Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
My weight battles began at an early age as a result of being sexually abused & mentally controlled by a very dominating father. One who put me on the scales every Sunday night so that he could ridicule me. One who told me that I would never amount to anything because I was fat. One who told me that I would never have a 'good job' because people won't hire a fat girl. I look back at my photographs from my teenage years now and it makes me so sad to think of how my father called berated and abused me in so many ways over a body that was really so normal. So I struggled for years. I first started looking at biatric surgery back in the early 80's. In fact, four times I have gone through the RNY process now without actually "doing it". Finally in 2004 with the success of the less envasive Lap Banding proceedure I have decided to self-pay to take advantage of a tool that I feel I am emotionally and physically able to utilize with lasting success.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
Restrictions with chairs with arms and the humiliation that airlines now make fat people go through over their 17" width coach seats! My issue with the chairs means that I am never comfortable walking into a restaurant not knowing before hand if they will have armless chairs. For business meetings, I call ahead to ask. If they don't have them I either don't go, or reschedule someplace else. With airplanes, it literally makes me 'sick to my stomach' to fly even tho I carry my own seat belt extender. I have skipped flights at the last minute and made excuses why I did not go. I have had some really embarrassing moments including I can break out in a major sweat and literally have panic attacks just because of the fear of the person sitting next to me or the embarrassment that a flight attendant might put me through. I always hold my head high tho... but it is difficult 99% of the time.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
In 2005 I had lap-band (Swedish) surgery & successfully lost over 105 lbs. in a year's time. Unfortunately my life with a band came to an end due to errosion despite the fact that I was a perfect bandster (seriously, I was - never vomited or abused the band at all - so it was especially disappointing to know that the errosion occurred). Since that time I've regained all the weight I lost. Only recently did I finally have insurance that would pay for surgery and I've just completed everything required to have the VGS as of August 2012. So in a few short weeks I will be undergoing this proceedure. Please wish me luck as I embark on this next journey....