7/23/03-I am 46 years old and have been overweight all my life. Of course I've been on so many diets from Weight Watchers, to a candy in the 70's called Aids(yes that was the name) Jenny Craig, Nutri System, Hypnosis, therapists, nutritionists, Atkins, Herbalife and the over the counter stuff like Slim fast and dexatrim, etc. Everything worked for awhile but then all the weight came back and then some. We all know what that feels like.

Anyway today I am 295.5lbs and 5'7". I am scheduled for WLS on July 28---this Monday---my husband Danny is scheduled for August 21. at least our stomachs will be the same size so we will have to eat the same amount--at least for a few months. My insurance was Empire Blue Cross--I did not have any problems getting approved. I have read that quite a few patients have a hard time with their companies...I say fight it, because it will cost them more later on in your life with all the complications that could arise from being morbidly obese.

Anybody can e-mail me if you have any questions. I know I will go into this operation with a positive attitude and know that I am in the best of care with Dr. Garber. I'll write again after surgery...Angie

7/25/03-Well I am waiting for Huntington Hospital to tell me what time to arrive for surgery on Monday. I hope it's really early in the morning so I won't have time to be worried. It's almost 11 am. I hope they call soon.
5 p.m. Well I found out what time I have to be at the hospital--9:30am with surgery being at 11:30...will update soon

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7/27/03--ok it seems like in just a few more hours my surgery will take place. I think we will leave for the hospital early because I'd rather be nervous there than waiting at home. Plus it's a pain parking there. A big thank you to Leslie for really being there as a friend and who told me to call Dr. Garber last November. ( first visit was March 21.)

Anyway had my last meal at around 7 p.m. I had pasta and sauce with fried flounder and some shrimp. Very delicious but not too heavy for me like a piece of steak would be. Danny is bringing an overnight bag with some stuff--they told him to leave it in his truck until I get a regular room. I told him when you visit me in ICU or recovery make sure my hair is combed and that you put vaseline on my lips. (I heard you cannot drink for awhile but I hate to have dry lips too) Also who needs bed head hair.
Hey I may be fat but I want to look good. lol

Been drinking a ton of water today..they told me drink 24 ounces more than usual, and I think I almost drank 3 quarts. I feel really good and hydrated--which better last me all day tomorrow. Been thinking about going under and the whole procedure and what's involved instead of the recovery time. I know it's funny we all think about different things--I cannot wait to not feel hunger pangs.....

Danny is nervous for me but does not show it, because in a few weeks he'll be in my shoes. I told him I'd tell him everything, plus he'll be there everyday and night---I told him I need to walk alot and he said we'll go to Wantagh Park or Jones Beach where it'll be alot cooler. I love him.

I'm still drinking water but I really want Carvel Rocky Road with hot fudge and those chocolate crunchie thingies. But I don't want to suffer any major headache sugar withdrawal--hey maybe morphine would cure that. Also I don't need to think about having to go #2 right before surgery. So here's to me as I take another gulp of Poland Spring....will chat again when I come home

"""I'M Home Now""""""

August 10th Sunday---Ok--This is the first time I am back on the computer since WLS. I will proceed to divulge everything I can remember from Jul 28th, in the hopes this can help even one patient who may will undergo WLS with Dr. Garber at Huntington Hospital. So here is what took place:

On 7/28--Got to the hospital at around 8:30 a.m. Was told to be there at 9:30 a.m. for an 11:30 surgery time. But the parking lot gets full quick and I was just too nervous to stay home in the morning. REALLY IMPORTANT----At the pre-op time when I was talking to a nurse who asks you a ton of questions, she hands me a green sheet with instructions about eating and drinking after midnight, etc and also what lot to park in----there is a paragraph that says you may drink coffee or apple juice 4 hours prior to coming onto the hospital-----this is a no no....they almost wouldn't do the surgery on me--but I had thrown it all up about 20 minutes after having it because I was so nervous---so just in case--remember nothing after midnight--except the sip to take your meds if necessary--------------Anyway---so Danny and I proceed to an admission department where they ask you about the health care proxy--(they have witnesses to sign if needed) a few other questions and proceed to make you a wristband. When the girl placed it on my wrist it was snug right away like a tight watch. I remembered reading so much about the bloatiness after WLS, that I immediately told her to take it off and make it looser. She seemed a bit annoyed--I would've been too---but she made me up another one and placed it about two inches from my wrist and I never thought about it till I got home.

Then we went to another floor where I was given a really nice large gown--so big I felt thin---and told to get into bed. So here I am lying down around 9:15 a.m. and surgery is not for another 2 hours. In the mean time nurses came in and started an I.V. in my hand. (the right one) The needle felt uncomfortable and I was told that's because they have a lot of fluids to put in. They also put a needle in my belly of heparin (blood thinner). This needle you do not feel because it is really thin. This was the first one of about 3-4 more I received after WLS.

At around 11:15 Dr. Garber and Dr. Herron showed up. I had never met Dr. Herron before, but felt great that 2 surgeons would be looking after me. They both calmed my nerves.

Just about 11:30 they came in to get me. Danny was able to go as far as the o.r. doors. I was calm and happy. When I got in there I was in the hallway and a few other scrub wearing men and women surrounded me. The first thing they asked was about the drinking after midnight. Well you know what I wrote before about that and soon after I was whisked into the O.R.

Now they have you scoot your fat behind onto a bed no wider than the behind itself...somehow I fit---where to put the arms??--no problem--they separate your arms and have them on tables I guess with monitoring stuff and strapped down-I think--it all happens so fast---Next they told me to take 4 deep breaths into a nose-mouth cup they place over me--this scared me--but by the 3rd breath--which I remember counting to myself--I was out---

The next thing I remember was a nurse yelling O.K. Angie you are in recovery now---wake up it's all done....I just remember thinking about that morphine drip---I remember pressing my left thumb into my fist up and down like I was giving myself the morphine and crying out pain--pain-pain---I could hear them saying so may CC's of this medicine and give her whatever---but I do remember the nurse telling me to stop pressing the morphine button--which they had placed in my hand---what I did not know but soon found out was that it is on a timer of about ten minutes.

All of a sudden I look up and there is Danny---what a guy I love him so much---but was really out of it. Soon I was in my own room in the Cardiac Care unit. I guess there was no room in ICU. The care there was superb!!!!! I complained of being very warm and they found a great fan and made sure it blew right on me. Otherwise it would've been uncomfortable.. Now I have on these heavy duty leg warmer--compression thingys on my legs that do their thing every few minutes so not to get blood clots---I cannot feel my ass----it is numb---and 10 days post op---I can finally move my left cheek a lot better than when I came home. I found out that most of the pain was by my left side. I am walking now but the first few days it was tough.

I cannot stress enough--that you really need somebody to look after you for about a week or so. Since I cannot sleep on my side and getting in and out of bed was such an ordeal, I have been sleeping on a recliner that is part of my couch, But it's a bit shot and hard to kick the foot rest under when ya want to get up. Thank goodness for Danny who was up every other minute helping me to the bathroom--cleaning me when it hurt to reach---I told you he is the best---and showering me with the help of a great shower chair. I told him I will help him when his day comes. He goes for pre-op tests this Friday---so close--he is getting nervous. His e-mail address is Sbug102@aol.com if anybody wants to wish him good luck.

Anyway--I have been eating jello, cottage cheese, blenderized soups, diabetic shakes--for protein and water, water, water..also Flinstones w/iron 2 a day and tums for calcium. Be careful swallowing paim medication....mine got stuck or something and I screamed like a baby--it subsided after Dr. Garber called back (within 5 minutes) He said it's ok to cut them up in pieces...and we've done that. Come to think of it I have not been on the pain pills for a few days.

Oh and when I want to see Dr. Garber on Friday, he said I weighed 283.1 lbs. That's 12 lbs. I am happy. I don't see or feel it, but Danny says he sees it in my face. I do know my belly went down but I was so bloated for the first few days that any gas or pee that came out or poop --was such a relief. The staff at Dr. Garber's was wonderful and very supportive--even Willo the pychiatrist was there with open arms. I'd do it all over again---will update soon--gotta rest--my tummy muscles hurt from sitting too long...

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Aug 18th- Wow what a difference a few weeks make. I feel so much better. All the bandages are gone and I am healing really well. I can finally sleep in bed on my side without any discomfort. I am eating 6 times a day--2 shakes and soups, tuna and a slice of toast, sometimes a bit of vegies. I have not gotten sick once. When I feel I have an upset stomach it usually
means I have to go to the bathroom. Danny goes in for WLS on Thursday. Thank goodness it was not last week with the major blackout. When I went with Danny for his pre-admissions testing, Huntington hospital was without air-conditioning, and really uncomfortable for me. But after a few runs to the car for some AC- I would walk back in to find Danny taking another test, until he was done. He is getting nervous, but at the same time he wants it over already, like I did. At least he knows what to expect as a patient, and I know what to expect to do as a caregiver. I'll update again after Dan's WLS.

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Aug 19- Well I just found out Danny can't have surgery because his blood sugar is too high. He was really upset, but I understand the risks and he has to work on bringing his levels below 200 and then he can have the surgery. I went on-line to WEB MD and they have quite a bit of info on what kind of foods to eat and avoid. I printed up some stuff. Also I guess Danny has been "bad" about food choices since he had gotten his date for the surgery, knowing that it could help him. Anyway--I'll update again--I have my follow-up appointment with Dr. Garber on Sept. 8th. If there are any diabetics out there who are reading this, could you e-mail me some suggestions that worked for you before having surgery? Thanks

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Aug 26-Last week we went to our internist who is also an allergist for our monthly shots and asked him about Danny's blood sugar. He advised a strict no carb diet for three weeks. He also drew blood and will test his sugar to make sure it goes down. This Dr. is so in favor of Danny having this surgery because he knows in the long run how much more healthier Dan will be. We have to go again tonight, so he can see Danny's blood sugar readings that Dan has been taking 3 times a day. This Thursday I think we will go to the support group. We haven't gone since April. Oh I weighed myself this morning 1 month and a day since my surgery-- 273.2lbs. I feel really great. I am driving again with no stomach pain--walking a lot in the mall when it is hot and by the beach too. Will update soon!

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Sept 1-Happy Labor Day! I can't believe I got my period. I forgot to mention that in the hospital right after surgery I had gotten my period after not having it for over a year. I was on the pill but went off it before surgery. I spoke to my GYN and she said you might not get it again and sure enough it came back with the cramps and bloating I so hate. I am calling my Dr. tomorrow morning so I can get back on the pill. I hate cramps and I really thought I was finished with the "time of the month b.s.".

Anyway I had gone to my sisters house for my niece and nephews birthdays (they are days apart) and everybody there noticed I had lost weight. I felt really great. My brother Vito drove up from Charlotte, N.C. and I had not seen him since June and he was very encouraging and even showed me a photo of me from Christmas looking all puffy and uncomfortable, but happy because it was the holidays. I looked at that photo and I was so sure I made the right move with the surgery.

Danny is following his "no carbs" diet and his sugar is dropping slowly and steadily. Last night it was 207. I told him when it is under 200 for a week straight we'll get re-tested and you'll see you'll be scheduled for surgery in no time. It was a bit tough yesterday, but it was so dry and sunny that after being at the party for 2 hours I asked Danny and my brother and his friend Helen to go for a walk and we walked around the neighborhood for about 15 minutes. With about 25 people at the party and a few tables scattered around the yard, nobody even noticed that I was eating tuna and my Wasa bread or crackers (actually they're kind of like crunchy wood bark)and Danny and I passed on the cake and drank water. I did not feel hungry.

This morning I weighed 270.0. I know without my "friend" I would've dropped more, but I am content to see the scale go down and really happy that I am able to eat and keep food down.

Oh, Danny and I attended the support group on Thursday and I felt good for Danny when a few people came up to him after the meeting and were really supportive about his dilemma with diabetes and the surgery. That's what it's for, right?
I personally feel there should be two support groups--one for those who are pre-op, just looking and those who had the surgery and are having issues with food, protein, and other important information that can be usefull to the group. and TWO-the other group would be for those who had a nightmare surgery, serious complications that are still ongoing and those who need emotional and pyschologial help. Just my opinion.

A special Hi--to Linda who looks amazing--thanks for your feedback on my journal!!

My Aunt from Ct. brought me 6 bags of mixed sizes of clothes that my couzins girlfriend did not want because she also had the surgery a year ago and lost over 100 lbs. I am so greatful, because as you all know it gets expensive to keep buying stuff that only fits ya for a few weeks or so. (elastic waists save me money :) )

I see Dr. Garber this Friday in the morning. Danny is taking off work to go with me and show Dr. Garber his latest sugar readings. I am so glad Danny is still gung-ho with the surgery--because when they said they would not do the surgery-he was so angry, I thought he would've just given up--instead he is really channeling all that anger into his new eating regimen--which is pretty cool--he eats eggs, all meats, fish and some salad until he is full. I wish his Dr's would've recommended the Atkins diet a long time ago. I'll write soon.

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Sept.3- Well today I weigh 268.4. Pretty soon when I go to my regular Dr., He can put that big 250lb bar and slide it back to the 200lb spot. on his scale. My gyn called me back yesterday and said it's okay to start on the "pill" again right away. And I did. She said as long as I am active and in no pain. I feel so good physically that I wish I had gotten this surgery a few years ago. I drove the other day and had to pull my seatbelt a bit snugger. It's the little things that make me happy.

I went through all the clothes I had gotten from my couzin's friend. There were over 160 items. I only kept about 15 things. There were just so many aricles of clothes that I would never wear, like little tops with spaghetti straps. Plus I am 46 and this girl is I think about 32 and much shorter. But I appreciated the thought. I called her, left a great message, and will send her a little something in the mail, maybe flowers. (well I would feel funny sending her a Harry and David basket) Yummy, those were the days. I haven't had any fruit, since I have been home. But I bought some bananas yesterday. Maybe I will mush one up or mix it into a protein shake to make it thicker. Anyway when Danny comes home from work, we'll go to the salvation army and make a great donation of clothes.

When we went to the internist for Danny last night, the Dr. was impressed with his results and took blood again to send to the lab for another reading. I gave him Dr. Garber's fax so he'll have a copy too when we see him Friday when I get weighed again. I want Danny to have this WLS before the holidays. He wants to fly to Las Vegas for one last hurrah at the buffets. I told him after you have the surgery, maybe next November we'll go. Plus, after being so good with the no-carbs diet why screw it up. I think he is getting frustrated. He made ice cream with heavy cream (no carbs) and added equal later to it. It satisfied his sweet tooth. I told him I really don't crave anything. I try to occupy my time with laundry and general housework because I have the energy to do more now. But he is still in that "food" mentality that we both used to share. Like the calls at 3 in the afternoon that always start off "what's for dinner?".

Danny and I are really into country music and I am into photography quite a bit. Over the years we have met all the country stars out there, the new and the old and I fiddle around taking photos and have had a lot published in different publications. We are huge Garth Brooks fans and became good friends with one of his songwriters', Victoria Shaw. She was so supportive when we saw her in June at The Bluebird Cafe in Nashville. (we go to Tenn. every year for Fan Fair) She gave me her personal post office box and e-mails every few weeks and one thing she said to me that hit hard was "you guys have to find a new hobby". She was right. Danny and I have been married 21 years and so much of the stuff that we do revolves around food. From all the get-togethers, parties, restaurants, that kept us going all the time. Now I feel that when Danny gets this surgery, although food will still be am issue, it won't consume us like it used to. Any of you contemplating this surgery know that feeling. Well after only 5 weeks and 2 days, I really can say it happens quick that you don't think about food all the time because you are not hungry. I wished for that feeling and you will get it to. I think I'm rambling--I'm going to drink some water and check on my wash-- I have those clothes that I got in there. They were great, but had a crazy perfume smell that just had to come out . Will write again

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Sept 6, --Saw Dr. Garber yesterday morning. Danny went with me. I weighed on his scale 269 and my scale that morning said 268. Pretty accurate, since I was dressed. He was pleased with the weight loss and suggested I join a "Curves" gym. There is one by my house. I will check it out in the next few days. The girls who work at the office really noticed my weight loss.

Now for the new dilemma. Danny's brother Jack who is also diabetic had just gotten a new glucometer (checks blood sugar) and Danny tried it out. His sugar level was 50 points higher than on the glucometer he had been using. He told Dr. Garber and he was really supportive. Figures, that the blood work that our internist did the other day came back 1 point HIGHER than it was the week before. So Danny is increasing his insulin and called the company that sends free diabetic stuff (except insulin) and they will send him an Accu-chek, the same machine his brother has. Danny wants this surgery so bad and I want it for him too. I know after the surgery all the problems will slowly just be a memory--but right now it's so frustrating.

I weighed myself this morning. 267 on the nose. So it's officially 28.5 lbs. according to my scale and that's the one that counts. I am starting to drink Crystal light. I was only drinking water till yesterday. It's so much easier to drink without distress of any kind, even when it's a bit chilly. I thought water was water in the sense that you need to drink a lot of it, but Dr. Garber said Crystal light counts as water. So I drank it yesterday and it was wonderful.

I am waiting for Danny to come home. He has to work a bit this morning. We're going for a walk in Wantagh park again. I love to be outside except when it's really humid. (like this whole week was except for Friday) I found my old hand weights. I'm starting today to do a little arm work. I know the flab won't disappear under my arms, but I need some strength. The walking is great but I still feel not as strong in my shoulders and particularly my left arm. I was most likely always this way but seem to notice everything now and blame it on the WLS and weight loss. Monday is 6 weeks. I can't wait to lose 100 lbs.

I have a bridal shower next Saturday. I am not too worried because it's one of my friends' daughter. It's also at her house and she was so supportive before my WLS, even buying me a nightgown and a robe. She'll understand when I don't eat dessert.

Dr. Garber said after 6 weeks I can eat regular food. Well Monday is almost here. Last night I ate a few bites of chicken and a tsp of wild rice. I took my time (25 minutes) and it all stayed down, even the broccoli.

On Sept 21 I'm going to my couzin's house (who gave me the clothes) for my Aunt's birthday. Now I just saw my Aunt and Uncle at my sister's last week, but I have not seen my couzin's for two years. I did not make the past 4th of July parties because of the heat and because of my fat.('nuff said)

On October 4th is the wedding, for my girlfriend's daughter. I am not too nervous about the food, because Gerri asked me to take photos at the wedding so I'll be busy. My one dilemma is something to wear. I am waiting for the last minute, so I can judge the weather to get something if it's chilly or hot. I really want to wear a hot "little black dress" one day. And I would love to see Danny in a suit. Last time was our wedding 21 years ago. Oh the things we'll look forward to!!!

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Sept 8----This morning I weigh 265.6. I guess the walking is paying off. I also started to do a little bit of weights for my arms. (only 10 minutes or so). I am going to check out a "Curves" gym that is open only 5 minutes from my house. Dr. Garber said a lot of his patients are joining. Today is exactly 6 weeks since my surgery. 30 lbs LOST!!! I have another 100 or so more to lose. Slow and steady is okay with me.

After I came home from walking in the park, I felt like I wanted something but Danny was starting to make some chicken, so I thought I would have some peaches from a can that said no sugar. Well I opened the can and took out half a peach and cut it into small pieces and ate about 3-4 in about 5 minutes. After another minute or so, I felt really ill, and yelled to Danny that I was going to be sick. And I was. First some liquid, then the few bites of peaches. I put a cold compress on my head and felt better in about 5 minutes. I guess the peaches did not agree with me. The last time I had drank something was my Crystal Light at the park and that was about 30 minutes earlier. So I guess I'll try some peaches at another time.

But later on I had a chicken wing and a little bit of chicken breast. I sucked all the juicy spices off the skin, sometimes chewed on the skin, but never swallowed any because I thought it may get stuck in my stomach. I had 1 tsp of eggplant that was cooked with a bit of tomato sauce, onions, and cheese and spices. I felt very satisfied. Oh for lunch I had for the first time in 6 weeks, peanut butter. I found one that is all natural, with the oil on top and everything, but low in sugar. I had two tsps on my crispy wheat bread with another tsp of sugar free jelly. It was so tasty. But I had to leave a little because I got full. Still cannot believe it takes so little to satisfy my hunger.

Ok, new Danny update--- his sugar with that new glucometer is still reading high. This morning it was 280. He is increasing his insulin. We see the internist tomorrow night. Will keep you updated. He really wants a miracle and wants the surgery so bad.

My mom invited us to a birthday party at her house on Oct. 5. She said will it interfere with Danny having surgery? I said Mom, he doesn't have a date yet, but if he gets one you know I have to be with him.

I have to get some blood work done today. My PCP had ordered one and also Dr. Garber. I hope my cholesterol went down. Bye for now.

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Sept 9---- I weighed 264.0 this morning. It seems every few days I drop 1lb and 1/2. As long as the scale goes down. This morning I made my usual scrambled egg with 1/2 slice fat free Kraft American cheese, and 1 slice wheat toast with a tsp. of the sugar free jelly. I took my time eating (as usual) and got full in 15 minutes on 1/2 the egg and not even 1/2 the bread. That was at 7 a.m. It's almost noon now. I think I will make a delicious protein shake. These are the ones Dr. Garber sells. They have 15 gr. protein and say to mix with water. But I mix it with fat free Lactaid milk (8oz) and 1/2 banana. This is like a McDonalds shake. (well not exactly but when you add 2 ice cubes with everthing and use the blender on high, it's pretty thick) At least I will be getting more protein. Dr. Garber told me last week to supplement with the shakes if I am not between 50-60 grams protein a day.

Oh yesterday I went to Lab Corp to have the blood tests Dr. Garber required. They took 15 vials of blood. I asked them kiddingly, Do I need someone to drive me home? and she said "no just sit there for awhile". I felt fine and drank the water I always carry with me. After that I went and checked out the "Curves" gym in my neighborhood. It looked like a fun place. I saw an add on T.V. about Curves that said to call a toll free number for a week free, but I could not write it down fast enough. Figured I'd try it, before laying out all that money they want. Danny's sugar is still high. Will update later

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Sept. 10--- Yesterday while making the shake I broke the blender. Luckily I have one of those hand mixers that comes with different attachments so I was able to make another shake. The ice did not crush as well though. I went out to Target and bought a new blender. When Danny came home he said the blender was not broken. The base had become loose and you just screw it back tight. It was funny. But I didn't like the other blender anyway, because the plastic tab had disappeared on the 0n/off switch and there was only a sliver of metal sticking out to work it. Hey, I am saving so much money on food, it's nice to buy something for the house, right?

Oh----I lowered my cholesterol!!! I always wanted to say that, like that guy in the commercial. I got a call from my PCP and he said my cholesterol was 159...... I could not believe it. Before my surgery it was in the 220's. And it's funny, because when I saw him 2 weeks ago for a check up, I had asked him when I would be able to start getting off the medications I've been taking for years, and he said "oh most likely after you go below 200 lbs". So when he told me this morning the great news I asked him about what he had told me and he had nothing to say, except that the surgery really helped. Now for the other news from him.....he said my numbers were high on liver enzymes. So I said should I stop taking the Lipitor? and he said yes. But he said to have another test done in three weeks.

Last night we went to the internist. Danny brought the two glucometers with him and asked the Dr. if had one too. So they took three tests and got three different readings. But the one Danny had been using (the old one) is in the garbage now. The one Danny borrowed from his brother is closer to the reading they had gotten. Now this Dr. wanted Dr. Garber's number to plead with him to let Danny have the surgery. He will benefit so much from it. He lost 10 lbs and his pants are loose. I'll let you know what happens.

After the Dr's appointment we went for a 30 minute walk at Wantagh Park. It was beautiful, but really windy. Danny reluctantly went with me but said he felt better afterwards.

Then I went and bought some flounder from the seafood dept at King Kullen. I asked for a 4 oz piece, and the man looked at me like I was nuts. He said they are all different sizes. I said then find a size that is 4 oz. (dope) Anyway he gives me a look that made me feel really fat. Ya know that look, when they are thinking, I know she can eat more than that. After 3 trips to the scale, which was all but 3 feet away from him, he weighed one that said .21 I said that's perfect. And smiled and walked away. What I wanted to tell him is not printable. :)

Oh I forgot to say today I weighed 263.6lbs. I am happy.

I spoke to mom today to tell her about my cholesterol and she asked me if there is something special she can make for me when she has the birthday party for my Aunt on Oct. 5. Ya know mom's will be mom's, but you are asking something that is three weeks away. I told her please to not make anything special. She said she wants to order chicken marsala from this great Italian restaurant in Little Neck. I told her to order whatever and I will make due. I told her if there is chicken breast I will eat a small portion, but not to be insulted if I rinse it under hot water, because I do not know if they use sugar in their sauces.
She said she is making lazagna too. Ya know she was at my sisters house two weeks ago and saw how much tuna I was eating, but I think she has a hard time adjusting to my new way of eating. I just took a deep breath and called Danny. He is my rock. I love him. I want him to have this surgery. Last night it was driving me crazy watching him eat delicious steak and a salad. I was never a big red meat person. I love chicken. I had a sugar free fudgicle for dessert, waited an hour and drank some water and thought about how good I was walking in Target and then another walk in the park.....good mind set...stay positive.
I'm out of here to be pampered.... going to get a pedicure .. see ya.
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Sept 12----- Today I weigh 262.6. That's 33 lbs so far. I am happy. Oh the other day when I was so happy about my cholesterol I forgot to mention the results of a urine test I had. It was when Danny and I went to the internist the Dr. suggested to Dan to get a urine test. When I told the Dr. that last week I went to the lab and all they did was blood work, he said that I should have a urine test because I had been on a catheter in the hospital. Well they called me the night of the 10th and said my test came back positive--I said "for what?" and she said a urinary tract infection. I said what are the symtoms? She said burning when you pee (I never had that)--discomfort, etc. Well anyway I am on an antibiotic for a week for that. So I went off the Lipitor and on to a new drug.

Last night we went for our walk in Wantagh Park. It's really great to walk when I feel like I want to, instead of having to.
I am proud of Danny that he walks with me, because his hip hurts him and sometimes his back. Yesterday I caled our internist and asked about his conversation with Dr. Garber and they said the Dr. left a message for him to call back. STAY TUNED!

Well I'm going out today to do some "shopping walking". I usually walk around the stores like I'm buying, but just go for the exercise. Although if a see a bargain---look out.

Tomorrow is my girlfriend's daughter's bridal shower. I found a nice black top with white cuffs and a collar that I'll wear with black pants. I found it at "The Avenue". It was the only thing that made me look like I lost weight and also I am not ready to spend money on outfits that won't fit me in a few weeks.

Sunday is the Lido Beach Festival. It'll be the first time we're doing an activity that is around food. I'll make sure I take my bottled water. Also I know there are vendors that grill fish for you plain. Last year I remember eating my way thru that place. But I think I am ready to enjoy the other things they have. We'll take a walk on the beach where they have sand sculpting competitions and wind surfing too. Last year I was too tired and full to make it down the beach.

My brother Vito lives in Charlotte, North Carolina. I heard that hurricane Isabel may approach his state. I know his city is inland, but I still worry. Bye for now...

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Sept 14----- Today I weighed 261.0. I am a happy camper. I went to the Lido Beach Festival and for the first time in 20 years--did not eat anything there. I brought my water and that was fine. I had a Glucerna shake for breakfast. Danny didn't eat anything there either. I was tempted, though. There was a vendor selling some balsamic chicken and I asked what was on the chicken and they said it was a sweet sauce. I said is there sugar on it and they said it was honey. Well I passed. I have not experienced the "dumping" syndrome yet and don't want to.

We fed some of the animals they had on display--goats, chickens, sheep, and walked around a lot. Almost made it to the beach but Danny said his hip was hurting. I wish we had a date for his surgery. His sugar this morning was 259--still too high. But he's on his way. We beat the rain today too. We came home after about 2 hours there. I made some soup and feel better. Been listening about Hurricane Isabel. Ya know before WLS I would look forward to occasions where I would make excuses to eat. (like Survivor finale party, snowstorms, too hot outside, etc) Now I want to walk---although right now I feel a bit tired.

Oh yesterday was my girlfriend's daughter's bridal shower. It was out east about 45 minutes away. I brought my water with me and had it for the party. She had diet soda, but I do not drink that anymore. She also had punch with cranberry juice and pinapple juice and some sherbert in it too. (good thing I brought my water) I ate some chicken salad that was mixed with mayo and yogurt and spices--no sugar (I asked). I ate 1 tsp of that, one tsp of baked ziti with no extra sauce--passed on the swedish meatballs and the salad. I have not eaten salad yet, but when the time is right I will try it. Also I ate two whole wheat crackers. I felt fine.

When I got home 4 hours later I made myself my delcious protein shake with 1/2 banana. I felt even better. I was proud of myself for having been in a position with a lot of tempting things and kept thinking what "the old Angie" would've done. But I watched the others eat and although they all ate a big plate of pasta, nobody went back for seconds. I did not feel I was the heaviest there either...but it was a close call among 2 other women and me. (can't wait for the day where I just blend in)

Tomorrow night we see the internist. I wonder if Dr. Garber ever got back to him. I'll bring Dr. Garber's e-mail address with me for him to use. Bye for now----

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Sept 15----- Today I weighed 260.2 lbs. I am happy. Did some walking in the supermarket today for 15 minutes. I had dropped off a prescription at the pharmacy, so it was an excuse to walk some. Danny and I went to the internist tonight. He never heard from Dr. Garber. I gave him Dr. Garber's e-mail address. We'll see what happens. They tested his sugar tonight and it was 202. So if it stays under 200 for a week, I'm calling Dr. Garber. That's the number he wants.

I had some photos developed today that had some pics of me and Danny one week before surgery. I also had Danny take a shot of me in the outfit I wore to the wedding shower on Saturday. You can really see the difference. I look so blown up like a hot air balloon in the before WLS shot. Now I am slowly deflating. (lol)

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Oh today I had some salad for the first time since before surgery. It was only about 2 tsp worth, but it was delicious. I also made a veggie burger with a little worcestershire sauce. I ate one slice of whole wheat toast too. I was very satisfied. I took 25 minutes to eat everything. Tonight I had 2 chicken wings that were marinated in tomato sauce and I had 2 tsp of string beans. Everything stayed down. Now that I waited 90 minutes I am ready to drink my Crystal Light. goodnight all-----

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Sept 18------Today I weighed 256.6. I can't believe how great I feel. 39 lbs in 7 1/2 weeks post op.lost. Yesterday we went down to Jones Beach to see the ocean stirring up due to Hurricane Isabel. I felt pretty good walking thru the sand in sneakers. It felt like a good workout. Danny was great about it.
Oh his blood sugar last night was 199. FIRST TIME UNDER 200!!!
I told him I was so proud of him and now if it could just be like that for a few weeks straight. This Sunday I am going to my couzins house for my Aunt's birthday party. I know my couzin always has tons of food at her house, but I am bringing one of my Glucerna shakes and a few melba toasts with me. I always want to be prepared in case there is something that I know would not agree with me.

Yesterday and today I ate some salad after eating my protein. I also cut up 1/4 of a banana and only 1 strawberry and ate that too. Needless to say my body feels really cleaned out today. (if ya know what I mean)

I know the water is really helping. I try to drink over a quart a day. And the walking is helping too. I do find I have some pains in my back towards the middle, that I did not have before surgery. I am sure it's because of the weightloss and that I am walking faster, or standing different, but sometimes Danny has to rub my back just so I can stand in one place. It usually happens at the end of the day when I have been running around doing errands, or after doing laundry and cooking. But I know that as I lose more weight I will feel better.

Oh, I had a disposable camera that Danny had snuck into the hospital when I had WLS....I forgot that I never developed the film......Well----I can't believe how bloated I looked all helpless laying there in the bed. Two shots I was not even aware Danny was taking pics. But there is one where I am looking at him with my finger on Mr. Morphine. These are absolutely the best BEFORE shots of me that I have. Kinda makes the 39 lbs I lost already look more like 50 lbs. (LOL)

Well I am off to the store for my "walking". I can't wait till I can say I am not morbidly obese.

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Sept 19-----did not lose any weight today. I'm okay with that. Sometimes it's every other day that I lose about 1 lb and 1/2. Next Thursday I'll go to the suppport group. My mom is coming over tonight for dinner. I am making a roasted chicken with lots of garlic and baby carrots. Also a big salad. We'll do without the potatoes, because Danny is on the "no carb" diet for lowering his blood sugar. His sugar has been high now only in the morning. We'll see the internist on Monday night.

Really hot amd muggy today---the remnants of Hurricane Isabel. There were just some tree branches down in my neighborhood. Watching all that news coverage on t.v. yesterday really made me think how much snacking I used to do whenever such an event would take place. I am so happy that I had this surgery. My scars are fading...my back still aches though, now and then. Also my ankle hurts. I think it's an achilles tendon that I had problems with back in January that is now showing his face again...hurts alot---put the lifts in my shoes that I never got rid of after phys. therapy. Maybe I will call the podiatrist. He may say that I have to back for the therapy...which was kind of fun...but when I was heavier it was a pain to work all the machines they put you on. Now I could think of it more as a personal trainer session. Will keep you posted. Wish Danny was scheduled for his surgery. Till next time-------
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Sept 23------ I weigh 255.2. I was that much on Sunday. But this morning I was blessed with my "friend". I really hate it, but at least being on the pill I do not have the cramps that I had last month. Hopefully within a day or two I'll drop a pound or two. (three with be great!) Hey 40 lbs in 8 weeks. Yee Ha!!

Went to the internist last night and he said he would e-mail Dr. Garber about Danny's blood sugar. He forwarded his letter via e-amil to me so I could see that he actually did e-mail him. Now as of tonight almost midnight I have not heard anything. But he is very supportive of Danny. His readings are all now below 250 but still not under 200.

I got a call today from Donna Franco, the physician asst. who is at Dr. Garber's office. She called to tell me my liver enzymes were high. I told her I found that out two weeks ago when my PCP called me and told me to go off the Lipitor. Ya know I had spoken to Desiree right after I had the Lab work done and asked her about my results and she said that if something was wrong they would call you. But two weeks later?? Whatever....

On a happier note, we went to Ct. to my couzin's house for my Aunt's birthday party. Everybody there noticed my weight loss. I felt terrific. They even said Danny looked good. (I told him that "no carb" diet is paying off) I was especially happy to see Debbie, my couzin's best friend who gave me all those clothes. She had the surgery last July and lost 140 lbs. She looked really skinny wearing a denim skirt and spandex top. We had a blast.

I ate a little salad and 1/4 of an overcooked cheeseburger. It would've been rarer, but I went for a walk with Danny and then my other couzin took me and Danny for a drive to see her house and then her coffee shop that she owns in Waterbury. So by the time we came back, that burger was as dry as the desert. But that was fine with me because I planned ahead and did have a Glucerna shake on the ride to Ct. around 12:30. I drank some water with a lemon in it, skipped the cake and even the fruit. I played with my couzin's kids and also my sister's kids were there. I was never out of breath. It did help that it was dry and in the 70's.

I shot two rolls of film and today I made sure everybody got photos. I spent a few hours today buying cards, stamps and stickers for the envelopes. Then sorting through all the pics, I was happy to say that I looked good in all the photos. That may sound conceited, but I usually look all puffy and sweaty and FAT. Now I looked like I blended in. I even had a photo taken by Danny of me and my mom and sister, and I did not hide half my body behind my mom's like I used to do to make me look thin. Does anybody else relate to this stuff??? I always say it's the little things that make me happy.

Okay now I have this wedding to go to Oct 4th. I have absolutely nothing to wear. I don't even have a pair of dress shoes. I guess I have to break down and spend some money on an outfit that will be too big for me to wear again next month or so, right? But I'll do it. I'll start tomorrow at Catherine's, before I go to Macy's. As for shoes, it'll be Payless for me. I am really a casual person---well a sneaker person. I hope I can find something that makes me happy and that I don't just buy it to buy it. Getting tired----(blood loss lol) see ya....

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Sept 25----- Today I weigh 254.2-----wow a whole pound in 4 days. I thought I would've lost more, but I have to be happy that at least I am losing. Still have my period. I think this should be the last day.

I bought an outfit for the wedding next week. I had tried on so many dresses that fit great standing up in the dressing room, but as soon as I would sit down on the chair it felt like there was no room to stretch my hips and butt. So I bought a pair of dressy pants that look like a gown. They have this chiffon material in layers on top of the pants that is so flowing and soft both on the front and back. And if I stand still and don't walk anywhere it really looks like a gown. I also bought a matching top. But I have to go to the taylor because the pants are about 4 inches too long. I tried rolling them up but who wants to add more inches to my hips? Anyway the outfit looks great. I also found a pair of shoes. They are black and comfortable with a little lift not even a heal. I had been in sneakers for so long that it was hard to wear a heal without the ball of my foot killing me. So today I'll go to the taylor. I hope she can do it in a week.

Oh last night Danny's blood sugar was 193. I gave him a big hug. But this morning it was 266. Go figure. Just cant't get that morning sugar to drop. We'll go to the support group tonight. Maybe we can talk to Dr. Garber for a minute at the end of the meeting.

