Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
Life before learning about bariatric surgery was an emotional rollercoaster for me. Looking back at childhood pictures I see that my weight problem began around age 7. For as long as I can remember, I was always trying to find a way to lose weight. Every year I would promise myself that this would be the year that I would be able to wear a swimsuit instead of shorts and a tee shirt. We lived at the beach in the summer time and I always remember being embarrased to be seen. I would try every diet that came along, only to lose some weight and then not be able to follow through with it. All during jr. high and high school, I was so self conscious about my peers seeing me eat, that I would eat lunch at school. Of course, as soon as I got home, I made up for it. I became a closet eater. I remember my grandpa always saying that I must be "living on love" because I wouldn't eat around people.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
The worse thing about being overweight for me was that if kept me from being the "real" me. I have so many good qualities that I was afraid to share for fear of being rejected because I was fat. I think one of the most hurtful things that I can recall concerning my weight was when my first husband told me that he only married me because he felt sorry for me because he knew no one else would because I was too fat. I was 6' tall and weighed 190 pounds at the time. But because of my self image, I believed him.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
Walking, running, breathing, swimming, shopping for clothes. There are so many things that I wasn't able to (or didn't want to because of how others would see me) do before that I do now. I am so free to be the real me now.