Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
I always felt like I was trapped within my own body. I had low self-esteem, and really didn't like to get out much. I felt that most strangers I ran into probably just saw me as a "fat person," even though I knew there was so much more to me than that. I was unhealthy and very miserable. I made it worse by using food to help numb myself and make me feel better, at least temporarily.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
The worst thing about being overweight was the feeling I had inside when I was out of my seclusion from home. I felt very out of place in a social situation or in most public places. I was always trying to cover my body in layers or in big clothes. I just wanted to hide. Shopping for clothes or trying to find clothes to wear in my own closet was always a nightmare.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
I am not limited anymore by the size of my body. I can sit in a movie theater seat or an airplane seat and not touch both sides. Before my WLS, I could barely squeeze into either one of them, and pity for anyone having to sit next to me as they would have no arm room either! I also enjoy not having to buy the largest size clothes I can find. I enjoy not having to pay extra for plus size scrubs for my job. I enjoy being able to tell people where I was on the scale and where I am now. I don't mind telling anyone my weight. It's not 120 lbs, but it's not nearly what it was. I feel like I have a story to tell, and most people are amazed. They tell me, "I can't imagine that you weighed that much." Well, surprise. I did. :-) I'll never be skinny as long as I have a mouth, but I'm so much healthier, and so much more satisfied with myself! I don't feel trapped in this body anymore. I have come a long way.