ObesityHelp

I am 28 years old and have been interested in wls for about 2 years. I have 2 boys ages 2 and 8 years old. I have always been over weight and I'm tired of all the diets. My solution wls.

07/15/02 Since last May I tried to go through MS Vocational Rehabilition. I finally got approved thru them in December but now there is no funds. They told me it would be around the end of the year. So long for that. Anyways I decided to go thru TLC TennCare and have been approved. Wednesday I go for EKG, chest xray, blood gases and some other testing. Next Monday I go To Dr Cowans to see an assistant that just started. I hope everthing goes ok!!!!!!!!!! Wish me luck.

07/18/02 Went to have some test done yesterday. Everyting went ok. Monday I go To Dr.

01/06/03 As of today, I saw a lung Dr. and he said everything ok. I had to have a ct scan. I go to see dr. Madan on thursday.

01/10/03 Yesterday i went and saw Dr. Madan and have been schedule for January 27, 2003!!!!! I Can't believe after two years i finally have a date. I'm a little bit scared and nervous, but know that god will be with me.

01/13/03 I'm supposed to be on a cpap machine and now having problems getting the machine. I have been calling one company and they are waiting on orders. How long can this take!!!!!!!

01/15/03 Come to find out I have to pay for cpap machine for two weeks. After the two weeks the insurance will pay for cpap.
The reason I have to pay for it is because I had it before in june for a two week study and did not use it. The cpap machine is on auto adjust and i will return it next week and then they will give me the results and a new cpap machine to keep as mine.
Is it normal to be verrrrrrrrrrrrry scared and nervous. I keep telling myself go for the surgery then there is times that i think i should not go for the surgery!!!! Last week when i saw Dr. Madan I met three ladies who had the surgery and were doing well. I have kept in touch with one of them and she is doing well. She told me i can call her when ever i wanted to if i had any questions. I worry because I have two boys a 8 and 3 year old. I love them both with all my heart and don't want to leave them with out a mother. I keep thinking the surgery will be good for me. I am tired of being overweight. I am tired of having to buy clothes at THE AVENUE or LANE BYRANT. I want to buy smaller clothes. I want to go places with my husband and not worry what other people are thinking (my husband is skinny).
I want to look in the mirror and see that i can look good, too.
I don't want to become a diabectic like my mother, father, aunt, and grandfather. It runs in the family. I want to go visit my family in west Texas but i don't want them to see me overweight!!! So if there is any one out there with the same feelings like me, please email me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

01/21/03 Well yesterday I had all my pre-op testing done. I got stuck four times with a needle, chest x-ray, echo, and ekg. Today I went for a stress test with heart doctor. He cleared me for surgery. So I am set and ready for surgery on Monday. 27, 03. To be honest I need some word of encouraging. I'm scared and nervous but know every thing will be fine. So please pray for me!!!!!!

09/19/03 WELL I KNOW IT HAS BEEN I VERY LONG TIME SINCE I HAVE WRITTEN ANYTHING SINCE JANUARY. I HAVE BEEN VERY SICK AND JUST RECENTLY STAR TED TO FEEL BETTER. I HAVE BEEN TO THE 7 TIMES AND ADMITTED 4 TIMES. I JUST STRATED TO FEEL BETTER FOR 3 WEEKS AND EATING A LITTLE BETTER. I CAN'T EAT MEAT, ONLY A LITTLE BIT OF CHICKEN. WELL IT'S LATE BUT WILL UP DATE MORE. I USED WEIGH 241 AND NOW WEIGH 135 AND USING A 12-14.