Here I go again--trying to lose more weight post-op

 I know shat to do and I know how to do it.  My problem is in maintaining a desire to lose weight even when I face difficult times.  I have a weight-loss workbook that addresses the mental and emotional aspects of working any diet ( plan of eating as opposed to a quick weight-loss diet).  I did lose 50 lbs using this method with little exercise about 2 years ago.  And, I only put back a couple of lbs--literally 2 or 3 lbs.  I simply can't eat large meals due to the RNY but I am a junk food junkie.

I am also manic-depressive and would rather eat my addictive food than follow my demons.  However, even I know that's just an excuse.  Because my prior experience showed me that I was no longer tempted to eat the junk after a few days of abstinence from it.  

I ask you to pray for me or send me notes of encouragement over the next week so that I can get in several days without the junk.  I won't even think about the posssibliity of slipping although I do know that all addiciton treatment programs now say that slipping ( or relapse) is a part of recovery.  I just keep trying and failing to get in those first few days without my junk food.  That's very frustrating.  Luckily, I will be seeing my shrink on Wed so I hope that I will be starting my weight loss journey and my abstinence from junk food by the time I see him.

I know that I sound like a broken record, but I must try when I get this gift of the strength of my will along with my realization that I must actually work a program and reach out for help.  I thank all of you who will think of me and wish me well in whatever way you can.  Bob

Hang in there pal.  I'm currently there myself.  Sucks to fall off the roller coaster high of extreme weight loss and find yourself drifting backwards.  I'm trying to focus on a concrete goal and babystep towards getting myself back on track... as I know it will never "fall off" as it did post-op.  Good luck!     

 So far I've been working with Kay Sheppard's book,"Food Addiction-The Body Knows".  When I concentrate on working on my food addiction rather than worrying about what I eat or what I want to eat, the focus goes off of the food.  Since I am no longer thinking about food ( paraphrasing her book), food isn't always on my mind.  Then I can be free of the near constant temptations to eat.

I've read this in the past, but everytime I read it there seems to be a new revelation.  Maybe life doesn't have to be as difficult as I make it.  Freedom from addictive foods is a lot easier than white-knuckle dieting.

It's only the third day and I'm not perfect in my total abstinence from addictive food, but I know from past experience that that should come within about 3 weeks.  

Now I have the hope I so desparately desired only a few days ago.