Yesterday I bumped into a girlfriend I new when I worked at a Travel Agency. She immediately noticed my weight loss. She made my day. As I told her about the surgery another woman cut in the conversation politely asking questions about the procedure. I felt like a spokesperson for Dr. Garber. The other woman was excited and I know she memorized everything I told her.

Was not hungry this morning but I made a protein shake to get me through the beginning of the day. I am still having backaches but Danny does this chiropratic hug around my body while I have my arms crossed in front of me and he lifts me up off the floor for a second and I can hear and feel all the cracks snapping in my back and then I feel much better. When he is not around I try stretching exercises on the floor. Today I am going to try and walk more. Was feeling a bit blah the past few days with my "friend". All I know is that it's been 8 weeks 4 days since surgery and I lost 41 lbs........... see ya!!!


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Sept 27, 2003------- Today I weigh 253.6. I feel really great. I tried on a pair of jeans that I had bought recently on sale and they fit perfect. When I had tried them on in the store they were 4 inches away from closing on my waist. I think I will wear them to my mom's house next week with a blouse my sister gave me for my birthday in April that finally fits too.

Last night my sister and brother in-law dropped the kids off for us to babysit while they went shopping. I had told my sister to make sure you pack some goodies in your diaper bag because I have nothing to offer but diet jello, pudding and sugar free fudgicles. She had pretzels for them and some other little lunch bag items. I had a blast playing with them and was never out of breath like I used to be. My nephew likes to play "horsey" and I could lift him with my legs up and down without telling him the "horse" is tired. He actually wanted to get off. (lol)

Today Danny has to work so I'm going to make sure I take a long walk by myself. It's supposed to rain tonight, and I don't know what he'll feel like when he gets home. Oh his blood sugar this morning was 218. Still high, but creeping towards that "under 200" that Dr. Garber wants.

I had asked Dr. Garber about my back aching when I went to the support group and he said to take tylenol. I did and it felt the same all night. But this morning it does not hurt. I am trying to do more stretching exercises lately. It helps some.
Well it's early Saturday morning and I am ready to walk. This is so crazy because I used to wake up around 9-10 in the morning on the weekends because I was always so tired. Now I wake up at around 7 and feel good. 42 lbs lost in almost 9 weeks!!! bye

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Sept 29, 2003------ Today I weighed 251.5. I'm happy. I see Dr. Garber on Friday morning. Danny will come with me. His blood sugar last night was 183 and this morning it was 203. We see the internist tonight and Danny has an appt with his endocrinologist. With all the blood results and sugar counts, Danny is going "armed" to Dr. Garber on Friday and hopes he can get a surgery date really soon. I did my walking today after I went to Lab Corp for a blood test for my liver enzymes which were high 3 weeks ago. I wonder how much weight I have to lose to go off my high blood pressure medication and water pill.

I can't believe I am almost under 250. I look forward to weighing about 150-160. But I really don't know what my goal is because I haven't weighed that little since high school. I guess as long as I am losing I'm happy.

Last night Danny cut up pieces of pork off the chops and sauteed them with a bit of soy sauce and spices and some peppers and onions. I ate the pork in my little bitty small bites and just chewed and spit out the peppers and onions. I find if I can't chew it till it becomes mushy, then it does not belong in my new stomach. (lol) I remember from last weeks support group Dr. Garber saying how important protein is. So when I am not full I eat more protein and it satifies me a lot longer than if I fill up on salad (which I love).

Right now I am drinking sugar free kool aid. It's delicious but is very hard to find it in the stores, so I ordered it on-line and it came delivered in 2 days. I find lately I am able to drink a bit more than when I first came home. What I mean is I can take a bigger gulp of fluid and not just a sip. I still sip every now and then, but sometimes I just want to quench my thirst faster. I don't seem to have the distress that I used to have.

I am so ready for Danny to have this surgery. He has not cheated on his "no carbs" plan at all. I am so proud of him. He did some sanding and painting in a spare room we have upstairs and worked for about 4 hours yesterday. I finally went to the supermarket for shopping and walking. I can walk up and down all the aisles in about 25 minutes. I guess it would be faster if I did not but anything. But the "old Angie" would've just shopped for what she needed and left and gone home to rest from being exhausted. I can't believe how much energy I have.

Tomorrow my mom is coming over for lunch. I think we'll have veggie burgers and salad. She is really proud of me. I love her for that. Bye for now............

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October 2, 2003---Today I weigh 250.5. That's 45 lbs in 9 1/2 weeks. I feel great. I got the blood test results from my PCP and he said my liver enzymes went down most likely because I went off the Lipitor but my cholesterol went UP to 284. I was never that high, but the Dr. said that by losing weight it should come down and that we'll do another blood test in about a
month. I feel my whole body is changing for the good but I have to say I was pretty p.o'ed that this stupid cholesterol was so damn high. Did anybody experienced the same thing after WLS?? Please e-mail me...I'd appreciate it.

We see Dr. Garber tomorrow morning. I hope he has good news for Danny. I'll keep you posted. I also made an appointment to see Sharon the nutritionist afterwards. I made a list of questions. I hope to get my money's worth.(100.00 a visit) :)

I have my girlfriend's daughter's wedding on Saturday and a birthday party at my mom's on Sunday. I am so glad I had this surgery, because I know when I am full and when to stop. I just have to make sure I drink more water. Sometimes I get a weird feeling in my stomach after drinking water that does not seem to happen when I have a protein shake. Go figure.

I walked today for about 20 minutes. It was pretty cool out. I love this weather. I am finally wearing shirts that close in front that I used to wear as a jacket. Maybe next week I'll buy a few pairs of pants to get me by. The ones I have been wearing are really big but so comfortable. I have to start getting used to wearing fitted clothes soon. Bye for now------------

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October 7 2003...... Today I weigh 247.2 lbs. I finally made it to under 250. I am so happy. I went to my girlfriends wedding on Saturday. Boy was it a long day. I got to the bride's house about 1 to take photos and did not get home till 11 p.m. But the next day I had dropped 1lb and 1/2. I only ate some chicken and 2 pieces of melon and 1 strawberry for dessert. I drank ice water with a lime in it with a stirrer sticking out so it would look like a real drink. I was so busy taking photos that I was walking around most of the night. My outfit looked great and I felt terrific. I really had a great time.

Oh I have great news about Danny. We are officially waiting for a surgery date. I have to call Stephanie today and she will have an answer either today or tomorrow. Danny and I went to Dr. Garber on Friday morning and he was really impressed with all the hard work Danny has done. I met with the nutritionist and she gave me some helpful pointers that will help me lose weight faster. She was fabulous. Expensive, but worth it.

Dr. Garber answered all my prepared questions and looked at my blood work and asked about my cholesterol. I told him I will be retested in a few weeks. He mentioned something about during WLS they press on the liver and that may cause the elevated cholesterol. I told him I'd have the results forwarded to him. He said I may have to be on medication for that if it's still high. Hopefully it will go down, although everyone in my family has high cholesterol, even my skinny sister who weighs about 110 lbs.

On Sunday I went to my mom's to celebrate her sister's 70th birthday. I had a good time. I brought a grape protein drink that I bought at Dr. Garber's office. It was delicious. I stayed away from all the appetizers and waited for the main meal. I'm glad my mom served buffet style. Nobody really payed attention to what I was eating. I played with my niece and nephew all day. We came home around 8 and I was so tired. I ate a bit of supper and went right to bed. Sometimes you really have to listen to your body.

Danny has a little cold. I told him you better get well quick. I'd hate to go through all that we did, to get denied surgery because you're sick. Today he says he feels better. Last night we walked about 25 minutes around a school track. I told him every day till the surgery he has to walk and that he will heal faster if he does. He is in the "zone" of getting this done. He bought some paint to finish the upstairs room. He is so gung-ho. I remember doing a lot of things around the house before surgery because I knew it would be awhile before I would have the strength again. I really love him and feel so strong now to be a great care-giver. Much stronger than if he had the surgery in August.

I can't believe it's 10 weeks ago today that I had WLS. Time is going by so fast. I wish I had the surgery years ago. But on other hand I am glad I found Dr. Garber. I know I am always "in good hands". Bye for today-----------

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October 8, 2003-----Danny got a surgery date!!!!!!!

I am so happy for him and he is really happy. He has really worked hard to get that blood sugar down. I spoke to Desiree and she is sending out the pre-op testing package (again). Danny does not care if he has to go through all the tests again. Oh I forgot--the date is OCTOBER 29----just three weeks away. Oh my gosh I am so nervous for Danny but feel so great physically that I know I will be a great caregiver when I take him home on I guess it might be Halloween. I went out today and bought some sweatpants for him to wear home from the hospital. I also bought a few pairs of underwear a size smaller than he is now. I have a feeling he'll soon catch up to me!!!

I weighed 246 today. I am making a real effort to drink more water and crystal light. I can finally swallow the citracal calcium pills as long as I have each pill cut into 4 pieces. I bought a pill cutter the other day in Walgreen. It works really well on huge pills. 49 lbs lost in 10 weeks 2 days. I am a happy camper. Danny and I wish everyone who has had this surgery much success and happiness.

On a weird note---I got my period today. It is off by over 2 weeks. I called my gyn and spoke to a nurse because she was out on vacay. I told her about being on the pill. She asked if I had skipped any and it just so happened that I did miss taking yesterdays pill. She said that could happen. I hope this period is it for the month, because the next one will be when Dan is in the hospital. Bye for now------me

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October 13 2003---Happy Columbus Day fellow Italians!!!
Today I weighed 245.0. Okay 11 weeks and 50 lbs lost and 1/2 lb. Can't forget the 1/2 lbs. :) I am walking everyday, sometimes twice a day. The hardest part is drinking enough fluids. I am really trying. This waiting an hour after ya eat is a pain, but I do what I am told, and I know it'll all work out.

Danny is getting excited about his surgery. I told my sister I don't think we'll be going to her house in Pennsylvania for Thanksgiving. But we will play it by ear. I know three weeks post-op for me--I really did not want to be around others eating so much. I think it was around 5 weeks when I went to my niece and nephews birthday. But that was all buffet and not a sit-down like Thanksgiving would be. We'll see. I want Danny to heal well and not be uncomfortable during a 2 hour car ride. He'll let me know. His blood sugar levels have been good. We see the internist tomorrow night. I know he'll be happy that Danny got a surgery date.

Danny and I will both see Dr. Garber Nov. 7th in the morning. Me for my monthly visit and Danny for his first visit post-op. I bought a measuring tape to get his measurements before surgery so I can compare them after WLS. Our scale at home only goes up to 300. Last time at Dr. Garber's Danny weighed 398. I feel nervous for Danny--call it sympathy pains, but all those feelings I had pre-op I am having again for him--is this normal?? I wonder.

Anyway--today is a beautiful day and I may walk again--I took a walk in Wantagh Park this morning. I am not getting as many back pains lately, so that's a good thing. I am eating all protein sometimes a protein shake in the morning, and salad with chicken or fish or steak for lunch and dinner. My only snack is a sugar free fudgicle at around 9 p.m. Yummy. Have a great day!!

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October 17, 2003--- What a crazy 3 days I'v been through. I now know what it is really like to be constipated. On Monday and Tuesday I was having some problems, but increased my water and it did not work. I walked for 40 minutes straight that day too. On Wednesday-nothing---Thursday ---still nada---and that's when I called the nutrionist who was not in but one of the girls said to try milk of magnesia. I painfully drove to the store and picked it up right away. It said in the directions to take at bedtime. It was 2 p.m. I had no plans so I took a half dose (which they said you could do) followed by 8 oz of water. I waited and waited---watching the Yankee game and nothing ---but the pain "down there" was so horrible I felt like I had a golf ball--wait make that tennis ball trying to get out. After the Yankees won the game----I took a second dose and slept on the couch all night. Danny came down stairs around 6 a.m. and knew I had not "gone" all night. I was really miserable. I continued to drink water, walk around the house and finally just sat on the toilet and cried. I began to sweat so much that it fell off my forehead. My hands and arms were wet and I was shaking like I was having a seizure--but I knew what was going on all the time. Sorry if I get too descriptive--but maybe this can help somebody. Anyway I thought about Carnie Wilson's book where she wrote about tearing her rectum and having surgery to repair it. Well-at this point I was ready to call Danny and tell him to call EMS. But I took a deep breath and pushed and lo and behold--that frigging tennis ball comes out and I felt so much better--but exhausted from sweating. Now I never gave birth--but I sure looked like one of those mothers on the Discovery channel or TLC--when they are delivering. Whew-------

Now the good news---when I got on the scale I weighed 243.0. Thats two lbs of "crap". LOL------I was able to walk around without hurting and I could stand up straight. I had recently purchased Barbara Thompson's book on WLS, and read everything about constipation and she does say to drink alot of water. Well so far today I drank 32 oz. and yesterday I had 48. My goal is to drink 64 oz. I can tolerate water now. No need for the Crystal light. 52 lbs lost ---Monday is my 3 month anniversary.

Danny is getting excited about the surgery. He just bought a surround system---he said if he's home for a week or so and watching a lot of t.v---he wants to really enjoy it. I told him when you first come home--you are not going to care what the t.v. sounds like---I don't even remember half the stuff that was on when I came home after WLS--- I was so doped up from all the drugs. I know after 3 days or so -I asked for the remote control
back from him.

Tomorrow we are going to the Oyster Festival in the town of Oyster Bay. It'll be Dan's last time to eat raw oysters. I love them too--but would not think of eating them now--for fear of them getting stuck. There are a lot of vendors and the "tall ships" are so beautiful on the water. Plus we'll do a lot of walking. We're going early--so we can come home and take down our little 8 ft round swimming pool that we put up every summer. Danny knows he won't be able to lift heavy stuff after surgery for awhile--so he has a list of the stuff that needs to be done. Next Wednesday He goes to pre-op. His blood sugar at lunch time today was 165. This morning it was 222. He'll get it down by next week. The internist told Danny to adjust his insulin in the morning. ALso we will use this DR. as Danny's PCP, because he is the one who has helped Dan with his insulin levels--where the other Doctor used to tell Danny to "lose weight and it will drop". Our internist is so nice and supportive---he said as soon as he gets the results from Huntington Hospital, he'll write a clearance letter and we can pick it up. That makes things much easier. It's a good idea to have a copy with you on surgery day, because the nurses said they could not read the fax that they got from my PCP--and they had to call him to verify some things that were hard to read. Well I gotta go---Have a great week-end everybody. Thanks for all the e-mails. It's nice to know there are great people out there who get a kick out of what I have to say----life is funny---and the losing part is hilarious. I never kept a journal before.....but by other WLS friends feedback--I know I am helping others. Have a great week-end all-----bye for now------me

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October 21, 2003-----Today I weighed 241.4!!! I feel so good. I am drinking 64 oz of water now everyday. No "backed up" problems. The only thing is that I have had my period for the past two and 1/2 weeks straight and that is with being on the pill. I called my gyn and she said if it did not stop in a week to make an appt. I had missed only one day of the pill and she said that could be the reason and also the drastic weight loss.

I went to Dr. Garber's office today to pick up some shakes and drinks. Everyone there was so complimentary towards me. I still think I look fat sometimes and have to accept this shrinking thing that is happening to my body so fast. But their support was wonderful.

After that I went to my PCP to pick up the script for my cholesterol to be re-tested. I figured since it was slow in the office, maybe the Dr. could see me, and he did within 2 minutes.
I told him my left shoulder has been bothering me since after the surgery and maybe I need some physical therapy for it. He ordered and xray and gave me a script for the therapy and also for the cholesterol test. I went to a radiology facility that did the xray within 10 minutes after I got there. Wow I was having a good day with the Doctors. Also when I had to put a gown on for the xray--IT FIT!!! Normally I would've brought my own robe, like I did when I went for a mammo pre- WLS.

Okay--tomorrow Danny goes for pre-testing at Huntington Hospital at 9:30 a.m. He is very nervous. I spoke to Donna Franco the physician's assistant for Dr. Garber and she said she will be assisting the Dr. during surgery. I think that's great!
She wanted to make sure we would get a clearance letter from Danny's endocrinologist and I told her that he really isn't supportive of the surgery--and I asked her is it okay to get the clearance you need from our internist who has been really great with getting Danny's sugar down. She said as long as he could write it in his clearance for surgery letter-it would be fine. I told her I did not think it would be a problem. We see the internist on Friday morning at 11:30. Donna said that she won't be in on Friday or Mon-Wed. but that the girls should have the paperwork for Danny.

I bought a great piece of two inch foam rubber to put on the recliner for added comfort for Danny when he gets home from WLS. I am so ready for him to have this already. I will miss the support group this month. Anybody wanting to update me on anything via e-mail, it would be appreciated. Thanks for all your support. Have a super day!!! Let's go Yankees!!!!

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October 23, 2003----Today I weighed 239.8 lbs. I'll take it. I am feeling a lot better drinking more water. What a day Danny and I had yesterday. Not a bad day--just a long one. We went to Huntington Hospital at 9:30 a.m for pre- testing. Danny brought his glucometer and insulin-just in case. But with careful planning and a bit more "coverage" insulin--he got his sugar down to 148. He even had the technician put blood on his test strip after he took what he needed out of Danny's arm just to make sure the numbers would match. He went for his E.K.G and that was done in 5 minutes. When we went upstairs for the chest xray, we found out that since Danny already had one done in August--that it was okay to skip this part--so we proceeded to the ambulatory unit where you meet with the anesthesiologist and a nurse and they said they already had Danny on file so he is good to go. I asked them to give me another health care proxy just in case I could not find the old one and then we left the hospital by 10:30 a.m. Oh I forgot --we did find the hskp dept on the ground floor because we had hundreds of used needles which they will dispose of free of charge as long as you have them in a puncture proof or really heavy duty plastic container like a laundry detergent container. I was glad to get rid of those.

After that we went to a diner where Danny had a great omelete with lots of meat in it and I ordered a 1/2 chicken broiled with lemon and oregano. We told the waitress, who was very understanding, that we did not want any bread at the table-no salad-no vegetables, no butter, no pickles, etc. I ate the thigh meat which was so tender and moist and gave the breast meat which was kind of dry to Danny. I felt very satisfied and proud of myself. Except for the wedding I went to a few weeks ago-going out to public places to eat feels kind of scary to me-but I felt good going to a diner, because I know they can make anything you ask.

After that we went to B.J.'s to pick up a saw so Danny can install some high hats in a room that we are working on upstairs. Danny has been very good at crossing off his "honey do" list that I made up for things to get done before he is out of commission for a few weeks. He fixed the storm store, trimmed a tree in front of the house, put away patio furniture, and is fixing our banister this weekend. Also the old recliner is sitting in the back room with me now not far from this desk and Danny is supposed to take it to his office. I told him if it's not out by this weekend it's getting dragged to the curb. The chair is shot, but he said if he makes room at work, he wanted it. I try not to hold on to things anymore and since losing weight I know I held on to so many clothes--except now even those don't fit me anymore and I could not be happier.

Anyway after going to the store we went home for a bit and then we had and appointment with the cardiologist, because Donna Franco, Dr. Garber's physician's asst. said that they needed another clearance letter from them, because he had his E.K.G. done the last time in April. I told Donna that we were going to have that done in the hospital and she said they still needed a letter from Dr. Cohen. Now his office is on the 4th floor of Dr. Garber's building so it was no big deal, but we waited 40 minutes to get in. And Danny came out after another 70 minutes. I asked him how many tests did you have done and he said just the E.K.G. but they left me in a room for about 1/2 hour--I thought they forgot about me. Well at least that is over. After that we went down to Dr. Garber's office and spoke to Donna. She said that she called our internist office and said they would accept his clearance letter for Danny and also an endocrinolgist letter from him too as long as he writes it on two separate letterheads. This is getting so complicated, but when I called the internist from the car phone the girl who answered was so reassuring that there would be no problem and the Dr. would comply. I told her we would see him on Friday at 11:30 am for the letters. We felt a whole lot better.

Danny is totally into the surgery now. I told him I would give him a hair cut and manicure and pedicure before he goes in. I told him by Christmas you will be able to eat regular food--it'll be 8 weeks by then. I bought low sodium chicken broth for the first few days he comes home. I have tons of jello in the little 6 packs and I have a lot of canned soup to blenderize when he is ready too. I also have poland spring water and Halloween 6 oz paper cups. I told him you better find your suspenders, because that's going to be the only thing holding up your pants. I know he'll drop weight fast. I can't wait to see the transformation. When I met Danny he was 272 and I was 162. I hope to be that low one day. Danny hopes he'll lose 100 lbs. I told him you'll lose more because you are so active. Today his morning sugar was 213. 6 more days till WLS. My mom will come with me to the hospital. I did not want her there when I had WLS because I thought it would be too much for her, but now she wants to keep me company while I wait for Danny's WLS. When I was in surgery, Danny said he just closed his eyes and slept. I can't fall asleep in a chair just like that, so having someone to talk with, will make the time go by faster and calm me down. I am more excited and nervous for Danny than I think he is.

I am meeting a friend for lunch today. He got me a sales job 3 years ago. I had gotten laid off in February and then in March the whole place closed down. He got a job right away at another place selling the same textiles. He has asked me in March if I wanted to work and I was so focused at that time with seeing Dr. Garber, that I said no, I think I'll stay on unemployment for awhile. His brother works with my husband and Danny knows his family. Well he called the other day and said his boss is hiring again. I told him I could not consider going back to work right now, because Danny will need care for a week or two after WLS. He understood. Actually now that I recall, he is the one who gave me the name of a girl, Leslie--who had the surgery a few years ago and lost about 150 lbs. with Dr. Garber. Anyway he said why not meet my boss and we'll go to lunch and talk. I said okay. We were supposed to meet last week--but with my severe constipation, I knew I would be horrible company for anybody. But today I feel great. I am wearing a blouse that was so snug once, it looked like three spare tires--boobs-mid belly-and lower-belly. Now my chest is still big--but a lot smaller--the blouse is loose, not so clingy in the middle and it falls right on my stomach and looks fine. Ya know me it's all the little things that really make me smile.....Have a super day---chilly out--stay warm.........me


October 25, 2003-----Today I weighed 238.5 --I feel great!
Everything went fine with Danny and all his clearance letters!!!
Dr. Garber approved the two letters from our allergist/internist and Donna Franco said she got the clearance letter from the cardiologist. Now all we have to do is wait for a time for surgery on Wed. I think I will call Huntington if I don't hear from them by 2 p.m. Also my mom wants to meet me at my house to go with us so she can stay with me while Danny is in surgery. I have a feeling his time will be early, because I heard when you are diabetic they try to do you first. That would mean getting to the hospital at 5:30 a.m. for a 7:30 time slot, which would mean we would have to leave here at around 4:30-4:45 a.m. I think I will tell my mom how to get to Huntington Hospital so she can just meet me there later. And I know it will be a long day and I would feel bad if I wanted to stay longer and my mom wanted to leave earlier.

Danny's sugar tested 134 from the hospital and this morning his sugar was 180. All still good. Last night Danny had his first "cheat" since being on the Atkins diet. He made shake and bake pork chops. I even ate one--well most of one and I ate 1 tsp of mashed potato. It was delicious. But I actually like the texture of a tender piece of chicken other than the pork, but I wanted to try to eat a diiferent kind of meat for a change.

Danny and I went out last night and bought a new Xmas tree at Home Depot. It was kind of heavy, so that's why we bought it now. Danny is starting to get nervous but in a good way. He knows what I went through and he says he has a higher tolerance for pain than I do...I told him--let me know how high that tolerance is when you can't get yourself off the toilet bowl without help when you first come home. I have not forgotten how dependent on him that I was during the first week at home. He stayed with me the second week, but I was getting stronger at that time, just hated wearing clothes when they rubbed the bandages.

Danny said make sure I pack a fan. I told him I would have a fan in the trunk of the car for him and if he needed it I would go out and get it. At least I will get some walking done in the hospital. I told him it may be different now that it is getting cooler-it may not feel so hot in your room. We'll see. I have everything ready.

On a another subject--my lunch with an old co-worker went really well. I met his boss at his job in Farmingdale. He offered me a job!! I told him I appreciate the offer but I have to help my husband during his recovery time for a few weeks and would not consider returning back to work till after the holidays. He said --no problem--he understood because he knew
someone who had the surgery and how long it took to get back to work and feel better. I felt pretty good. And my friend really noticed I lost weight and gave me a lot of encouragement.

I told him of an incident that happened last Saturday when My neighbor across the street walked over to me in front of Danny and said Hey Angie you are longer obese--JUST OVERWEIGHT!! I said thankyou very much and tried to be nice--but I was shocked that she said that--she also said -now you and Danny can come on our boat and I said --what-we couldn't come when we were fat? and now you want us on?? I told her-no thank you I get seasick anyway. She then said I am her inspiration to lose weight, because I am doing so well on my diet. I told her this is not a diet---ya know I am getting tired of people thinking this is a temporary thing I did to lose weight. My friend Joe said that you will come across people who are just jealous of your success and they are not really your friends. He is right. He was one of my co-workers who saw me for my sales ability and not my size and never judged me. Although it used to annoy me when we used to walk during lunch time and I could not keep up with him. Now he noticed my weight loss and was sincere and so supportive of Danny going through the surgery too.

Anyway let's go Yankees tonight!!!! I think I'll eat some chicken wings. I am waiting for this guy to install the surround sound. It's 10:30 am---he should be here before 1 p.m. I hope so, because I have to get my walk in----Don't forget to turn the clocks back 1 hour----Yeah one hour of extra sleep tomorrow!!! Have a good weekend all-----------me

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October 27, 2003----Today I weighed 237.4. My period finally stopped. I hope to be on a regular schedule now, being on the pill. 58 lbs lost in 3 months 1 week. I am having a good day today. The house is all cleaned and straightened up and ready for Danny's return fron the hospital. Okay he doesn't go in till Wednesday, but I want to be prepared. I just put two cases of Glucerna shakes in the fridge. I went to the lab today for another blood test for me to have my cholesterol checked again. I hope it went down. I really don't want to be on medication again.

Danny is moving the old reliner out of this room today. He has gotten a lot of stuff in order for himself too. He put out a few things he wants to take to the hospital. He has a comb, the fan, vaseline for his lips, some body lotion that I can put on him, slippers and a list of all his meds and the clearance letters from his PCP and also his CPAC machine for sleep apnea. I have a separate bag for his clothes to put in the car after his surgery. I am bringing bottled water for myself and a protein shake and some chicken salad over lettuce. I plan on staying st the hospital all day. Just like Danny did for me.

Thanks to everybody who has sent Danny good wishes. He appreciates it. He is not much of a letter writer like me, but he does read everything. Anyway-tomorrow Danny is on liquids only, jello and chicken broth. I guess I did not read everything from the Doctor's office before my surgery, because I remember that I ate the day before surgery. I told Danny that I probably would've lost a few more lbs if I didn't. But we are following everything to a tee. Two more days till Danny's life changes forever. P.S.--my size 18 pants are getting loose---yeeha!!!
Seems so long ago that I was wearing 26/28. Life is great!!!

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November 5, 2003--- Danny made it through the surgery fine. He only complained that his back hurt. He had to stay in recovery the first day so I was only able to stay with him for 5 minutes after surgery. Then I went home and napped for a bit after getting up at 4:00 a.m. I called the hospital twice and they said Danny was sitting up in a chair. I hardly moved at all the first day of my WLS. Anyway I visited again around 6 p.m. for another short visit. Danny met up with Vito another "Garber Baby" as Danny puts it. He had the surgery right after Danny did. I was happy Danny had someone to talk with.

He came home on Halloween afternoon. He is keeping his liquids down as has only taken one pain pill a day. He hated feeling "out of it" and hardly used "Mr. Morphine" in the hospital. I am so proud of him. He went to King Kullen with me on Monday and even stopped by his job to see his friends. He has alot of stamina when he wants to. Today he feels a bit worn out. I told him to take it easy and listen to your body and rest when you are tired and walk when you aren't.

His drains are all good except today the one with that tube coming out looked a little funny. He's taking a shower now--yes by himself--and I'll look at it again after he's all dried up.
We see Dr. Garber on Friday. I'm sure if he has an infection, he'll give Danny an antibiotic to take.

I weighed 235.0 this morning. 60 1/2 lbs LOST!!!! I really felt the difference without drinking enough water while Danny was in the hospital those 3 days. I am trying now to make up for it--but as you all know it's a lot of work being a caretaker. But I am doing pretty good--keeping on Danny's feeding schedule--washing his sheets everyday and his bath towels and just keeping the house fixed up so he feels better. (the recliner is working out the best!!!!)

Thanks to all who wished Danny good luck. We will see you at the support group in a few weeks. Bye for now----Angie


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November 7, 2003----We went to Dr. Garber's today for our weigh in. I lost 17 lbs and Danny lost 29 lbs in 10 days. I am so proud of him. Donna Franco the Phys. Assistant was great at taking Danny's drains out. She has a terrific bedside manner. When Dr. Garber came in he was happy with Danny's progress and said to wait till next Wednesday to go on soft mushy food. We took photos with me and Dr. Garber and Danny with him too. I should have brought more water with us. I was extra thirsty when we got home but caught up quick. I have to try and keep up with the 64 oz rule.

Danny is resting now. We had to wait quite awhile in the Dr.s' office but saw our friend Vito there who had the surgery the same day as Danny's, so we past the time more quickly.

Yesterday we got a phone call from songwriter Victoria Shaw from Nashville. She was in a recording studio working with Lance Bass. What a shock that she called. She wanted to know how Danny and I were doing and said she's been thinking about us lately. I had been mailing her letters and e-mailing her, never thinking that she would actually call. We've known her as fans of her music (she wrote Garth Brook's The River) for about 8 years and usually catch up with her in June when we go to Nashville for Fan Fair. Anyway--she made my day and really perked Danny up. He has been taking the pain medication 'cos his back hurts. I told him to ween himself off the pills so you don't get addicted. It makes him tired too.

I'll update again. Have a great weekend---getting colder bundle up---- Angie

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November 8, 2003--- Today I did not lose anything. I am okay with that. Sometimes it seems I go a day or two and nothing and then all of a sudden 3 lbs will drop. I got photos developed today that I took of Danny in the hospital. They came out great. I'll bring them to the next support group if anybody wants to see them, I'll be happy to show them. I had also taken a few "before" photos of Danny. He's doing really well. He's still leaking a lot from the drain areas, but not that much that we can't go about 5 hours before changing the dressings.

We went out today to exercise a bit. Danny is walking slow but every bit helps. We went to Target and Waldbaums. I bought a piece of salmon for dinner tonight. Danny had eggdrop soup again for lunch from the chinese takeout. It was really windy and cold today. Danny was okay most of the time just waiting in the car for me. I had him bundled up. I've noticed his ankles are so less swollen and puffy than they used to be. I'm going to start calling him chicken legs. I told him by Christmas you'll probably catch up with my weight loss. I am proud of him. I miss him a lot, if ya know what I mean, but ya have to follow Dr.'s orders, right?

I have a lot of clothes that are size 3X. If there is anybody who wants them, e-mail me and let me know. If not then to goodwill they will go. I'll hold onto them for a week or so, but the pile is getting high. I'm only holding onto a pair 26/28 stretch pants that I wore home from the hospital so I can have it for a reality check. I can't believe my body is actually getting smaller. Sometimes I wish it would happen faster, but I guess slow and steady has its advantages because I don't have to keep buying new sizes and I get to feel myself shrinking.

Well have a great Saturday night. I guess we're watching Cops, although I really like that new show Las Vegas. But Danny is the patient, so I will give in, but if I hear him snoring----
then CLICK------Angie

November 13, 2003--- Today I am 232 lbs. 63 1/2 lbs lost!!! I am happy. Update on Danny----The one drain that was removed on the left side on Friday was leaking really heavy for the past few days. I called Donna at Dr. Garber's office and she suggested that Danny come in. So I drove him there. Stephanie weighed him again and I could not believe that he lost another 9 lbs in 5 days. That's a total of 39 1/2 lbs in 2 weeks. I told Danny you are catching up to me really fast. I am so proud of him. Dr. Herron took care of Danny but watching him clean out the open wound by sticking a long q-tip looking stick in there made ME sqeeze Danny's hand real tight. I just watched as Danny was trying to be tough but I'm sure he wanted to yell--Get the hell out of there! The Dr. then pushed a piece of gauze about 4 inches of it into the wound to act like a drain. He then bandaged him up and told him when he showers to make sure the water goes right on the wound and try to get more stuff out.

Then he said he wants Danny to make an appointment for next Friday to be sure it's healing okay. I was glad that we went. We chatted with Heather for awhile and Donna. Heather, having been through the surgery is great and so supportive. Donna is just a pleasure and so nice.

When we got home our friend Vito had called and Danny and him caught up on the healing process, pain, food and other issues only other WLs patients would know about. My own family members have said to us--Don't screw up this diet this time--meanwhile we had MAJOR surgery. I wish they would just listen to us and ask questions once in a whille istead of being so quick to pass judgement. But losing weight this fast is the best---that's all we have to say. Danny has not taken insulin by needle for a week. He only takes Amaryl, an oral medication. His sugar readings have been in the 130,s and 140's. Can't believe just a few weeks ago the readings were over 200. This surgery has really saved his life. His ankles are not swollen anymore, and I've been calling him "chicken legs". He is hardly snoring too. All this in just 2 weeks.

It's so windy today. Gusts to 40-50 m.p.h.---I love the weather!! Going out today to do some "shopping walking". I think it helps Danny to get out. And when he comes home and wants to rest, he knows it's because he is tired and not just bored. Before my surgery a typical Saturday would be to clean the house, do some laundry, food shopping, bank, and then go home and crawl back into bed for 2-3 hours because we were exhausted. I cannot believe how much energy I have. Yesterday I bought a winter coat. I had held off long enough. Anyway it was a 1x. The last jacket I bought last year was a 4x. I also bought a few tops that were an 18. I have not been this size for over 12 years. Life is good and is getting better. I just heard the garbage pail slam by the house---so I'll chat again soon. Bye!!

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November 23, 2003-- Today I weigh 228.0. 67 1/2 lbs lost. I have been trying to drink more water lately. I guess I have to try even harder. Danny is doing well. He lost 43 lbs in 3 weeks. God bless him. I haven't updated in awhile. Been making sure I took good care of Danny. He goes back to work on Monday. Everyday we have been shopping somewhere to walk around and get exercise. Yesterday we went to Ikea, T.J. Max, the bank, King Kullen and Babies R Us in about 4 hours time. He was exhausted and I was still okay with being out, but I know how important rest is to him so we went home and I made him a shake and he went to sleep.

Oh last Monday we went to The Bottom Line in NYC to see our friend Victoria Shaw perform and also some other songwriters. One of the songwriters, Mark Hudson was going to sing a song he wrote called Living on the Edge (for Aerosmith) and he said it's hard for him to reach those high notes. All of a sudden a guy yells out " I can sing it" and then Mark says "well come on up" and we could not believe that Steven Tyler walked right up on that stage and sang his heart out like he was in a stadium and not in a small place that holds about 400 people. We got photos with him later on and he was really nice and gracious. Also Olivia Newton John was sitting behind Danny and she was great and looked amazing and posed for photos too. What a night. We drank red zinger tea and shared chicken fingers. Well I had 3 and Danny ate 1. We both have not had any caffeine since the surgery.

Danny still has an infection on his left side. When we went to Dr. Garber on Friday, he poked that long q-tip stick into the open wound--Danny said it hurt like hell--and then he showed me how to place the gauze into the hole so it acts like a drain. It did not gross me out. I guess I am used to seeing all this stuff lately. He said to do that for three days and he should be fine. I am glad I did not have to go through that. My level for pain is really low. Danny was a real trouper. And Danny was the one who placed the gauze inside the open wound when we got home. He wanted to do it. Other than that, he is feeling lighter and his pants are getting really baggy. I am proud of him. When he goes back to work, I'll be able to get my walking in. I miss the brisk walks I would take. But I sacrificed so Danny would heal well and he's doing great. Keeping all foods down and in 2 weeks we both go back to Dr. Garber, and Donna Franco said maybe Danny can get off the Flintstones and go on the multi vitamin that they sell. I bought the protein water in a bunch of flavors. I now have a well stocked pantry, filled with shakes and protein flavored water packets.

Went to the support group last Thursday. Heather asked us to say what we were thankful for. Quite a few spoke out. It was a great meeting. I look forward to the end of the meeting when a few of us hang out and really share stories with others who are having the surgery soon. I know how I felt before WLS and it really helps to know that someone else is on your side. Danny's WLS buddy, Vito was there too and you could see he lost weight already too.

Well today we are going to B.J's to buy a cordless phone with caller ID for my mom for Christmas. She was scared the other day when her phone rang around 5 a.m. and when she answered she said they would not talk but she knew the line was still open. I said to her "I thought you had caller I.D.? and she said only on her DEN phone. So (lightbulb) I thought I'd surprise her with a phone for Christmas. (when she checked her other phone later, the call said OUT of AREA...which I told her to never answer)----Hey Happy Turkey Day to all if I don't get back on this soon----Bye for now---ME

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November 26, 2003-- Today I weighed 227.4. It seems to take longer to lose weight lately. But I am making an effort to drink more water. I walked alot today too.

