Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
I have been battling with my weight since as far back as I can remember. I came from an environment where we were taught to eat what we were given because "there are kids starving in this world who would be more than happy to eat what you have." I was usually always the heaviest kid in class, which 9 times out of 10 made me the butt of all jokes; this did MAJOR damage to my self-esteem and because of it, I became very quiet & withdrawn. The girls bullied me because I was fat & the boys wouldn't even give me a 1st glance OR the time of day. I was engaged (to my surprise) after high school to a guy who I thought was the best thing in my life. I was SOOO in love, until he told me that he loved me but wasn't "attracted" to me anymore. That's when I really began to lose control of my life & my eating habits. I hated the way I looked and even though I knew I needed to be staying AWAY from food, I hid behind it. I became an emotional eater. If I was sad, I would drown myself in sweets. If I was happy or celebrating something, we usually celebrated it with food. I got to a point where I had so much self-hatred that I couldn't see the beauty that everyone else saw. I couldn't take a compliment to save my life & I always thought that someone had some nasty ulterior motive for complimenting me.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
The worst thing about being overweight is that it affected my self-esteem. I really HATE shopping for clothes, especially when I see a cute outfit on a dummy & it looks horrible on me lol. I try to stay as stylish as possible but the fact is, I HATE SHOPPING!!! I hate the looks people give, especially in restaurants. They stare at you in disgust and look at you with the "you do NOT need to be eating anything else" look. I hate that I can't be as active with my daughter as I would like (running, playing, etc). I hate that I can't completely take a compliment from my husband without feeling like he's only saying it to make me feel better about myself.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
I recently had surgery so I'm still looking forward to all of the new things I will be able to do once I can do them.