She's "BIG" like you
They would not have hurt so bad if she was "slight in stature herself" but she too has a little heft to her.
OH I realize I will never be a size two, but after 3 years and a nearly 200 pound weight loss, these mindless words hurt. I wanted to cry. What was the sense in enduring all of this just to be labeled a "FAT GIRL" regardless!
Needless to say these thoughtless words cast me into a funk
A few days later I was hustling to catch an elevator "hold please" I called out. As I stepped on one of my co-workers said, "I didn't see you, but I knew your voice"
"OH yes," I joked, "I am so slight I barely cast a shadow!"
"Well, actually, compared to your former self, I rarely recognize you, until you speak, I know you by your voice only"
The other gentleman on the elevator nodded in agreement, "I am surprised you wanted the elevator, because when I see you you are usually taking the stairs."
A third co-worker remarked, "we all see a real difference, wish we had the willpower and discipline you have"
That elevator ride ended my funk. I tell people I did this for my health, I had uncontrolled type 2 diabetes, injecting insulin as many as 5 times a day. I had arthritis so bad I had to leave bedside nursing, and sleep apnea. I never gave a thought of how I looked, although I heard the whispers, kids snickering and saw the stares. I thought they were behind me until the mindless words of this neighbour. However the mindless thoughtless words of a stranger were quickly erased by the words of people who knew me when.
ETA today I am a much healthier and happy person
Oknee's just gotta dance
Weight at the start of Optifast 378 T-1 OR Weight 352
Broke the 300 pound Barrier 13-Dec-2009 291.2lbs 01-APR-11 "onederland"
HGBA1C 5.2 d/c from the care of my Endocrinolgist 09-JUL-10 "diabetes resolved"
10-MAR-11 Extreme Sleep Apnea (dx 2007) resolved-"b-bye CPAP won't miss ya"
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I am glad to hear that you did just that!
Oknee's just gotta dance
Weight at the start of Optifast 378 T-1 OR Weight 352
Broke the 300 pound Barrier 13-Dec-2009 291.2lbs 01-APR-11 "onederland"
HGBA1C 5.2 d/c from the care of my Endocrinolgist 09-JUL-10 "diabetes resolved"
10-MAR-11 Extreme Sleep Apnea (dx 2007) resolved-"b-bye CPAP won't miss ya"
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We must "get on" that coffee thing
Oknee's just gotta dance
Weight at the start of Optifast 378 T-1 OR Weight 352
Broke the 300 pound Barrier 13-Dec-2009 291.2lbs 01-APR-11 "onederland"
HGBA1C 5.2 d/c from the care of my Endocrinolgist 09-JUL-10 "diabetes resolved"
10-MAR-11 Extreme Sleep Apnea (dx 2007) resolved-"b-bye CPAP won't miss ya"
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Interesting concept although I doubt it as this was the first time we spoke, she is an older lady from a background that covets plus sizes (IYKWIM) and likely never thought for a second how "caustic" her words were. She was in fact inquiring if I knew a family member who worked in the same hospital as I do and was using the terminology as a descriptive.. .which is why I likely didn't haul off and belt her!
Oknee's just gotta dance
Weight at the start of Optifast 378 T-1 OR Weight 352
Broke the 300 pound Barrier 13-Dec-2009 291.2lbs 01-APR-11 "onederland"
HGBA1C 5.2 d/c from the care of my Endocrinolgist 09-JUL-10 "diabetes resolved"
10-MAR-11 Extreme Sleep Apnea (dx 2007) resolved-"b-bye CPAP won't miss ya"
HAVE A QUESTION ABOUT IRON AND/OR http://theironmaiden.ca/
Oknee's just gotta dance
Weight at the start of Optifast 378 T-1 OR Weight 352
Broke the 300 pound Barrier 13-Dec-2009 291.2lbs 01-APR-11 "onederland"
HGBA1C 5.2 d/c from the care of my Endocrinolgist 09-JUL-10 "diabetes resolved"
10-MAR-11 Extreme Sleep Apnea (dx 2007) resolved-"b-bye CPAP won't miss ya"
HAVE A QUESTION ABOUT IRON AND/OR http://theironmaiden.ca/