Danny has returned to work full time now. But after today he'll have 4 days off because they give him the Friday after Thanksgiving off. Danny's wound is healing slowly. There does not seem to be much oozing out of it the past two days. Also we went to our internist/allergist who was so helpful and supportive towards Danny and had helped his blood sugar go down through diet. Anyway they drew blood and ran a test and they just called today to say that his numbers for a long term test (I forget the name) was 8.6. Before surgery it was 12 and then 13. The lowest in 10 years was 11. Normal non diabetics would be under 7. I am so proud of Danny. He is so happy that he had the surgery. He is wearing a leather jacket that was tight last year and he looks great in it. He already went down a size in his jeans and keeps punching holes in his favorite leather belt to make it tighter. Maybe for one of his Christmas gifts I will get him a new belt.

Anyway Happy Thanksgiving to all. I am so thankful to Dr. Garber for giving me a new life. To all those thinking about the surgery or who are having the surgery soon, here are some things I am thankful for that so many "skinny" people take for granted:

When I am sitting at my desk and I drop a pen I can bend over and pick it up. 5 months ago, I would've left it there or taken a ruler and put scotch tape around it with the sticky side out and reached for the pen until it stuck to it.

I am thankful that when I get out of the shower I can put my bath towel around my body and tuck it in by my chest and not have it fall off.

I am thankful that when I am on the living room floor trying to do sit-ups, I can get off the floor without asking Danny to help me.

I am thankful that I can eat some turkey tomorrow and a teaspoon of stuffing and maybe a teaspoon of sweet potatoe, and know when to stop.

I am thankful that I am sitting typing with my jeans zipped up and I can still breathe.

I am thankful that my back does not hurt anymore. Sometimes my left leg hurts behind the knee. I think that is from walking. But it's nowhere near the pain I used to feel in my back.

I am thankful for all the friends we have who supported us during WLS and after. I am thankful for the few family members who notice that we lost weight.

I am thankful to just know that from this surgery I have added many more years to my life.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving everybody! Hello to all my internet friends too. You know I reply to all who write. Stay safe and don't forget to walk around the block a few times before watching football. :) me


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December 4, 2003 --Today I weighed 225.4. I lost 70 lbs in 4 months 1 week. I am happy. I started physical therapy on my left shoulder that has been bothering me since I had the surgery. They have me doing all sorts of exercises that are painful but I know it's helping. I am drinking more water and still walking everyday.

Danny is doing great. Today he ate some lobster meat. God bless him that he can keep everything down at only 5 weeks post op. He did have an episode the other night where he wanted an eggroll from the chinese take-out. Well he only ate 2 bites and he paid for it the rest of the night. He got sick, an upset stomach and did not eat anything after that. The price you pay for eating the wrong things, or maybe he ate it too fast. I told him it was too oily for him. But he had to find out the hard way.

Tomorrow we both go for our weigh in with Dr. Garber. Oh Danny's wound looks like it is healing okay. He doesn't change the dressing nearly as much as he did a few weeks ago.

Today for lunch I ate some rare roast beef cold cuts. I also ate some low fat swiss cheese. I rolled them up and dipped it in mayo. I also ate 1/2 a piece of the dough they make wraps with. I toasted it until it was crisp like a tortilla chip. It fell within the "fat range" and carb range percentage the Dr. recommends. I wound up eating 3 slices of roast beef and 1 slice of cheese and the 1/2 wrap. It was yummy. Now I am drinking my water. Tomorrow I will buy some more flavored water protein packets. I like the grape the best. Danny likes the hot cocoa and also the cappuccino.

Almost finished all the Christmas shopping. We got the tree up the day after Thanksgiving and Danny helped me with the lights. I decorated the rest of the tree by myself.

Tomorrow we're supposed to have 1-3 inches of snow. I can't wait to shovel snow with 70 lbs off my body. But I might hurt my shoulder so I guess Danny can do it. Danny said he has pain in his lower back by the tail bone. I told him it's from all the weight loss. He takes tylenol every once in awhile. I guess if it snows too much we'll pull out the snow blower. I told Danny he can push stuff, just not lift heavy stuff yet. (lol)

Anyway, I saw my mom yesterday. I had not seen her in three weeks and when I opened the door to let her in she said "look how thin you are". I laughed and said "oh mom", but I was delighted with her remark. I won't forget she said that.

Hey in a few weeks my New Year's resolution will finally be a reality. It's the one I make every year. TO LOSE WEIGHT!!
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December 5, 2003--- Today I weighed 224.4!!! 71 lbs lost.
I ate some fish last night that gave me an upset stomach all night. I never got sick but I could tell where the fish was digesting by where the pain in my stomach and belly was. Today I felt much better after going to the bathroom this morning.

We went to see Dr. Garber today. They said I lost 73lbs because they have me down initially weighing in at 297. I thought I was 295.5. Hey a lb. and a half difference. I'll take it. Danny lost a few lbs bringing his total to 48. He is 5 weeks post op. The Dr. said to Danny to wait until after 6 weeks to "eat anything". Danny and I laughed because Danny has eaten everything for the past two weeks. Danny told the Dr. about the episode with the egg roll and the Dr. said it was too oily. I looked at Danny like I told you so and smiled.

When Danny got examined the Dr. plunged that orange stick thingy into Danny's wound that didn't heal all the way. I thought Danny would pass out. I would've been screaming. The Dr. said it looked alot better but wanted to make sure that the infection was all out.

After buying some more boxes of protein stuff we drove home. It took us 1 hour to make an 18 minute drive. It was snowing so hard, and the traffic at 12:30 was heavy. Now the weather guys said 7-15 inches of snow. Danny will most likely work this week-end. He works for a school district. He has to make sure all the buildings get plowed and shoveled. Now if he can get just get enough men to come in this week-end. Anyway--I love the snow. I wrapped up all my gifts and put them away. I did some laundry and after this I'll fold some more. Then maybe I'll make myself a cup of hot cocoa. See ya------me


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December 7, 2003---Today I weigh 223.5. Another pound. I'll take it. I can't believe for awhile, it felt like I was not losing anything. My own goal was to lose 75 lbs by Christmas. And I lost 74 lbs already. That's if I go by Dr. Garber's original weigh-in of 297. Ya know it doesn't matter, because I feel great.

Snowstorm update--we got a blizzard. I think there is about 12 inches of snow and maybe more with all the drifts. Danny did snow plow the snow yeaterday when he came home from working an 11 hour shift. He had gone in at 3 a.m. I was getting cabin fever, and had written out some bills but I was thinking maybe the postman would not deliver up to the house because we did not shovel yet. So I went outside, before Dan came home and shoveled out the door, down the driveway, and across the front of the house. I could not believe how good I felt without heaving out of breath like I used to. I was actually sweating a bit, but a good sweat. Then the mailman came and walked up to the house with his big boots and walks across to the next house not even in the path I made him. Oh well...at least I tried and I got a few minutes of exercise.

Before Danny came home he asked if there was anything I needed from the store and I said---Pick me up and take me!!!!
I waited outside with the snow biting at my skin...but I felt thin and not like a blob. We went to King Kullen and Dan waited outside and I did a 20 minute walk around the store and then picked up some tomato juice for Danny and the newspaper and some Campbell's wedding soup (yummy). I felt alot better after the walk. I was going crazy in the house.

Today, Dan is back to work. He went in at 5 a.m. I think I may take a walk outside and walk in the street around the block or farther. The plows came through, but I don't see any sand on the streets. Gotta watch out for ice.

Oh today after all the shoveling, my left shoulder feels great. I thought I would injure it. On the other hand, my right shoulder now hurts.....-----see ya----me.


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December 11, 2003--- Today I weighed 221.3. I can't believe I am getting so close to being under 200. I can't wait...but I am enjoying the journey. Today it is rainy and windy---yuck. I am meeting my girlfriend Gerri for lunch today and to exchange Christmas gifts. I am also giving her two outfits that are too big on me. One of them was the black outfit that I wore to her daughter's wedding in September. She is a great friend who was so supportive before the surgery and never had a negative thing to say--unlike my own family...(well some of them)

Danny is doing good too. He still is not drinking enough water. Last night I made some chicken and put baby carrots around it and also some onions. It was delicious. Danny liked it too, but his stomach did not and within 5 minutes after he ate it, it all came up. I told him I think you ate too fast and I did pore some of the juices (fat) on the chicken to make it moist. Maybe it was too greasy. Later last night he ate an eskimo pie ice cream cone with the nuts on it (sugar free). That stayed down okay.

Yesterday was officially 6 weeks since his surgery. I am so proud of him. He feels like he is getting used to what he can eat, and is happy that his stomach can only hold so much. He went out to lunch yesterday with a guy he works with and he went to ROASTY'S. They serve roast beef in great soft rolls where they dip the roll in the juice of the meat. They also have loin of pork too. Danny ate some of the meat and a bite or two of the bread and one french fry off his friends plate. He felt good that he was in a normal situation and not just living on the pureed stuff. Actually he didn't stay on pureed stuff for too long...but now Dr. Garber said it's okay to eat anything. Well, within the guidelines he provides.

I am still going to physical therapy 2 times a week. She says I have a lot if inflammation in my arm. I said yeah I can feel it. She has me run a whole bunch of exercises too. But yesterday I was doing one with these stretchy bands that were attached to a heavy piece of exercise equipment. I had to pull them into my chest. All of a sudden I began to sweat like I was getting car sick. I felt clammy and funny. I said "I have to have something to drink". so I drank some of my water that I carry everywhere with me. Then I continued to do the exercise, when I felt very light-headed and said "I have to sit down". She asked me if I had eaten and I said I had a protein shake before I came here. She took my pulse and said it was fine. After sitting for about 5 minutes I asked if it was okay to do the exercises where you are laying down on the table. She said of course. After another 10 minutes of using this bar across my body and back and forth--I felt so much better. I don't know what happened, but I am glad I listened to my body and took control. But what a freaky feeling. I am glad I have this journal to document this kind of stuff, because if it happens again at least I will know when it FIRST happened.

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December 12, 2003-- Today I weighed the same as yesterday.
Danny and I went to have our photo taken for a Christmas Card.
The guy took 12 photos and we picked one out and he made 30 copies and we got to keep all the ones he took too. Danny needs to buy some new pants soon. His belt is by his waist and his pants are below it. They are so baggy. I bought him a shirt for Christmas in a size 3x. He was a 5x. I also bought some tops and another pair of jeans, still size 18. I can almost fit into size 16, but I would need a girdle and a hoist to get them closed. But I know the day is a coming!! Anyway, the photo we picked looked great and we both looked like we lost weight. What could be better.

Oh yesterday when I met my girlfriend for lunch, we sat in a booth!!!! This was the first time since surgery that I was in a booth at a restaurant. And I had room in front of me!!! Life is good. Also last night we went to our allergist because he did Danny's bloodtest that Dr. Garber requested. And they also deal with Quest Labs. Stephanie said that they can go on-line for the results. When I was I in the waiting room, I sat down and put my bag NEXT to me. Danny was laughing, but he knows it's these little things that just make my day, and after going through WLS, I look forward to all the normal stuff that skinny people take for granted.

Well Danny will be home soon. I'm hoping we can get some lights on the outside of the house. Last week there was 2 feet of snow covering the front. Today it's in the 40's and sunny.
My shoulder feels pretty good today. I iced it last night.
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December 18, 2003- Today I weighed 219.4--I finally made it to the teens. And I have my period too! Wow I can recall all the "times of the month" being on Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, Nutri System, etc. when I would always use that as an excuse why I did not lose weight "that week". I feel good today. I have been doing some of the exercises at home that I do at physical therapy and I am still walking everyday.

Danny's wound is healing up fine. I'm so glad. It took awhile. I saw my mom again yesterday and she said that I looked really good. She also noticed all the weight that Danny lost. I told her that Danny is almost in a size 3x. She said "I bought him a 2x so he can look forward to wearing it in a few months".
What can I say---Mothers will be mothers---
At least- we will both look good at Christmas. I mailed out all the Christmas cards. I'm finished wrapping and shopping. Now we just have to buy stuff to eat. Also I may have some carpet put in upstairs. I told Dan if the guy can't install it by Monday, then we'll just wait till after the holidays.

Well, I gotta go and have my morning protein. I have to go to physical therapy at 10 this morning. I can actually feel the difference. I'm sore when I leave there, but I know it's helping.

Spoke to my brother in North Carolina yesterday. He's driving up for Christmas. I can't wait to see him. Also my mom said we can go to her house Christmas day, because my brother and a few of his friends will be there before he leaves later that day. We may go, because I really don't spend enough time with him. And Christmas Eve here is so crazy with my neice and nephew.
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December 23, 2003- I weighed 219.0 today. I can't believe it takes so long sometimes to lose the weight lately. I guess I was spoiled at the beginning when the weight came off fast. I am drinking a lot of water and still walking everyday. My clothes are fitting better and in photos I seem to have lost one of my chins. Danny is doing great. He has been drinking a lot of tomato juice lately. He missed it when he was watching his sugar. His levels are all normal now. He has readings 75-100 everyday.

I got a lot of Christmas cards back telling us that we look great with all the weight we lost. We could not ask for a better Christmas gift to each other. All my family is coming over for the holidays. Me and Danny are doing all the cooking. Well I bought some prepared stuff like Maryland crab cakes and also Lobster cakes. I made eggplant parmesan, and Danny is making pasta with lobster, shrimp and scallops with a cream sauce. It's an Italian thing to have all this fish on Christmas Eve. The next day we go to my mom's. She said she is making lazagna and chicken. I told her not to be insulted because we are not big eaters anymore.

I made a pizza this afternoon for lunch. I think it was head hunger. I bought the Boboli pizza dough already made. (the mini one) I put sauce on it and some cheese and a few bits of eggplant that I fried yesterday. Well after about four bites I was a goner. But it felt good going down, and that's what matters. I did not feel deprived at all. Anybody thinking of the surgery just know that you can one day eat anything, just not near the amount you are eating now. I never regret the surgery at all. I do have fond memories of all the buffets in the area and Atlantic city and Vegas ones. But I also remember that eating was the major highlight of most of our trips. I always felt fat and looked fat too. Now I sometimes feel fat after eating too much or too fast, but when I look in the mirror I see someone who lost over 75lbs in less than 5 months. For that I am the happiest.

I would like to be under 200 by February. We are going to Nassau Coliseum to see Martina Mcbride and Alan Jackson. The last time We saw Martina was at her fan club party in Nashville in June. She asked me if we were going to her Label show (RCA) that night. I told her we couldn't go because we could not fit into the seats in the stadium. She said "you will next year". (we had told her about going for the surgery) She was really supportive.

Oh yesterday we got a Christmas card from Victoria Shaw. It was a family shot of her and Bob and her two daughters. This is the first card we ever got from her. We have known her for about 8 years. I had sent one out of me and Danny and also a shot of her with Steven Tyler from The Bottom Line in November. She's the best.

Oh on Friday the guys showed up to install the carpet. They did a great job. There was so much left over I asked the guy if he could put carpet in the bathroom downstairs. It looked terrific. I'm glad it was done before my company came.

Here's wishing everybody a happy and healthy Holiday season!
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December 27, 2003---Today I weighed 216.2 lbs. What a Christmas surprise. This is the first time I EVER lost weight after a holiday get-together. I was really active with my niece and nephew on Christmas Eve and I think I sweated away the pounds. I tried to keep my water intake up, but with all the activity going on, it was hard to do.

I ate a bit of a deviled egg and a cracker with seafood dip on it. I tried a bite of a lobster cake and had to spit it out, because it was too chewy and would not break down. Gone are the days where I would chew and swallow food so fast, I believe a lot went down whole. I ate 3 cashew nuts. They were delicious. I also had 1 itty bitty section of a clementine orange. I had about 2 tablespoons of diet pudding for dessert later on in the night. Oh I ate about two bites of eggplant too earlier. Danny ate about the same as me. We were wiped out from the party, but content in the way we felt about handling all the food. We made sure my mom took back the cookies and candy that she brought over.

On Christmas day we went to my mom's. She served lazagna and chicken. Danny and I both ate 3 small meatballs (turkey) from the lazagna and a few bites of chicken and two strings beans. We were stuffed. For dessert I ate 2 grapes. What a wonderful sensation to try foods that I have not eaten in months. I ate some cantelope melon too. Yummy. It was fun to hang out with my brother. Maybe Danny and I will visit him in a few months. It'll be fun to fly in an airplane without purchasing 3 seats in a row.

Yesterday a friend of ours who we had not seen since a week before my surgery in July came to visit us. He was really excited about all the weight that we lost and kept telling us how great we looked. He took some photos of us in the same poses that he took before our surgery. What a great time we had.

Today I woke up with a horrible pain by my right shoulder and it shot down my forearm. I'm thinking, great, now both of my arms are shot. But hey, I'm losing weight!! I put an ice pack on it three different times today. I also took 2 tylenol every 4-6 hours for the pain. I was in such agony this morning I was wishing I had not thrown out the pain medication that we both had left over from the surgery. And I just threw it all out right before Christmas too. Anyway, I hope to have a decent sleep tonight and that I wake up without too much pain. I guess I'll need another prescription for physical therapy on my right shoulder now too.

A funny thing today---We received a Christmas card from a couple that we have known for about 17 years. But this is the first time that I had sent a photo to them after they had moved to Florida about 15 years ago. Anyway, she writes that "you guys still look the same way you did last time we saw you". Me and Danny were laughing so hard--you forget (besides photos) how you really looked so long ago.

Hope you all had a great holiday. Thanks for the e-mails.
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December 30, 2003- What a crazy day yesterday and this morning was. I had a severe case of constipation again. I guess not drinking enough during Christmas Eve and Day caught up with me. I was in agony all night. Danny bought me milk of magnesia and this morning it finally worked. What a wake up call. I had actually weighed more yesterday morning (217.8) and I was a nervous wreck. I guess all that crap inside me weighed a lb and a half. Note to self: DRINK DRINK DRINK!!!!!!! Tonight I am 216.2 again. WHEW!!!!!

Had some salmon yesterday and a bit of butternut squash. Danny is cooking some pork pieces with string beans and a few cashews chinese style. He marinates it in soy sauce and some other stuff and then thickens the sauce with a bit of cornstarch. It's really good. When I ate it the other night, Danny said he weighed the meat first (with the scale he gave me for Christmas---it was on my list (lol) and there was 7 oz. of meat. I did not eat the whole portion so I guess it was about 5 oz or so. That is what I can hold in my tummy lately.

Anyway Happy New Year to all. May we all be the BEST LOSERS in 2004!!!!!!!!

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January 1, 2004-- Can't believe we're in a new year already. I am 5 months post-op and Danny is 9 weeks post-op. Yesterday I thought to make New Year's Eve special that I would order prime rib from Outback Steakhouse. I ordered the 12 oz size. We also got a sweet potato with butter and brown sugar on the side and a caesar salad. When we got home Danny set the dining room table by the Christmas tree and lit some candles. (we usually eat in front of the t.v.) Anyway the food was delicious. I ate about 4 oz. maybe less and Danny ate about 2-3 bites and then said he did not feel well and wound up throwing it all up with in 10 minutes. The rest of the night he complained that it felt like it was stuck in his chest. I told him, maybe in a few weeks, you can try beef again. I felt sorry for him. He really used to be such a beef eater. I go for chicken more too.

Anyway, earlier I had made some fresh eggplant parmisan and I told Danny after midnight we'd celebrate the new year and eat that. I wound up eating 2 tablespoons by myself, because he fell asleep. But around 10:30 he ate some sugar free pudding. When I had the eggplant I was not hungry, but ate it just to celebrate the New Year and also it's Danny's birthday today. He is 52.

On Sunday, we're going to my sister's house for a party for Danny and my mom and my sister's father-in-law who also have a birthday in January too. I asked my sister what she was serving. I did not want a repeat of picking out the meatballs from a lazagna like we did at my mom's on Christmas. Anyway, she asked what we could eat. I told her Protein would be nice. She said I guess pasta is out of the question. I told her if you have any meat on the side then it would not be a problem. I told her me and Danny eat a lot of eggplant because it stays down and is easily digestible and mushy. But if she's serving just pasta, then Danny and I will make sure we have a shake before we go. I hope she has buffet style. I felt a bit out of place at my mom's when everybody was digging into the lazagna. (sometimes it makes my stomach turn watching everybody eat so much--I guess that's what I looked like not too long ago)

Well I exercised a lot today. I took down all the Christmas decorations by myself. Danny was busy upstairs caulking around the tub and some tiles. I am drinking some herb tea. I have such a head cold. I shot some nasonex up my nose. That helped make it moist in my nose for awhile, but I have still have a lot of nasal congestion. I tried to find some sudafed in the house. We gotta run out later to return a movie we rented yesterday, so maybe we'll stop at Walgreen and I'll talk to the pharmacist and see what they recommend. I am nervous because of the WLS. I have not been sick with a cold since before surgery. I guess being around a lot of people and running around made me sick. Who knows. Oh the movie we saw was Pirates of the Caribbean, Great action movie and Johnny Depp was really good. I was surprised.

Tonight I am cooking a broiled chicken. Danny said he doesn't care because he is not hungry. I told him you have to get your protein in. Ya don't want your hair falling out!!!

Well, hope you all have a great night. We see Dr. Garber next Friday. ----me

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January 3, 2004-- Yesterday and today I weigh 214.5! 81 lbs lost in a bit over 5 months. I feel great. What a great way to start the new year--seeing the scale go down. I can't wait for Danny to get weighed on Friday. Our scale only goes up to 320. I think he lost about 20 more lbs. I have been keeping a chart of his measurements, and he lost so many inches. I measure the neck, chest, stomach, hips, thigh, and upper arm. He lost 24 inches altogether. This keeps his spirits high, because he does not see the scale like I do everyday.

Yesterday I visited my girlfriend at her job. There was a woman who came in selling jewelry. She was a friend of one of the girls who worked there. Everything I tried on, rings, necklaces and bracelets fit so well. I remember everything used to fit so snug, I would avoid wearing my watch, because it would dig into the skin on my wrist. Now I can fit into anything. (too bad the lady wasn't selling clothes) Anyway the girls remarked how thin my neck was. I have been noticing that when Danny is driving and I look into the passenger outside mirror, that I only see one chin and not some bloated head staring back at me. I felt good. This was a travel agency that I used to work for, but not at this location. I did take notice that all the 5 girls working there all had weight problems. When I worked for the company I had gained 50 lbs in 3 years. Mostly because you are sitting all day. Next job I get, I have to be more active.

I drank a lot of water yesterday and feel a lot better. Danny and I went food shopping and bought so little, I didn't feel guilty over all the jewelry I bought! We walked for about 30 minutes in the store and then called it quits. Danny was achy from all the work he did upstairs. He took tylenol when we got home. I bought some Afrin, a spray decongestant. It worked well. At least my nose is not running all day, and I got rid of the sore throat too. I have been drinking a lot of herb teas. I still have not gone back to caffeine. I used to drink at least two cups a day. It amazes me everyday what changes we have gone through. I never regret the surgery. When I see how little I eat, people say that's why you are losing. What they don't realize is that before WLS I could never get full on 2 chicken wings, or 4 nuggets, or 4 oz of steak. This surgery has saved our lives.

Tomorrow we go to my sister's house. I am bringing a huge water bottle for me and Danny, so we make sure we get our fluids in. Also I'll bring the protein powder for the water too, in case she does not have protein for us. Have a great week-end everybody!!!! P.S. Rented League of extraordinary gentlemen with Sean Connery----very good with surround sound!!---bye me

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January 5, 2004-- Today I weighed 213.0!!! I am so close to being under 200 I can taste it!!!

Everything went really well at my sister's house yesterday. My brother-in-law had received a huge crock pot from his brother for Christmas, and he used it to make a delicious brisket. It was so tender. My sister even asked me if it was okay. It was yummy. I ate one slice and a few carrots and Danny ate 1/2 a slice. It stayed down great. I also ate one shrimp with some cocktail sauce and 2 crackers and a tiny bit of hard provolone. God, I hadn't tasted cheese so sharp since before my surgery. Anyway I was not the heaviest woman in the room for the first time with my sister's husband family. They were all giving me and Danny compliments and asked a lot of questions about the surgery and the risks and long term effects (I said living longer is one of them). It was a long day, but I am always happy to spend time with my 7 yr. old niece and 5 yr. old nephew.

Today my left shoulder was killing me with lifting my nephew up and down so many times. But I love him so much. I went to physical therapy and they ran me through all the exercises and they put heat on it at first and at the end they had ice on it.
I feel better now. It's 4 o'clock and I just finished having lunch. I made a small wrap with some eggplant and swiss cheese in it. I have been on this eggplant kick for awhile. But it stays down and does not bother my stomach at all. (not heavy like beef)

According to Dr. Garber's weigh in of me at 297, (I always calculated my weigh in the same day at 295.5) I have lost 84 lbs.
Everything I have read and the people I have spoke to who have had the surgery is coming true. It is all happening so fast, yet at the very beginning after WLS I was in such a hurry to get of size 3x I guess I was impatient. Now I wear an XL. My mom said yesterday that my neck was really thin. I have not heard my mom say the THIN word in reference to me in years! I am happy today!!
Bye for now----me

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January 12, 2004-- Today I weighed 211.4!! I feel great!!
Danny and I went to see Dr. Garber and I had lost 12 lbs since the last time there and Danny lost 16 lbs. He has lost 61 lbs total so far. His infection cleared up all on it's own. His blood sugar is normal and he is only on a small dose of oral medication. Our Dr. said to wait for more weight loss before going off meds.

Saw Oprah Winfrey today. Great show on WLS. Randy Jackson from American Idol was on. He had his surgery a few weeks before mine and he's lost 100 lbs so far. Good for him. They also had a girl on who was really emotional about having had the WLS because food was such an enormous part of her life. All I have to say, and I said it to Danny today, is that I am so glad we are going through this together. It has been tough at times, but we support each other and can help each other over all food issues. Any body considering this surgery should really know that food will not be the most important thing in your life anymore.
LIVING will be!!!

Anyway, still walking everyday---even when it was 7 degrees out. I had my earmuffs and layers on under my coat that is getting too big on me, but I can't get rid of it yet. Dan and I are talking about buying some bikes maybe in the spring. I told him we can ride through Wantagh Park, where I did a lot of walking right after my WLS. He is feeling more energetic and he has a lot more stamina when working on a project.

Saw my Dr. today. He had taken a urine sample last week and said I have another bladder infection. I have no pain or anything but did not experience any the last time I had one. He'll run another test next month. He did a cardiogram and a breathing test to test my lung capacity. (this is our allergist whom I decided I wanted him to be my GP from now on, and he had helped Danny so much prior to WLS) Anyway he said I improved 100% with the breathing test. The last test was 1 year ago. My blood pressure was 122/80. He also drew blood to test my cholesterol and liver enzymes. I have been on Zetia for over a month. I hope my numbers went down. He'll call me in a day or two to let me know.

A girlfriend of mine Terri called me to let me know she is going to have WLS too. I am so happy for her. She wanted to go through Dr. Garber but he would not take medicare. But she found a great surgeon. Tomorrow I am taking her for her psychology evaluation. I'm sure she'll do fine.

Still going for therapy on my left shoulder. They want me to come in 3 days a week, starting next week. I'm okay with that. It's more exercise that my body needs. Well I gotta go and watch Las Vegas, one of my new favorite shows. (CSI is my favorite)
Stay warm everbody!!!!!!!!!!! me oh I found a great Herbal Tea from Celestial Teas-- Vanilla Hazelnut---and it has no caffeine--tasted like a cup of coffee to me--try it and let me know-------bye


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January 15, 2004-- Today I weighed 210.2!!!!!!!! 85 lbs lost. I am happy today. I shoveled snow today because I had so much energy and just wanted to get out of the house. When Danny came home for lunch he used the snowblower over the paths I made because he wanted it wider. I told him that's okay. He had so much energy that he plowed the whole driveway and did our neighbors sidewalks and driveway too. God bless him.

Tonight it's supposed to get really cold. I've been wearing layers lately to keep warm. Today was the first time in YEARS that I wore a thermal shirt tucked in. It felt a bit weird to me because I always wear shirts on the outside, but hey, ya gotta be open to new things, right?

In two weeks I celebrate 6 months since WLS. I wanted to lose 90 lbs by then. I hope to make that goal. I've been eating 3 meals a day and snack sometimes on an apple or pieces of cantelope, or some cashews. I'm drinking tons of water, herb tea, and hot cocoa with the protein in it. I can eat pretty much anything, but stay away from beef, because Danny has not been able to tolerate it. But I am really okay with fish and chicken and pork and soups and cheeses. Danny drinks a lot of tomato juice. I always tell him to make sure ya drink water. He tries. His blood sugar this morning was 70. Pretty soon he'll be off his meds. The Dr. wants to wait till he loses some more. He dropped 4 pant sizes already. I am wearing size 16 jeans. A bit snug, but I'm in 'em. It's so nice to wear pants that have a snap and a closure. For such a long time (over 10 years) all my pants had elastic in them.

Anyway, I made some eggplant parmesan again today. It lasts a long time in the house that I have to freeze half of it. I just tossed out almost a whole loaf of rye bread for the seagulls to eat. I think Danny eats like 1 slice a week with some eggs. Most of the time he doesn't eat bread, but he can eat 2 poached eggs. I can only eat one egg, but I've been eating a tablespoon of cottage cheese too in the morning for extra protein. I also eat 2 slices of bagel crisps. Yummy!!!

Well until the next lbs come off----see ya!!! me

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January 20, 2004-- Today I still weigh the same as I did a few days ago. 210 lbs. Tomorrow I am checking out a free exercise session with a ladies gym with the different stations. It's like Curves, but there is no registration fee. Just $35.00 a month. I figured I needed something to move the weight off a bit faster. I wish this ice would melt so I could walk outside some more. The mall walking is costing me moola. lol Danny is doing great. I have so many "before" photos of him, that you can really see how thin his face is now. He has been working a lot of overtime with all the snow and ice. But he's not as tired as he used to be before WLS. And he sleeps through the night without snoring or sleep apnea. We are so happy that Dr. Garber came into our lives. Anyway--I'll update again---just me!


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January 21, 2004-- Okay today I weighed 209.4 lbs. I joined the ladies gym. I pre-paid for a 6 month program. This is the first time in my life that I have joined a gym. The woman at this fitness center showed me how to use each machine. It helped that at the time, there wasn't anybody else there. She said I was thinner than a lot of the ladies who join. She made my day. It felt good to work on muscles that have been neglected for so long. I'll still go to physical therapy for my left shoulder but at least now I'll get a better work out. I'm going tomorrow and I'll try to go everyday. She gave me a T shirt in an XL and it fit kinda big. I felt wonderful!!!!-----see ya..............me

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February 1, 2004-- I weigh the same today as I did last time. I'm not too discouraged--yet---but I have really been good lately. I get weighed again with Dr. Garber on Friday. Danny is doing great. We are having a super bowl party today. I have a lot of stuff to serve. I know Danny and I can eat so little but it's still fun to have my family here. And we love those superbowl commercials. My niece and I laugh and laugh.

We went to the recent support group with Barbara Thompson as the guest speaker. That was a great meeting. A bit long--but very informative for all who attended. I was happy to see all the friends we have made since starting our WL journey. Linda looked amazing and Kathy is right on track. It's so great to know that we have all gone through the same thing.

I pray for that 199 soon. I hope this is not a plateau. I went to the gym 3 times last week. This week I will go 4 and see if that changes my weight. The manager at the gym said I looked like I lost more weight and I told her I didn't. She then told me that muscle weighs more than fat. Like I never heard that before. Anyway--I am in this for the long haul. I am drinking water-water-water. So far today at 3:30 I already drank 2 quarts. I was trying to get my water in before company comes, because I remember during the holidays I did not drink enough and suffered the consequences with severe constipation.

I stopped physical therapy, because they said my insurance only covers so many visits. I asked them- I thought when I was healed I was done?---too bad--it's the insurance co. ya gotta deal with---whatever. Anyway I was kind of glad because it's a lot easier to go to the gym, then have to rush to make an appointment at phys. ther. And there is a great fish market in the same shopping plaza as the gym, so I make sure I buy fresh fish whenever I worked out. Danny usually hates fish, but will eat it because it does not upset his stomach, and I told him you'll lose weight faster.

Well lets hope this scale shows some lbs lost. I'll check back soon............me Oh I forgot---Obesity help.com posted a photo of me and Danny on this sight under photos. I can't wait to get my arms--all around him :)

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February 6, 2004-- Today I weighed 208. It seems like an eternity since I last lost a lb. I went to the gym 4 times this week. Good news--I got a job there!!!! I had asked about working there when I first signed up, but the woman who was the manager said she was with the company for 2 years and in this location since it opened. Anyway she is moving back to Colorado and I met with the owners who would love me to work for them. I would be a --get this--fitness trainer--also a manager and will get a commission whenever I sign anybody up. It's a really flexible schedule. I would either work 8:30 till 1. Or 3-9p.m. There is another girl they hired and we would split the schedule.
I have to go in on Monday and the owner will train me on the computer and show me how to run the music, clean up, lock up and open, etc. I am really excited. I hope this will keep me motivated to exercise. She said I can exercise any time I want. She'll freeze the 6 months I already had prepaid and in case I quit-she'll reinstate the membership.

I told her that I go on vacation for two weeks in June to Nashville and she said-no problem. I can't believe that I will be working in an exercise environment, when before WLS I would only drive by a gym while eating Krispy Kreme donuts.

My niece is sleeping over tonight. I am picking her up after school and we'll come back here and wait for Danny to come home and then we're going to Jillian's. There are enough arcade games there to tire her out. We'll get a bite to eat there too. I bought an aero bed the other day for one of the rooms upstairs that we recently carpeted. It's a raised bed so it was a lot easier to get the sheets on. I just wish it wasn't pouring rain outside. But I'll drive to Sea Cliff and hope for no floods.

I cancelled Dr. Garber's visit for today. We'll go next Friday. Danny had thought he would be working all day with the snow and sleet. He is but no plowing for the guys---just trying to divert water that seems to back up on the residents property that are near the schools. Danny is feeling fine. Still having a hard time with beef and pork and sometimes chicken. He eats a lot of ricotta and drinks Lactaid milk (fat free) too. I'll write again-----me

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February 11, 2004----I still weigh 208.0...oh well. I started working at the gym last night. This morning I opened the place alone. It was a lot of fun. I even signed up two ladies last night. The hours will be very flexible and they keep asking me what my week is like. I told them I see my surgeon on Friday to get weighed and they said-no problem---we know that's important to you. What great owners to work for. I don't have to work this Saturday either. My sister invited us to her new house in Pennsylvania. They're going to move there for good next year I think. I will miss my niece and nephew when that happens.

Anyway--I had a blast with my niece last week. Danny and I took her to Jillians in Farmingdale. We played a lot of games, especially the ones that give you tickets to redeem for all those great junkie toys. She loved it!! We ate there too. I shared an order of chicken fingers with her. I ate 2 french fries also. They were pretty good. I also ate 2 chicken fingers. Danny ate some chili from the appetizer menu. We left there around 8:30 as it seemed to start to get busy with a lot of teenagers.

Lately I have been thinking about food. I don't know if I am hungry or if it's that "head hunger" stuff. From what I have read on the bulletin boards at ObesityHelp.com there are quite a few 6 month post-op-ers who feel the same way. We all have to help each other, right?? I have to keep thinking about the surgery and what I went through, etc.

On a bright note--I bought a size 16 jean and they fit perfect. And I didn't even have to be laying on the bed forcing the fat in. I think all the exercise is helping. And last night I showed 2 women how to use the machines and as they were working out I was dancing to the beat of the LOUD music. (at least I know now how to lower the volume) When I came home my calves were hurting, but I think that's a good thing.

Yesterday moring I went to my GYN. for an internal sonogram to check on a fibroid tumor I have. It used to be the size of a nectarine (they measure these tumors like fruit) and now it is the size of an apple plus she found 6 more fibroids. I asked her what do we do? and ahe said to get another sonogram in 9 months. I will most likely need a hysterectomy in a few years. Oh great I thought--then I asked her--can I get a tummy tuck at the same time and she said Yes!! She said she would perform the procedure first and then the plastic surgeon would take over. Hey I am hoping that neither would ever have to take place, but it's great to be prepared.

I made a small meatloaf for dinner tonight. I just ate some plain yogurt because I am on amoxicillin for a bladder infection that I had no clue I had. Donna Franco (phys. asst) suggested the yogurt. I mixed it with a few fresh strawberries.

