do my monthly video and keep focused on the water and protein. My life has been enriched by so many great people both locally and afar by this experience, I hope I never forget what an important role they have played in my support. My oldest son is still living in Las Vegas and I can't wait to go there in September to see the look on his face. By then I will be 6 months post op and should be at least 60 pounds lighter. When he calls I don't mention my progress cuz I want to surprise him. He has never seen me under 230 and I am now 215. My loss is slower than most but I MUST change my attitude and do the best I can with this. The constipation rears it's ugly head from time to time so I need to keep up the water. Thanks to all of you that supported me when I whined about the slow loss. I will stop comparing myself to others and hope I can keep losing. Will post again in one month. By then I can report some fantastic news about NancyJo. She is the angel we all need. Thank you NancyJo! You're the best!
9-1-03 My how time flies when you're having fun (and losing)!!! I can't believe it's been so long since I last updated. It has been a wonderful summer and I'm sorry to see it ending so soon. For the first time in years I have been able to be home and enjoy my yard, spend lots of time with the kids and grandkids, go to some horse shows etc. We didn't D.J. much this summer and actually got to go out dancing a lot since we had the week-ends to ourselves. Boating, dancing, gardening and jogging has been my focus. I'm now finding out I can still drink but the amount I can consume is making me a cheap date. Lot's of Wineries e-mailed me about the sugar content in wine and it looks like good news since the sugar in dry wine is non existant. My angel Nancy is very busy these days and after some problems, she has passed me in the weight loss. I'm very happy for her. I have not taken the time to go to support groups this summer and won't until it gets cold out. Have stayed in contact with some of the local losers and very grateful to know them and learn from their experiences. As far as what I can tolerate- most anything except milk and sugar free pudding. As you all know, each day is different so I try to be careful. Getting all the water in is easy now and the constipation monster has left. My son processed the "day before surgery" pictures for me and BOY can I tell the difference! Each day looking in the mirrow, I can still see the same ol me but people tell me there is a big difference. I am still losing about 10 pounds a month which is slow but I will continue to keep plugging away as best I can. Next week will be 6 months for me and and I probably will have lost only about 60 pounds but I walk about 18 miles a week and jog 18 a week so hopefully the muscle accounts for some of the weight. I'm sure by now I have reached one of my goals (to weigh 199)and I'm between a 16 and 18 in clothes. Going to spend 2 weeks in Vegas this month and really wanted to be in a 16 by then. My next goal is to be in a 14 by December 4th for my husbands company Christmas party. Yesterday was their company picnic and I got plenty of compliments and it was a nice feeling. I don't ever remember going to a function like that and feeling good about myself so things are looking up and I know I could do better. I am able to tolerate "Carb-Wise" bars at Wallmart but not any of the other protein bars, drinks or powders. It's nice to actually be able to feel my muscles and bones for once. I have read some good books lately and joined a website- www.bookcrossing.com which allows me to set my books free and see where they end up. I have met some wonderful people this summer and had a blast so I'm hoping we will have a mild winter and I will be able to continue to walk/jog without injuries. Another goal is to be able to run a Marathon next year. I want at least 50 more pounds off before then so cross your fingers for me as I endulge in lots of water and the necessary vitamins. NancyJo has a goal of looking fabulous in October for her hubby's class reunion. NancyJo, I'm praying you will take their breath away! P.S. I'll update more often now that the summer is winding down. Carol M. Thanks for the support and for all that you have taught me!
9-28-03 Twice in the same month for updating! Looks like I'm getting better at this. Back from vacation now and starting to build my winter nest. May be changing jobs soon and returning to the Hotel business that I loved so much. Went to Vegas, Hoover Dam,The Grand Canyon and Red Rock Canyon. Great visit with my niece since she's the one we stayed with the whole time. I'm keeping my grandaughter with me at night and getting her off to school each morning. It reminds me so much of doing that when my kids were little. I haven't taken my measurments in a long time. Need to get with it. Have been tolerating most all foods but still being careful with the sugar content. Thrilled to be drinking wine again and having a blast with the vodka too! The weight is still creaping off but I can't complain. I weighed 195 on 9-9 and may be 190 by now. Most EVERYTHING is too big now. Not sure what to do with my fat clothes. I have 3 closets full and paid good money for them so I hate to just GIVE them away. I'll keep sorting them and hopefully soon I can find a clever way to get rid of them. Getting a lot more attention from men these days but I keep thinking "the jerks couldn't be bothered before, so why give em' the time of day". Still fighting the head hunger at night. Acknowledging that I'm still addicted to food is helping me make better choices but I'm back to smoking like a fein to fill in the time slots that I used to fill with eating. Just replacing one addiction with another. Haven't heard much from my angel lately but I know she is a very busy woman. Just so glad she got the opportunity to have this surgery. In October she will be going with hubby to his reunion and I'm can't wait to get a picture from her. She has been looking forward to this event for a long time. I'm in the process of trying to buy a house in Ohio right now and sometimes the anxiety of everything makes me want to resort to old habits and eat. Haven't been to a support meeting in a long time and can't wait to see some of my new friends. As winter rolls around, I'll slow down and get to visit with them. Going to see my surgeon next week and may update if there's anything to report. Carol, thanks for keeping me honest. NancyJo, I know you are with me in spirit.
WOW how time flies! So much has happened in these past few months. I'm now in a size 14 and could be smaller but keep eating the wrong things and not getting enough water in. I will keep trying harder. I ditched the lousy Casino job and went back to my first love, the Hotel business. I couldn't be happier but have not taken the time to get my exercise in since going back to Holiday Inn. I MUST get back to it. I would like to be in a 10 or 12 by the end of spring but need to get focused again. NancyJo, my angel is very busy and has lost a lot of weight. I can't wait to see a picture of her. Christmas is right around the corner and I don't think I'll be writing here till the new year. 2004 should have lots to offer and I can't wait to be here for it!
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