Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
I have battled with my weight my entire life. I have used food for comfort, reward, and stability. Whenever I have tried in the past to break the cycle of eating it has been too hard for me, and I have set myself up to fail by trying diets that a person could not possibly stay with for thier entire life. I have been sabotaged by my family, unintentionally I am sure, but true. I did manage to lose weight when I was 19 and kept it off for 10 years, even through the years of having my children. I had a hysterectomy and gained a lot of weight, and that had a terrible effect on my knees. The weight compounded the dislocations that I have experienced my whole life with my legs, eventually requiring me to have a realignment of my right leg. During the recouperation of that surgery I gained a lot of weight, and after two months the leg broke from the weight of my body. While I was in a cast it was too hard for me to get myself around becasue of my weight so i was not very mobile and again gained more weight. I went through a severe depression for a long time from this period in my life. My doctor suggested bariatric surgery a couple of years before I was actually brave enough to look into it. I think that deep down I didn't think that I deserved to be healthy after all, I had just about completely given up on myself.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
The worst thing for me about being overweight is not being able to do the things that I loved to do before. I love to swim, water ski, and play with my kids. I still swim, but I cannot get in and out of the water very well, so there are places that we go to that I cannot swim. Water skiing is definetly out, my knees couldn't stand it even if I had the upper body strength which I don't. The worst experience that I had with being over weight was; when my daughter graduated from high school, my husband and I took our son and she to Disneyland. We also went to Las Vegas. On the way to Las Vegas we aw this huge roller coaster in the distance so we drove towards it, and we were all very excited to ride it when we got there. We purchased tickets and walked up a huge platform and got into line. As we boarded the roller coaster it was obvious that the safety strap was not going to fir around me, they had to hold up the ride so I could get out. I told my family to go ahead without me and I headed back down the platform to get a refund of $8.00 and had to explain to the person at the ticket booth that I couldn't fit into the ride. That was the lowest point for me and that was two years ago.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
Well let me think..................crossing my legs, wearing dresses that hit me above the knee, shopping for clothes off the rack in the normal sizes, bending over to tie my shoes and not seeing sparks, swimming and being able to get out of the water several times just to jump back in again, and attending a public function and knowing that people are looking at me for good reasons.