Danny went down to a size 48 jean. He started at 56 jeans. He's so happy. He was helping one of his men put up siding at a new storage building in his yard. He said before WLS he would've never gotten on the motorized lift 2 stories high. He has noticed his balance is better, but I noticed since his belly keeps going down, his pants keep falling off---- hhhmmmm--that's a good thing, right??---see ya me

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February 13, 2004---We saw Dr. Garber today. I officially lost 89 lbs. according to their records of having me at 297 lbs. before WLS. Danny lost 71 lbs. so far. We are both happy. We bought some more protein bars and some of the soups. Dr. Garber said I looked good. -I take all compliments :) - Danny is still having a hard time with meats like beef and pork. The Dr. told him he is eating too fast most likely. I tell Danny that all the time and also to cut the meat up in tiny pieces. Anyway I have to have another blood test done to check on all the vitamins I may be lacking. Also I am curious to see if my cholesterol ever went down since I have been on Zettia. Dr. Garber was happy I joined a gym and surprised when I told him I am the manager there. A far cry from 6 months ago when the word exercise was not in my vocabulary. Well, here's to a Happy Valentine's Day to all my WLS friends out there--you know who you are!!--Love ya--me

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February 16, 2004--Today I weighed 205.0!!!! Getting so close to that under 200====I can't wait!!! Officially 90 lbs according to my day before surgery weigh in of 295.5. Hey that makes it 90 and 1/2lbs lost---I'll take it!!

Went to my sister's house in Pennsylvania for the week-end. She and my brother-in-law were really good about serving food we could eat. They bought filet mignon for dinner but made chicken nuggets for Danny. I was able to eat the meat, no problem. We went sleigh riding on these giant hills at a nearby golf course and I guess I got a lot of exercise with all the walking and trudging through the 10 inches of snow that is still on the golf course. They are 3 hrs away in northern PA. It was great to spend time with my niece and nephew too. Needless to say we were in bed by 9 p.m so exhausted from the ride up and sledding.

The new job is great!! It's part time and today I work 3-9. The women who come in to exercise are all really wonderful. If anybody wants a free work out, come to the Lady's express workout place on Gardiner's Avenue in Levittown, Long Island. It's in the Post office shopping center. It's cheaper than Curves and the women are great. We are laughing all the time while we are sweating. Well I try not to sweat too much, but I have a blast working out with others.

Danny is doing great too. We watched Dr. Garber on t.v. this morning on Ali and Jack. We're so glad he did our surgery. Dan is officially off today and tomorrow but was working some overtime this morning. I leave for work about ten minutes to three because it's so close to my house. Anyway--have a great week everybody--thanks for all the e-mails------me.


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February 19, 2004---Today I weighed 204.4!!! Yesterday I felt awful like I had a stomach virus. I had the runs all day. The only thing I can think that might have caused it was that I ate about 6 sticks of sugarless gum. I remember once reading that sorbitol taken in large amounts could have a laxative effect. Well it certainly had that effect on me. I also ate a big salad the night before. Well, not that big, but I only had one slice of swiss on the salad instead of 3 oz. of chicken. Whatever it was, today I feel much better. My employer was really nice to me and after opening at 3 p.m. I felt I could only make it till 6, so the other new girl who lives close by too came in so I could go home.

Tonight I go to my Doctor to have blood drawn to check on everything. I hope my cholesterol went down. Tomorrow we go to the eye Dr. It's been about two years. It's always fun to see people who have not seen us since WLS. It sure lifts your ego!!
Have a great weekend everybody-----me.

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February 21, 2004--Today I weighed 203.2!! I have not felt well for two days. The runs came back with a vengeance! I e-mailed Dr. Garber and asked what to do. I hope he e-mails back quick. Danny went to the pharmacy and told the guy about me and he recommended some stuff like imodium. I was scared to take it because I never had this problem after WLS. I was more constipated than anything else. Anyway I took a children's dose of the stuff around 12 today and just hung out by the house. I have only drank about 6 oz of fluid all day, because everytime I drink, I am in the bathroom in about 8 minutes. Anybody want to e-mail me with advice I sure would appreciate it. You guys must know what I am going through. On the bright side I did lose 2 lbs in a few days------- me.


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February 25, 2004-- Today I weighed 202!!!!! Can't believe that 199 is coming so soon. 7 more lbs to losing 100lbs. After waiting 2 days for a reply from Dr. Garber, Danny went out to the pharmacy and the pharmacist recommended some immodium stuff for the runs. I took the children's dose of 2 tsp. and in about an hour I felt so much better. I heard from Dr. Garber this morning thru e-mail and he said it was ok to take the drug but it's very strong so be careful. I guess I was careful because I feel great now. Sometimes you have to just use common sense. I'm glad Danny took it upon himself to help me out. What a guy.

Note to Vito--glad you are doing so well. Ya gotta remember to eat. Ya don't want your hair falling out!!! I went through 1 month of 30-40 hairs a day in the sink in the mornings. But about two weeks ago it stopped falling out except for the occasional 2-3 hairs. And I eat 50-60 gr. of protein everyday.

Saw my mom this morning and she had spoken to my sister who told her they are moving to Pennsylvania for good in June. I was a bit upset, because I thought they were planning this for the end of the summer. but my sister wants to get my nephew started in a summer program. (he has downs syndrome) Anyway I am glad I had WLS because it used to be news like this that used to send me to the fridge and eat all the "comfort" food that I craved. Now I am happy to feel comfortable after I eat 4 oz of protein and it stays down. lol

The job is working out really well. The gym is open to 9, but if nobody walks in by 8:30 I can leave. (at least I get paid for the full night) It's amazing the excuses the ladies have for not making the time to exercise. I heard all of them, because I used the same ones myself for years. (too tired, no time, etc)

Dannny bought some quiche lorraine. He ate 3 bites and 1 came right up. I told him ya gotta eat slow. I suggested in the morning he just take a protein bar to work instead of scarfing down an egg, quiche, whatever, when you are in a rush. He agrees.

Well I have to work 3-9 today. Hopefully the next time I write I'll be under 200lbs ---YEE HA!!! Oh I forgot--my blood work came back great. My cholesterol went down from 280 to 189 on that new drug Zettia. My trigylcerides are 152. Normal should be under 150.

We see Dr. Garber next Friday. This Saturday we are seeing Martina Mcbride and Alan Jackson at Nassau Colliseum. This will be the first concert we are going to since WLS. I know we will be more comfortable in the seats now that we lost weight. I'll chat soon---------------me


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March 2, 2004-- I weighed 201 today. Had a great time at the concert. We fit so good in the seats now. We were used to breaking apart the seats to give us more hip room. But I was delighted to say how comfortable both me and Danny were and also the people sitting next to us did not give us the "eye" like they used to when we would stretch into parts of their seats. It was really cold on the ice. It felt like it was 45 degrees all night. But it was fun to get out again and feel normal.

Tonight we go to our G.P. I have to have my urine tested again to make sure my bladder infection went away. Danny is having blood drawn to check his long term sugar count.

I had a good lunch today. I put olive oil in a pan a sauteed some garlic and then I put a huge handfull of baby spinach on top of that and in less than 3 minutes it was ready. I also added a 1/2 cup of edadame soy beans and some coarse salt to it and let me tell you it was so delicious. The only thing is the roof of my mouth feels a bit weird from the spinach, but at least the lunch was worth 12 grams of protein. Now I am drinking some of the grape protein powder that I mix in water.

I have found that certain foods that I think I want, are not necessarily foods that my stomach can tolerate. I seem to lean towards mushy foods like peanut butter and jelly on ritz crackers, tuna fish and cottage cheese, vegetarian chili with fat free american cheese on top and baked fish with spinach and feta cheese mixed in. We used to eat so much chicken and steak, our grocery bill has gone down so much.

One thing about having Danny go thru WLS is that he pretty much eats the same things as me, although he can consume a whole peanut butter and jelly and cream cheese sandwhich on white bread and he dunks it in milk. I don't know how he does that. But I can eat 2 chicken thighs without the skin, well maybe a bite if the skin is crispy (4oz) and he can only eat 1 thigh. Go figure.

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March 11, 2004--- Yesterday I weighed 200.4 lbs. The weight has really slowed down for me. But I am not discouraged. I am getting exercise in 4 times a week. I bought a huge mug from Walmart that holds 64 oz. of water. It's hard to drink it all, but I am trying. I haven't been able to type in the past few days because I hurt my right wrist last week. I was cutting photo paper because I was making some prints of Danny and I to send out to some friends and relatives. I guess I overdid it. I feel like it is carpal tunnel. I have been taking tylenol. It helps a bit.

We went to the support group at Mercy Hospital on Tuesday. It was a lot smaller than the other group. Dr. Herron and Heather ran the group. It was an open forum. I was glad that I got a lot of questions answered and also it was great to meet new people and see a few who had the surgery recently. It's amazing how far Danny and I have come yet we know we still have more to lose.

Danny thinks he has gout by his toe. I know you can get this from eating rich spicy foods, which he really doesn't eat anymore. But I told him it's probably the 25 drops of tabasco sauce that you put in your tomato juice that's getting to you. I told him to see the podiatrist if it does not subside. I remember reading somewhere that eating cherries can reduce the uric acid levels that pool by the toes. He went looking for them but the season is too early for cherries. I told him to buy frozen ones and he can put them in a shake.

I saw my niece and nephew today. My niece wants another sleep over soon. She makes her first communion in May. My sister asked me what I can eat. She showed me a menu from the restaurant she's having the party at. She thought me and Danny can eat from the children's menu. I told her we'd rather order from the regular one and take home the food we don't finish. The kids menu only offered chicken fingers and mac and cheese. At least the regular one had broiled salmon, or chicken and some lamb or steak dish (I forget). Anyway, it's nice to feel normal and just eat smaller quantities, than to make us feel like there is something wrong with us.

Well, it's after midnight so I gotta get some zzzzzz's. Note to Gayle---you're looking good!!! ------------me


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March 11, 2004-- I woke up this morning and I weighed myself and ----drum roll please----- 199.4!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so glad to be under 200!!!!!! I have no clue why I dropped a lb. in a few days, but I have been really trying to drink enough water and exercise. I have a goal in my head for 160 lbs. We go on vacation in June and I hope to weigh 180 by then. I do not remember when I last weighed 160, but it was before I got married. When I got married I weighed 175 and when I came home from our honeymoon I weighed 185. On Sunday is our anniversary. We will be married for 23 years. I'm just glad that we both did the WLS. It's so much easier with food issues.

This morning my wrist feels a bit better. Maybe losing that lb. helped. (lol) Well I have to work from 3-9 tonight. Until the next lb.lost-------------me

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March 12, 2004--- I weigh the same today. Saw my girlfriend Gerri for lunch. Everyone in her office commented on my weight loss. It felt great. I saw another girl who got tranfered from the agency I used to work for 4 years ago. She was really happy for me and was very encouraging. I had some broiled chicken and feta cheese over a small salad. It was delicious.

While I was there I told Gerri of this web sight and she logged on and saw my before and after shots. Then I showed her where my journal was. She printed it up. It was 63 pages long. I guess I wrote alot of stuff in 8 months. In the computer it did not seem like alot. Anyway I always feel better after spending some time with her. She looked good too. She has been on the Atkins program and lost about 15 lbs or so.

Note to Terri-- I lost your phone number!!! I wanted to come by and take pictures of you. CALL ME!!! (your number was ususally on the caller i.d., but I guess it fell off)

Danny feels better with his gout. He went to the doctor and they prescribed a specific medication (forgot the name) and told him to take it every 3 hours till it feels better or until he gets the runs. (yuck) I hope he feels better quick!!!

Kind of tired today. My boss was in last night and so I was on the machines for a few hours. My legs are achy, but I know that means I am using my muscles. I'll update soon-----me

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March 15, 2004--Today I weighed 198.4...Just 3 more lbs. to hit that 100lb loss!!! Yesterday was our 23rd anniversary. Danny bought me a diamond necklace with the 3 diamonds hanging (past, present, future) I love him. I bought him a jacket in a size 2x which fit him fine. He still is wearing 3x shirts though. Go figure. It's always fun to spend the day together.

We went to lunch over the weekend to Old Country Buffet. This was the first buffet I had been to since WLS. But I made it through with no problem. I guess I am so used to eating so little and with a lunch sized plate, that eating there was really pretty easy. I ate one chicken thigh without the skin and some spinach salad and 1 tsp. of mashed potatoe. We still do not drink anything with our meals. (never thought we'd ever get used to that) We are both taking 2 citracal a day and Dr. Garber's multi vitamin. Danny has a head cold today. I gave him some Afrin to spray in his nose. He said he felt a bit better.

I have not seen my mom for three weeks. She was up near Watertown visiting my uncle who had a stroke. I'll probably see her on Wednesday. ( I hope the snow they predict turns to mush)
Anyway Happy St. Patty's Day to all. This will be the first year Danny is not making corned beef and cabbage. (I'm kind of glad 'cos the house used to stink with that stuff) I'll update real soon-----------------me

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March 20, 2004-- I haven't lost any weight for a few days. Still 198. It was great at the beginning of WLS when the weight came off so fast. Today Danny and I walked through Wantagh park for about 40 minutes. We would've walked longer but it was really windy and cold out. Yesterday we had snow and today it's in the 40's.

Saw my mom on Wednesday. She said my uncle is doing a bit better. Walking with a walker but his speech is slurred. I'm glad she went to visit him. I just wish he didn't live so far away.

Danny got sick today. It was after he ate lunch. But he thinks it was mostly stuff from the cold he's had. He has a habit of sniffing and swallowing at the same time. I always tell him to cough it up because your stomach will reject that stuff. I know mine does. He's resting now. That vomiting knocks the wind out of ya.

We both picked up eyeglasses this morning. Danny needs them for reading and I need them for everything. Anyway I tried them on in the Dr's office and they did not have to adjust the temples to where they would not dig into the side of my head. I guess I lost weight in my head too!!!

I got a haircut the other day and my hairdresser, who knew me before WLS was so happy to see me shrinking. She said my face got so thin. I was smiling the whole time. After leaving there I bumped into a woman who used to come in the travel agency I worked for 5 years ago and she kept asking me--is that you Angie?? She was a lot heavier than me, but at one time I was much heavier than her--and she was a bit snooty to me then. All of a sudden she is asking me all kinds of questions about who my doctor is and about the surgery, etc. I appreciate the way people treat me NOW, but I will never forget how I was treated THEN. 'nuff said----------------------me

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March 27, 2004--- Today I weighed 196.4!!! (99lbs lost)
I have had a head cold and cough for the past week. I am on antibiotics. I called Donna Franco and she said it's okay to take them as long as I don't have any allergies towards them.
I was still able to go to work, but I only exercised a few times a day instead of most of the time. I didn't have any body aches so I knew it wasn't the flu, thank goodness.

Danny is doing great too. We get weighed April 2nd, this Friday. We are both sharing all of our "loose skin" stories with each other. I am so glad we did this together. He is the only one besides our friends in the support group who understands exactly how I feel about food issues, body issues, etc.

We had to attend a wake on Thursday night. We were not the biggest people in the room. I saw a few of my childhood friends who I have not seen for about 18 years. They said we looked the same. What a good feeling. Sad to say that my friends had put on so much weight, that we heard people talking about them all night. My mom was there too. I could tell she was proud of Dan and I.

I went to the pharmacy the other day to pick up my drug for this cold and the pharmacist said I was getting so small. That is a word I never thought would be associated with me. But I stored it in the back of my head under "compliments by nice people".

I'm going out today to walk a bit. This drug has dried up my sinuses so I think I am ready to exercise a bit. Dan is working some overtime today. Also it's in the sixties today too. I am so ready for the spring. We are having a party here for Palm Sunday with my family. My sister celebrates Easter with her in-laws. I bought a bunch of plastic eggs and filled them with goodies for an egg hunt for my niece and nephew. It should be fun. We are going out to dinner first because Danny doesn't feel like cooking, but we'll come back here after for coffee.

Happy Spring to all----------me!!!!!!!


April 4, 2004---Okay I finally hit the `100' lbs lost day!!!
Dr. Garber was pleased and so was I. I saw Willo there too and she was happy for me as well as Donna Franco. It's so great to have supportive people around you. Danny is down 85 lbs so far. He knows he has to up his water intake. And he drinks coffee but does not replace the extra fluids you need when you have caffeine in your diet.

Today we are meeting my family at Domenico's in Levittown for a Palm Sunday dinner. This way Danny and I don't have to cook. I hid 30 Easter eggs for my niece and nephew to find. This will be the first sit down dinner that Danny and I will be attending since our WLS. I like the buffets at relatives houses because nobody really watches what you are eating. But I guess we will be okay if we just pace ourselves and talk alot. They have a magician there too, so that'll be a distraction for the kids. It should be fun. I made a cake and got some pastries from Dortoni's. I bought some Smart Ones- desserts for me and Dan--they are much lower in sugar. And I have tons of fresh fruit and some cookies. All the healthy stuff we'll save and the rest gets doggy bagged for my sister. She spends Easter with her in-laws. So that's why we'll get together today.

My job at the gym is great. I am exercising everyday that I work. I have lost so many inches it's embarrasing to tell the other ladies there. Anyway--it's working out fine.

Danny is off next Friday for Good Friday. I will be off too. I asked for it off--my boss is very flexible with the schedule. I think Danny and I will head down to Atlantic City for the week-end. We just want to get away for awhile. It should be a good test to be around all the great food they have there.

My G.P. took me off my HCTZ (water pill) My blood pressure has been great 118/80. Usually the second number was always over 90. Danny is down to one gram of Amaryl for his non-existent (so it seems) diabetes. His blood sugar ranges from 80-110 every day. I am so proud of him. Till next time----------me.

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April 24, 2004--- I know it's been awhile since I have updated. Since I went off my water pill I had gained 6 lbs in 3 days. I was so upset. Danny and the Doctor said this is normal and to wait awhile for it to drop again. Well as of this this past Thursday I finally lost the 6lbs and another lb. for good measure. Thank goodness. I get weighed again this Friday.

The dinner on Palm Sunday went well. Danny and I shared a chicken parm. dinner and we still brought a lot home. I could not believe I ate only 2 pieces of ziti. Amazing. Just 8 months ago I would've eaten that and the chicken and dessert too.

Atlantic City was so much fun. Danny won $1800 playing the slots. We put that money away real fast. Eating breakfast was pretty easy at the buffet. I had the chef at an omelete station make me a small one with cheese and then I took a few pieces of bacon and I was set to go. Sometimes I skipped the bacon and ate some toast. But I generally feel better without the carbs. Danny was surprised we didn't have to make any stops along the way. He used to have to go to the bathroom every hour when his blood sugar was so high.

My niece is making her first communion next Saturday. My sister said it's okay to come to the house 1 hr. earlier to take some photos when Emily looks her best. This way I don't have to take the camera to the church where they don't allow them anyway except for the vestibule area.

Last night I went out with my sister and brother-in-law and niece to Jillians. We ate there too. I ordered grilled chicken on top of caesar salad, but I couldn't even make a dent in it. I had such a belly ache most of the day. We were out celebrating my birthday. This is most likely the last time I'll see them for my birthday, since they'll be moving in June. My niece slept over my house and I can't believe how mature she is for her age. I took her this morning to get the car washed and then Kmart and we passed a bagel store and I asked her if she liked bagels. She said-yes. I said I used to eat them all the time, but I know I can't tolerate them now. And then she said without coaching--I guess it's good and bad that you had the operation--it's good because you are skinny now and bad because you can't eat the foods you like. I wanted to stop the car and just hug her. Instead I said thankyou.

Danny said his feet hurt on the soles. I told him you lost so much weight and all the swelling ya had on your feet made that cushion go down. I am waiting for him to come home so I can buy him a pair of Sketchers--they're pretty cushiony. I wear them all the time, but he was hung up on those walking Rockports, which when I tried on the women's sneaker, I thought they were hard too.

Anyway, so I am back on track--feel better after taking gas-x last night. Still drinking a lot and exercising everyday I am at the gym. I signed up 7 people in the past two weeks. I guess with the warmer weather, more people are interested in getting into shape. I remember with the warm weather approaching Danny and I would discuss what we would be grilling that night, like ribs and chicken etc. See ya-------------me

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May 1, 2004--Well we got weighed today and I lost 1 lb. for the whole month. I knew that would happen, but Dr. Garber was pleased when I told him about the 6lb. gain after stopping the water pills. Danny has lost 91 lbs so far. He's catching up to me and I couldn't be happier for him.

Today we have my niece's communion. I'm looking forward to seeing my brother. The last time I saw him was Christmas and about 25 lbs ago. Also it'll be great to see a few of my Aunt's and Uncle's. Danny and I will just pace ourselves with the food.

Danny is off all diabetic medication for good!!!!!!! Dr. Garber was really happy. I guess he likes all the "success" stories. I told him I'd like one day to have a tummy tuck and my boobs lifted and he told us he watches all those shows like Extreme Makeovers and The Swan and we said we watch them too. He's really a great Doctor and so easy to talk too. He said from now on we have to come on Thursdays for an office visit. That's okay with us.

We had to pay 600 bucks to cover our deductible for this year. Thankyou Discover Card! I was wondering why we kept getting bills from their office instead of checks from the ins. company.

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May 4, 2004--Today I weighed 192.4!!! That officially makes it 103 lbs lost. I couldn't be happier. Danny got on the scale we have at home and it finally was able to give hum a number instead of ERR (short for ERROR). It said 307.2. The scale only goes up to 308. So he has lost 96 lbs so far. This was a major thing for Danny. I have always been a numbers person since my very first diet I ever went on. Danny always hated to weigh himself, so I was surprised this morning when he was yelling for me to see that number on the scale. Good for him!!!!!

My niece's communion was wonderful. It was great seeing my brother and my relatives. My uncle was screaming--where's Angie when I was standing right in front of him...he said he almost missed seeing me. I was on a high all day.

I was okay with the food at the restaurant. They served ziti with a marsala sauce w/mushrooms and grilled chicken on top as the appetizer. I ate one small bite of the chicken and spit it out because it was so dry. I ate 2 pieces of ziti. It was tasty. Then they had a huge spinach salad w/peppers and more mushrooms. I ate two leaves and Danny had one leaf and then I asked to take it home. I like cooked spinach--well my stomach can tolerate it better. Then I ate salmon which was broiled and was so buttery and tender. I ate about 5 oz or so. Danny ordered shepards pie. That's chop meat w/some veggies like corn and carrots in a skillet served with mashed potatoes on top of it and baked. This dinner was huge. Danny barely made a dent in it. We did not take that home. They had coffee and cake for dessert. I ate 2 tsp. of the cake. I have not experienced any dumping from sugar, but I am careful not to overdue it either. Anybody considering this surgery should know that all the food that you think you have to "give up" really hasn't happened for us. We just eat a lot less of what we like and can keep down.(which except for steak, we eat almost anything).

This weekend my family meets at my sister's house for Mother's Day. I can't believe she is moving in a few weeks. I will miss my niece and nephew so much. Emily got her ears pierced and looked so grown up with her hair all up in curls and the headpiece that made her look like a little bride. I took alot of photos of her and my family.

Work is great. I signed up another 2 ladies last night at the gym. Well I have to finish some laundry and drink my water.
Have a terrific day-------------me. Oh I forgot to mention that Dr. Garber said my goal weight was 171. I said what if I want to lose more?--He said go right ahead--but for the surgery to have been considered a success then the 171 would be the number to aim for.. 21 lbs to go!!!!!!!!

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May 7, 2004--- Today I weighed 191.0. That's 104.5 lbs lost!!!
I am happy to think that I can actually see my goal pretty clearly now. At one point it seemed I'd never get there. I wanted to be in the 180's by the time we go on vacation in June. I have a good feeling it's going to happen. Danny is hanging in there. He's experimenting with different foods but still no steak. He has meatloaf once in awhile but stays away from beef usually. He eats cheese as a snack with some ritz crackers sometimes. I tell him to be careful because you can really slow down the losing phase if you snack too frequently. I know I have heard from others who are afraid because they think their weight will come back. We're all here to help each other. To my e-mail friends--thanks always for your support and I am glad to help you too!!!

Tomorrow we're going to my sister's house for Mother's Day. Don't know what she's making for dinner. I'll bring two protein bars just in case.

Went shopping today and bought another pair of sneakers (for me). I went down a 1/2 size. I never thought my feet would get smaller too. I also bought some tops in Large not 3x like 10 months ago. I can't believe in July it'll be one year since the surgery. It's so fresh in my memory. I think about the procedure everytime I am tempted to eat a high calorie food, and then realize all that I went through and is it really worth it, etc.

Note to Terri---you looked great!! Losing all that weight before the WLS had to be tough, but you did it!!! Good luck with the WLS and keep in touch.

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May 10, 2004--Today I weighed 190.4!!! I feel great!!
Saturday we had a good time at my sister's house. My sister's mother-in-law said it looked like I had lost weight since the communion last week. Well I actually did lose 2 lbs., but I guess wearing jeans and a snug shirt made the difference. I had a weird episode there after drinking some snapple. I had an overwhelming feeling of sickness. I had to excuse myself and make a mad dash to the bathroom and vomit up liquid and what seemed to be a lot of phlemn. I don't know why that happened, And it occurred just two minutes before everybody sat down to eat.

My brother in law made shrimp with tomato sauce over capellini. I ate only one shrimp and played around with the other three that were on my plate. I just could not eat. My aunt wound up eating my leftover shrimp. But after a half hour or so, I felt better and had some cheesecake with strawberries on top. That was delicious. I also had some herb tea and snacked on a piece of crumb cake. I felt like the old Angie was back with eating everything in sight, but Danny who sat right next to me said it was fine.

Yesterday Danny and I went to IHOP and I ate some scrambled egg and 1/2 a pancake with syrup. I did not feel deprived. It was good to eat out for breakfast. We shared everthing. (save $$ too) When we first arrived at IHOP they said there was a 40 minute wait unless we wanted a two seater small booth. I said we'll take the booth. Well we fit fine. Danny could not believe it. I was happy to walk past all the folks who had been waiting in line. (LOL) Anyway after that we went to exchange a pair of jeans that are too big for Danny now. He went down to a 46 Levi's.

I got called to jury duty in June when we are on vacation. I guess I'll postpone it till July. Have a great day everybody..me

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May 30th, 2004-- I weigh 188 now. Sorry I haven't updated in awhile. I have been working a lot of hours at the gym because they fired a girl who I shared the shifts with. I come home at night exhausted. It's a 10 and 1/2 hour day. But my legs feel really toned from all the exercise and from standing on my feet all day when it's busy. Danny lost 102 lbs so far. I lost 107. He's catching up to me so fast.

We went to a support group on Thursday. They had a plastic surgeon there to discuss the options WLS patients have when they are ready to consider some work. Like the flabby arms droopy boobs and flabby stomachs and butts. The slides he showed were so graphic, but we all related to the pictures. I found myself saying "that's me" when they showed them. It was great to see all our friends there. They are so supportive and loving.

Today we are going to my sister's for a barbeque. It's supposed to rain tomorrow so she'd thought why not have it today to celebrate Memorial Day. Any chance I can get to see my niece and nephew I jump at the chance. I made some stir fried vegies with cashews to bring there and also marinated some asparagus so my brother in law can grill them. He said he was making chicken, burgers and franks. I told them we'd probably just eat a bit of chicken and some veggies.

Last week we went to a bridal shower for my couzin's daughter. The wedding is August. All my couzin's told Danny how good he looked. They hadn't seen him since before the surgery. He felt great. I saw my couzin's friend Debbie who gave me clothes after I had my WLS and she thought I looked good too. My niece wrapped her arms around my waist and interlocked her fingers and told me how "skinny" I was. She amazes me all the time. I love her.

I bought a bathing suit for our trip to Nashville. It's a two piece separate but looks like one piece. It was the 2nd suit I tried on. The first one my boobs slipped out left and right because it was a halter style.(no good for me) I can't wait to have them lifted.

Danny took me to see fireworks that were behind one of the schools in Levittown. Since he works for them we were able to get really close. It felt like they were falling on us. One thing we noticed, we were so cold and it was only 58 degrees out. I had a blouse on with a sweatshirt and a fleece jacket and gloves. Danny had a hooded sweatshirt on too. I guess with the weight loss, we lost our "insulation"!!! Anyway the show was fabulous but lasted only 3 minutes. But it was Grucci, so at least they were decent. We're going again tonight. They also had a carnival going on too. We walked around for awhile just for the exercise and talked about how we used to "eat" our way through these fairs in the pre WLS days. They were selling Zeppoles and Sausage and Peppers that smelled wonderful, but we were not hungry, but the head hunger drove us crazy. We were watching a lot of the "big people" chow down, and saw ourselves as we probably looked a year ago.

Anyway hope everybody has a safe holiday. Thanks for your support. Good luck to my friend Terri who underwent WLS last Thursday. Congrats to you for making it to the other side.
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June 22, 2004----Today I weighed 184.4. One hundred 11 lbs lost. We came back from our trip to Nashville. What a great time we had. Although it was really hot and muggy we tolerated the heat well. This was our 13 year going there but the first time without all the weight. We had a few before shots that we re-created for an after shot at the same locations around Nashville. It was pretty wild to see us so large last year. On the airplane I travelled with the arm rest down the whole flight and Danny did not need a seatbelt extender. Although we had originally purchased the middle seat, we found that it was a perfect spot for my camera equipment instead of our thighs.

We were there for the CMA festival/FanFair. We saw alot of country stars including Charlie Daniels, Leanne Rimes and Martina Mcbride and Brad Paisley and so many others. I shot 15 rolls of film and fed-exed it all to the agency I do free-lance work for in Manhattan. I ususally have stuff in Country Weekly. I guess I'll have to wait and see. We also shot soap stars from Days of our Lives and Passions. Martina told us that she thought we looked great and was happy to pose with us for a photo. Looking at the shots of Danny and me it's nice to see our double chins have trimmed down as well as our bellies. We felt normal walking around the convention center and the downtown area.

We drank so much water and a lot of unsweet tea, which is so popular down there. We walked alot everyday but I did miss exercising at the gym. I went back yesterday and it felt great to be on the machines again. The women there all said it looked like I lost more weight. This was the first vacation that I ever went on that I came back thinner. And we did eat crummy stuff every now and then, but we were careful most of the time. I tried to have broiled stuff, but the fried shrimp looked too good to pass up. The only thing is that they fill you up fast with all that grease. I had butter on toast. I hadn't eaten butter in a long time. I'm used to having plain bagel crisps in the morning and then no carbs the rest of the day. But I think with all the water we drank and the walking, it saved us.

But I did rememeber to drink extra water on the flight. I remember reading Carnie Wilson's book and she has said she got dehydrated on her flight to Europe. So we brought a 2 quart water container with us and also dome diet Snapple. I couldn't believe that we got two "bottles" on a plane but they confiscate nail files. Danny said what could stop someone from breaking a glass bottle and taking someone hostage, etc. Go figure!!!!

Anyway the day we got to our hotel, my sister had called the hotel and left a message that my mom was in the hospital. It seems she developed a muscle disorder. I forget the name --it's poly something---it's all over her body. She was in for a week before they found out what was wrong. Now she is on prednisone. (not sure of spelling). She's feeling better but still stiff some days. Getting old sucks.

This Friday I have my niece and nephew for a sleepover because my sister is making the final cleanout of her house to move to PA on Saturday. I never had my nephew (who has downs) for a sleepover, but my sister said if he acts up she'll run over and pick him up. I told her we'll manage fine...even if it means sleeping on the couch with him. I have much more stamina with the weight loss, but my shoulders are hurting like crazy if I move them the wrong way or do heavy lifting.

Anyway, I'll be updating more now that I am back. Danny is doing great. He lost a few more lbs too. Oh I forgot to mention all the weird aches I had in my stomach recently and for the past few months that would come and go.... I called Dr. Garber and he said I would need an ultra sound of my gall bladder. I told him I was going on vacation and he said to take 20mg 2x a day of pepsid. Funny how I was on prilosec for 6 years and recently went off that. I wonder if that's what caused the stomach aches. see ya Angie

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July 4, 2004---Happy Independence Day to all!!! Today I weigh 183.0 lbs. Danny is down to 296. We went to a huge party at my couzin's house in Connecticut yesterday. She had so much food to eat. I had to be so careful because I am starting to figure how much I can eat every hour and not feel stuffed. Not a good thing. I have to remember where I started from and how hard I worked to get where I am today. All I can say is I am glad not to go to too many parties where there are buffets galore. We were there from noon and did not get home until after 1. They had fireworks too. It was fun to see all my relatives and the compliments were appreciated. Sometimes people say how great we look to the point I start to think--How bad did we look BEFORE surgery. Anybody else feel this way?? Just wondering.

I quit my job at the gym because my girlfriend Marylou bought a gym in Bethpage and she wants me to work for her. I gave two weeks notice to my boss and el cheapo said not to bother and just to come in for my last paycheck. Hey I tried to do the right thing. Anyway she's paying me 11.50 an hour to start. And I don't have to work any nights. I'm glad to work at a gym because the past week I kind of miss working out. I could go back to the place I left because I was a member already when I got the job and they "froze" my membership, but I am kind of a cold turkey person and like to sever the ties when I can. But I may go back.

My sister moved and yesterday she came to my couzin's for the party, so I was able to hang out with my niece and nephew for a few hours. They wore me out. But I felt I needed to work off the doritos I was munching on. Me and Dan even went for a half hour walk. I find my butt hurts from sitting too long. I guess I lost a lot of "padding" down there.

Well next week we go to Mohegan Sun to see Brad Paisley. My other couzin Carol said to stop by where she keeps her boat in Conn. and she'll give us a ride before we go to the casino. She's about 1/2 hour away from there. That should be fun. Well have a safe 4th-----me


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July 8th, 2004--Went to see Dr. Garber today. I lost 112 lbs so far. I was 185 on his scale. Danny lost too. I forgot how much but it was a few. They weigh you so fast and then put you in a room to wait for the Dr., that I forget sometimes what the numbers are. I do know that my bmi is 29.9...It started out at 46. I'm happy with that. I told Dr. Garber about my stomach pains and he said the stomach that they detached is still producing acid and making its way up the intestine which will cause a lot of discomfort. He switched me to Nexium from the Pepsid Ac. At least I only have to pay the co-pay. He said to stay on the Nexium for awhile and make note of any pain. Then he'll order a sonogram of the gallbladder if necessary. He's so easy to talk to and said that my pain is something that other patients go through every now and then. It's good not to feel alone.

Meanwhile my mom was diagnosed recently with Lupus. So I have been reading a lot about that too. Seems she was achy all over and thought it was reaction from being on the drug Crestor, but it turned out it wasn't. I can recall not too long ago that bad news always made me eat. Now I want to go out and walk around some...okay maybe it will be in the mall....but at least it's exercise.

The Doctor told Danny that he should be losing faster and asked him if he's exercising. Danny said that we walk for a few times each week, but the Dr. said you need to do something that makes you sweat for 30 minutes. I told Danny that I would buy some more weights, but knowing him, they would just collect dust. Anyway during the summer he should get some overtime from the schools and he said that's when he'll be sweating more. I told him, yeah, because it's 90 degrees outside. Oh well----to be continued-------me

July 22, 2004--Today I weighed 182.0. It's taking forever to lose weight this month. I guess it's better than gaining weight.

I went to the gym my girlfriend bought that I'll be working at in two weeks. It's Inches-A-weigh in Hicksville. I went on the machines for 6 minutes each. There are 8 machines that tone and stretch you. Alot different than Ladies Workout Express. Then they have a bicycle and another machine I think it's a Health Rider and also 4 treadmills. I walked on the treadmill for 20 minutes and almost started to sweat. The last time I was on a treadmill was when Dan and I had the stress test done. I think I was able to get through 3 minutes then.

I went to a photo shoot for LeAnn Rimes today. She was at North Shore Animal League in Port Washington to promote a Habitat for Cats sponsored by Friskies. The building was beautiful and was designed by that guy Frank from Trading Spaces. There are a whole bunch of rooms for the cats who are up for adoption to walk around freely in. Last year I always shied away from being "out there" shooting because of my weight. I am glad that I have been getting up the courage lately to do more stuff.

My mom's feeling okay with the lupus. As long as she takes the proper medication she should me alright.

On Sunday Dan and I and my mom and Aunt are going to my couzin's Yacht club to celebrate my uncle's birthday. They have a huge swimming pool there and a club house. It's nice to live like you're rich once in awhile. My couzin Carol said she'd give us rides on her boat again if we want. I'd settle for just laying around the pool and looking out over the water. (another trip I would've passed up before WLS)

On July 28, it's my one year anniversary since WLS. I wonder if Danny will take me out to dinner. (kidding)

On Saturday night Danny is meeting up with old friends he hasn't seen for about 21 years. I told him they may say you look great and haven't changed much because you weigh just as much now as when you last saw them. He's alot greyer in the beard and hair, though. I know Dan would've passed on this if he was heavier--but like me he's ready for his "new" life to start.

Had a another bellyache this afternoon so I just took another pepsid ac. It works pretty fast. I have been drinking alot of water with this heat. I've been making smoothies too. Here is one you may want to try:

1 container of low sugar yogurt (Axelrod)
1 small banana
4 strawberries
4 pineapple chunks
about 3/4 cup of skim milk
3 large ice cubes.

Put all in a blender, cover and put on HIGH until thick and creamy. To me this is like a McDonalds shake---but tastier.


Well I have to go pick up my slides from this morning and Fed-ex them to the city---have a great day everybody!- you too Gerri :)me


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July 28, 2004---- ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TODAY!!!!!!
I can't believe it's been one year since WLS. I feel better now than a year ago. THAT I believe!!!! I haven't reached my goal yet of 171, but I am not giving up. Danny has been losing slow too, but hey we both lost 112 lbs. so far---can't really complain too much.

