EricaJ

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Obesity & Me

Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.

Battle with weight control? It is more like WAR. I hate my body, I am embarrassed. I don't understand why so many people can win this war and I am stuck in the trenches with a half gallon of Ben and Jerry's. I have never been a yo yo dieter, I get fat and stay fat. I lost 55 lb. one time and 15-20 several different times in the past but nothing significant and nothing that lasted. I would watch those (boy I hate admitting this) weight loss infomercials, and dream of those people being me. Unfortunately, I never really saw myself doing it, I figured that was for people much more disciplined than me. Now that I have made the decision to have the surgery I feel so free, I actually feel like one day my picture will be on your before and after list.

What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?

Is there a good thing about being overweight? I'll give you a day in the life of me. The plan is to go to a concert at the Civic Center. You go and buy the tickets trying to make sure you get an aisle seat and preferably one on the floor so you get to sit in a regular folding chair and not one of those seats meant for 12 year olds. Of course they are all sold out. So you get the tickets and head for the show. When what is the first thing you see? A turn styles, ya know those thingys that count how many people enter the arena? You see that thing and you start making deals with God. Okay God, if you let me make it through, I'll never pick up another cup cake as long as I live. So you get closer and think, okay I'm gonna suck it all up, turn sideways and run. Now you are face to face with this little piece of metal that has the ability to ruin you entire evening. You put out of your mind the image of the woman who you just heard about on Oprah who actually did get stuck in one and the rescue squad had to get her out, and you plunge ahead. After making it through successfully, you head for your seat. You look at them and think okay I can do this so you squeeze yourself into that little seat being as inconspicuous as you can be. But you know what happens, it's kinda like a water balloon that is pushed inside a cup, the bottom part goes in and then all the rest comes flopping over the sides. It ain't pretty. But at least you are in the seat and soon the lights will be off and no one will see how the rest of you isn't fitting in that seat. Well that's just one worst thing about being overweight. Another worst thing would be the time my husband and I took our then 3 y/o twins to Kings Dominion, an amusement park in Richmond VA. My daughter and son wanted to ride the Scooby Doo roller coaster but were to short to ride alone so my hubby and I stood in line strategically placing ourselves so that we would be on the coaster together and get our pictures taken. It was finally our turn, my husband had our son and I had our daughter, we boarded the cars sat down and the worst moment of my life happened. In front of 100's of people, the metal bar wouldn't go down over me. Now in my defense, I'm 5'11 and have very long legs 31" inseam to be exact, but that didn't help the utter embarrassment I went through having to get off that ride. My daughter cried because she wanted to ride. A very nice lady said her child would ride with her, but Ashton wouldn't have it, she wanted to ride with Daddy or Mommy. So we exited to the other side and I stood there in front of all those people and waited for the ride to finish so my daughter could have a ride with her Daddy. When they finished we swapped kids and I made a quick exit using the excuse we could see them better from over here, way away from those people. Who by the way were very nice and said things like, they really should make those seat bigger and your legs are really long. I just wanted to curl up and die somewhere. My hubby was very sweet he just put his arm around me smiled and said "I love you and I'm sorry" and we walked on to the next ride. My day wasn't ruined but I've never forgotten that I remember it in excruciating detail.

What fears did you have about having complications or even dying from from the surgery, and what would you tell other people having the same fears now?

My fears about the surgery were not so much of dying, I did think about that, but I understood the statics and I figured a .5% chance of death was better than what I had being morbidly obese for the next 30 years. I was more afraid of being in a lot of pain and going back in the hospital and being an inconvience to my family. I was concerned about complications but I had a lot of faith in my surgeon and I talked to many many people before surgery. I also prayed a lot and had others pray for me, that helped tremendosly.

How did your family and friends react to your decision? Would you have communicated anything differently if you could now? How supportive were they after your surgery?

My husband was very supportive. He wanted me to do whatever would make me happy. He knew that I was very unhappy living in a fat body and I was not healthy. My mom was supportive but I could tell she was really worried. She isn't a worrier and she says now she wishes she had spent more time researching the surgery for herself and less time worring about it. That is the best adivice I can give, have your loved ones read everything they can get their hands on, go to meetings with you, look stuff up on line. Don't just sit there and worry, be pro active, find out the answeres to your worries. "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? (Mat 5:27) The rest of my family, sister, aunts and close friends had concerns but they were all very happy for me. After surgery everyone was great. People at church brought over meals that my family really apprieciated, I just salivated over them. My parents and in laws were great about helping with my kids and everyone has been wonderfull. It's nice to hear "Wow, you look great" or "Everytime I see you you've lost more weight". You never get tired of that.

What was your stay in the hospital like? How long where you there? What things are most important to bring?

I was in the hospital for 3 days. I had surgery on June 10th and was home by June 12th. The only thing I can think of to be sure and bring is lip balm. You are NBM (Nothing By Mouth) until the leak test. You have the leak test whenever they get around to getting you down to X-Ray. So your mouth is pretty dry and parched even though you have little sponges to wet your lips and mouth with.

Did you have any complications from the surgery? If so, how did you deal with them?

No complications at all!!

In the weeks after you got your surgery date, how did you feel? How did you cope with any anxiety you might have felt?

I was elated to have a surgery date, I wanted them to take me sooner. I deal pretty well with things, I just didn't think about the pain or what I was getting ready to do. I didn't have anxiety because I was to excited. I never for one minute had second thoughts, I knew this was right for me and there was no turning back. I did however eat everything in sight, I was afraid when I went formy pre-op I would weigh 50 pounds more. :-)

How far did you travel to have your surgery? (If far, how did this affect your aftercare?)

2 1/2 hours. I haven't been as good with my yearly visits. But my intial aftercare was fine, no problems.

What aftercare support group/program do you have? How helpful/important is this?

For probably a year after surgery I attended a support group and I really did find it helpfull. It helped me remeber where I started and how far I've come. It also helped me to chat with others who are just starting the journery and some who have been down the road a lot longer than me. I think I would benefit me to continue to attend meetings because I've slipped some and I think it would be helpfull to get back on track.

What is your scar like? Is this what you expected?

My scars were tiny, I had 4 or 5 (they are gone now due to a tummy tuck). They weren't anything to get upset about, it's not like I was going to wear a bikini anyway. LOL.

Please describe any plateau experiences you have had since surgery.

I am probably on one now, it's been 4 years (I think), and I am on a plateau. I would like to loose 25 pounds or so and I can't seem to get it off. I'm really not very motivated. I used to see those diet commercials, the ones were the skinny little woman smiles from ear to ear and says "I lost 20 pounds". I would just grit my teeth and say 20 pounds WOW! BIG DEAL! Now I'm the one wishing I could loose 20 and realizing how difficult that really is. When you are 300+ pounds loosing 10-20 pounds isn't that hard but when you are 190 it's a bit harder. (I'm 5'11 so 190 isn't horrible for me but 170 would be better).
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