Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
Total depression, constant frustration and a false smile. That is how I felt prior to hearing there might be a way out of my weight slums!
I have been over weight my entire life. It really began to be a problem when I started Middle School. You all know that time in your life is so important. Your appearance seems to be what is most important to everyone else, even if your weight isn't an issue to you personally. You tell yourself, they will like me for who I am inside. Right, not in this world. So, I became the guys best counselor and the girls best friend to get to the guys. What a circle. Oh, don't let me forget that I also became the class clown. You know you have to be funny so you can laugh at yourself when everyone else does.
Marriage never ever entered my mind since that would require a boyfriend. I finally compromised and married someone who wanted a successful career woman. I lived 10 years miserable and lost my identity. I did have two beautiful children for which I am blessed. The weight loss after the children's birth was a disaster. Those little pudges could have stayed off. They stayed around and around. No kidding! I went from 250 to over 300. Does this make a woman feel good about herself? That is another joke. As much as I wanted to pretend I was strong, I was weak. Although I did try all the diets, things only worsened. My marriage was full of abuse. I finally broke down. You can only take so much of being told you are fat, ugly, no one else will ever have you, you aren't the person your husband married, you have no time for anything or anyone but the children and you can't please a man sexually because you are now too fat. Funny, he enjoyed the sex enough to get me pregnant!
Thank God I was freed from my first marriage. I began to feel I was growing old and dying fast. My weight just continued to climb. Thank the Lord for people who introduced the public to bariatric surgery. Of course, I felt confused and very concerned. You can only become elated when you believe there is hope! Hope is in bariatric surgery if you are the proper candidate. Make sure you do your research and then believe.
After I have had surgery, I am beginning to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Who knows, by the time I have completed my journey, I might actually fit all the way through that tunnel without getting stuck. Hope and life is in the faith to become a better person through weight loss. I am so happy that I have had my surgery. Thank God for miracles!
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
Feeling ugly, not fitting into chairs, being discriminated against, not fitting into airline seats, roller coasters, etc. It is the worst feeling when you are overweight. I also hated the fact that my clothing didn't look the way I wanted them to on me. Bulches were every where. Your breast start to head south. God knows what all those stretch marks are doing all over your body. You sure don't recognize them on you. You don't see yourself or body, as everyone else does. This is so weird. Let's not forget that your body feels horrible from head to toe. Your toes? I haven't seen them in years. Thank God for someone who loves to give pedicures. I hate it all. Take your pick at what is worse.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
Whatever my husband and children want to do! I am more active. Today, I went bowling! That was fun. I have been to Disney. That was great. Just being able to move, breathe and live, what more could you ask for?