Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
I have always struggled with my weight. I remember being around 10years old and going to the doctor. I had gained over 12lbs in 1 year and my height hadn't changed and the doctor was very upset with my mother for letting me gain that much weight. My mother was overweight also, so it was like adding insult to injury. Throughout high school my weight went up and down. Although I was never obese in school I was more curvy than most of the girls. I remember this one day I was sitting in homeroom and this snotty girl named Jen commented she didn't think they made belts in my size. Of course I was rude back,after all , I was hurt. I said I didn'y know they made noses in that size! (she had a large bump in her nose and it WAS big) She was popular so she just ignored me.
After high school I had my first baby I went from 5'1 125lbs to 5'1 180lbs. My baby was only 5lbs4ozs. A few weeks after her birth I lost fluid lbs. and became 150lbs. I lost all my weight and then some 3 years later. I was smokin hot! Well. I got married had two more babies and weighed 220 lbs after all was said and done. My youngest is turning 6 this year. I was up tp 245lbs and I made the appointment to talk about surgery. I was depressed for years, I have trouble making friends, going out in public, having intimacy with my husband. I feel like I'm either totally invisible or being judged constantly.
I've gone with my parents to family reunions and no one knows who I am. I'm just the fat lady standing with a strange family. My sister gained like 30 lbs and they still know she is. My dad never said anything to my mom all the yrs she was overweight,but he's commented to her about my weight. That's a scar that will take time to heal.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
Being a shadow. Not having anything fun to do. Not being able to enjoy my kids and my husband the way I want to. Being to fat for rides at amusment parks. Not going to the beach with my kids. Everything about being fat is bad. There is nothing good about it, unless you're Mrs.Claus.(she probably wants to be thin too)