My girlfriend found out she is closing on the gym in about 3 weeks. So I have extra time off for the summer. I have been going to Sunrise Mall to walk lately, especially when it is muggy out or rainy.

My sister called me yesterday and wants us up there in Pennsylvania for my niece and nephew's birthdays in a few weeks.
I miss them terribly. On August 15 I will babysit my nephew for a few hours while they go to a party in Locust Valley. David is a handful and he needs a lot of supervision. I don't really mind too much. And he keeps me exercising all day!!

We went to my cousin's yacht club on Sunday. What a great time we had. She took whoever wanted to go out on boat rides and we played ball in the park there by the water and talked and ate and got some sun, which finally made an appearance after all the rain we've had. I tried to drink a lot of water, but it's hard sometimes. I drove home that night and was so beat. Thanks to my mom for keeping me up with talking. (Danny fell asleep the whole way home---well he woke up when I needed the easy-pass)

Danny is working some overtime tonight. He's doing some welding. He enjoys doing some manual labor every now and then for the exercise that he used to hate a year ago.

I made a meatloaf for lunch and put inside a spinach and cheese mixture that comes prepared. I got the meat together with an egg and garlic powder, oregano and salt and pepper and some breadcrumbs, flattened it out over some RELEASE aluminum foil. Then I smeared the spinach and cheese spread over the meat and proceeded to roll it up and tightened the ends and baked it in a meatloaf dish for 30 minutes and then added 3/4 cup of marinara sauce on top and baked for 10 minutes more. When Danny came home for lunch he ate a piece right away and said it was delicious. We do seem to like the soft mushy foods for protein.
All this time off and I find myself trying to get more creative with the foods we eat. But we are nowhere close to the obsession we used to have for food.

Well I think I will start making a chicken dish for tonight.
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July 30, 2004-- Today I weighed 181.1---- 114.5 lbs lost to date!!! 10 more lbs to goal. Danny and I went to the support group last night and it was very informative. Willo and Dr. Garber ran it. It was great to see so many WLS friends shrinking every month.

I went to a Dr. yesterday to schedule a colonoscopy. I got lucky and can have the procedure done next Tuesday. Someone was at the desk cancelling an appointment for it, the same time the nurse was telling me they were booked up for awhile. Good timing!!. Anyway on Monday all I can drink is clear liquids and nothing red or purple and no milk. I can have chicken broth and lemon or lime jello and gatorade and get this----she said to drink A GALLON of fluids. Yeah right----I have a hard time getting 2 quarts in a day --- but I'll try. I guess I'll hang out by the house since I'll need to be near a bathroom. Then I have to take some other stuff to make me GO!!! She said I may lose a few lbs. --- I am all for that!!! I'll keep you posted.

My girlfriend who is buying the gym is going to Las Vegas for training for 9 days next week and asked me to go with her and she'll pay the expenses. I was so tempted to say yes, but I have my Couzin's daughter wedding next Saturday and being that my sister is not going and my brother in North Carolina is not driving up for it, I felt I should go. And being around that many slots without Danny around to hang out with would be kind of boring. I like it when he's around, even if he's in another aisle. And my girlfriend doesn't gamble too much and sitting in a conference room for 8 hrs. a day is just not for me. I told her to learn the programs and teach me when she gets back. She's okay with that.

I have a wake to go to today. It's the husband of one of my mom's friends. We used to sing in the church choir in Flushing, where I am from. Anyway She has not seen me for about 8 years. Should be interesting. I always liked this lady.

Going out tonight to get Danny dress pants and a shirt for the wedding next week. He doesn't want to wear a suit. I don't blame him. Crystal, who's the bride is having the ceremony in the reception hall so we don't have to go to church. I told Danny that he'll look good in anything that is not denim, which he lives in. Stay tuned. We already know what we are having for dinner---they asked us on the response card---thought that was weird---but what do I know---times change!!! At least we won't be the biggest ones there------------life is good-----me


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August 2, 2004--- Today I weighed 180.5!! 115 lbs. lost!!!!
Drinking all my fluids today for my colonoscopy tomorrow. I just got a call from the Dr.'s office and they asked me if I wouldn't mind changing my appointment from 4:45 p.m to 10:15 in the morning and of course I said YES. This way I don't have to go another day without food. It's not that I am really hungry--I just feel kind of drained. The only protein I am getting is drinking that boring chicken broth. I feel like I am drinking chicken grease. And Gatorade and water is boring too. I guess even though I don't eat alot---my body was used to some solid bulk protein. I guess I have alot of HEAD HUNGER!! It's almost 3 o'clock and I already drank 2 quarts of fluid already. I hope I can get another 2 down. I am going to the bathroom every 10 minutes---

Danny is still at a standstill with his weight loss. He hasn't budged below 291 on the scale. Sometimes he gains a lb. and loses it the next day. He knows about drinking more fluids. It's just getting him to do it---that's tough!!! Kind of reminds me of Al Roker and Randy Jackson. They all lost over 100 but never got down to that low point--ya know when you Really notice!!!

I bought Danny some dress pants and a nice shirt and he bought a new pair of shoes for the wedding next week. It was fun to see him try stuff on and everything fit great. Good for him.

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August 4, 2004---Today I weighed 178.4!!! ! 117lbs lost!!!
I guess not eating all day two days ago made a difference. Also I had to take all those harsh laxatives. I was told to drink 3 oz. of this awful tasting liquid but could only get down about 1 oz. without heaving it up. Meanwhile the Dr. who did the procedure said because of not taking the full dose I was not totally "cleaned out". I told her to check my plumbing and then get back to me. Anyway, when I told her I had a hard time drinking the horrible tasting stuff, she suggested next time to take pills.....yeah now ya tell me. She scheduled me for an endoscopy --down the throat--procedure in September. Danny will go for his consult for his colonoscopy too then.

It's so hot outside that I have the A/C on high in all the rooms. I can tolerate the heat alot better than last year, but still like it in the 70's.

I tried on a new pair of jeans--low rise--and they fit perfect. Well maybe a little loose on the legs. I guess all my walking is paying off. And I have been drinking at least 2 quarts of water everyday for the past week. Some days it's harder to get the liquid down, but I look at the clock or my watch and try every 10 minutes to get a few gulps down. That seems to work.

Donna Franco just called from Dr. Garber's office and said Danny's iron and calcium are low. Maybe he is taking them at the same time?? She wants him to call her tomorrow, because she was leaving for the hospital today.

Well my mom is due today to get her nails done by me for the wedding on Saturday. Have a "cool" day today---if ya can----me..


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August 20, 2004--- I still weigh the same!!! I guess after having that procedure it was a gift that I lost a few lbs. then.
Anyway the wedding was great. Everyone told Danny and I that we looked good. We even danced a fast dance. That was something that we haven't done in years....probably since we got married 23 yrs. ago. Ouch!!!

I had taken a few rolls of film and put together an album for the bride and she just loved the shots. I was happy for them. It was a terrific wedding---but what's a wedding without talking about the FOOD??? They served a buffet of appetizers of cheese and crackers and dips, a fruit cup at the table followed by salad and then a sorbet and then a huge bowl of pasta served family style (I think me and Danny ate two ziti each) and then Danny got a piece of prime rib that was at least as big as a dinner plate and about 2-3 inches thick. I should have taken a photo of that---I really thought it was to be shared family style like the pasta. I got a huge vegetable plate that had squash, sweet potatoe, those little corns, carrots and string beans marinated with a teri-aki sauce over white rice. There was enough, I thought for at least 5 people to eat it. We were all laughing at the table over these humongus servings. But what was kind of sad was watching the same people who said they could never eat that much meat just devour it all in about 10 minutes. Danny and I each had about 4 forkfuls of meat and the same for the veggies and then called it a night. Oh we did have a bite of cake and a spoonful of ice cream. And I drank some real coffee to stay up for the 2 1/2 hour ride home that night. We tried to drink water. It's hard at these occasions, where there is one pitcher for the whole table, but we did the best we could.

Moving along---I babysat my nephew this past Sunday. Then my sister and her husband and my niece came over for dinner and left after about 3 hours. I was pooped!! My nephew can wear you out!! But at least I got some exercise. My nephew was wrestling with Danny and scratched his nose pretty good. I told Danny I'd lend him some cover-up if he wanted. Yeah, right!!

Tomorrow we go to my sister's in Pennslvania for the day to celebrate the kids birthdays. My sister wants us to stay over and make it the whole week-end. I told her last week that we'll leave early on Saturday morning around 8ish and then leave her house around 6. I know it's supposed to rain, but I don't care if we drive in the rain. I think we need a day to ourselves.

It's so hot and humid today. It's a real test to WLS patients who have lost so much to see how much better we tolerate the heat, right?? Anyway----I started my new job at Inches- A Weigh. I'll be working 9-2 eventually. Right now she closes at 12:30, but she'll be changing the hours soon. I was able to do 10 minutes on the bike and 10 minutes on the treadmill. I am in the back with the women, keeping track of their time on each machine. I also did a lot of cleaning of windows, mirrors, and vaccuming. It kind of goes with the job and anything I can do physically, I feel it has to shake this weight off. It's so hard to get the weight off now. But I will do it. Okay,I have to get my water in. Have a great week-end everybody!!!!-------me


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September 28, 2004---Sorry I haven't updated in awhile. I weigh 175.4. That's officially 120 lbs lost. Danny weighs 283 lbs and is also down 120 lbs. Dr. Garber asked me last week if I am considering plastic surgery and I said YES!! We will talk some more at our next visit in October and get the ball rolling. My goal weight from him is 171 lbs. He feels I am close enough to start the procedures. I would want it done after the holidays and with enough time to get better before we go away to Nashville in June. Danny could care less about surgery. He has so much energy lately. It's wonderful!!

Work is great. I work from 8:30 a.m. till 1:30. The women who come to the gym are mostly those who haven't exercised in awhile and we have quite a few seniors there too. I love 'em all. I am happy my friend Terri has been coming to the gym since her weight loss surgery. She lost about 75 lbs already. I am so proud of her. She had WLS in May.

The ladies who are severly overweight all say to me that they can't imagine me fat. I show them all my before photos and then they can relate to me as I can to them. I let them know that I remember all too well my relationship to food and it literally consumed me as I was consuming it!! DID THAT MAKE SENSE??

I am up to doing 20 minutes a day on the treadmill at 3.4 m.p.h. Not too fast and not slow. I also lift 8 lb. weights to tone up my flabby arms. They don't look too bad if I walk with my arms down by my side. (like Raquel Welch in Seinfeld lol)

Well, hope all is well with everyone. Good luck to those who are having surgery soon. You can e-mail me anytime. I remember all those who were there for me before MY surgery.

See ya soon-----------------Angie



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October 23, 2004-- I weigh 174.4 now. Down 121 1/2lbs. so far. Danny is 281, but fluctuates every other day or so, because he knows he eats the wrong stuff, not alot of anything in particular, but not the low fat foods. I have been staying later at the gym and walking on the treadmill 30 minutes a day now at 3.5 m.p.h. I also go on a few of the toning machines we have there. From reading other peoples journals it seems when you are stuck with not losing weight you really have to exercise alot.

I don't really mind it too much, because I can feel and see the results. We saw Dr. Garber the other day. Oh wait we did SEE him at the office but Donna Franco took care of us the whole time we were there. She said I was really low in iron. I was thinking about how much spinach and salad I was eating over the summer but it gave me alot of gas and Dr. Garber said to just eat protein and take your vitamins. etc. I guess my body really needs those green leafy vegies.

I spoke to Donna about plastic surgery and the Dr. I will see is one that she used to work for. I had spoken to a woman, Dale at the support group at Mercy the other night and she had a tummy tuck by him and gave me his card. Stay tuned.

Note to Vito---Danny could not believe how you just "shrunk" and did not know it was you when we saw you at Mercy. Congrats to you for all that weight you took off so fast.

That was a great support group that night. I liked the way the chairs faced each other so you could see who was talking instead of always turning around.

I bought a winter jacket the other day and it was a MEDIUM!!!! What a surpise to fit in a size so small. Sometimes I look at my old stuff and can't remember fitting into a 3x tight. I am so happy I had this surgery and have no regrets.

My boss Marylou is taking me as her guest to a dinner for Long Island Women in business. It's at the Crest Hollow Country Club next week. When she asked me to go I saw that it was a dinner and dessert buffet for 45.00 a person, I just thought to myself what a waste of my money because I won't even eat 10.00 worth of food, but then without me saying a word, she said she would pay for it. Hey, now I feel like eating!!! Only kidding, but I usually steer away from buffets now. Brings back horrible bingeing memories of gorging as much food as humanly possible. And this was a weekly event for Dan and I. Anyway now I have to find something to wear.

I went to my sister's house in Pennsylvania 2 weeks ago with just my mom. It was a good trip, but I needed to get out alot. It's fun to be around my niece and nephew, but I had to take walks because I feel I have all this energy and hate sitting around now. And taking walks with kids is kind of like strolling along for 20 minutes. But it was good to see them. Hated the 5 hour drive that it took to get there. Of course leaving the Friday before Columbus Day didn't help. But we came home on a Sunday and it took only 3 hrs. Food was kind of an issue, but I brought along protein bars and hot cocoa and that helped. I also ate some of the kid's cheerios.

Danny is scheduled for his colonoscopy on Tuesday. So Monday he is taking a half day for work. He has to start drinking some stuff and taking pills to clean himself out before the procedure and he can't eat anything, but can drink as much as he wants. They want him to drink a gallon of fluids. And chicken broth is okay, and gatorade. I will take him for the procedure on Tuesday. Danny thinks it's great because he'll probably drop a few lbs. Hey whatever works, right? Till then-----me

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November 20, 2004---- I made my goal weight of 17l lbs !!!!!
It's been a crazy few weeks. Danny went for the colonoscopy only to find out --after they knocked him out and started the procedure that he should have been taken off his iron. The Doctor said it was all dark "up there" and said she'll schedule another one for January. Danny was pissed because he hated taking all those pills for nothing. Oh he did drop a few lbs, but then put them back on a week later.

I went to see a plastic surgeon, Dr. Sasson in Great Neck. He is the head of plastic surgery in Franklin General Hospital. I found out the boob job I want is not covered by insurance but part of the tummy tuck would be covered. I am going to get these droopy things lifted and also they'll put implants in. I go again in December to give them a deposit, and then I will have the surgery in January and then wait around 6 weeks to have the tummy done. Danny is all for it. I told all the members of my family that instead of gifts for Christmas for Danny and I--we would accept money towards the "reconstruction of Angie" fund. They all went for it. Nobody said a word against the surgery, but it wasn't like I heard a lot of support from them either-but ya know what?-I have to do this for me---I count---and I am doing this so I can benefit by it--not them....

I guess I sound bitter---hey it goes with the territory with my family. From the beginnning I never told anybody I was even having the WLS until the date was really close---but through all the pre-testing phase--the only one I could count on was Danny. Also my good friend Gerri was there for me too!!

Work is great. I am still going on the treadmill 4-5 times a week. Trying to get to 40 minutes...but is so boring. I put on the Food Network and it drives my boss crazy after work when she joins me on the treadmill next to me. She says- how can you watch all that food?? Doesn't it make you hungry?? And the truth is it really doesn't. It actually makes me walk longer, because I think about all the food I don't eat anymore.

Hi to Gail and Joel who came over the other night to discuss her upcoming WLS. You are going to look sensational!!!!!!!! Keep in touch..

We are having a few friends over for Turkey Day. Danny bought a 10 lb turkey, because we really don't eat that much. I may make some Eggplant Parm. and some healthy vegies and maybe some sweet potato for the guests.

So it took me 16 months to get to my goal that Dr. Garber set for me. Whatever else I lose---I guess is all cosmetic. I would like to be in the 150's. With the tummy tuck the Dr. said I could lose an additional 5-6 lbs. I just want to get all the jiggly stuff cut off---it drives me crazy. Funny ====when I was fat I looked into getting a breast reduction and the insurance company would have paid for it, but the Dr. at the time had told me lose some weight first. Now that I lost too much and they literally collasped on me--the insurance co. won't pay this time. Go figure-----------Hey Happy Thanksgiving to all--------I have lots to be thankful for------will update soon------me


December 12, 2004--- I weigh 170.2!!!!!!!! We just came back from a vacation to Las Vegas. We saw country singer Brad Paisley again. He noticed that we had lost more weight since we last saw him in July. I had weighed myself before the trip and weighed the same when I got home. A few years ago when we went to Vegas we would always come home at least 4-5 lbs. heavier. And we still ate at buffets this week, but so much less and absolutely--NO SECONDS!!!!

I have my second appt. with the plastic surgeon on Thursday. Tonight, (Sunday) I am meeting with the girls from work for a Christmas party at a restaurant. I had a protein soup about 2 hours ago so I would not be so hungry. But I'm really never hungry, but I know I have to get that protein in or I don't feel right.

At the concert we went to I ran up to the stage for the last song that Brad was singing when everybody else did. I was close enough to touch his cowboy boots. Danny said he couldn't see me up there because I looked like everybody else from the back. I knew what he meant, because a few years ago at Westbury Music Fair we were at a Billy Ray Cyrus concert, and Billy came over to me and handed me his guitar pick and I was so excited, but so FAT that I could not get out of my seat in the first row because of my fat butt. I was stuck. I was so embarassed and had to wedge myself back and forth to make it out. Also the house lights went on then too, because the concert was ending. I will never forget that night. But now I can replace it with happier times to come, right?? Oh the stories I can tell..........

Well, I have to get ready for tonight. Danny went out shopping for a few things. The fridge is empty from being away.
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December 28, 2004---I weigh 169.5!!!!!! I never thought I'd see that number. Christmas was great. I had my family over and my brother drove up from North Carolina and my sister and her kids came down from Pennsylvania and my mom from Bayside (lol).
I made sure there were alot of foods there that were okay for Danny and I. I got a shrimp platter from Red Lobster and I also ordered some stuffed flounder from King Kullen. I made some eggplant parm. and just put out whole wheat breadsticks and everybody was happy because they're all following the South Beach diet or watching carbs in some way. I had plenty of healthy fruits for dessert and my mom spoiled us by bringing those huge lobster claws with the canoli cream in them----yummy.

My sister slept over Christmas Eve night and left after going to church in the morning. Let's just say that I miss my niece and nephew a whole lot.

Danny is holding his own. He walked with me over the weekend. We did 4 times around the school track. It took 24 minutes. He felt good and wasn't even tired. We were just cold. Those 180 ear warmers are the best for the cold windy days.

I got the date for my boob surgery. January 26th. I have to make sure I see my GP and have some tests done that the results can be faxed over to the plastic surgeon within 10 days of the date. We see Dr. Garber in 2 weeks. This is out first time seeing him in the "every three month" phase now.

Work is great. However my boss is not really gung ho about me having surgery, but I think it's because she won't have me around while I am healing. One of the other girls who works there told me that my boss feels since I lost all that weight I should be happy with the way that I am. Well Danny said I have to do what's right for me and not listen to anybody else. He's right, because had I listened to all the negative stuff before WLS I would've still been FAT.

I got a great letter from an ex-boss who had received my Christmas card with a photo of Danny and I and also Brad Paisley with a Santa hat on. He said he was proud of Danny and I and how we are each other's soul mate and some other heartwarming stuff. It really made our holiday. When I saw my Aunt during the holidays she called me skinny. My brother said nothing and neither did my sister or her husband. My mom's friend Sue was there and I hadn't seen her since last Christmas and she gave me a great big hug and said she was happy for me. I know I can't change people, but these are the same family members who used to rag on me to lose weight or make some comment about the latest "diet" I was on. Anyway my niece cuddled with me on Saturday morning after church while we watched Shrek 2 as her parents backed their bags to leave. She loves me regardless and that's what is important to me.

I had off yesterday and today. I have to work double shifts Wed, Thurs and Friday, though. Oh well, I gave another girl Aggie a break because she had plans and she's also covered for me when I had Dr.'s appts.

Note to Vito R---Danny said you lost so much weight he almost did not see you in your Xmas card. I thought the photo was beautiful. Isn't it great to be a normal size??? Happy New year to you and your family---and Happy New Year to all my cyber friends-------------Angie


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January 19, 2005--- I weigh 168.4lbs now!!! It's really hard to lose the weight. I am exercising and trying to get my water in. I saw Dr. Garber---actually mostly Donna Franco last week. My blood pressure continues to be a bit high. I got my blood tests back and my triglycerides went down to 97 from 151. And they were always over 200 pre WLS. My cholesterol is 207 but my HDL is high so that's okay (says my GP).

I told Donna and Dr. Garber about my upcoming surgeries. He was a bit upset that I was rushing into getting a hysterectomy along with the tummy tuck. He thought I should wait---I asked him for what?? He said symptoms---I said if I have the tummy tuck and then next year my mild symtoms get worse---what are you going to do??-make new openings in my new stomach?? He kind of laughed---I know he is in business to make money, but I trust my Gyn. so much. Anyway he was happy that I am still losing weight. I had lost 5 more lbs. since I had last seen him 3 months ago.

Danny lost 1/2 a lb. Hey if ya cheat--ya don't lose, right?? He knows what he has to do. He is very comfortable in his skin right now--well maybe not the saggy parts, but with the 120 lbs off him. He has been working so much lately that he said he is considering a tummy tuck too just so can use his sick time. (lol)

Work is still okay. I am sometimes exhausted at the end of my 5 hour shift because I am running back and forth helping all these women on machines. I think I will buy one of those pedometers so I can see how much walking I do all day. And another Inches-A-Weigh closed down and we probably will pick up a few of those clients. Since I started here in August my boss has signed up over 25 new clients. With the snow we get a lot of cancellations and then I can breathe a bit, but then I get bored because there's not much to do!!! Boy, I complain alot----

I'm having lunch with my girlfriend Gerri on Friday. She always puts me in a good mood.

Danny says he can't wait to get the "BOOBY PRIZE" regarding my surgery next week. I can't believe it was scheduled so fast. I have it paid in full---so there is no backing out!!! Hope to update real soon.....I'll let ya know how the surgery was. I have been in touch with a few women via ObesityHelp.com. They have been giving me great advice. My thanks to them all.

Have a good week---------watch out for the upcoming snowstorm on Saturday night thru Sunday. (a client at my job calls me Debbie Doom after a Saturday Night Live character because I'm always talking about horrible things in the news) Hey I can't help it if all they talk about is the tsunami, and mudslides and earthquakes and Iraq, etc.---anyway---see ya-Angie

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February 6, 2005---- What a week!! I had the breast lift and implants put in on Wed. Jan 26th at 7 a.m. I was home by 1 p.m.
Everything couldnt't have gone better. Because this was done at the surgeon's surgical suite in his office, I was the only patient at this time. They took photos of my droopy boobs and outlined me with a magic marker where he would cut, etc. They knocked me out around 7:30 amd I think I saw Danny around 11 a.m. or so. But it took me about an hour to fully come out of the anethesia. The nurse who was there was a doll. She was very comforting and helped me along the whole way. I was in pain, but more like alot of pressure on my chest.

Now after I got home a few hours later Dr. Sasson the surgeon calls me up and is surprised how wonderful and upbeat I sound. Well at that point I WAS feeling great most likely because of the percocet I was on and also I was still feeling the effects of the numbing stuff that was given to me during surgery. It was like leaving the dentist after root canal. Ya don't really feel the pain until after the novacaine wears off.

Anyway between day 2-5 I can only describe the pain I was in like this---it felt like I was wrapped up under my breasts with wire very tight, and a bungee cord wrapped around me on top of that with duct tape all around me with my niece and nephew sitting on top of these two overinflated balloons made of heavy duty rubber that were about to burst from the pain and tightness.
Can ya feel the pain??????????

Well as of today, Saturday, I feel like the pain between a 1-10 is more of 3 with the worst days being an 8. I am able to sit and type at this computer, but I do feel very constricted. Oh and I have to wear a sports bra for a month and also an ace bandage wrapped up around the top part of my boobs.

I feel very itchy too. God bless the 'ol backscatcher. And Danny has been wonderful too. The first few days he made me breakfast every morning before he went to work. Then I would take a pill and go into LA LA land and sleep for an hour or so.The difference with this surgery and WLS is that I was able to get myself off the recliner because my stomach muscles were all okay. But when I walk I feel like I have a weight pushing me backwards. But I am trying to get strong. The Dr. tells me to take it easy and take your time to heal. Unlike WLS where they wanted you up and about, he said to listen to your body and rest and don't over extend your arms. I have stitches from under my arms to remove fat that was there to about 3/4 of the way to the middle of the breast and the same from the other side going towards the middle again. There are no stitches going between the breasts. I am starting to get used to them too. At the beginning I was just in awe. I had not had firm breasts since I was in my 20's.

Dr. Sasson's surgical nurse Rosa told me that she received a call from one of Dr. Garber's patient's who just had the same surgery done and is very unhappy and is coming in to see Dr. Sasson next week. I felt good that I went with Donna Franco's recommendation and also I had spoken to at least 4 others in the medical field who said to go with Dr. Sasson. This other girl went to a Plastic Surgeon who was a friend. Some friend if he botches up the surgery, right? I hope everything works out for her.

The women who work at the gym sent me a gorgeous bouquet of flowers and also a gift card to Victoria's Secret. I cried when I got the card in the mail with all who pitched in names were written on the card with little notes of SUPPORT!!! Even one of the salesmen from VALPAK signed the card. MaryLou said they put a jar out by the desk and collected money because a few women were asking about sending me something. I couldn't have been happier after being so spacey and achey from the drugs and pain. This was just what I needed.

I told MaryLou that I could not come back to work for about 6-8 weeks, per the Dr. She said to take the time out that I need.
Now I just found out yesterday that her son who is just 29 years old has developed acute leukemia. He will be in North Shore hospital for at least a month. He had a weird staph infection that just would not go away and through more blood tests they saw his platelets were extremely low. I feel so sorry for MaryLou and her family. She told me she doesn't care about the business, only about her son. I feel helpless, because I can't help her out right now.

Well, I guess I will close for now. Thanks to all who called and wrote. It goes without saying, but I'll say it again....You guys are the BEST!!! I'm busting outta here---------me


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February 27, 2005-- Just thought I'd update on my healing process since my breast surgery. As of today the pain is almost gone, but there is still discomfort especially in my right breast. I feel like the implant is sort of under my armpit a bit. I see the plastic surgeon on March 10th. I am still wearing this contraption the sports bra. I wish I could play sports. Anyway, whenever I bend down to reach anything off the floor or there about, I have to hold the right breast because of this weird pain I get. Maybe I am overdoing it, but I hate to sit still. I vacummed the other day but used my left arm. It felt great to be able to do some housework.

I went and visited the gym the other day. Danny took me as I still have not driven yet. It was great seeing MaryLou and a few of the women who are clients. They seem to all be doing great. MaryLou commented that since I have been gone the place is not as clean as it used to be. I told her as soon as I can clean my own house top to bottom then I will come back. Her son underwent chemotherapy and they are waiting to do another bone marrow test tomorrow. All his friends have been donating platelets for him.

Danny went to work today. He'll be back in a few hours. We're going to go for a walk later. I have put on two lbs. in the past week because I have not been exercising. I can really feel the difference. I can't wait until I can lift my weights again.

Looking forward to watching The Academy Awards show tonight. I can recall, when we used to buy munchies and watch the "E" channel all day while they talked about fashion and jewelry and what everybody may be wearing, etc. to the show. Now it's just 4 oz. of chicken or fish and vegies and some spinach salad. We bought some lobster tails by 110 yesterday. There are a few guys who set up across from the movie theatre and sell all sorts of fish. They have these small tails that sell for 15 for 20 dollars. I ate 7 last night. The fish out of the shells weighed a bit over 4 oz. I had it over some spinach. (trying to keep my iron up).

Big snowstorm predicted tomorrow. I hope my breasts heal fast. I even miss shoveling the snow.

Good luck to Gail G. On Tuesday she is having WLS. You're going to do great!!!!!!!!!!!

Have a great day all!! Here's to Hillary Swank and Morgan Freeman and Clint Eastwood on their wins.(my predictions) And off course the shoe-in Jamie Fox!! Till next time-------Angie


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March 16, 2005- Well I finally went back to work. But now I am experiencing pain under my left breast. It feels like a bad sunburn when material is irritating it. Except I feel this all the time. Well actually it has only been two days. Mary Lou said to come back 2 days a week till the end of the month. But I was exhausted being on my feet all day. But after work I met up with Danny and we went to lunch. By the time I got home it was around 3 and then Danny called up at 4 and we met and went for a 1/2 hour walk in the schoolyard and then went to B.J.'s to buy some stuff. So I was on my feet alot and the pain was so bad when I got home I put an icy gel pack from the freezer right underneath my boob. I swear I could hear the sizzle of a fire being out, it felt that good.

I am happy to be back at work because my body was getting mushy from laying around alot. I met a woman yesterday at the gym who told me she had WLS in '03 like me and had lost over 100 and put back on 50 lbs. She wanted me to weigh her. I felt bad but am realizing how easy it is to fall back into the old eating habits, like grazing and eating when you're bored, excited, sad, and for all the other emotions. She said her husband eats alot of pasta and she is tempted by everything and suffers no dumping. I told her I stay away from pasta and rice and have tons of protein and spinach and cashews sometimes and drink lots of water. I told her if she ever wanted to talk that I would be there for her. She was so lost, it was like I was looking at myself pre-surgery. At least she is trying to make exercise part of life now.

If there were ever words that Dr. Garber has said time after time is that It's only a tool (the surgery) and what happens later is up to you. It's not a miracle. At the beginning of WLS the weight comes off so fast that you think after a year or so, that it'll still be so easy....but we all know it is HARD WORK!!!
But once you start the good eating habits, hopefully you will stick to a good program. And this is from me--I have not reached a weight where I wanted to me (in the 150's) but I am happy to be 168-170 and a loose size 14. After I have the tummy tuck I know I will fit in a 12 and then it's just another 8-10 lbs to be in a 10---but I am enjoying this new body and so is Danny!!

I have been eating a homemade pizza that Danny concocted. We take a pita bread--calories 100 and no fat--well maybe 1 gram and put some tomato sauce on it---fresh basil--dried oregano--and some cooked spinach and 5 medium shrimp that are cut into smaller pieces and you place the whole "pie" on a pizza stone that was preheated in a 450 degree oven and bake for about 5 minutes or so--until the crust is really dark and firm. Danny cuts the pie in 5 slices and I eat the whole thing. Oh I forgot you add a bit of fresh mozzarella before baking.

This is good for me because I sometimes still have the need to visually see a lot of food on my plate. (old habit) Even when we have gone to buffets--I take a lot of the good food but never finish everything on my plate--but it makes me feel good to know when to stop--well if ya don't stop next thing is a trip to the bathroom to barf---luckily that does not happen to either one of us---we still take 20 minutes to eat our meals and wait 40 minutes to drink our liquids---water-water-water. Well Danny has been drinking wine lately---he needs a Dr. Garber fix---I tell him ya know it's going to catch up with you either in weight gain--and it has--or you'll have other problems.........well enough of everything---------have a good one------Angie


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April 25, 2005---Hello to all. Well I turned 48 last Friday. I remember so many birthdays in the past where I would make a wish before blowing out the candles and it would always be to be thin. Guess what?? My dream came true.

I am back to work only 3 days a week. I work Tues, Wed and Thurs. It's alot better for me. MaryLou signed up so many new people I am so exhausted after a shift. But on my days off I make sure I walk for 20-40 minutes anywhere I can. The mall, school or on the track.

I am so much better with my breasts. I saw the plastic surgeon last week to discuss the tummy tuck. I think that'll be in July. Dr. Garber's office just sent a letter of support for the surgery. I will need some re-adjusting of my right implant because it is a bit under my armpit and the surgeon said he'd have to go in and tighten up the muscle that holds it in place. He does not advise to undergo that procedure along with the tummy tuck because he does not want me to be "out" for that long a period. He said that alot of women come back for some type of tweeking and adjustments. I am so new to all this. I never would've imagined that I would be thinking about all this surgery. But I feel so much better. My back aches are gone. My bras fit so comfortable and I can go braless if I want. Yeah right, maybe in a bathing suit top only. :)

I got a call today from Stephanie at the office and she asked if Danny and I would meet Dr. Garber and some of his staff for a photo shoot in Long Beach. I got in touch with Danny and he said no problem. We'll be there this afternoon. I wish we could do the walk in May. We will be in Tampa for a few days to visit Danny's brothers. We have not seen them in a year. It's just for a few days. It'll be fun to go where it is warm. It's been so chilly out. I used to love the cold, with all my flab to keep me insulated I was always warm. I remember going to Vegas in December a few years ago and it was 40 degrees at night and we were walking the boardwalk with long sleeve shirts only. What a difference it is when you shed all that skin. I will be a happy camper when this loose skin is gone too!!!

To all my e-mail friends---thanks for the kind words. And good luck to all who have upcoming surgeries. ---------Angie


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May 11, 2005--- Hello to all. Well to update from last time... Danny and I went to that photo shoot in Long Beach and it was to to advertise the walk this weekend to raise awareness for bariatric surgery at Mercy Hospital. Dr. Garber was there along with Dr. Holover and Sharon and one other man who had WLS. I let Dr. Garber know that we were happy to do publicity for the walk but unfortunately will be in Florida at that time.

He really didn't say anything after that. It was all pretty quick. Anyway today Lisa calls me from the office asking me if Dan and I would do an interview with The New York Times for the walk. I told her we weren't going to be able to make it, but she can count on us for anything else regarding being an advocate about WLS. She said Dr. Garber thought we would be good as a couple. I guess he forgot when we told him we couldn't make it.

Anyway back to food issues. Mother's Day was just Danny and I and my mom. We went to Domenico's in Levittown on Saturday for a nice late lunch/dinner. She was going up to my sister's on Sunday. I told my sister I did not feel like driving 3 hours there and back in one day. When my mom goes she sleeps over. Anyway the food was great. I had fillet of sole and broccoli and some spinach salad that we all shared. I did eat a bite of a cannoli for dessert and an espresso. We were there for about 2 hours. I was happy the service was nice and slow. That way I had room for a bit of dessert. Don't even ask what Danny ate........okay he had ravioli----with meat---UGH!!!! I don't know how he can eat that stuff.

We are going to visit Dan's two brothers this weekend in Florida. They have an extra condo that they rent out for the winter months and since nobody is using it now they said we can stay there. We're only going for 3 days. It's really hot there. But I can use some heat---it's been so chilly here!

I got my date for my surgery. July 20th at 8 a.m. This is for the hysterectomy. My plastic surgeon's office (Dr. Sasson) is still waiting for approval from insurance. They said it takes longer when it's considered cosmetic. (the tummy tuck) Well at least I am half way there. I guess that's all for now------Angie

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May 20, 2005--Hello to all!!! Still holding my weight the same. I go up and down the same 2 lbs. I still weigh myself everyday to keep me in check. Drinking water everyday!!!

We went to Tampa last weekend. We had a great time. But Dan's brothers and girlfriends are all retired and they do the "typical" Florida eating schedule that I hate. For breakfast it's bagels or rolls or coffee cake, lunch is actually eaten as an early dinner at 3p.m. and dinner, well there is no dinner time. They like to hang out and play cards and drink wine and snack. We were only there 3 days, so on Saturday morning Dan and I got up really early and walked to a local coffee shop that served eggs. That was perfect. Then we walked over to his brother's place and had coffee again. They served a bunch of carbs, but we passed on them.

When we all went out to "dinner" I made sure I ordered the half chicken (even though I only ate the dark meat) and had broccoli instead of potatoe. Danny was good too having ordered a fish platter instead of prime rib like the others ordered. We walked everyday. They took us for a boat ride on the Gulf coast. They are right on the water. It was 85 degrees everyday and never rained. We even played shuffleboard. I was happy my boobs were okay because I never felt self conscious among the other ladies there.

I have to tell a story that happened while we were there. We went to a place called The Crab Shack right on the water with the thatched roof and tons of island stuff hanging from the ceiling and a guy playing the steel drums and all. After we ate, there was a parade of boats that made their way to the restaurant. They were horsing around with these water pumps shooting at each other and having fun. I was getting bored hanging with the "seniors" so I walked down a few stairs to get closer to the dock to sit and watch them and take some photos.
All of a sudden they said "get her" and started shooting water all over me and my Brad Paisley T shirt. I said "hey why are ya shooting me?" and one guy said "'COS YOU'RE THERE!!!"

I can't believe how thrilled in a weird sort of way that I felt when I got up to make my way back to the table dripping wet with a big smile on my face. Danny said I was grinning ear to ear. I kept laughing and later on when we could talk I told him I was happy when the guy said 'cos you're there" and not 'cos you're fat!! I FELT NORMAL!!!! I know all you WLS post ops agree with me. You just want to fit in, right??

