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Overweight seeking to be thin and healthy. I have been overweight for most of my life. I first started gaining weight in my teens. My weight has had a control over my life for years, but I have finally said no more. About 2 years ago I found out that I have a conditon called pcos , it has to do with your body not using insulin the way that it should. It also caused me to have irregular cycles. I had tried to have a baby for 15 years when I finally found a dr that knew what I had put me on some diabetes medication and some clomid and now I have a beautiful baby that is the love of my life. I want to make sure that I am here to watch him grow up, so I am doing this surgery for me and for my family. So far my family has been very suppportive but my friends have not. I guess they are so use to the fat me but oh well that's their problem and their hang up. I am hoping on having surgery on july 21,2004. I have cigna health insurance and have been denied. I am a self pay. I will keep you guys posted.
Just thought that I would continue with my journey. Well I only have 3 days left until its the big day. I have all types of emotiions right now. I'm first of all happy and very grateful that God provided me a way to have this surgery even though insurance will not cover it. I am also scared and have asked myself a few times if I am making the right decision. I know in my heart that I am. If I don't do something about this weight I will not be able to see my precious child grow up. God knows I want to be here a long time. I know that I am going to mourn food, this of course is a normal reaction. Food has been my friend for so long or at least I thought it was my friend. I read something today on another board that I feel like it will help me. I'm sure so many of you can relate, that when we were growing up our parents were always saying don't waste that food on your plate, that it is people all over the world starving and you are wasting food. Well on this other board the person said all food will eventually be waste one way or the other, we will waste it by throwing it in the trash, or it will be waste in the toilet. I never thought about it like that before. But it really makes sense. I am also so thankful that I found this wonderful website. Everyone here has been nothing but supportive. I know that when I run across a bump in the road I will have my new family which is you guys and my own family to help me with this process.
Well I had my surgery yesterday on the 21st and now I am home from the hospital. My mother said a wonderful prayer for me the night before surgery and I toook before pictures. I was a bit nervous but just kept telling myself that I was doing the right thing. I must say that I am very surprised that I really haven't
been in pain. I have only been sore as if I bumped into something. The gas has not been bad either. The day of surgery I only was given ice chips, and had pain shots of morphine and phenergan although I didn't have pain. Then today I had a total of 8oz of chicken broth and it feels like I have eaten a 5 course meal. I can't believe how full I am. I just keep saying thank you Jesus cause you have been so good to me. I am so happy at this point that I have gotten this surgery. Can't wait to see the pounds melt away. I will try my protein drinks tomorrow
cause protein is so important in the healing process. I am on my way to bed. Will update later. Good luck to all that are about to begin your weight loss journey.
July 28, 2004
Well it's been exacty 1 week since my banding and I have been doing great, have been able to get in all of my protein, and drinking more water. I do however feel bloated, and have the occassional gas pains. At this point I have no regrets, just looking forward to the wt to keep coming off. I am also getting on the scales everyday several times a day, I know that this isn't good cause depending on what you have consumed your wt goes up and down. I also will be returning back to work on Monday, hope things go well for me at work. I have been tired I think mainly because of my decrease intake, I have been taking
small naps throughout the day. I have also started iron pills to see if this will give me a boost. The area where my port is located is sore, but I have steri strips on them, hope it's not infected,and just part of the healing.
Well it's been a few weeks since I updated my profile. I am still loving my band. I have lost 17 pounds. I also went to the Dr. the other day, and he said that I was doing great. Another girl that I work with had the band done 1 week before me, but she is having problems vomiting. I am so thankful that it hasn't
happened to me. Today I went to a baby shower, and I made meatballs and was able to eat 3 of them. It was kinda hard sitting there looking at everyone eat, but I made it and I was so proud of myself. I also had some slice turkey with cheese
this morning for breakfast and to be truthful I didn't miss the bread at all. I use to be a big carb addict. I am getting a little tired of the shakes so I am happy that I was able to eat something. I have also been able to eat tuna, and of course I still eat my soups. Thanking God for this band. I keep telling
myself that those 17 pounds are never coming back. I was talking to my mother on the phone earlier today and told her that I am the type of person that can gain or loose 20-30 pounds and still be able to wear the same size clothing. I am so looking forward to going down into a smaller size. I don't think that I will
have to buy much cause I have clothes in my closet, I use to tell myself I don't want to throw those clothes away, that one day I will be able to wear them again, all the while I was thinking in my mind yeah right. They are probably really outdated, but I don't won't to spend money on clothes that hopefully I will only be able to wear for a few months. I go and get my fill at the end of the month, or I hope that he will give me a fill, he seems like he will be very conserative and said that we will see what my wt is. Will keep you guys posted.
