Reflection and a new/old avatar.
A comment on my FB page and a few provocative threads on OH
yesterday really got me thinking. I spent the better part of my 10K walk this
morning (yes, be consider yourselves warned Team B and Team C… I’m aiming for another 10K this afternoon) reflecting on where I was when I began this journey and where I am now. I’ve been open about having WLS with everyone. I don’t shy
away from it. After a bit of banter on my Facebook page about my weight loss a
friend commented that she didn’t realize I’d had surgery – as though that
negated my successes so far. (Let me be the first to admit that I’m not certain
if she meant it to sound that way but that is how I read it.) These are the things I AM ashamed of: * I’m ashamed of reaching a point where I needed two
airplane seats to travel.
* I’m ashamed that I hid away from life for years because I
was too embarrassed to participate.
* I’m ashamed that I thought I was less than because I was
obese. * I’m ashamed that I didn’t love myself as a super morbidly
obese woman. * I’m ashamed that I was so out of control. * I’m ashamed that I outgrew the “fat-lady" stores. * I’m ashamed for all the times I was unkind in my life. * I’m ashamed that, as a teenager, I thought it was
hilarious to look at photos of super morbidly obese people in medical textbooks
and laugh. (Karma, anyone?) * I’m ashamed that I sometimes now think that I am better
than the woman I was when at my heaviest. She doesn’t deserve that! I am NOT ashamed that I was able to seek out and find help.
I am NOT ashamed that I cannot walk this road alone.
Why have I reverted back to my original avatar? That woman is worthy of being recognized. She was a lovely and kind person. She was funny and thoughtful. She was even beautiful. She deserves not to be forgotten. She deserves not to be invisible. She felt alone during much of her pre-op life and I’d like to think that she could count on me to befriend her.
She is me and I am her.
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Very true and thank you for sharing!! It really does put a perspective on our lives! 
"Why have I reverted back to my original avatar? That woman is worthy of being recognized. She was a lovely and kind person. She was funny and thoughtful. She was even beautiful. She deserves not to be forgotten. She deserves not to be invisible. She felt alone during much of her pre-op life and I’d like to think that she could count on me to befriend her.
She is me and I am her."
-Beautiful.
She is me and I am her."
-Beautiful.
Oh my gosh..... I so appreciate you saying this. This is what I keep trying to tell people - never forget or hate the girl that you were. She's always going to be a part of you.
*sigh*
Okay, just for today, I'm going to use my old avi too.
THANK YOU for this. xo
*sigh*
Okay, just for today, I'm going to use my old avi too.
THANK YOU for this. xo
Karen
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