Also during the day one of Dan's brother's friend Barbara was talking about when she saw all the manatees at the beach during the day. I was thinking that must've been cool seeing whale like creatures up close. But after listening more carefully what she meant was all the FAT LADIES on the beach that she saw. I felt crushed. She knows Dan and I both had surgery but she chose to poke fun at these women and she herself is a size 24. I guess it was easier for her to make light of it then face the reality. I know I was like that too at one time, even though I hate to admit it now.

Oh on Monday night we went to the city to see our friend Victoria Shaw at another songwriter's night. In the audience was Jon Bon Jovi looking very cool with his shag haircut and wearing cowboy boots. (hot) Took some photos of him. Not as approachable as the country singers that I am used to, but he was civil.
Till next time-------------Angie


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May 26th, 2005-- Feeling good today but tired. I had to go into work early because my boss's son (who has leukemia) had a severe nosebleed that did stop for over 8 hours, and she has been at the hospital with him since 5 am this morning. Also my brother from Charlotte had surgery on his throat to remove a polyp and a mass that they found. My mom is having a cataract removed today. Normally I would be eating form all this sad news. But I am keeping myself in check and dealing with it all.

I received an e-mail from my brother just a moment ago and he can't talk for 24 hours. He is a bit groggy but okay. I also found out he was diagosed with Hepatits C. He has been going for some liver treatments that will take 24 weeks. He is in a drug trial treatment for this.

Can't wait till it gets warmer. I have been so chilly lately.
I am happy to say I weigh the same as I did in January before the boob surgery. I had gone up a few lbs. from being so inactive. That's why I try now to exercise everyday. Can't allow myself to get mushy!! Also I want to be as low as my body will allow before I have the tummy tuck in July. Still not approved but anticipating a phone call within a few weeks.

Happy Memorial Day to all!!! Happy barbeque to you!! Remember veggie burgers heat up real fast on the grill, and go great with fresh veggies, also grilled----Yummy!!===== Angie

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June 25, 2005---Hello to all. We went away to Nashville for 2 weeks for the CMA Festival/Fan Fair convention. What a great time we had. And the weather was hot everyday and we loved it. It's so great to have "shed" that winter coat of lbs. we were wearing for years.

Anyway I shot photos of every country star that I could. From Charlie Daniels and Tanya Tucker to Carrie Underwood from American Idol. I have to check Country Weekly soon to see if they use any shots.

We bumped into so many friends who we see every year down there and they all noticed we lost more weight. I think I dropped about 16 lbs. since last June. Danny is still holding his own. He does like to snack and he ususally picks M & M's or something sweet. I try to eat strawberries and blueberries with coolwhip every night. Okay maybe I sneak an M&M or two but not alot. I have my two surgeries scheduled for July 20th.

I will be in New Island Hospital. I saw the GYN the other day and she drew some blood to see if my ovaries are still producing hormones. If they are she will leave them and just take out the uterus and leave the cervix too. I'll find out by Monday. I spoke to Rosa the surgical coordinator at Dr. Sasson's office (the plastic surgeon) and she said I should be receiving my approval for the tummy tuck in the mail soon. She's on vacay till July 5th. So far I haven't gotten anything in the mail for that. I did receive the approval for the hysterectomy. I also have an appointment to give a unit of my blood (just in case).
I have to go to the Blood Bank in Melville. It's 135.00 and they do not accept insurance. They said they will give me forms to send to my ins. company. I think we have a 500 deductible. (figures)

Now for the best part. I come back from my vacation and MaryLou tells me that the gym is closing June 30th. I was in shock. We have been friends for over 15 years and she never even mentioned that she was never making a profit. In the back of my mind to make me feel better I was thinking about my upcoming surgeries and all the pre-op appointments I have to go to and it all makes sense now---that I will have enough time to get to them all and not feel the pressure to return back to work so soon. (It was hard after the breast surgery) I will take all summer to heal and walk and exercise my self back to good health.

MaryLou's son is still battling leukemia and just got back out of the hospital again after undergoing chemo for the 5th time. I know it was hard for her running back and forth to visit him. On the other hand she told me she has another job lined up that her old boss got for her at another office. So she knew she would be closing. I had a feeling something was up when I called her from Nashville to see how Michael was and she never returned my call.

My brother is doing okay with his Hepatits C. He is in a drug trial for 48 weeks and he's halfway through. He is up here from Charlotte but is in Manhattan with friends. I asked my mom if we could all get together for dinner and she said he's really busy...but if I wanted to come to NYC....well today it's like 90 degrees out and well I thought if he could come at least to Bayside by my mom's-----------anyway I guess I'll see him when I see him.

I spoke to my sister and asked her if Emily could come down when Larry does his roofing jobs and she said yes. So Emily will be here July 10-12. Larry will bring her here and take her back. Emily called me earlier too and said she is looking forward to spending some time here. I'll take her shopping--do Jillian's and the movies and maybe adventureland. She'll be so tired she will nod off after dinner. (me too)

Danny and I see Dr. Garber for our weigh in on Thursday. We haven't seen him since the beginning of January. I made sure to have all the blood test results with me. My GP took blood two weeks ago. I had called Dr. Garber's office and asked Farrah to send me over the script for the blood work. I have a feeling I will have stayed the same as I was in January. And ya know what? I am really okay with that. (The plastic surgeon said with the excess skin he is removing I could lose up to 7 lbs and the GYN said a uterus weighs almost a lb.) Hey-whatever works--right??
Drink water this weekend----love those Crystal Light mini flavor packets!!!

Oh I forgot when we were in Nashville we went to The Bluebird Cafe for a songwriter's night and Victoria Shaw was there. I had an 8&10 of the photo with her and Jon Bon Jovi that I had shot in NYC and she loved it and was showing it off to her family and friends around her. I also met James Slater who wrote "In my Daughter's Eyes" sung by Martina McBride. It's fun to meet the artist behind the song. Wish we would've seen Martina, but she just gave birth a few days ago to another little girl. See Ya'll


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July 9th, 2005-- Hello to all!! What a crazy few weeks it's been. We went to see Dr. Garber for our 6 month weigh in. I gained 2 lbs. but my blood pressure was very high. 170/105. It has never beem that high. I asked Donna Franco if I should go back on my water pill and she said I had to talk with my GP. We saw him a week later and he put me back on them and in 4 days I lost 5 lbs. I now weigh 168.0.

When Danny got weighed the Dr. told him he gained 12 lbs. Danny was funny when the Dr. asked him what he has been snacking on and Danny said "well I try to make sure I eat some protein, so I have the PEANUT m&m.s!!!" He told Danny that he has to be careful. I guess so many people tell Danny how good he looks that he is letting his old habits come back.

Well the gym is officially closed. I bought one of the treadmills. It takes up most of my back room, but I don't care. I have been on it everyday for 20-25 minutes at around 3.5 m.ph.
I want to be in the best shape before my surgery on the 20th.
Danny said he would go on it too. He has been working almost everyday till 7, so he is usually beat when he comes home. He's working all weekend too.

My mom's brother died two days ago. He lived up by Watertown, NY. He had been sick for awhile with Brain Cancer. I feel sorry for my cousin who is only 18. I hate that they live so far away. My mom and my aunts will fly up during the week.

I have my pre-op appointment on Wednesday. This past Wednesday I went to the blood bank to give a unit of blood for my surgery in case it is needed. Danny went with me. It's an eerie feeling having that much blood taken out of you. I felt a bit dizzy afterwards, but they gave me apple juice and oreo cookies. I don't suffer any sugar dumping at all. And the cookies were yummy. But I will not keep any junk food in the house.

My niece Emily is coming for a visit tommorow and will go home on Tuesday. I have a whole day planned for us. I want to take her shopping for some clothes that will be her birthday gift. Her birthday is not until September, but just in case I am not up to it after surgery she'll have her gifts. Also she wants to see Madagasgar. I want to see War of the Worlds but I think she is a bit too young for that one.

Danny spoke to his brother in Florida yesterday. He said it was getting really dark and windy. They are in New Port Richie just north of Tampa. This will be the third hurricane that they will go through in a year. I'm glad that we're up here. Bye for now--------me.

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August 8th, 2005--Hi, I'm back!!! What a crazy few weeks it's been. I had my surgeries on July 20th and I am so sore!!!! But not as painful as the breast lift. Let's just say the tummy tuck is very uncomfortable and it's the tightest stretching feeling you can imagine. I have to wear this tight undergarment--sort of a really wide very strong and heavy duty ace bandage/corset thing around me all the time.

If anybody is contemplating this surgery, I say go for it, but know the complications that may happen. Let me back up a bit. I did donate that unit of blood, but I wound up needing 2 more units after the surgery because my blood count was really low. I think it was an 8 and should've been in the teens. I now understand that when you are fat your veins are really wide to carry all that blood around your body. But when you lose the weight the veins are still the same size and former gastric bypass patients who undergo any future surgeries should be aware that they are at risk for needing more blood during or even after the surgery. My blood pressure was 90/60 and I got really dizzy when I got up to go to the bathroom in the hospital. Thank goodness the nurse was there that second night.

Danny was a real trooper the whole time. He stayed at the hospital with me from around 12 till closing at 8 pm. I would give him my meals, because I was kind of not eating too much because the morphine made me lose my appetite. And guess who was there when I came out of recovery====== My MOM!!! I could not believe it. Danny said she had called his cell and said she was at a meeting in Westbury and wanted to know how I was doing, and Danny then proceeded to give her directions to the hospital. Ya know I am pretty independent and never ask anybody to do anything for me. My mom used to say--Do you want me to come visit you? and I would usually say--don't worry I'll be home in a few days--or don't worry Danny is here for me. ANYWAY--- I was so happy to see her!! It really lifted my spirits.

The staff at New Island hospital's surgical unit was outstanding. There were always at least 3 staff members caring for me each shift. I never could sleep more than an hour or two the most because they kept monitoring my pressure, or changing IV bags or taking my temperature or helping me up to go to the bathroom.
I have to say I was able to get up alot easier than after WLS. I know being lighter makes the difference.

Now for the good news. ----I weigh 158.6!!!! Yup 10 lbs of losing weight from diet, tummy tissue and my uterus!!! I am walking like an old lady with a hunchback but mentally I feel good. I had my blood taken again on Friday and just got the results that all my numbers are good. My white blood cells are a bit high, but I am taking an antibiotic at this time too. When I had gone to the GYN on Friday she thought I looked a bit anemic and said my blood pressure was low. 90/61--- I knew I just felt tired from waiting an hour to be seen and it was like 92 degrees outside and the walking didn't make me feel any better.

Anyway, I was stuck with 2 of those ball type drains. One was removed after the first week, but I am still walking around with another one. For some reason I am still expelling this dark thin old red blood, but too much. It's been as high as 130cc's a day. Yesterday it was 85 and my plastic surgeon said it would have to be around 30-40 to remove it. I have an appt. on Thursday. I hope it goes down by then, because I can't take a shower until it comes out.

Hey WLS friends---remember when Dr. Garber wrenched that tube out of your stomach and you thought your insides were coming out with it??? Well the feeling I got when Dr. Sasson pulled out my first tube was like a major burning sensation that lasted as long as the tube was. Maybe because it's near my vagina. Who knows?? But the scar I have is all the way around my hips on both sides. He even lifted the vagina. Unbelievable!! I am so happy with that. After being fat for so long, you don't realize just how much and where all the sagging skin really is!!

Well I can't believe I sat here on the computer for as long as I have been. I'm going to go rest--and take my tylenol. I went off the hard stuff after about 2 weeks. I'll update soon---- Angie

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August 11, 2005-- Well I thought I would go to the plastic surgeons' office today and have this last drain removed, but I am still coming up with more than the 30-40 ml. (not cc's) that he said would be okay for it to come out. What a pain!! But I always try to do what the doctor's say. So I rescheduled the appointment for Monday.

Everyday I feel a bit stronger than the previous day. I can wash my hair in the sink by myself, although my stomach muscles tend to hurt for that moment. One thing that has really been a lifesaver is the raised toilet seat that Danny installed for me before I came home from the hospital. I would recommend this to anyone having WLS as it really prevents you needing someone or something to help hoist you off the seat. Without stomach muscles you really have to depend on someone to help you with that.

Well I picked a good few weeks to be inside with the heatwave that we're going through. Hopefully by next week with this drain out and the okay to start back on the treadmill, I can regain my strength back.

Have a good week everybody---thanks for all your support--ME

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August 12, 2005--- I am going to Dr. Sasson next Thursday instead of Monday because I found out he is not working on Monday. I can't wait to have this other drain out of me. Yesterday for the whole day it was 60ml. I guess at this rate it will be the 25-30ml. rate the Dr. needs to remove it. But I hate this thing. It's three weeks yesterday since the surgery and I haven't worn regular clothes. Well, I wore baggy shorts and a "T" shirt to go to the doctor, just to hide that bulging ball of a drain.

I don't even know the duration of the healing process with the tummy tuck. Although on DHC the other night I saw a woman who underwent quite a few procedures and she returned back to the hospital 7 weeks after a tummy tuck to have her saddlebags removed.

Today I did not take any tylenol---not to say that I won't. I can't wait to be able to stand up straight. My lower back pain is annoying. After WLS my back pain went away everytime I lost more weight. The plastic surgeons don't really prepare you for the recovery time and discomfort.

I can't believe it's over 2 years since my WLS. Danny's anniversary is in October. He is still holding his own. (not losing)
But he seems to be okay with it. I don't get on his case too much because he has been working overtime this whole summer. So he is really beat, hot and tired when he comes home. Anyway, after the summer I hope to visit my brother in North Carolina.

I am collecting unemployment now since the gym closed. I hope to get back to work before the holidays. Stay tuned----me.

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August 29, 2005-- Well it's almost 6 weeks since my tummy tuck/hysterectomy. I am feeling much better and walking alot more upright but not 100 percent.

I went to Dr. Sasson two weeks ago and he took out the last drain. I was so nervous about him removing it that I almost took a pain pill before leaving the house. I had the nurse and Danny hold my hand. (I am such a baby) Then he tells me as he is cutting a stitch that is attached to the tube that he is almost ready to take it out. Meanwhile I am anticipating the searing pain I felt when the first drain was removed. Anyway he keeps saying I am almost ready to pull it out---almost---not yet--and then he says okay!!
So I am ready for the pain and I felt nothing---Ya know why??--he already had pulled it out of me. I was in shock and I got a bit pissed at him---jokingly telling him that he drove me crazy waiting. Anyway, he said that when you have a drain in you for so long (4 wks) it developed a channel under the skin so it was able to come out so easy. I laughed so hard with Danny, I think they all thought I was hysterical. All that emotion built up for nothing.

Well I am happy that ordeal is over with. My blood numbers are all good too. But he told me to keep an eye on my stomach and see if there is any unusual swelling that he may have to aspirate it. As of last Wednesday I did notice part of my lower stomach is a bit bloaty but not in the way the other parts are still swollen. So I made an appointment to see him on Thursday.

Two weeks ago I got a job offer from a company that had my resume from 5 years ago. It's for photographing elementary school kids for their yearbook. I did this years ago before I became a travel agent. I see this guy on Thursday. He had wanted to meet me two weeks ago but I told him I had abdominal surgery and would need a few weeks to heal. He was okay with that.

I see the GYN tomorrow and I may drive myself. I have not been in my car since before the surgery. To wear pants feels really odd on my skin due to the pain, tightness and weird numbness on my belly. But I know every week I should feel better and better. The doctor said 6-8 weeks to heal. I can't wait to lead a normal life. I have spent the whole month in the house. Well I did water the plants on the patio, but then it was back in the house.

I am starting to get some pain in my stomach. Sitting is a pain. Standing actually makes me feel better. I went on the treadmill the other day and got up to only 1.5 mph. I did 5 minutes. The pain by my upper thighs hurt so much I had to stop. Then I remembered what Dr. Sasson said to me---TAKE IT EASY!!!! See Ya----Angie


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September 12, 2005-- Well it's almost 8 weeks since I had all my surgeries. I am still wearing a support undergarment. It's not too bad, but when it's hot out, I feel like I am wearing an extra shirt.

I am walking alot better and taller, not so much "hung over". I went on the treadmill the other day and was up to 2.6 m.p.h. I am trying to get back up to 3.6. I guess it just takes more time.

I started my new job last Friday. I took photos of an elementary school from 9 a.m. until 2:45. After that I went home and rested, I was really tired. I was glad I had another photgrapher with me, because we took turns setting up the groups and taking the photos. The day actually flew, but I was exhausted. I work 2 days this week. I told my boss that it's okay if I work just a few days a week, because I dont' want to be so tired that I quit. He said no problem. He called me today and wanted to know if I would rather shoot the portraits of the kids. I told him at this time the groups are better for me physically. Setting up kids on stools to pose individually can be a pain on your lower back after a few hours.

Went to the GYN and she said everything is okay. She did an internal and said to come back in January for my pap smear. She commented on my previous blood tests and said I had a good recovery to a normal red blood count. I see the plastic surgeon again the end of the month.

I spoke to my Aunt and cousins who live in New Orleans and they all made it out because they drove 200 miles to Vicksburg, Mississippi and are in a hotel there. They even took their pets. I sent her an angel through the mail and some treats for the dogs. She kept telling me that they don't need anything. I wanted to send money, but they all might go to Pearl River, Louisiana and stay at my cousin Elaine's house as soon as the power there is restored. They are applying for the FEMA/ RED CROSS money that they hear they are entitled to. My aunts' apartment may be under water. She was on the first floor. I'm not sure of my cousin Robert's apartment. I've been calling her ever since they told me where they were. At first I thought they all went to Houston, because my Aunt told me that. Then after talking to Elaine she said that her mom is a bit spacey at times due to her age (84). I was really worried. That footage was just heartbreaking. Almost made me want to binge. (but I can't anymore---thank God)

When I went to the plastic surgeon last week he tried to drain my lower stomach area and said there were no fluids to drain. He stuck a huge thick needle in me, but because I was still numb in that area, I didn't feel a thing. He said to be patient and wait for all the swelling to go down. That is my downfall---no patience!!
Anyway---hello to all--I'll be in touch with everybody--you know who you are----take it easy---------Angie

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September 22, 2005-- Hello to all. Doing a lot better. I still have to wear an undergarment around my midsection. I had gone to my GP and he said when you have abdominal surgery you have to give it 3-6 months to really heal. I was not prepared to hear that---but at least I know why it has taken so long to feel 100% better.

Spoke to my Aunt Betty. She was allowed back into her apartment yesterday. She must be in the 20% of New Orleans that did not sustain water damage. Her place was dry. My cousin went out to restock her fridge. I hope Hurricane Rita does not hit her city again. What an ordeal.

Work is great. I am working alone. My boss wants me to work 5 days a week. He likes my shots better than the other group photographer. I told him I appreciate the compliment, but I physically can not do 5 days yet. Maybe in a week or two.

My ex boss Mary Lou's son died Saturday. He had leukemia. He was sick since only February. Danny and I went to the wake and funeral. We didn't go to the cemetary. It was really a sad day. She hugged me as she walked up the church aisle. Dan and I just cried with everybody else. He was only 30 years old and her youngest child.

Yesterday Dan and I met with one of his friends and we went out for sushi. Next to Indian food, I am really liking this stuff. But everything we eat is pricey. But there is no waste. We eat it all. But maybe 5 pieces and we are done. But not stuffed, like beef, just satisfied.

Anyway tomorrow Danny wants to go fishing. I told him I think I can handle a few hours by the water. I remember packing so many things to eat when we would picnic. Now it's a sandwich each and maybe some fruit or pretzels. Life is so much better now with all food issues....but you have to watch what you eat.---Angie

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September 30th, 2005--I went to see Dr. Sasson yesterday with Danny. He said I am healing fine. I still have a little belly protruding at the bottom . He said he can take care of that. He will excise the skin and pull it down tighter than it is. I told him to get it started and I met with a new surgical coordinator there named Laurie. She replaced Rosa who was a bit rough around the edges. Anyway Laurie said they will try to go through the insurance as a revision. Also at that time (in January) I will have new implants put in. I'll have to pay for the implants but not for the o.r. time. I didn't like the way the implants settled in my breast tissue. Dr. Sasson said this happen alot with doing a lift and implants at the same time. But he'll "install" new and improved ones that will take up the space that I have for them.

Still holding onto 158 lbs. I hope to start the treadmill more this week coming up. I feel alot stronger. The Doctor said I should continue to wear the undergarment for a few more weeks. It's been over 10 weeks now. But if I don't wear it, my upper belly aches and starts to swell up.

Today I worked at a school in Merrick. The kids are so cute when they're all dressed up for picture day. On the other hand some of the kids looked sloppy in Baggy t shirts and ratty jeans.
My boss switched my days so I was able to go the Dr. yesterday.
In two weeks I'll work Tues, Wed, and Thursdays for awhile. I told him I think I can handle it. The photographing the kids is a blast. Carrying all the equipment out to the car to shlepp back to the office is a pain. There are backdrops and lights and tripods and just all the "stuff" we need everyday like extension cords and surge protectors that just seem like they weigh so much. Well it feels heavy to me because I try not to push myself with lifting stuff. Sometimes my mind is alot better than I am physically. I have to keep telling myself to take it easy. But today it was so gorgeous out and I wasn't in any real pain. Just the undergarment always seems to need adjusting or it feel like I am losing my pants because I am so numb in that area. Oh what we have to go through to look and feel great------------------Angie


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October 3rd, 2005--I have the whole week off. Due to the Jewish holiday the whole schedule is a wash. But now I have the time to do stuff for me. I made a hair appointment for tomorrow and I will be getting together with Mary Lou and one of the girls from the gym that I used to work with for lunch this week.

Danny returned back to work and today when he came home for lunch he said he wished he could stay home for good. I told him to hang in there ---just a year and a half more till retirement and then it's Tennessee here we come.

I shopped for some clothes today and I am a tight size 10. When I am through with this contraption I have to wear I am sure the 10's will fit. So for now I am wearing a comfortable but loose size 12. I bought a few size medium tops and they fit too. But I like a large in the knits because if it's cotton I have to allow for some shrinkage. I used to think my clothes shrunk in the closet, not realizing that I was getting bigger every year.

I walked on the treadmill today for 20 minutes and I was okay with it. Not as fast as I used to go, but getting there. I miss working with the weights. Maybe in a few weeks. I can put my arms over my head but not all the way back.

Can't wait for the cooler weather. I still hate it hot, but at least it hasn't been too muggy.

I am craving sushi. I'll check with Danny and see if he wants it for dinner. Usually he goes with his friend Tony on Wednesdays. Sometimes I join them. We bought some in the supermarket yesterday and there really isn't any comparison than what we get in a sushi restaurant. But the price was right.

Loved Desperate Housewives last night. That part with the rat was terrific. I bet that new neighbor is holding her abusive husband in her basement. Well with the coming attractions they led you to believe that it could be him.

We had some delicious cantelope last night with some redi-whip from the can on top of it. Tasted like a creamsicle without all the calories.

I never regret having the surgery. We watched a show yesterday on TLC I think called One Ton Man. He weighed over 1000 lbs and the fire department had to remove a whole wall to get him out of the house. He was taken to the hospital with only weeks to live and put on a strict 1200 calories a day until he lost enough to undergo WLS. At the end of the show, although still obese at 499, he was on his way to a longer life.

I am not saying that would've happened to Danny and I but our combined weights before surgery was over 700 lbs. Now it is under 445 lbs. I know that the bad habits are like one milkshake or banana split away. We try to eat healthy so we never have to diet again!!!!!! Life is good!!!!!!!!!-------Angie


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October 5th, 2005--Today I actually feel a lot better with my stomach muscles. I went to a surgical supply store in Wantagh and bought a more supportive and tighter undergarment and it makes me feel "pulled together". I bought it last night and wore it all night. So today is a good day.

I went shopping today and bought a few things to send to my niece and nephew. I found a cute top with candy corn on it and also some halloween socks for Emily and an educational toy for David. With him having Down's Syndrome, he really benefits from anything interactive. I sent my sister some money so she can pay her sitter and have a night out with Larry. My nephew can really tire you out.

I walked yesterday on the treadmill. I am up to 3.2 m.p.h. When I was at the gym I used to walk 3.6. Hey, when I came home after all this surgery 11 weeks ago I had tried to go on and did 1.2 m.p.h. I just ached all over in my joints. I am slowly getting the feeling back in my upper thighs. I guess with the tummy tuck and lipo, the nerves are affected, because for weeks I have been really numb in a lot of areas. I have no feeling where my belly button is and actually pretty much above my scar line is numb. My waist is numb too, because he cut there also.
But I am happy to be able to exercise for 20 minutes a day. I also walked for about a half hour in Target today too.


I tried on my bathing suit that I wore when I went on my cousin's boat in early July and it was LOOSE!! It just sort of was hanging off my boobs because there was no belly below it for it to latch onto. Made my day!!!

Had sushi with Danny and his friend Tony. We treated him today because Dan needs him to replace a piece of siding that is making it's way off our house. I guess when we had one of those windy days after Rita made it's way here is when it happened. Danny said he could replace it, but I don't trust him walking on the roof. I think he may not trust himself either. I don't think he is as "sure footed" as he used to be.

Well I'm off to do my time on the treadmill. Happy Holidays to my Jewish friends--------------Angie


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October 17, 2005---Well it finally stopped raining. It was great to get out of the house this weekend. We went to the Oyster Festival and walked all day. It was really windy but refreshing. This was the first year that we didn't have oysters. We did share a cup of New England clam chowder. I know cream soups are a no-no, but to indulge every now and then works for me.

My mom is coming out for lunch today. I haven't seen her since she visited me in the hospital in July. We're taking her out for some REAL sushi. She has only eaten the supermarket stuff.

I am feeling so much better. I try to walk around without my undergarment on but I feel like I still need it as I start to feel weird pains and sensations in my stomach and hips. I am walking on the treadmill for 20 minutes at least 4 days a week. I am finally up to 3.6 m.p.h. and I did a 6 level incline for a few minutes too. It felt great.

I am working Tues, Wed, and Thurs. this week. At least it's a good week weather wise to work, because at the end of the day I have to carry tripods and backdrops to my car and deliver them to the office. I feel I have regained 90 percent of my strength and can definitely stand up pretty straight, but you do feel it in the stomach area. Standing is better than sitting.

In two weeks my cousin's daughter is having a baby shower. It's in CT. I love going up there. I haven't seen them since a 4th of July party they had. Dan and I are driving my Mom up there with us and Danny will spend the day with my Uncle.

Danny lost 4 lbs recently. He's trying not to snack too often. I bought a bunch of Gala apples and we eat one every night and sometimes Melon. Sometimes he likes his custard that he makes from scratch. But he uses whole milk and I told him to watch that fat---it creeps up on you and onto your hips.

I heard from Mary Lou. she is working in Long Beach now and is starting to heal from all the sadness she went through losing her son. Anyway, she gave me her work # and we'll see each other on Friday for lunch.

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October 25, 2005-- I have a headcold and feel like crap today.
I went to the doctor yesterday and he put me on the Zpak (Zithromax) That ususally does the trick. I also took Dayquill. I think I have every ailment on the box! Stuffy head, runny nose,
etc.

I worked today and was talking so loud so that the kids could hear me in the gym where we were shooting that I lost my voice. So now it's crackly and hoarse. My boss said I am not working tomorrow and he isn't sure about Thurs and Friday. Danny told me I should just quit this because this guy really is a jerk of a boss. I hate feeling like I am "on call" when he knows now I can work 5 days a week. Stay tuned.

I had lunch with Mary Lou on Friday. I drove to Long Beach and we ate at Paddy McGees. It was right on the water. I had a spinach salad with grilled shrimp on top with pineapples and some cashews and peppers. It was yummy. It was nice being there to talk with each other. She was happy to talk about Michael and how it was before he died, the hospital stuff and the hard to talk about stuff that she was glad to get off her chest. We promised to do it again soon.

I also saw my friend Gail who had her WLS surgery recently and looked fabulous. I had not seen her since before the surgery. We went to lunch at Chilli's and had salad with fried chicken on top. I know we should've had the grilled chicken, but sometimes they grill the hell out of it and it's too dry. Anyway it was delicious. We had a wonderful time. This was only the 3rd time we saw each other. The first time was at a support group and then I invited her and her husband to my house before her surgery to look at Dan and my before shots. Anyway we became good friends via the internet and phone calls and we were finally able to juggle our schedules for a lunch date. It was worth the wait. She's a great friend.

Danny and I went to the dentist yesterday too. We both have no cavities, but Danny was told to see a periodontist (gum specialist). So next Tuesday he has an appointment. He is so cute because he is such a chicken like me when it comes to dentists. I told him I would go with him when and if they put him out to do anything.

Rainy and windy today. A nor'easter is ablowing this way today!!! I think I'm going to make a cup of Green tea and go for a nap and rest my heavy congested head. Have a good one---Angie


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October 26, 2005--- Okay today I totally lost my voice. I woke up and can only whisper. Then I heard on the news that some bosses (jobs) can actually make you sick. Hmmmm---I wonder.

Anyway I am on antibiotics and Dayquill and every cough drop out there. I have been drinking Tea w/lemon, green tea, chicken broth, soup, etc. The one thing is that when ya can't breath too good, food doesn't taste quite the same, so my appetite has changed. If my boss does call today, Danny will have to talk to him. I think I need a few days of no talking at all to heal. A few years ago I had lost my voice after a concert and went to an ear, nose and throat specialist and she stuck this tube down my nose and looked in my throat and made me say hee, hee, hee, and ho, ho, ho and said no talking for 4 days and then I felt better. Well this time I'll skip going to her, because that tube they stick down your nose to your throat felt so horrible it was like a hot flashbulb shooting down my nose.

Danny made some chicken soup. He's the best and it gave him an excuse to "cook". He misses making huge meals sometimes. But he knows if he makes a "sauce", it's only to put on the pita pizza which we have almost every night. Gone are the days where he uses to put in pork and beef, and any other meat to flavor the sauce. Now it's just fresh basil and oregano and garlic.

Well, if anyone has to call me, e-mail instead--I don't think you'd be able to hear me on the phone. This is killing me because I love to chat---Danny feels like he is on vacay when I can't talk---ha-ha---MEN!!!!!!!!!! --------Angie


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October 31, 2005-- I have some voice back. At least I can hold a conversation but then I start to get a tickle and cough. Danny went on Friday to pick up my paycheck from Hank and he got the impression that Hank thought Danny was making it up that I actually had no voice. But Danny said if you want I'll bring her here. Then he backed off.

Anyway, yesterday I went to Connecticut to my cousin's daughter's baby shower. It was in a club but thankfully there was just background music and it wasn't loud, so I didn't have to shout at anybody. Most of my relatives kept asking me to repeat myself, which I felt was straining my voice even more, but I really wanted to be there. Danny drove me and my mom and spent the day with "the guys".

Happy Halloween everybody. What a perfect day. It's warm and sunny. I bought 120 candy bars. I hope that is enough. Last year I ran out and started to give coins. They close the block off and all the kids run from house to house without worrying about the cars. It's a lot of fun. I love it. I bought a witches hat with long gray hair hanging from it. I'm wearing it when I answer my door. I also got a "t" shirt with fangs on it that says "bite me".

Everybody yesterday told me how great I looked. After 2 years I never tire of the compliments because even with the surgeries I've had I worked really hard to keep the weight off.

I bought some veggie meatballs that are made with soy. I cut some up and put them on my pizza the other day. I was getting tired of having shrimp every night. I try and watch the fat which seems to upset my stomach if I eat too much of the wrong food. I am so glad I have these inside triggers that keep me in check.

I think I'll make a cup of hot tea and sit out in the sun. It feels like it's about 70 degrees already. Have a spooky day everybody!!
Would you believe Danny told me to save some snickers and Reeses peanut butter cups for him? He is too much. Oh and it's his 2 year anniversary of having WLS--- See ya--Me

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November 2, 2005-- Had a great Halloween. Had about 94 kids come to the door. But I bought 120 candy bars.

Walked on the treadmill for 25 minutes at 3.6. I also did alot on a 6 grade incline. It feels like it makes my legs stronger.

Oh another milestone happened last week. I went shopping for a pair of pantyhose I thought I'd wear under a pair of dress pants when I went to the shower over the weekend. I was a new LETTER on the back of the package. All WLS people know what I mean. Most of the time in the past I coudn't buy no nonsense or L'eggs because they never fit at my highest weight. Now I am in the "C" range on the back of the package and they fit great with room to spare. (that never happened before)

Danny took off yesterday and we took down all the decorations and lights from the shrubs and I placed a few mums where I pulled out all the impatiens that had succumbed to death by frost or neglect or both. It was so warm out that it was a pleasure to be outdoors.

I have 75% of my voice back. It seems as I get older it takes longer to fight off the colds, and sore throats.

I took Danny to the periodontist yesterday. He has to have a series of cleanings that will cost $540. The secretary said she will see what CSEA will pay towards it. Danny is nervous and said after the holidays he'll do it. They let me go in with him and sit next to him. I guess they are used to patients being scared. They put him on an antibiotic that slows down the enzymes that produce the decay around the gums. (yuck)

Went to Burlington Coat Factory today. I found a cute pair of cowboy boots there. They sell everything and at such great prices. I found 2 shirts for Danny and I bought a sparkly brown cover top that ties at the chest.

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November 4th, 2005--I found out that eating leftover Halloween candy makes me feel awful. But that Baby Ruth sure tasted good going down. It was about a few hours later that I had a weird belly ache.

I had also made a bunch of brownies that Danny took to work for the guys. There were some left on the kitchen table and I was taking little tastes here and there that I think added up to about 2 brownies in one day. Not a good thing either. This morning I threw out the rest of the brownies. (even the smell was driving me crazy) I also bagged the rest if the candy bars and Danny will take them to work and leave them in the lunch room.

It was like the old Angie was taking over. Meanwhile it's back to apples and other fruit for me. I feel better today.

Yesterday I took Danny all the way to Long Beach to eat at Paddy Mcgees and when we got there , there was a sign on the door that said "closed for the season". I was annoyed because I was looking forward to having that spinach salad again. Anyway we drove down Long Beach Blvd. and went to Ruby Tuesdays instead. We each ordered a turkey sandwich and had the salad bar. We only ate half a sandwich each. The salad bar was great. They had chick peas and edamames and apples that had a nice dressing that would be on a waldorf salad. My stomach felt good after that lunch.

I spoke to my sister today. I told her to tell my niece to send me her Christmas list so I can start shopping. The weather has been so warm lately, it's perfect for lugging around bags of goodies.
I had sent Emily a disposable camera so she would take shots of my mom's house being built and also shots of her and her brother from Halloween. I sent her a S.A.S.E. and told her I would get the film developed. Well my sister said she is only on frame 18 out of 27 shots. I said to send it back to me with her wish list. I told her if you can't take shots of the kids, don't just waste the film on shots of plants and dopey stuff that my mom does. You only pay for all the photos taken anyway.

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November 7th, 2005--Well I finally took off that stupid undergarment contraption that has been holding in my stomach muscles for the past 3 1/2 months. It feels weird but I am trying to get used to it. It still amazes me to wear a snug top and not see the roll of fat that used to protrude from below my breast area. Dr. Sasson did a great job for the most part. I still have an area that I am not so happy about. It's at the bottom part of my stomach that seems to not be as flat as I had hoped. Sometime in January when he fixes my boobs he'll cut away the part I don't like.
I hate to think about another few months of recovery, but I know it'll be easier when it is cold out. This summer was the worst for wearing that vice under my tops.

Anyway this weekend was full of doing house stuff. Danny climbed on the roof and fixed some shingles that were making their way off the house after hurricane Rita. He was a little nervous at first but then he wouldn't come down. I asked him if he was meditating up there. He figured the last time he got himself up on a ladder to the roof was about 20 years ago. I was proud of him.

Oh on Friday I picked up my last paycheck from Hank. I hate to say it but he was sick as a dog with a hoarse voice like mine was. HA HA!!! I guess he figuresd that I WAS really telling the truth, or that Danny was because he said he thought he was making it up at the time. I was happy to get out of there. He did not mention about working for him in December. I was glad he didn't, because I didn't want the confrontation to take place. Plus it's hard to verbalize when your throat is killing you. But we left on good terms--he said don't be a stranger--yeah okay--see ya...

Danny and I went to East West in Huntington. It's a huge buffet that we had not been to in about 3 years. Well pre-WLS.. There was a time that buffets would scare us after surgery, but now I enjoy the variety and I control how much I take and eat. We ate delicious sushi, which we never ate there before, because we used to always head for the fried stuff, rice and lo mein, etc. The funny thing is that as we drove up there were all these picketers outside with huge signs telling us not to eat there. We felt kinda bad crossing their line, but we were a bit hungry and we did drive 20 minutes to get there. Anyway--it was good to go out on a Saturday night.

I saw a woman there Gail who used to run a support group for the Long Island Association for Aids Care ---
LIAAC . We had not seen her since 1991 when my older brother died of AIDS. She said we both looked good. She is now the president of LIAAC. I told her about my younger brother with his Hepatitis C, and she gave me a concerned look and said she is starting to get government grants to have info available on HEP c. I am worried about Vito--my mom asked him directly if he was HIV or had AIDS and he said no. That was about 2 months ago.
I wonder if that has anything to do with him not wanting to see us for the holidays. Stay tuned.--------Angie

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December 8th, 2005--Danny and I went away for two weeks to Tennessee. We had bought a piece of property there recently and met with a builder and architect to talk about a new home within a year or two. The weather was cold for this time of year but we had a good time.

