I dont know what to do any I dont have anybody to help me!
I am an addict.....of all sorts......it USED to be drugs and alch........then when i got clean it was FOOD. I now am a lil over a yr out since my gastric pypass and am struggling soooooooooo bad! I never changed my eating habbits! I am always sick because I eat the wrong foods or i over eat and my body rejects it......or i feel so sick i make myself vomit! I started drinking again too! I keep tryin to stop my addiction......im trying to eat healthy but i fail i fail i fail everyday i fail...........when your an addict your supposed to stay clear of what your addicted toooooooo but when your addiction is food what do u do? I have to eat to live.....but over eating or eating crap is gonna kill me to im just gonna end up gaining my weight back and i caaaaaaaaant do that id rather die! Or ima hurt my pouch I am scared and upset and I dont know what to do. I am beyond depressed and dont even know why anymore. I have no energy to do anything even my son dosnt interest me! HOW HORRIBLE AND SAD IS THAT! I dont know what to do or where to turn to anymore! I need somone like holding my hand and telling me ok eat this eat that no no dont eat this dont eat that im to weak to do it alone! I have come soooo far! I cant fail now I just cant! Sorry this is just one huge vent!