I read the message board every day but i post infrequently. The topic (for me) never changes. However, there may be a change in my thinking (at least i hope so).
Topic: Help...am losing control.
New thinking: I WILL take control...it is MINE to take.
Long story, short>>>am 4 yrs. out. All was going well until about 2 1/2 years and then old thinking and behaviors started creeping in. Still was doing very well. Kept weight at about 115.0 lbs. and felt good...physically, emotionally, etc. But, was so frightened of OLD BEHAVIORS and the possibilty that they were returning.
THEN, i was dx'd with stage III invasive breast cancer. Went through a year of chemo, double mastectomy, radiation, and am on hormone therapy now. My last reconstuctive surgery is set for this month. I am a SURVIVOR!
Funny thing, i GAINED weight with the cancer (approx. 15 lbs.). Worst fear came to pass. Also, was eating (when i could) and knew was adding to the problem of fear of weight gain.
NEED to take control as i am having surgery again. Thus:
I WILL take control because it is MINE to take. Wish me luck.
"No one can make you feel inferior without your permission." - Eleanor Roosevelt
REVISED GOAL: 125 lbs.