Thank you, Allison. I too still have 2 dogs, not to mention 2 cats a quaker parrot...but Lugar was my baby. When I was 15 years old, I saw my first rottweiler and I desperately wanted one. It too****il I was 26 years old, but I finally got my rottie. All my critters are special, of course, but Lugar's death hit me in the gut, despite knowing it was coming (his health had been declining fast in the last few months).
I am crying now again too.
I know it's gets better with time (when my rottie/chow mix died two years ago, I thought I would never stop crying), but it's so hard right now.