I checked online through Dr. Garber's sight and I can't find any profiles there. I wonder what happened. I had to update and create a user name through obesity help.com just to update this.

Been shopping for gifts for my family. We are going to my sister's house for Christmas Eve. Danny and I made reservations at a resort in the Poconos where we will stay for two nights but drive up to my sisters for dinner on the 24th. We'll be going up a day earlier so it's not as crazy with traffic on the 24th. And it's only 27 miles from my sister's house.

Food issues in Tennessee were okay for the most part. I actually like eating at home because I am in more control. The southerners like lot of things fried, but when we searched around we found restaurants that broil stuff too. We even found a good sushi place. We found we were not drinking that much water because it wasn't hot out like when we go in June. After a few days we were back on track. I'm happy to be back on the treadmill again. There was one at our hotel that I used only a few times. Some nights we'd be back at our room after 10 and I was too tired.

Anyway, I'll write again soon---------see y'all---Angie

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December 16th, 2005--Having a good day today. I spoke to a friend of my girlfriend Gerri ( his name is Ray) he had WLS in May of 2003, just a few months before me. He has had abdominoplasty like me and let me in on what he went through wearing the undergarment. He said just to wear it for an hour a day. He said I should be doing situps to get the muscles to tighten up and not rely on the corset. It's great to talk to somebody who has been through the same thing. He said he also experiences numbness around the new belly and that is very common.

The one thing that disturbed me is that he said about 8 months ago he started having short term memory and shaky hands and sometimes he loses his balance. I forgot exactly what he said he was low in, but I looked at my most recent blood work (the one Dr. Garber wants us to take) and I couldn't find what he said he was low in. We spoke for about 1/2 hour and I will definitely stay in touch with him. We really can learn from others who had WLS and it's great to have a support system of people who have been through this.

My friend Gerri is coming over for dinner tonight. I was talking to her two weeks ago telling her that because my family wasn't coming over for the holidays, I was thinking why bother putting up a tree and she said, I'll come over to see it. Well I'm glad she said that. The house looks great. I bought an oven stuffer roaster (a big chicken) and cut up carrots and onions and fresh garlic and a few potatoes and a lot of apples. I don't tolerate a potatoe, but the apple chunks on my plate LOOK like one and that makes me feel like I am not missing out. I have a lot of homemade cookies, and a home made puond cake and apple pie, but I made sugar free jello that I will most likely have---no, I will have with Redi whip cream. I am such a hypocrite, but hey it's Christmas, right?

I spoke to my mom today. She makes the final move to her house in Pennsylvania (right next door to my sister's) on Monday. The mover's will arrive on Tuesday with all her stuff. It's so overwhelming with the holidays so close, but when the builders told her in June that her house would be done by Christmas, they were right.

Well I have to go baste the chicken. My stomach feels weird without my support, but I am dealing with it. That guy Ray told me it took him a few months to adjust after taking off his support. I placed 3 calls to Dr. Sasson's office to the surgical coordinator and she never returned my calls. I left another message but this time with the receptionist and not on voice mail. I want to know if I can get my lower gut fixed and the boobs redone----to be continued--see ya---Angie

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December 21, 2005--- Can't believe Christmas is right around the corner. I'm glad I got all my shopping done early. The dinner with my girlfriend Gerri went really well. I prepared so much to eat and still like to see alot of food on my plate, but I never even make a dent in the food because I get full so fast. (thank goodness)

I finally got a call from Laurie the surgical coordinator at Dr. Sasson's office. She said she was out for 8 weeks. (the receptionist said she was in all last week) Anyway she apologized for not getting back to me and asked me when I would like the surgeries done. I told her mid January. (we have Dr's appointments the first two weeks) She said on Monday she would call me back on Tuesday (the phone call never came). I'll wait a few hours today and then I'll make another call. You really have to stay on top of these Dr's when they take on so many cases otherwise I feel you get lost in the mix.

Well my mom finally moved. But she delayed it by a day. Her car died and when she took it in for repair after a day getting fixed it cost her 4 grand to fix. Danny said she could have gotten a used car for less. Anyway she loaded her car up and then realized she couldn't find the key to the new house. She finally realized she had it in another coat that just so happened to be in a wardrobe in the moving truck that already left. After all this time past she felt too tired to drive the 3 hours to Pa. so she crashed at a friends house. My aunt calls me up frantic because my sister had not heard from my mom. I try to think positive and tell my aunt that I'm sure my mom is okay. I tried calling her cell but got the machine. (my mom doesn't even know how to retrieve her messages---geesshhh)
Finally at around 9 p.m. she called my sister who let my aunt know and my aunt called me--gee where do I rate on the family scale?--p.s. my mom made the trip up yesterday. I didn't call because I didn't want to hear all the hoopla.

Dan and I will seen her and the new house on Christmas Eve at around 1 p.m. Fran wants us at her house at 3. This way we'll get the grand tour and relax a bit before my niece and nephew pounce all over us ( I love that part).

I have been feeling tighter and tighter without that undergarment. I have been doing sit-ups 3 times a day. I do 50 at a time. I can feel the muscles tightening up but because of the numbness in my belly I don't get sore. Well maybe I am sore but I don't feel it. I never ever did stomach exercises. But I have to or this tummy tuck would've been a waste. When I walk I hold my stomach muscles in all the time. At the end of the day my stomach starts to get a bit puffy but when I sit for awhile I feel better.

Dan and I were invited to a 40th birthday party for Dan's friend Tony. I bought him a gift certificate to the sushi place they go to all the time. The party is Thursday night. Dan is taking off on Friday so we can leave for the poconos. I'm glad we don't have to drive through the city with the strike going on.

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January 5th, 2006--Can't believe it's going into the 3rd year of my WLS. Where did the time go??

Christmas was better than I expected. The drive to the Poconos was a breeze, but there were a few inches of snow around. The weather was mild so there was alot of slush around and not ice on the main roads. I was so happy to see my niece and nephew and they were sure happy to see us. I saw my mom's new house which is right next door to my sister's house. There is alot of ice built up on the driveway so my mom has been driving over to my sister's because she is afraid she'll fall. Hey Dan and I drove over to her house from my mom's too because the driveway is kind of steep. Anyway her house is 1800 square feet. Much bigger than the small condo she had in Bayside. My aunt will be moving in with her soon.
All I can say is I am glad Dan and I are here for now.

The best surprise of the day right when we were opening gifts is that the phone rang and the guy at the main gate said we had a delivery. So my brother in law okays it and 20 minutes later a strange car pulls up and who walks out---MY BROTHER!! He drove 12 hours from North Carolina and never mentioned a word. He had previously said he would not be coming up and was staying home for the holidays. What a great surprise. We were all crying and happy at the same time. I was so glad I took my camera.

We stayed at my sister's house till around 10 at night and then went to Mount Haven Resort about 12 miles away. My brother was staying at a bed and breakfast. My sister's house was kind of hectic with the gifts and all and my mom still has yet to unpack that we thought the best thing to do was sleep elsewhere and it worked out fine. I picked alot of bad stuff during the holidays...cookies of every kind and other sweet stuff. Dan and I never had the sugar dumping we read about, but we can get some crummy bellyaches when we eat too much or the wrong stuff.

I have increased my time on the treadmill to 30 minutes and now do a pre-program workout of different inclines from 3% grade up to 15. It's a few minutes at different peaks and then back to zero. I really work up a sweat. We went to our G.P. tonight and my blood pressure was 116/80. It's usually 120 over 84. I was more inspired last night after watching The Biggest Loser with the two families. I wish I had more space to add some exercise equipment to my back room. This treadmill takes up so much space, but it forces me to walk, because everytime I take clothes to the laundry room, it stares at me and says--walk now!!!

We are going to my sister's again this weekend. My mom has turned 75 and Danny was 54 on Jan 1st and my brother in law's father also has a birthday this month. So we combine them all. This commuting is tough, so I hope nothing else comes up till Mother's day. We bought my mom some wireless speakers for her stereo. She left the old ones in the condo because they were too big. (don't ask) Anyway we'll go to her first so Dan can install them--takes 5 minutes --and then we're off for the car ride to my sister's house :)!!!! I'm going to try to be good. My Aunt and Uncle from Ct. are coming to the party too. The other day when we got all that rain they got 9 inches of snow. My mom said she feels closed in......and she's only been living there for 3 weeks.

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January 13, 2006- I went to see Dr. Sasson yesterday. Dan went with me. It was a good visit. He made me feel so assured that he can take care and fix all my problem areas. When I wanted to talk to Laurie one of the girls said she'll get back to me. So I guess she really is busy because even when I was at the office she wouldn't talk to me. Dr. Sasson said he would do some more liposuction and even out my hips because my left side is thicker than the right. And as far as the boobs go he'll put in a bigger implant to fill me out more. Danny is all for that. He was always a boob man!

Tonight I having two friends over for dinner. I am making an oven stuffer roaster chicken and I cut up apples and onions and carrots and garlic and put that all around the bird. I also made some string beans, broccoli and butternut squash and a salad. Since everybody is watching carbs lately, I figured why waste making a pasta that nobody will eat, so this way we'll all fill up on good stuff. Dan and I included.

I have really upped my workout on the treadmill. I found an old videotape of Richard Simmons "Dancing to the Oldies" and it motivates me to walk harder and longer. I am now burning between 200 and 250 calories in 20-30 minutes depending on the inclines. Danny said he wants to try getting in the habit of walking too.

We had a good time at my sister's house. They made barbequed chicken wings and steak and lasagna. Also a salad. I ate one wing and a small piece of beef (still don't like the heavy feeling from steak) and some salad and a tablespoon of the pasta. My brother in law took advantage of the great weather and grilled outdoors. It was 45 degrees but they still had 6 inches of packed snow. For dessert he made a banana creme pie. I did eat half a piece of cake and some fruit, but by the next morning my stomach was churning.

The Bed and Breakfast place we stayed in was so charming and Victorian inspired. Lace and old fashioned furniture all over the place. We had a fireplace in our room. We kept it on (propane) all night because we were cold. The only thing that happened that made me feel bad was when we went down for breakfast. The owner's wife was telling us about this fabulous stuffed french toast with apples and cream cheese that she made and it was in the oven. I told Dan to let her know that all I wanted was eggs and toast and not to go to any trouble making anything special for us. We were the last couple to eat, so everybody else had eaten this.
Well she was offended and made us eggs (no toast) and then ditched us and her husband served us coffee and talked with us. I haven't eaten in a place like this since '92 and Dan and I ate whatever then. The owner said we should have said we were on a restricted diet. I guess we don't feel we are on any special diet, but we would never eat a meal of all carbs at one sitting. So anyway she finally came out later when we were paying our bill with red eyes and cheeks and I told her I was sorry about her making all that food. She said-it's okay-but I could tell she was pissed. Anyway we left and they gave us hugs like we were family. I definitely would go back there again. It was about 15 miles away from my sister's but closer to home for the ride back. Danny said we should have eaten a little and I said that is what got me fat all my life, always trying to eat a little of the wrong foods and I don't want people telling me what I should eat, after all that we went through to come this far--- this is my life!! He saw my point--Danny is kind of the peace maker. I am more headstrong. But with all the exercise and watching what we eat, why can't we make our own decisions?? Even after leaving my sister's house we went to the town diner and I ordered a baked chicken. We had eaten at 3 for lunch and we left there at 9 p.m. I did not bring any protein bars. (my mistake) But we always try for that 70 grams of protein a day. Everybody else was picking on pastries and cake for the rest of the day. If you came to my house for lunch and stayed late we always used to bring out food for anyone who was "hungry again". I guess that comes from Dan and I being hungry and we would want our company to join us in eating one more time before going home. Well enough venting--- I have to get that chicken in the oven. Everybody is coming over around 6.--------------Angie


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January 17, 2006-- Had a great dinner on Friday night. Except for some italian breadsticks on the table there weren't any carbs and everybody ate everything without feeling stuffed. We all picked on fruit and diet jello and some home made chocolate chip cookies that I baked (couldn't help it) for dessert and played UNO until around midnight. On Saturday Danny and I picked up some furniture for my girlfriend and drove out to Shirley to deliver it. Thank goodness the rain held up because in the morning it came down so heavy and hard. Then on Sunday morning it all turned to snow. Danny went in to the schools at around 11 and came home at 6. I packed him a ham and cheese sandwich and he was good to go. I cleaned up the house and went on the treadmill. I am doing 30 minutes everyday and this month only skipped 2 days. On Thursday we see Dr. Garber. I am wondering if this will be our last visit since we are both over the two year mark.

I finally heard from Laurie from Dr. Sasson's office and she said she is shooting for Feb. 7th for my surgeries. She was going to be having a conference with the Dr. to go over all upcoming surgeries and said she'll call me back. Knowing me I'll give her a day or two and then I'll call her. I hope I don't have too much out of pocket expense. Stay tuned....

Spoke to my mom yesterday. She is adjusting to life in the Poconos and my sister is really adjusting to a built in babysitter right next door who works for free. Am I bitter? No, it's what my mom wanted. She said she wanted to be able to see the kids grow up and that is what she got. I know my sister has her hands full with my nephew having downs syndrome and still in diapers at 6 years old. There are a few other students in his class with the same situation. Anyway my mom said that she was making homemade pizza for the first time. She has worked so much of her 75 years that she is always looking for stuff to do. I bit my tongue and told her to enjoy the pizza but what I really wanted to tell her was to watch out and be careful of the weight gain. She only weighs a few lbs. more than me when I was ALWAYS bigger than her. But she looks good, but I am concerned. But come to think of it, she never really said anything to me while I was gaining all my weight over my married years. HHHmmmmmm. See ya---Angie


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January 21, 2006-- I saw Dr. Garber on Thursday. I went by myself because Danny didn't want to go and see that he gained weight. I knew I had gained a few lbs in 7 months too. It actually was 4 and 1/2. Dr. Garber said I looked great. He agreed after I showed him Dr. Sasson's plastic surgery work on me that I did need some extra work to even things out. He told me to keep up the good work. He gave me a prescription for a new iron pill. He said it absorbs better in the system. He also told me to increase my calcium by two pills a day. I had already been taking 2 -- 500 mg. of calcium.

Also he put me on a new machine that checks how many calories you need to eat to lose weight and how many calories a day I take in to maintain the weight. It was so accurate. It's annoying to take the test though. He puts a clothes pin contraption on your nose and you have to breathe in and out of a tube for ten minutes. After the first minute I felt lightheaded, but he said as long as you exhale into the tube you can cheat on the inhale part.

I saw Donna Franco and she said "I guess from reading your E-mail you didn't like the answer I gave you about Dr. Sasson". I kind of just said yes and smiled because she really wasn't any help. Whatever...

Farrah, who works there was especially nice to me and got me off the machine and explained the results to me. I was happy to spend the time with Dr. Garber. He was without Donna Franco. Maybe she didn't want to be with me. Anyway, he answered all my questions which I really didn't have many. He wanted to know why Danny wasn't with me and I told him. But he said Danny's blood tests results were all good. (I had brought both with me)

I didn't hear from Laurie from Dr. Sasson's office. Dr. Garber made a comment when he saw my scars and complaint areas. He said "I hope you don't have to pay for any of this". Hey I hope so too.

Danny and I went to the Home Improvement show in Farmingdale last night. I went there to try out my new camera and take photos of Bill Duggan. He is one of the hosts from HGTV's Curb Appeal. He gave an informative talk on how to make to make your home look better on the outside that it will reflect the inside and make it easier to sell to the buyer. What a cutie. After that we went and had sushi at East in Huntington.

Danny is working today. I'm going out to get some fresh air. It's gorgeous out. Supposed to go up to 62. Have a great weekend to all..............Angie


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January 29, 2006-- Still trying to lose the 4 lbs. I gained since I saw Dr. Garber. Dan and I walked through Eisenhower park yesterday. It was in the the 50's. Really mild this winter. (what winter??) Anyway we couldn't walk all the way around the lake because they are in the middle of contructing a 9-11 memorial. But we walked as far as we could and back again and then around the park a bit. We walked for about 40 minutes. After going food shopping and Dan unloading some firewood, we went out and had some sushi and then I walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes.

I did cheat really good last night. I had carvel ice cream. A real no-no, but so good-good. And I wonder why I can't shed this weight. I have been reading other journals through Obesityhelp.com and know there are so many out there who had their surgery around the same time I did and a good percentage of them have gained weight or cannot seem to lose any more. You would think that would propel me to get with the program more. I guess I am glad I am exercising, or it would be worse. Danny lost 3 1/2 lbs in a week. He has been going on the treadmill here and there for about 15 minutes. I told him to work up to 20-30. He has been watching "Twister" on video. He got sick of Richard Simmons. I'm not a huge fan of his either, but the music and the beat make me walk faster and harder.

I got a call from Laurie from Dr. Sasson's office and she said that she sent out the papers regarding my pre-op stuff. This was on Wednesday. Well, as of yesterday (Saturday) I did not get anything in the mail. Meanwhile she had told me 2 weeks ago that my surgeries would be on Feb 7th at Franklin General Hospital. But on Thursday I got a call from North Shore Manhasset and she said I was scheduled there and gave me the pre-op dept. phone #. I will call tomorrow and schedule the appt. My mail comes around 5 p.m. so I don't want to miss another day. I also have to get clearance from my GP. He's pretty flexible so that shouldn't be a problem. I'm not sure if I need another mammo or not. Talk about last minute.

I always get nervous before these surgeries but after it's all done I take those pain pills and wait to heal. If I don't get anything in the mail, I'll go to Great Neck to Dr. Sasson's office and get them myself.

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January 30, 2006- Okay today I spoke to Laurie from Dr. Sasson's office and she said she would fax the pre-op stuff to Danny's office. I then asked her if there were any out of pocket expenses and she said it's 1500 for the boobs and 5500 for the lipo. The tummy revision stuff is covered by the insurance. I am also having a small lesion removed from my back that feels like a blind pimple. The insurance covers that too. So much money for stuff I feel is the Dr.'s mistake. Then Patty who is I think the office manager there said that Dr. Sasson has done 4 revision surgeries on a patient of Dr. Garber's for her arms. She said it is really common after losing alot of weight and going through cosmetic surgery to have to come back for corrections. I felt a bit better knowing I am not the only one who has to go through this twice, but when I think of all the money I put out already it's getting up there.

So on this Wenesday I am scheduled for a 2 p.m. appointment at North Shore Manhasset for some blood work. Then on Thursday I'll meet with my GP for a clearance letter. I just spoke to Dan and he said he has the pre-op stuff that was faxed. I asked him if it said anything about having a mammo and he said he didn't read it because he was busy. He'll bring it home when he comes by for lunch.

This morning I lost 1lb. I guess after having the runs from eating that ice cream cleaned me out.

Oh, Laurie told me the reason my surgery is at North Shore and not Franklin General is because they don't do lipo there. I'm glad I'm going there because Dr. Sasson is there alot and he is affiliated with that hospital.

I'm getting out today to clear my head. It's another nice day. Gotta walk and breathe in that fresh air.............Angie


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February 3, 2006--I went to North Shore ambulatory unit on Wednesday for my pre op stuff. They took my blood, asked me a ton of questions regarding my medical history and gave me an E.K.G. Also my blood pressure was 118/72. I'm really glad it's going down because I'd like to get off the medications I have been taking for it. Last night I went to my own Doctor and he did not receive the results of the blood work so he could not give me a clearance letter. So I called up North Shore and they said they would fax it over this morning. You really have to stay on top of everything. I know in my experiences I have to do a lot of leg work if I want something and not rely on the ones who should be doing it. ( I never did receive the pre op papers from Laurie at Dr. Sasson's office in the mail. (I hate it when people lie)

Today I am seeing my friend Gerri for lunch. She is on Atkins now so we're going to Zorn's to have chicken and veggies. It's fine with me, I don't need the carbs either. She works in Merrick and the Zorn's there has a nice sit-down area. It's raining like crazy today but should let up by lunch time.

Danny told me he is taking off Tuesday and Wednesday next week to take care of me. What a guy. I just love him so much. I went grocery shopping and stocked up on some stuff so he doesn't have to go too crazy. I also got ready bandages and tape for the times I may have to change the dressings. After all these surgeries I have a regular pharmacy set up in part of my closet with gauze and tape and bacitracin and ace bandages too.

The only thing that I mind is that my surgery time is 11:30 in the morning. I was really hoping to be the first one because I hate to go so long without water. The food part doesn't bother me that much but I hate that light headedness ya feel before surgery. The nurse practitioner at North Shore suggested I go to bed late and wake up around 9 a.m. instead of my usual 7 a.m. to throw my self off schedule and then just a sip of water to take my monopril and nexium. She said don't take the water pill. I can take it when I get home later that day. She said I would probably be "under" for about 4 hours or so. Danny said he'll stay there and wait. I am looking forward to it being over. We go to Nashville in June so I know I'll have plenty of time to heal. I hope I don't have to wear any undergarment after having lipo. I have my sports bras all ready to wear them. That doesn't bother me.

Oh I e-mailed Dr. Garber and asked him about one of his patients who underwent arm surgery with Dr. Sasson. He did not know who I was talking about. When I go to Dr. Sasson and see him for a post op visit, I'll make sure I speak to Patty the office manager and see if she can give my e-mail address to the girl who had 4 surgeries so far on her arms. Dr. Garber did say it's not uncommon for former WLS patients to undergo multiple plastic surgery procedures. (what a surprise)

Well I have to leave soon---have a great superbowl weekend. Here's to the great commercials--I hope they're funny---that's the only reason we watch.................Angie


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February 4, 2006-- Okay I got a call from my Dr. and they got the results of the blood work but won't send a clearance letter to Dr. Sasson because my potassium is too low. So they called in a 6 pill prescription and I have to take two a day till Monday. Then on Monday morning I'll go and have blood drawn and then they said it would take about 6 hours to get the results and then they'll send the letter to the plastic surgeon. Talk about last minute.

Also last night we get a call that Danny's only Uncle died. Dan's mom was one of 5 kids and he was the last one to go. He would've been 94 I think. The last time we saw him was for his 90th birthday which I think was in '02. So the wake is tomorrow only and then the burial on Monday after a 10 a.m. service. So I told Danny that I would go to the wake but I have to get this blood test in the morning and his first appointment is at 10.

To make matters a bit more frazzled for us is that Danny's brother is coming up from Florida and crashing here till Tuesday afternoon. I have no problem with him being here but we only have the couch since my aerobed sprung a leak.

I try to get in a relaxed state before these surgeries and this time it's gonna be tough. But we'll be okay. I told Danny the only day that'll get to me is the morning of my surgery when I can't eat and yet I have to see Danny and his brother having breakfast. But I told Dan I will sleep late and for him and his brother to go ahead and eat something before I come downstairs. I can only have a sip of water with my meds too.

I can't believe my potassium was fine when I showed Dr. Garber my blood test results a few weeks ago. It was 3.3 and I think it's supposed to be closer to a 5. And I have been eating cantelope and a half banana every so often. All I can think of is that I am still on this water pill and I have been going on the treadmill and sweating alot. Maybe I am losing too much fluids. If I am it sure ain't showing up on the scale. Anyway...to be continued--Angie


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February 7, 2006--Well it's all a go for today. My potassium was 4.4. Even though it was all last minute they got the clearance thru by 5 p.m. yesterday. Dan took his brother out for breakfast this morning and they'll be back soon. I'm in my sweats all showered an ready for the surgeries. I had my sips of water with my meds. Now I just have to hang in there till it's over. I spoke to my mom and girlfriends so I feel okay. Meeting with Dan's cousins after the funeral yesterday was good because it kept my mind off the surgery. And to top it off this morning I dropped two lbs. since Sunday. I'll write more after I feel better. Thanks for the support. You know who you are. Love you all-----------Angie


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February 14, 2006- It's been one week since my surgery. All went well. It took me about 1 hr and a half to fully come out of the anesthesia. Danny was there when I "woke" up. They made me walk around the room and gave me apple juice and water. I was so dry and hoarse it was crazy. I found out when I got home and looked down my throat and saw a huge red mark across the back near my tonsil. I figured when they had the tube down my throat and had to turn me on my side to cut that cist off my back, is when that happened.

I am bruised under both of my breasts by the incisions like I was beat up. I have black and blue looking marks across my upper belly where he did the lipo. By my left hip where he took off some skin and made it even with my right side is bruised too, but he used all the same scar areas from the surgeries in July, so there are no new incisions. He even went thru my belly button to do the lipo. The chunky belly above my private area is totally flat. I am really happy about that. I am on the drugs. It's hard to type because I am making a lot of typos and keep correcting them.

I am able to shower and dry my hair by myself now. I can almost stand up straight too. My arms can extend pretty far up. What a difference from when I had the breast lift. I could hardly stand up then and hold a toothbrush. Danny has been a big help. I was really on my own this weekend because we got all that snow. This is the first snowstorm that Long Island got more than my sister in the Poconos. I didn'y mind being alone too much. I just have the tv on all the time and rest, rest, sleep, sleep, eat, drink tea, take meds, bathroom breaks and then the cycle begins. These tummy surgeries the Dr. really wants you to take it easy. I miss the treadmill.

When I came home from North Shore I had gained 10 lbs. By 3 in the morning I had lost 5 of them already. As of today I still have 4 to lose but the Dr. said that the implants weighed 1 and 1/2 lbs.each. Funny story---After my first visit with Dr. Sasson last Thursday, which went fine--Laurie his surgical coordinator was like my best friend and couldn't have been nicer to me (weird). Anyway as I was walking out of his office I spotted a girl who looked familiar and for a second I couldn't place her and then---I said "Donna" and she looked up. It was Donna Franco from Dr. Garber's office. She said I looked great and also was as sweet as could be. She said she was there to have Dr. Sasson look at something she wanted removed. I can't remember what it was exactly that she said....later on Danny said she was probably there to look for a job---------ha ha---------I knew she used to work for Dr. Sasson..........that is why she recommends him so much.

So I am back to wearing a sports bra for 4 weeks and the undergarment for a few months. This is what the Dr. said. I go back again on Thursday. Oh, the best thing about last Friday's appointment is that he took out the drain. And yes it hurts when he pulls it out. In fact I was holding Danny's hand and a nurse's hand and they were squeezing ME tight when he yanked it out.

Oh, a good thing about the ambulatory unit at North Shore. When I was about to have the I.V. put in, the anesthesiologist said I was going to feel a "pinch" Yeah right we know what that "pinch" feels like. But he was right. He gave me a shot of some numbing stuff so when he inserted the I.V. I had no feeling at all. (that's always a good thing in my book) When I saw Dr. Sasson last Thursday I asked him about that and he said when you are going home the same day, they try to have you go thru the least discomfort. I was thinking, so when you go as an in patient they can just jab ya? He laughed. I know they gave me 2 celebrex and two tylenol to take before the surgery. I was like no problem. You all know what that sip of water means to you when you haven't eaten or drank anything for hours.

Well I just wanted to touch base with all my well wishers. Thanks for the calls and letters. Happy Valentine's Day to all.--Angie

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February 16, 2006-- I saw Dr. Sasson today. He said I am healing really well, but he noticed I have a rash wherever they had the sterri strips. He said I had developed an allergic reaction to some adhesive that they apply before placing those strips over the wounds. He wrote it down on a piece of paper. It was benz---something, I forgot...but I put it in my wallet should I ever have to tell somebody what I am allergic to if it comes up again.

Anyway he removed all those strips and Miggy, a PA who works there took new photos of me, even though I still look pretty bruised. But it hasn't even been 2 weeks yet. He was answering all my questions and told me to come back in 2 weeks.

I met with Laurie there again and told her my accountant needs some letters explaining the surgeries I had and that they were medically necessary and how much money they cost, etc. I'm going to see if I can recoup some of my moola. The surgeon said no problem just tell the accountant everything you spent and what the surgeries were, but I told him I need documentation. Anyway, Laurie said she'd do it for me. But you know I will be on her next week to remind her of my next appointment with the Dr. to pick up the letters.

It was so great to get outside. It's really mild out today. Feels like spring. But tomorrow it's supposed to go from the 60's to the 20's at night. I guess it's back to the flannel p.j.'s again. I'm going to make myself a cup of tea and take a rest....getting tired---ME


February 20, 2006--I had a good weekend. I am off all of the pain medicines. The one thing about being on them is that I experienced such vivid dreams. On Friday night I went to bed with Dan instead of on the recliner because I was feeling up to it. Around three o'clock in the morning I heard a loud pounding sound coming from downstairs that sounded like somebody breaking down the door. I woke Danny up and he rushed downstairs. My heart was pounding so fast. I yelled down to him and he said everything was fine. I can't believe how my dreaming became a reality for me. Scared the hell out of me. Also I stopped the meds on Saturday.

On Sunday Danny took me out to have sushi. I wore my sweats because I don't have the upper body strength to close my jeans. I was tired but it was good to get out. I am slowly coming back to myself again. It'll be two weeks tomorrow since the surgery.

After all that snow we had a few weeks ago we got a leak in the roof that came through to our laundry room. We had leaks there before but with the mild winters we've had there hadn't been any. Of course this was AFTER Danny had spackled and painted the ceiling in that room. So I called a guy on Saturday and he came this morning and will fix the roof for 595. He said he will guarantee his work for two years. That's great because we hope to out of here by then. He said there was no flashing where the new roof met the extension that was added on 15 yrs. ago. And to top it off, my brother-in-law did the job then. Oh well, another lesson learned. Will chat soon------------Angie


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February 22, 2006- I feel pretty good today. It's 15 days since the surgery. I tried on my jeans today and was able to close them because I had the upper body strength to do it. But I still have to wear the support undergarment for a few months. Some day this week I won't be wearing a sports bra anymore. My breasts healed really fast. They're just itchy where the wounds are. I put cortizone creme there and that helps.

I was able to do my nails too. Maybe on Friday I'll drive around a bit. The Dr. had said to wait a few weeks before driving. I am getting stir crazy. They still haven't posted a new photo I gave Dr. Garber's office in January. I emailed Farrah at the office but I didn't get a response. I guess the error is with ObesityHelp.com.

I got an invite to my cousin's daughter's baby's christening in mid March. I love going to Connecticut and it'd be great to see my cousins. I haven't seen them since October. Danny is going too. The only thing is the service is at 9:30 in the morning so we have to leave by 7. At least it's on a Sunday.

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February 27, 2006--Feeling good today. Even though I am not driving yet I still manage to get showered and dressed like I'm going somewhere. I attempted the treadmill today. I could only walk 1.8 mp.h. for 5 minutes. I now know why the Dr. doesn't want me to exercise. I was sore the whole time. But I feel the need to move.

I spoke to Stephanie at Dr. Garber's office today. She said Obesityhelp.com never received the photo that Farrah sent them, so I e-mailed one to her. I am not really that good with computers like Danny is but I was proud that I was able to find the photo that I made a copy of an attach it to the e-mail. I called Stephanie and she said she got it and she was going to send it to them. So look for my new photo that is grouped with alot of before and after's at Dr. Garber's sight. Actually my shape changed after that photo since I had my surgery, but only in the boobs.

I also spoke to Laurie today and she said she has the papers for my income tax and also the serial #'s for my boobs. (in case of a recall---hope not) I'll pick them up Thursday when I have my appointment.

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March 3, 2006-- I went to see Dr. Sasson yesterday. I have been oozing out of my stitches on the left side by my hip. The Dr. said that should stop in a week or two. There aren't any infections. He liked the way my breasts healed. They took photos again of everywhere. (ya can't be vain) Dan and I had to wait 2 hours for him to see me. I thought with the snow storm there would be cancellations. Not there. I got the copies of the monies I spent on my surgeries for 2005. The Dr. said when I am totally healed I can resume driving. This stuff coming out of me better stop soon. I am going crazy. I feel like I have so much energy and no place to expend it. I bet doing the housework that I have been doing didn't help me heal well....but I was getting bored. Once again I find I am my own worse enemy.

Danny went into work this morning at 3 a.m. for snow removal. Then he went to a seminar in Brooklyn. Sheepshead Bay , I think. He called me earlier to check in and was kind of bored too. He said he and his boss may leave after lunch.

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March 6, 2006--- I woke up yesterday morning in a lot of pain on my left side. It felt tight and very warm like an infection was under the skin. I remembered the Dr. saying that I didn't have an infection, but it was so bad I took a pain pill. At least I was able to sleep for a few hours and not feel a thing. The bad part is when you wake up the pain is still there.

Today I feel better but not great. I think on Saturday we did too much, but I felt really good then. We went to West Hempstead and got our taxes done. After that we went to Stop and Shop for a few shrimp and coconut. (I made coconut shrimp just like Outback--got the recipe from Food Network) After that Danny suggested sushi and I am all for it. When we got to Gardiners Ave, the police and fire dept. had closed off the entrance to the restaurant parking lot. We told the police we had reservations (lie) and then went and parked. But we are so curious about where the fire is, that we walked down a bit to see Country Ford smoking away. They had the ladder trucks up and guys were up on the roof. Dan and I have a creepy desire to see excitement of this sort. I don't know why like when there is a car accident we always pull over and find out what happened. Anyway it's freezing out and I am all bundled up but after about 1/2 hour standing there I told Dan I was getting cold and then we went for sushi. When the waitress brings over the hot wet towel to wipe your hands, I was putting it on my face and ears. It was kind of funny, because when I looked up, Danny was doing the same thing.

Anyway I slept fine that night, but then Sunday it was like I was slammed into a brick wall, but I was the brick. Today I took it easy but when I got up from a seated position, it didn't hurt as much as Sunday. I have to be thankful for the little things. Dan started my car up today. I told him I wanted to get my hair colored on friday. I'm driving there if I have to crawl.

Spoke to my mom today. She joined the choir at a local church not far from her house in Pennsylvania. She also joined a 55+ group that meets once a month. When she lived in Bayside she was involved in a ton of stuff. I'm glad she's doing well. We chatted about the Oscars (my sister didn't watch them) and who wore what and who had droopy boobs etc. My mom and I had a good laugh.

Danny is starting his periodontal work the end of March. I told him I would take care of him. The Dr. will do one side upper and lower and then a few weeks later do the other side. Total cost over $2500. And that is after the insurance pays out their share. It's always something. But I believe in good dental care. If you get a gum infection you can have heart complications, stroke and who knows what else. My Aunt in Connecticut spent over 30,000 for a whole new mouth. She was in pain for 6 months. She tells everybody that she has a "new car" in her mouth.

Well it's 12:30 and I'm getting tired. Will chat soon--------Me

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March 14, 2006--- Today Danny and I are married 25 years!!! Can't believe it. Glad we lost weight!! I can recall so many occasions where I was happy and all but hated the way I looked and I always thought---If I could just get this weight off...Thank goodness I don't have to wish for that. Although it's an on going process and hard work to maintain the weight loss, it's sure worth all the rewards.

I have come to my own conclusion that Dr. Sasson must've bruised my ribs on the left side because that is the only spot that I have pain. And I am bruised and red in that area too. Otherwise I feel pretty good.

My sister calls me on Saturday and tells me she is going to a party for her girlfriend who's turning 50 and it's in Bellmore and Yada Yada Yada, can Emily and I sleep over? She caught me off guard so all I could do is say of course. P.S. she calls me 10 minutes before she leaves Pennsylvania. She said Larry had a migraine and didn't think she should drive back and forth in one day. Whatever....anyway she showed up at around 11:30 at night after the party. I had set up an inflatable mattress since we don't have a spare bed. When I got up in the morning she said Emily didn't want my sister sleeping with her, so my sister slept on the couch. I made breakfast and everything was okay but I wasn't feeling 100% and my sister never even asked me about my surgeries and pain, etc. If I felt better I would've loved to have taken Emily out and do something with just the two of us but I was shot. They left to go to church around 10:30 and then Dan and I went back to bed and napped till noon. It was cloudy and rainy and just a blah day anyway. We were glad to watch The Sopranos and I t-vode Desperate Housewives.

We are going to the city tonight to see a songwriter's showcase. At least the sun is out and it's not raining anymore. Dan should be home soon. Alot of my swelling has gone down and my pants fit a bit loose. Pretty soon I gotta hit the stores and get some summer stuff. Well Happy St. Patty's Day to all in case I don't update by then...................Angie


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March 21, 2006-- We had a good time in the city last week. But towards the end of the night I had such a belly ache it was hard to stand up without pain. I ate some broiled salmon that was served over spinach and artichokes and I think it was the artichoke that gave me gas pains from hell. Sitting down wasn't a problem. It was after the show when we were hanging out taking photos. I was so happy that the car service came early. He drove so fast and every bump hurt but we got home in 40 minutes. I drank alot of water and made a cup of herb tea and felt better within an hour.