Well I have now lost 20 pounds, I really need a fill. I have been walking a mile each day, and I am feeling good. I just looked at some pictures of people that are a year post op and man what a differance a year makes. I can't wait to be free of all of this fat. I must say thank you God for giving me the strength to go through this journey. It has been very hard sometimes looking at my husband eat and also looking at my co workers eat, but I just keep telling myself you can eat those things again, but just not now. I think that my husband is suprised at the self control that I have. He has bought several things at the store that he knows that I like to eat then he will say is this going to bother you? I just say no you can eat whatever you like. We are having a family renunion in Aug of next year so this is also my motivation. I have always had the pretty face, but never the pretty body next year will be different. Next year I will wear my shorts and strut my stuff. Next year I will look in the mirror at the new me. Thank you God, thank you. Til next time.
Well today is the first day that I am trying to update my profile after it was designed. I love this new profile and would like to take the time to thank Michelle and all of the other volunteers for taking the time out to help others. Nothing new has really happened since my last update, I am still just walking and mainly eating chicken and veggies, I did tell my husband that starting today I will just have 2 protein drinks and then chicken and veggies to see if it will speed up the weight loss. I am so ready for this fat to be gone. I know with the band that the weight comes off slower, but with the small amount of food I am eating I would think that I would already be skinny lol. I have also talked to several girls that I have met on the net that lives in my area and we are planning on doing lunch one day. This site has been such a inspiration to me and I have talked to people that I feel like I have known my whole life. I have also talked to a girl named Liz and she lives in NJ so when I visit my mother next year we also plan on getting together. The really neat part about Liz is that we both spend alot of time on the internet so we are talking all of the time, and she also started out at the exact same weight as me, and I just saw a pic of her the other day and she looks great, can't wait until that is me.
Well I went to the Dr's yesterday, and I had lost 23 pounds, I am so excited. I can't wait to turn that 23 into 33. I didn't get my fill that I thought I was going to get, he didn't think that I needed one, but I told him that I am so hungry and that I am just having to stop myself from eating, so I am scheduled for a fill for this wednesday. I am hoping that it will help with the hunger pains. Well that's all for now.
September 24, 2004
Well I had told myself that I would be better with keeping my profile up to date. I have lost a total of 27 pounds so far. It has been a struggle for me to get this weight off, I think some of it might be due to pcos. I will not give up. I have also been trying very hard to get my protein and water in. I am also walking 2 miles a day. I have to really push myself to walk those 2 miles. I am starting to feel sexy, and so much lighter. Can't believe that 27 pounds could make such a differance in how I feel. I haven't been this size in years, I have 5 more pounds to loose and I will be in a range that I haven't been in for at least 10 years. I am still loving my band. Thank you God for helping me go through this journey.
Future UpdateJune 2, 2008
I can't believe that it has been so long since the last time I have updated my profile. So much has happened in my life since having the lapband. I have lost 100 pounds!!!!!!!! I never would have believed that this could happen to me. I love and I do mean love my band. I am in a size 12!!!!! I look and feel great and I am really enjoying life. One of my favorite things to do is shop and get to wear all of those pretty clothes that I never thought that I would be wearing. I have to say that I haven't had a fill in over a year. Once you have the band and get a good restriction it must last for a very long time. I am able to eat things that I couldn't before when I had a tight fill, but the band will not allow me to over eat. I did have to have a hysterectomy about 2 years ago and at that time my doctor did a complete unfill so I would be able to eat to aide in the healing process. During that time which was about 4 weeks I gained 20 pounds. I couldn't wait until it was time for me to go back to the doctor to get a fill. It was at that time that I realized that I would be back at being over weight if I didn't have this wonderful tool. I have seen people in my hometown that hadn't seen me in years and they didn't even know it was me. Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and say to myself who is that girl? I am doing every thing in life that I was never able to do before. I even bought myself a swimming suit this year, granted its a one piece cause I still have a belly but hey its a swimming suit. Another thing the the average public take for granted is shorts, well I haven't had on a pair of shorts in the last 20 years, guess what I purchased a pair of shorts this year and what can I say I look great. Thank you God. Anyone out there that is wondering about this surgery please know that it works, it takes time and you have to get your fills especially in the beginning but it does work and it does change peoples lives. I know that it changed mine.