Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
I have not always been overweight, but I have always loved food. I began to gain weight in '94, when I was 24 and working my first desk job. I worked near the kitchen, where there were always free snacks and cold drinks, and I could sneak as much as I wanted. Sneak .. that's the most important thing. I worked in an office alone, and no one could see me eating. Of course, everyone could see when I started busting out of my little size 10s. In the course of a year, I had gained over 100 pounds, and I didn't stop there. The funniest thing is, I always thought I was fat back then, when I carried 125-135 on my 5' 4" small-boned frame. Now that I really am as big as I thought I was then, I don't seem to realize it! After years of being fat, I am still shocked when I see myself in a mirror. I have tried self-imposed diets, Slim Fast and such, and portion control. I have tried exercise. Only since I have been researching bariatric surgery have I had any success with either. The things I've learned have started to resonate, and I am better able to listen to my body and eat only until I am satisfied. Before, this was a foreign concept. "Satisfied" always used to mean "Stuffed". Not anymore. I was amazed to realize that other people don't think about food constantly and obsess about lunch while eating breakfast. I just wish I had learned this while I could still force on those size tens.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
How much space do I get? If I had to narrow down all the negatives, I guess I could sum it up like this: I hate being conspicuous. I'm a reserved person by nature, and obese people can't blend in very well.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
1. Walk faster, and stand for longer periods. That translates into shopping. :)
2. I can now fit my lunch into a cute little lunch bag, instead of using one of those blue plastic WalMart sacks!