I saw Dr. Sasson. My wounds are healing slowly but getting there. He still tells me not to overdue it. I went by myself and driving wasn't too bad. It was the first time Danny didn't go with me. The Dr. showed me a photo he took last January before my first surgeries and I couldn't believe the difference. I recommend getting reconstructive surgery to anybody who can't stand that hanging belly skin and droopy boobs. I am really happy this time. I went and bought some new bras. I have been going out shopping here and there to build up my strength. I notice if I walk around too much my wounds open up and and I need to slow down. Yesterday I walked around a mall for an hour and a half. I took it easy and just listened to my body. After all that time I went home. But I had made a few stops before the mall, so I knew better than to push myself.

Went to Connecticut over the weekend. It was good to see my mom. We were there for a christening. My cousins all said I looked great. It gets embarrassing sometimes when everybody says you look so good, makes you wonder how bad you looked before.

My mom had a bruise by her nose---looked like smudged makeup. I motioned for her to wipe that area and then my aunt told me my mom fell last week outside my sister's house. She fell right on her face and hands. She said she was okay. (wonder why nobody called me?) Just trying to get some dirt off her shoes and she slipped. My aunt had fallen in her apartment last week and during the church ceremony she couldn't even get up by herself from the kneeler. She said later that her joints just got stuck. I'm thinking between her and my mom living together....that should be something. Glad my sister is there and not me.

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March 29, 2006-- Had a pretty good week except for yesterday. I've been gathering stuff to sell at our yard sale in a few weeks. It's part of our decluttering resolution we had after New Year's. Between packing and sorting and cleaning I was sore at the end of the day. But after resting for a few hours I felt better. I see Dr. Sasson next week. I only have one band-aid on. (down from 4) I am healing well and even went on the treadmill on Monday. I did 20 minutes and made it up to 3.2 m.p.h. I have to work my way back up to 3.8 but I'll do it.

Went to Connecticut again on Saturday and Sunday. We stayed at a hotel by Mohegan Sun. My cousin's boat club is only 30 minutes away. She had a fund raiser on Sunday at 11 a.m. It was a brunch buffet. Danny carved the roast beef. He was really in his element. I brought an apron and he brought his own knives. Came in handy since they really didn't have anything too sharp there. At Mohegan Sun we gambled on the slots for about 9 hours. I held up okay because most of the time we were sitting down. But our eyes were shot from all the smoke around the machines. We tried the non-smoking area but the machines were limited. It was still good to get away. We ate okay but I had a weird case of upset tummy from drinking a pina colada too fast. I went to cash in some tickets from the machines and walked wobbly over to the window and I really thought I would up chuck right there on the counter. I finally made it to the bathroom and all that whipped cream that was on the top of the drink was now in the bowl. YUCK. Anyway I immediately felt better. Funny thing about WLS when you feel sick, after getting it up you feel better so quick. I learned my lesson really fast. Danny thought I got lost and then I told him what happened. He was doing good on his machine and I went and played some more. By 1 a.m. we were shot and made it back to the hotel and slept till 8 a.m.

My cousin met a guy through the internet who flies and does air shows. She invited Danny and I to one at the end of June in Massachusetts. Should be fun.

Meeting my girlfriend Gail for lunch tomorrow. She is scheduled soon for a tummy tuck. Feels great to get rid of that hanging skin. Also the lbs. you lose after surgery ain't too shabby either. Will check back soon. Nice out today...........going to walk outside for a bit. I need some vitamin C...............Angie


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March 30, 2006--Saw my friend Gail today. We went to Mama Teresa's and had grilled chicken over salad. It's fun to eat with somebody else besides Danny who's had the surgery because we are soooo much alike in our eating habits. We both like toast and crispy things and only drink some water with meals when we're at a restaurant. She is scheduled for her tummy tuck on Monday. I told her to make sure she has a few items on hand like 4 inch gauze and a backscratcher (ya know you always have an inch where you can't reach). Also after having abdominal surgery I found having some decent cough drops on hand help, because you'll do anything to avoid coughing because it hurts so much...sneezing, forget about it!!! By the way Gail---good luck to you and call me when you are feeling better.

I'm taking Danny to the periodontist tomorrow. He's really chicken, but the Dr. said he has gas to knock him out or put him in LaLa land. I told Danny tell him you don't like pain and I'm sure they'll take care of you. I'll drive him and wait the 2 hours. Then it's off to the pharmacist for whatever meds he needs. Well, I'm going to go on the treadmill for awhile. Not to work off the great meal I had for lunch, but for the 8 ritz crackers I had about an hour ago. I should've eaten an apple. I brought home 5 lbs. 3 days ago. See Ya ----------Angie


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April 3, 2006-- Everything went okay with Danny at the dentist.
He looked like he was beat up on one side if his face. He was all swollen and came out of the office holding an ice pack on his face.
He has stitches all by his gums on the top and lower teeth on one side. In about 2 months he'll go back and get the other side done.
We'll see the dentist again tomorrow because some of the stitches were coming out and I had to cut them. It's like having an annoying piece of hair in your mouth. He hated that feeling. The dentist said it was okay that I cut them, but he wants to see Danny anyway just to be sure. We were scheduled to go back next week anyway but if the Dr. wants to see him, that's okay with us.

I saw Dr. Sasson today. He gave me about 10 shots of me that he took back last January before my first plastic surgery. Boy, was I a saggy mess. Boobs hanging and a belly too. I guess I should be happy and not gripe about the little things that get to me now with my body, because when I saw those photos, man what a difference. He told me now I can exercise. I'm glad I got the okay because I put on a few lbs. when I stopped doing the treadmill everyday.

Just picked my car up from inspection. Danny took a few days off to recouperate and so I asked him to take me up to Country Ford. It's only 2 minutes away, maybe not even that far. Hey, his mouth hurts a bit when he talks and eats, but his driving is fine. Anyway it needed an inspection, it was up on the 7th and then it needed an oil change and then the windshield wipers have been wobbly and noisy and leave marks always in my line of vision, so I had those replaced..............Cha-ching---what else is new.

I have 7 huge boxes of stuff to sell at the yard sale. It's a lot of work but I'm tagging everything and what doesn't sell goes to charity. Just like on Clean Sweep. After living here for over 25 years and Danny was here since '72 we've collected so much that it's like a cleansing ritual to part with all this. I watch enough Oprah to know now when shopping "is it a NEED or a WANT" goes through my head all the time now, so we don't buy something just to fill a shelf or a wall anymore. (unless it's a Garth Brooks item)

Well, I'm going to make a meatloaf tonight. Danny needs to eat something soft.

I hope my friend Gail is okay after surgery. Her insurance will only cover 23 hours in the hospital. Dr. Garber is also doing a hernia repair. If ya read this Gail....feel better.........Angie


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April 4, 2006--Took Danny to the dentist. He's healing okay and the Dr. told me I did a good job cutting the hanging stitches. We'll go back in 2 weeks again. Dan needed a painkiller last night because he said it was throbbing. Today he feels better.

I went on the treadmill 2 times today. I walked 20 minutes each time at an 8% incline all the way up to 12. At 15 I feel out of breath and I really have to hang on so not to slip off. But it was good to be back on. I also started lifting weights again. I had stopped after the first breast surgery because I thought it was shifting the implants around too much. Now they feel more intact.

I got more stuff together for the yard sale. I can't believe when you store something away in a closet how dusty and dingy it becomes after awhile. Dan's been helping out alot when he isn't resting. Right now he is making chicken marsala. We cut it up in little pieces after it's done and put it on our pocketless pita pizzas. (say that 3 times fast) He was getting a bit antsy and felt like cooking. When he cooks he makes enough for about 15 meals. He likes to freeze the 5 oz portions of whatever protein he is making. God bless him because when I cook anything I like to be done in under 15-20 minutes top. Unless I roast something like a chicken, but it takes us too long to finish a whole one. Anyway it keeps him busy.

Tomorrow I see the foot Dr. I had a heel spur years ago and was fitted for these lifts that I wear in my sneakers. The Dr. recommended getting an orthotic but I just want these cardboard thingies made again. Dan will pick up his orthotics because he gets callouses on his feet quite often. I live in sneakers and boots during the winter and shy away from heals so my feet are pretty good for now.

Dropped one lb. since yesterday. I upped my water intake. It's a hassle to get the water down even after almost 3 years following WLS, but I know it helps get the body shed the weight.

I love two new shows. Huff and Big Love. Huff is on Showtime and Big Love is on HBO. Next to the Sopranos these are my favs but I really love all reality shows. I am a junkie. Ever since we got TiVo I record everything from Blow Out on Bravo to The Surreal Life on VHI. I was never a Law and Order watcher but I get into Cold Case and CSI (the original). I remember when I would plan my meals around all my favorite shows. Now I just make sure I have my Crystal Lite with plenty of ice in my 32 oz. mug and I am good to go. I just wish The Sopranos would get more like the earlier shows. His dreaming is a pain in the ass already. And how come they don't show Uncle Junior in jail? I'm making a cup of tea before dinner and then American Idol.....oh we saw Kevin (chicken little) coming out of Wendy's in Levittown next to B.J.'s at around 1 today. He really is a dweeb.....................see ya -----------Angie


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April 12, 2006- Dropped another pound today. I did 30 minutes on the treadmill yesterday. It feels great to exercise again. I never thought I'd hear myself say those words, but it does feel good. I seem to have better stamina during the day and I sleep good at night. Danny is feeling a whole lot better with his teeth. Now he has to have the other side done. He'll do it in July after my cousin's annual party for the 4th.

My yard sale is on Saturday. I have so much stuff to sell I hope the weather turns out to be sunny, or at least not rainy. I ran an ad in Newsday as well as The Town Crier. On Easter Sunday it'll just be Dan and I. My sister had invited us to Pennsylvania but we declined. We'll see my mom and everybody Mother's Day. With Danny having his periodontal work he thought he wouldn't be up to my niece and nephew and all the hoopla of Easter, I don't blame him. Plus he usually does all the driving. My mom wants us to stay over her house before Mother's Day. Danny said no....I told her we'd think about it.

Danny went on the treadmill 3 times this week since Sunday. He did 20 minutes each time. It's a start. I got him off of regular milk. I have been a true supporter of Calcium Plus Fat Free milk for a long time and that's the only kind he can have now. Dr. Garber told him a long time ago to watch out for the hidden fats. They will be your worst enemy and he was right. Danny likes to make custard. I told him to make fat free pudding with skim milk. Get used to it!!!! So far he's going along.

Went out clothes shopping and was kind of disappointed in the way some tops fit me now with these bigger tah-tahs. Danny loves them (of course men do). I'm okay with them but sometimes I have to go up a size just so the shirts fall right. Very emotional for me because I have always been a numbers freak. Anyway, I'll get through it.

I submitted a new photo to Stephanie weeks ago and she has been in touch with ObesityHelp.com and she says they swear they have it up. I told her--Well it isn't up yet!!! Pretty soon I'll be looking different from that one!! Stay tuned-----------Angie


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April 17, 2006--Well the yard sale was a big success. We were up at 7 a.m. putting up signs around the neighborhood and it was to start at 9 a.m. At a quarter to eight 3 cars pulled up and it was like that all day till about 3:30. And it got so hot out. I was dying but had a blast making everybody happy, giving everyone a good deal and just happy to unload everything. We started out with over 16 boxes and ended up only storing away about 5 I think.

At around 4 p.m, a few of Danny's friends came by and one guy was looking at the 3 milk crates full of record albums from the 60's on and he asked me what I wanted for all of them and I said make me an offer and he said $50 and I said SOLD. I was so glad not to lug those back into the house. Looking through the records was like a diary of our lives. I knew where I was when a certain song came on the radio or when I was playing my records as a kid/teenager. I also remembered what I weighed then too. Funny how music plays such a role in our lives.

At around 6 p.m. we were on our way to throw some stuff in the dump when we spotted Kevin from American Idol again, this time just a few blocks from our house. He was outside playing ball with a few kids. I screamed out GO Kevin and he waved back. When we got back to the house I told some girls across the street who range in age from 8-10 that I saw him and they begged me to take them. So I drove back up and he wasn't there but a few kids said they would get him out. Well he came out and hung out by the car talking to the giggly girls who got really shy all of a sudden. His mom came out too. She said this was Kevin's grandmother's house. I told her where I live and we spoke about Simon, Paula and Randy and she said how Kevin had to be tutored 3 hours a day and Amercian Idol only paid for her transportation out there because he was a minor. So we said good-bye and then the girls said they wished they could have a picture with him. I said as I was making a u-turn, yeah too bad you don't have a camera. Well this 8 year old says yes I have one and pulls out her cell phone. (p.s. I don't even have a camera phone!!) Anyway I pulled back over and Kevin was so sweet to these kids and posed for the shots with a smile on his face. I still think he's dweeby, but at least he's not nasty and stuck up.

At the end of the day when I tallied it all up we made $713. It was a long, hot exhausting day, but I met alot of neighbors who I usually just wave to when I drive by. Some of my friends stopped by as well as Danny's cousins who we last saw at his uncles wake. I also met an Elvis impersonator who gave us his card and a bunch of other normals, wackos, cheapos and pain in the you know what os. But I hung in there and if they had money out and made an offer I usually took it. I got a good workout being on my feet all day. But yesterday on Easter Sunday I was walking like a zombie. My toes hurt from standing all day. Today I feel better. Dan and I walked around the track 4 times. I walked a bit slower, but the fresh (chilly) air felt good.

Danny goes back to work tomorrow (tuesday) He was able to take a snow day this month. It was for working when we had all that snow a few months ago. He's feeling better with his mouth. We bought a small boneless lamb roast and one sweet potatoe and some cauliflower and had a nice Easter dinner. We didn't consume too much, but it came out pretty tasty. I spoke to my mom and she wished she was having lamb. She was going to my sister's house for dinner and Fran doesn't like lamb, so they were serving ham I think. Oh well....still glad I'm here and not there.........Angie


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April 22, 2006- Well today I am 49. Ouch!!! The one thing that is constant in my life besides Danny is that I don't have to wish for my birthday that I want to lose weight. Well I'd like to lose a few lbs., but not over 100 anymore. I think I am finally going to have my wedding ring sized. I haven't worn it since right before my surgery in July of 2003.

After a really hot day 2 days ago (83) today it is barely in the 40's and rainy. I'm so glad we had the yard sale already. It would've been a washout today.

Danny and I will do sushi today and maybe go to see Scary Movie. We don't go too often because we watch alot on t.v., but we'll see how the day goes. We walked the school track 2 days this week with the weather being so nice. I did the treadmill all the other days. Danny does it reluctantly but gets through it. He always needs that extra nudge....well more like a kick. Anyway gotta get going before the sky opens up more--------Angie


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April 30th, 2006- I had my wedding ring sized, but I still have to put a small piece of tape around it because it's just a tad big. They put a ring guard on it too, but after eating sushi (dipped in soy sauce) I couldn't get the ring off, so I took off the guard.

I joined a gym last Thursday. It's called Shape 'N Tone. Just like Curves but the music isn't as loud. It's great to be back in the circuit type of exercise. I went everyday since I joined. I also walked around the High School track for 1 mile or 4 times.

One thing that happened yesterday (Saturday) was that after the gym I went and parked my car by the High School and when I went to put my bag in the trunk I noticed that somebody had hit my car trunk. I was so pissed. The bumper was fine so it had to be an SUV or bigger vehicle. I let Danny know and we went to one of his friends who owns a body shop and he said it could be about 1500 to repair. This is the first time that my car has had to be repaired since we bought it in 1997. Sure it has gotten some dings here and there from shopping carts and such but this idiot hit my car so hard that the trunk buckled a bit. Figures, it couldn't be an easy repair, they have to replace the whole trunk. But we'll do it. I tried calling Allstate but they are only there till 12 on Saturdays.

I asked Danny if he would take me to the gym because I'll be without a car for about 4 days. He said no problem.

Spoke to my mom in Pennslyvania. She's doing great. We'll see her on Mother's day just for the day. She wanted us to sleep over, but I was thinking about doing the WALK with Dr. Garber's patients. I have to talk with my friend Gail and see if she's doing it. I don't know if Danny would do it. I have to drag him to walk with me around the track and do the treadmill. Anyway, we'll see.

I am trying to be good with my meals. I have a tendency to snack on the wrong foods. (of course) I'm hoping working out more will put me in a better frame of mind. The women there told me I looked great and didn't need to lose weight. The validation feels great, but I know I put on some weight after my tummy tuck. I'm just happy to be able to get through all the machines and I've been doing an abdominal one that is on the floor for sit-ups. I can do 50. The great thing about having a tummy tuck is that I am all numb in that area, so I don't get sore when I work those muscles.
Gotta be happy for that!!!!!!!!!

I received an e-mail from Stephanie at Dr. Garber's office and she let a woman know from ObesityHelp.com about why my photo is not up and I got another e-mail from this lady from them. I sent the photo directly to her and told her where to post it. I can't believe how long it takes to get another "after" shot posted. Stay tuned---------------------Angie


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May 4th, 2006----Well my new "after" shot is now on Dr. Garber's sight. Thanks to Stephaine at Dr. Garber's office for all her help.

I have been without my car since Tuesday. I hope my car is ready soon. I did make it to the gym and after 7 consecutive days of going there, I lost 2 lbs. Some of the women there said they only go 2 days a week. I told them I was on a mission and I set myself a goal and I am trying to stick to it. The exercise circuit is going around 3 times. I go around 4 and then do 15 minutes on the treadmill and I am trying to work my way up to 10 minutes on the elliptical (not sure of spelling) machine. So far I am doing 5 minutes. It's harder than it looks and takes some balance and getting used to. So all in all I am there for an hour or so. So I guess that's how the weight came off. I didn't really change the way I've been eating, so I guess I just have to move more.

I got some crazy black and blues from working the machines. I e-mailed Dr. Garber to see if I need some sort of vitamin. I already take extra calcium and iron and B12. I'll see what he says. I do overexert myself because I want the results like yesterday, like we all do, right? Anyway, I feel good. Danny is the same. I can only push him so far. Great day today---sunny and warm----Angie


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May 11, 2006- Still going to the gym everyday. Didn't lose any more than the 2 lbs. in the first week. But I am hanging in there. The women there are all great. When they hear I had WLS they all want to know all the details. I remember when I was so hungry for information on WLS 3 years ago, but finding women who had it wasn't so easy. They all fear the surgery and want to just go on a diet. I know all too well that going that way didn't work for me, but I tell all the ladies that it has to be their decision and not mine to make.

Going to my see my mom on Sunday. We're going out to dinner and she thinks she is picking up the tab, but Danny and I will pay for everybody. She'll be surprised.

My black and blues went away. I think I got them because I take a coated baby aspirin everyday. That's for some test a Dr. did, I think it was a like a sonogram on my arteries by my neck and the vitamin therapy is supposed to help not get clogged arteries. Anyway I am building up my endurance. I just wish the gym had a few more fans. I hate to sweat. The other day the owner asked me if I wanted to work there. I told her I go away in June to Nashville and maybe when I come back. She told me she likes the way I encourage the women. (the girls there are sweet, but most of the time they just sit behind the desk) We'll see.

Can't make the walk this year, but good luck to all who do!!
Thanks for the e-mails regarding my new photo. Happy Mother's
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May 17, 2006-- Had a great time at with my family on Mother's Day. It was the first get together my mom had at her new home. Her house is so much bigger than the small condo she had. This house is almost 2000 sq. ft. The kitchen, living room and dining area with a sunroom attached is as big as my whole house. Then she also has 3 more bedrooms and 2 full baths. It's really beautiful and we were happy to see she's happy there.

My mom, aunt and my sister's in-laws all met for lunch at a nice Italian restaurant. I had sole franchise and broccoli and it came with garlic mashed potato. I had a tsp. of that and then my aunt asked if she could have the rest of them. (she's fighting a weight game all the time---but I gave her the taters) Anyway it was pleasant. Danny and I picked up the tab and they were all very thankful. Then after that we went back to my mom's and my sister and the kids came over soon after. We picked on fruit and noshies the rest of the day. I had a belly ache after that. We left at 7 and got home after 10:30. There was over an hour delay by the George Washington Bridge. We were happy to be home. I love my niece and nephew, but they wear me out like crazy.

Went to the gym today and the owner said it looked like I lost weight. I told her only 2 lbs since I started. Maybe the exercising is firming me up a bit. Who knows, but I'll take the compliments when they come, because I know I am working really hard at this.
I even made it there yesterday in the pouring rain. Years ago before WLS I used the weather as an excuse for not having to leave the house. If it was too hot, I didn't go to outdoor events because I would sweat too much. Now I just do it. Sounds like a Nike commercial. Anyway, I'm glad I'm not making excuses. I'm just making the effort to give myself an hour everyday to exercise and shake off these few lbs. that don't seem to want to budge off of me. Now if I could just cut back on my food. I've been eating pretty much the same way for the past year. I have to watch what I snack on. Having strawberries at night is great. Having ritz crackers....not great!!!!!!!!!! Well, gotta run----------Angie


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May 31, 2006--Went to the gym today. Had my measurements taken and overall lost 7 inches. I think she just pulled the tape measure a bit tighter, but I'll take it. Still only lost the 2 lbs. At least I am getting an hour of exercise in. Today I just did the circuit stuff because the air conditioner had frozen and they only had the fans. It was in the high 80's outside and pretty brutal to be sweating before you even exercise, but I got through it. They better get that fixed.

Had a nice Memorial Day weekend. Danny pulled out his Harley. The last time it was on the road was in '88. Kind of reminded me of Dan Connor from Roseanne with his bike. But this is a new project for Danny and he actually got it started after 2 days of working on it. Today he pulled off the fenders and gas tank and is taking them to the body shop that did my trunk repair. I had bought some shish kabobs (chicken) and we had a little barbeque. I also bought a seedless watermelon that was so sweet. I had a small hamburger too. We still both have a problem with beef, but not as bad as last year. I didn't exercise at all yesterday. I just watched Dan with the bike, ate, went inside to get cool, got some sun, ate again, and did some laundry and pretty much just took it easy.

My stomach although still achey and numb doesn't swell up like it used to when I had to wear that stupid binder for months. I am glad because with the heat it would've been uncomfortable. The best thing about the tummy tuck is that I can do a lot of crunches and not feel it, but I know it helps tighten the muscles up even more. I can definitely tolerate the heat so much better with the weight off. I never have any regrets that I got the WLS. Best thing that I ever did for myself. I think my family thought I would put the weight back on, because all my other DIETS failed. But with hard work and it is hard work, I know I can at least slow down the creepy lbs. that come back on.

My niece may come spend a few days with us over the 4th of July weekend. We'll see. Had a good time when she came out last year. Will talk again------------Angie


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June 24th, 2006-- I'm back. We were on vacation for a few weeks in Nashville. We go every year and take photos during the CMA festival. There are concerts all day long for 4 days straight and at the convention center in town a lot of artists have booths set up for meet and greets. This is where I spent 4 hours and more a day shooting celebrities. I got Carrie Underwood, John Corbett from Sex and the City, Martina McBride and so many others.

At Martina McBride's fan club party we knew we were making a cd of ourselves singing one of her songs at her husbands recording studio. But when Danny and I showed up we two of 5 chosen to sing with Martina. It was a blast. GAC taped it all and it's being shown on Country Across America this month.

We also went to Brad Paisley's fan club party and got to show him photos of the property we bought on Old Hickory Lake and he said he'd love to do some fishing there.

The weather was terrific the first week we were there, but after that it started getting hotter and muggier. But with the weight off we really do tolerate the heat much better. We saw so many people who remembered us from the "fat" days and all said how much better we looked. That never gets old.

By the second week away I got the cold from hell. Stuuffy head and all. I had all the symptoms on the Nyquil bottle except aches and pains. Two days ago Danny got my cold, but we went to the doctor and he put us both on Zithromax. I haven't been back to the gym, but intend to start up next week.

I am going to help my friend Gerri move from Shirley to Bellmore. It'll be great having her close by. I'll miss her when we move to Tennessee.

Haven't heard from my sister about Emily staying over for a few days next week. I guess I'll play it by ear. My brother may come up for a week at the end of July to my mom's house.

Danny and I bid on tickets to a Brad Paisley concert and won. He's playing at The Borgata in Atlantic City the end of July. When I was going through all my mail after we got back I got something from The Tropicana for a free night's stay any day of the week plus a free breakfast so I booked it for when we go to the concert. Glad that worked out, because the weekend rates at the casinos are really high.

Danny's brother was up from Florida for a few days this week. His girlfriend's daughter died. She was only 39. She has 4 kids all under the age of 7. So tragic. So we took them out for dinner at Red Lobster and I bumped into a woman who used to go the gym where I worked with MaryLou. Anyway she told me how great I looked because she hadn't seen me since my tummy tuck and boob jobs. She said she hadn't been anywhere to exercise and I told her to get back into it, your body will thank you so much. I really miss exercising. Never thought I would say that. But this head cold and runny nose was wearing me out. Sudafed and other stuff did not work or if it did it was only good for an hour or so.

It's muggy and rainy all this weekend. So I am trying to catch up on my mail and journal. I have my WLS anniversary coming up on July 20th. 3 years!! Can't believe it has been that long. I never regret the surgery. The tummy tuck was the longest recovery, and very uncomfortable, more than the WLS. I would still recommend plastic surgery to anyone with hanging skin. The discomfort you can always hide. But a flat stomach, everybody sees!!---Angie


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July 8th, 2006---Went back to the gym 2 days ago. It felt great to get back into exercising. Danny and I went to Jones Beach after he got home from work yesterday and just hung out for a few hours. We hadn't been there in a few years. I walked on the sand for about 30 minutes. What a workout on my feet. Really works the arches.

Danny has a meeting with his retirement counselor on Monday. He'll find out then if he can retire in January, or wait until June. Either way we are moving next year. So much to do, but with a lot of planning I hope it all runs smooth.

Danny and I are in this weeks Country Weekly with Keith Urban and Nicole Kidman on the cover. It's a photo of us singing with Martina McBride when we were in Nashville. When I looked at the photo all I could think was how big I looked next to Martina, who I think when wet weighs 100 lbs. I guess I will always feel this way about my body. Even with all the surgeries there is always something that bugs me about my body. But when I look at an old photo taken with her before WLS then I see the major difference.

Hot out today. Waiting for Dan to come home from working overtime on a Saturday. Maybe we'll go the beach again. We'll see. I'm going to go on the treadmill for awhile. Didn't make the gym today. I hurt my left foot and jumping on the platforms and using the step platforms at the gym are not for me today. I was walking with Danny last night in a parking lot and was wearing flipflops that are 2 inches high and I hit a crack in the pavement and sort of just tipped over and went with the fall so I wouldn't sprain my ankle. Embarrassing but at least I don't have any swelling. Today I am wearing flat flip flops. Well gotta go---enjoy the weekend--------------Angie


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August 26th, 2006---Sorry I haven't updated sooner. We just put our house up for sale and have been really busy packing things up and taking things off the walls and shelves so we can be ready for our open house with the real estate people and brokers. What a workout!!! If you need to drop a few lbs. just begin the process of stripping walls and taping and spackling and painting and moving out furniture and packing up boxes of stuff and stacking them etc.

We really just made a dent. But in the mean time we did have a great visit with Danny's cousins out at their little cottage in Bayport. It's still great to see family and know that you haven't GAINED weight since the last time you saw them. We also went to Connecticut to my cousins for a Jimmy Buffet party. That was a lot of fun and Danny and I were even dancing for awhile. We helped my cousin Carol raise money for her boat club and we helped with cooking and serving food. They almost ran out of food. Seeing so many eat like we USED to kind of made me lose my appetite and that doesn't happen that often.

We had our blood work done by my own GP and just used Dr. Garber's list of tests to be done. Danny and I were both low in Vitamin D. So now were are taking extra supplements of those. Everything else looked good. Iron is up there and so is the calcium.

I'll try to update sooner. Enjoy the rest of the summer everybody!!! -------me

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August 30, 2006,--Been busy packing up stuff. We're having an open house in a few weeks.

My mom came to visit the other day just for a few hours. We had that terrible storm that turned out to be a tornado just a few miles away. It was pretty scary watching all the hail and I kept thinking --should we be standing by the front door while the sky is black and the wind is howling??? We couldn't look away. I was glad I wasn't alone. Anyway she was down for a few days visiting her friends in Queens. She told me I looked like I lost some weight. I said maybe, because I didn't know what I weighed on Mothers day when I last saw her.

Funny how the same feelings about how people see my body resurface every so often. I saw a photo of me the other day at my girlfriends house that was taken at my lowest weight and I thought I looked a bit gaunt in the photo, but thinner. Whatever.... I feel good, been trying to do the treadmill more. I ordered a dvd that is one to accompany treadmill walking. Since I've been packing so much I packed away all my dvd's and only have Shrek, which I love, but it's not too motivating. Well, gotta go for now---me

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January 8th, 2007---I know, I know it's been awhile since my last update. Still did not sell our house yet. Holidays went really well. Went to my sister's house in Pennsylvania and my mom and aunt were there too along with my brother who came up from Charlotte.

Can't believe in July it'll be 4 years since I had WLS. Wow where did all that time go?? I never regret anything about having the surgery. Knowing people who are going through physical stuff that is associated with being overweight really makes me thankful for having the surgery. Danny has a friend that has lost most of his eyesight from diabetes but continues to eat tons of pasta and ignores the tingling and numbness in his feet and sores that don't heal. And he's only a year older than me. I just had some blood drawn on Thursday and am waiting for my Doctor to call with the results. They're faxing over a copy to Danny too.

We don't see Dr. Garber anymore but our internist monitors us every month. He takes Dan's blood sugar which is alway around 80-90. Boy before his surgery it was always well over 200. I made a copy of the blood work that Dr. Garber wants us to have that checks for vitamin deficiencies and we get that one done about every 6 months or so. Since seeing how Donna and Dr. Garber used to read it, we pretty much know when to increase calcium or iron or B12 etc. But our Dr. always says it's fine. But that's why we always ask for a copy so we can compare it to our last reading.

Danny just called me from work and he got the fax and said my cholesterol is 240 but my HDL and LDL numbers look good. I have been on 3 different kinds of cholesterol lowering medications for the past 10 years, maybe longer. It seems it just keeps getting a bit higher each time. I'll see what the Dr. says.

Hope to have an open house once a month till it sells. The market is so bad it takes so long to sell a house now. Danny is going to stay at work until it sells. He could retire now but I told him to keep working and hopefully it'll snow soon so he can get some decent overtime. I have a job interview tomorrow morning and then an GYN appointment at night. I haven't scene her since I had my hysterectomy. Trying to get to all my Dr.s before we move and then we have to find all new ones. Not looking forward to that, but thanks to the internet it'll be easier. I hope to get on this sight more often. I guess working on packing up stuff kind of drained me there for awhile. Take care all-----------me


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September 19, 2007- It's been another long time since I've updated. Witht all the new things going on with Obesity Help, it took me awhile to figure out how to update this. Well so much is going on. The one thing that has happened since the last time and for the past yr. and a half is that I put back on weight. As of today I hate to say it, but I weigh 201 lbs.

I contacted Dr. Garber recently because I heard through my friend Gail that he is doing a surgery called a Stomaphyx. It's for WLS patients who have put on weight because the opening from their stomach to their intestines has gotten bigger. Thats' why I don't feel full or get full with 4-5oz. of food like I used to. Now it's more like 8 oz. of protein. And that's if it's chicken breast that's still moist and hardly anything else. But if if have a veggie and some starch, than I have less chicken. But lately I feel between Danny and I a lot of the BAD HABITS are coming back and it's killing me because I loved the way I felt and looked when I had those 40 lbs off of me. Plus with the breast surgery and the weight gain I swear my boobs look bigger. I guess I always gained in my boobs, but now I feel it and it sucks.

So tomorrow Danny and I have a consult with the Dr. I hope to have this procedure done well before the holidays. (before Halloween would be great too) If anybody out there has had this done already can you contact me and let me know how it went? Thanks so much. I saw a few of my cousin's friends who had WLS in 2001 and 2002 and they are all a lot heavier than me. That is why I have to do something now. I have that "I am ashamed of my lack of self control feeling" that I had 4 yrs. ago before I had WLS. I have spoken about having this procedure done only to my really close girlfriends. Danny will have it done too. He had gotten down to 285 and now he is around 318. He never even made it to his goal. I will not tell my family unless absolutely necessary. They were never really that supportive anyway. Whatever.........but I'll write about what happens as I find out more about this Stomaphyx.....oh by the way we still haven't had a buyer with this house. Maybe now that the interest rate has dropped we'll get lucky..........oh also since January I have been working for a CPA making appointments for him to see if he can save clients money on their accounting fees and income taxes. So far so good....he's a wacko sometimes, but he's out of the office a lot so I get to make all my calls. It's part time ---only 4 hours a day----if I had to work any longer I'd stick pencils in my eyeballs.....grunge work indeed but the pay is decent and I get a good commission. I'll stay there till I move, and he knows about that too----ok so long for now all---------Angie


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September 24th, 2007-----The consultation with Dr. Garber went really well. I weighed 203.5 on his scale. Of course I had to weigh MORE!!! He showed me the scope he will use (during the stomaphyx) to go down my throat and he draws in small sections of my stomach and then he secures a fastener around it and that would allow me to eat only small amounts. He said for the first 4 weeks I would eat only liquids and blenderized food. I guess I'm okay with that if after a month I dropped 25 lbs. Hey I'll take 20 at this point.

I met a really nice girl, Linda who is a patient of Dr. Holover's. I had forgotten that for a 2:20 appointment I wouldn't get out there till after 5. But the people you meet in the waiting area sometimes turn out to be like your own support group. I will attend the next one they have because Dr. Garber said that the group is divided in two and where they meet is a smaller room at Mercy Hospital. I didn't like where it was a few yrs. ago. The room was really echo-ey and I couldn't hear other people talking so well. My friend Gail may go with me.

Danny told Dr. Garber that he will wait till he has the Stomaphx and sees how I do. (he said the same thing when I had WLS) I have to meet my deductible of 350.00 through the Empire Plan and then as long as they pay more than 70% (they pay 80) the Dr. said he accepts it as full payment. Otherwise it would cost me between 8-9 thousand dollars. I know this because I met another girl, Jaimie by the elevator and she said her insurance company wouldn't cover it. But good news for her------On Sunday I went to the West Islip country fair to pick up a necklace from a vendor I met at the Lido Beach festival and Jaimie had a booth right next to the jewelry place and I hear---hey stranger. what a coincidence, right? Anyway she said she switched to Oxford and they will cover the Stomaphyx. I was so glad for her, because she was really upset when we first spoke.

So now I have an endoscopy with Dr. Holover at Mercy Hospital on Oct. 4th and then I have to meet with the nutrionist at Dr. Garber's on the 18th and then I should know my date. After I'm off the computer I'm going to call Stephanie at Dr. Garber's and get a few references of patients who had this done. Ya gotta do your homework. Also Dr. Garber told me has done 35 of these so far. When I met him in 2003 he had only done a few hundred WLS's and now it's 2500. Can't wait to start losing again and getting some control----------------I'll write again -----me


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October 1st, 2007-- Well I have a date for the Stomaphyx. November 12th. I got 2 references from Stephanie, but only one got back to me. I also posted information about the Stomaphyx on ObesityHelp.com and got a few responses. The girl I spoke to on the phone, her name is Vicki, said she had it done in July and lost 17 lbs. so far. I though you would lose much faster, but hey at this point I'll take 17 lbs. She said all she had after the procedure was done was a sore throat. I don't remember how long that lasted but she said she definitely can't eat as much as before. That's the feeling I want back.

Danny and I went to see out regular GP and after running our routine blood tests, they called and said Danny's A1C was 7.3. that is a test for diabetics that measures insulin levels over a three month period. It should be under 6. It had been as high as 14 when Danny was pre-op. Now he knows for sure that he will get the Stomaphyx done. It's just worth his health. He has a friend who is a few years younger than him and he is already legally blind and has seem to age over the past few years. Yet his wife still makes pasta everynight and meat and potatoes the other nights. It's so sad watching someone so young falling apart over an illness that can be managed.

I e-mailed Stephanie at Dr. Garber's office to find out when my pre-surgical tests can be done. She's been wonderful getting back to me via the mail. So much better than the phones over there.

I told my boss off today and felt so good. I only work 4 hours a day but I am on the phone setting up appointments for him and every time I get one he manages to bring me down a peg and I told him I won't tolerate not working in a positive environment and he said "I'm positive" and I said no you aren't and started listing all the things that he has been doing and saying to make it an uneasy place to be making cold calls. If anybody has done this for a living than you know first hand that it's tough enough that you are cold calling someone than to have your boss put you down when you get an appointment and he complains because of the time slot I put it in for or the type of company or whatever is his complaint of the day. If I get 2 appointments a day he'll say I should have 3. You know the type. I am the only appointment setter left after being here 10 months. I started when he did. 6 others quit. And 3 sales men quit too. One girl never came back after the first day. My boss is really smart when it comes to being an accountant, but knows squat about how to treat people. I call it school smart, street stupid----fits him to a tee. And all you "eaters" out there know what we do generally when we are emotionally upset-- we reach for food. I cannot wait to have this done. I have been eating more yogurt and cottage cheese and walking on the treadmill, but my scale just seems to stuck. And where it's stuck, I don't like it.......................see ya----angie