Need help BAD!!

OK, this is hard for me to admit, but about a month ago I started abusing alcohol for food. I've been successful in weightloss, and only need need about 50 pounds more till goal. The problem is that I don't care at this point about the health hazzards. I am tired of every thing and everybody(my friends mainly since they don't support me and are overly jealous). I know that I am substitutung alcohol for food, but what should I do? As I write this my 3 year old is laughing because mommy is drunk. I am at my end. PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry for any errors, my grammar is not to great at the moment.

Nikki call someone for help first thing in the morning. Call a therapist and get in to see someone right away. It is a good thing that you realise you need help and you are reaching out for it. Best of luck to you! Tara

Nikki, I can relate to this b/c since surgery I have, at times, overindulged in alcohol in place of food. I am scared of the effects but I still do it. I guess the old word counseling is in store for us. I hope we can find the strength and courage to get help before something happens. Kathy 4/1/04 253/237/189/130

Nikki & Kathy, It isn't unusual for people who give up 1 addiction to end up with another. Don't beat yourselves up but GET HELP NOW! You & your health are at risk. Nikki, your little girl doesn't deserve to see you this way. Be careful, stop now. Call AA if you don't have acces to any other treatment & get involved in woman's group. They are out there. Please be safe & well. My thoughts are with you & your families. Pat

I have an idea for you Kathy ... Why don't you put down the bottle and start coping with life? ... Maybe then you can stop hating your stepson, stop thinking of yourself as too good and your daughter as too refined ... And help someone who is only looking for love and compassion. In fact, put down the bottle, hug the kid, and you maybe you both will find that you've been looking for the same thing!!

It's fun to cast stones at those when you have no idea of the situation, isn't it? Actually, that is the only time I can actually tolerate him, but thanks for the advice anyway.

Who's casting stones? You obviously have serious issues and love to play the part of the victim ... Now your miserable life is all your 15-year-old stepson's fault (who you admit likes you but you hate him -- so it's his fault, right? ... You can warm up to students who don't like you ... do you see the irony here? You have opened the public forum -- not me.) Don't you see the both of you are acting out and looking for support and love. You don't like this kid because you're so much alike. But you posted on Tuesday like you're perfect and untouchable because you're losing weight and your daughter is a refined lady -- due to your impeccable talent for raising her. Let's see ... hmmm ... what do you think your refined daughter makes of her mother who can't face life head-on and drinks to get by? That's incredibly highbrow of you. Let's see how long it will be before you start abusing food and blame your stepson. Look ... I've lived more of a life than 10 just like you. I see you coming a mile away. You're looking to blame this poor boy for everything you cannot be whether it's in your mind or actuality. You are heading for a crash landing; it doesn't take a rocket scientist to see that. Seek help immediately -- AND STOP BLAMING THE BOY FOR YOUR OWN SHORTCOMINGS!!!

"Need help bad" So why are you sitting at a computer instead of calling to find out the next AA meeting or group meeting? This site is for support but I'm sure nobody can walk your walk. Just because you have problems, do you think your kid should suffer? If you were my friend, I'd help you by cracking you upside your head with the bottle. I know, I know, It would'nt help much, but I'd do it for subjecting you kid into your crap! Sorry folks I have no sympathy

TOUGH LOVE FROM KIM! THIS IS THE SECOND POST I'VE READ TODAY THAT YOU HAVE REPLIED TO AND DANG...GIRL YOU DON'T PLAY FUNNY THING IS...IT'S PROBABLY WHAT ALOT OF PEOPLE NEED TO HEAR....KEEP BEIN YOU! AILEEN

I feel for ppl who have an addiction, I can relate to them via my sweets addiction. I can see how someone can tell you to stop gaining weight,drinking, doing drug, if the have never had that "addiction" But I'll tell you this, I had drug addicts, alcoholic's and a bunch of other idoits around me while I was growing up. I, to this day have never got drunk or high PERIOD. My husband and I feel the same on this issue. I had my first child at 15, My friends got pregnant too. they alway's tried to get me to "hit it" I never did, Right now these same ladies are either in jail, drug addict, drug abusers, snagatooth (you get the picture) I hate alcoholic's, and drug users. Hate, is a harsh word, I know. Even worse than that I hate to see fat ppl. Most are on that same level (meaning killing yourself with food) not all but some. That's why I can "feel for and addiction. After all I am an addict. On that same note, I have kids that I would put first above all, I would slap the **** out of a person that will get high while in care of a chid. Sorry again folks. this get me!