Shame is the biggest nsv
on 7/12/18 8:22 am
my sleeve surgery was March 22/18. I'm down 50 lbs and feeling so good, so happy, so energetic. I realized a few days ago how much shame I carried in those 50 lbs. I dress myself and go out into the world without that now, feeling like a "normal" person, not needing to hide my belly or my neck or anything else. And I cross my legs like crazy whenever I please. I didn't realize how much shame I carried until now.
Move had to get new underwear as the old stuff was falling off, and it felt so good to chose something pretty. And some summer dresses , size MEDIUM! Not XL or 2X. I used to say I bought my clothes from Omar the Tentmaker. Not anymore. Pennington 's is a distant memory.
my friends tell me I look 20 years younger. That's better than I expected. Way better.
im more than half way so goal. I haven't weighed this little since I went through chemo. I'll take this method of weight loss any day! It's hard to imagine being lighter than this, but I've felt that ever since I started this journey. I'm just following the rules and I keep breaking those barriers.
onwad and upwards! And thanks to all of you for sharing all your stories and challenges. I learn more every day from all of you. I send you all love and deep gratitude.
Good for you! It takes a lot of deep thinking and inner perspective to realize this kind of thing. You are doing amazing!
1st Referral: May 31 2012 Orientation: July 17th 2012 Denied at Psych appointment
3rd Referral: June 2016 Orientation: August 2016 Got pregnant and discharged
4th Referral: October 2017 Orientation: April 2018 Pre-op: July 16th Surgery: July 24th!
HW: 281 SW: 269 CW:235.1 GW: ~150-160
Sounds like you're doing good, it's funny how you get used to buying big clothes and then the first one you grab in the store is too big, even though it's a lot smaller than you were.
57 - 6'0" - HW:288 SW:260 CW:185
TWH: Referral Aug. '16, Orientation - Nov. 30 '16, Surgeon Oct. 6 '17, Start Optifast Feb. 5'18 - Surgery Feb. 26'18
Opti -25; M1 -23; M2 -17; M3 -7; M4 -5; M5 -5; M6 -6; M7 -0; M8 -2; M9 -0; M10 -2; M11-0; M12-4;
LOVE~ So happy for you. I feel the same way about the shame. ...
Referred May 2016, Orientation July 4, 2016, Pre-Nutrition Class March 31, 2017, Nurse April 10, 2017, Blood work/ECG April 13, 2017, Ultra-sound April 27, 2017, Psychologist May 30, 2017, Colonoscopy and Gastroscopy June 5, 2017, Internist June 13, 2017, Dietician June 14, 2017, 2nd Round of blood work August 2, 2017, Surgeon September 6, 2017, Surgery September 12, 2017 - St. Joe's Hamilton - No Opti
Height 5"4" HW 231 SW222 CW141
PreOp-9 lbs M1-20lbs M2-11lbs M3-13lbs M4-7lbs M5-8lbs M6-7lbs M7-5lbs M8-5lbs M9-2lbs M10-0lbs M11 - 0lbs M12 - 0lbs
on 7/15/18 6:14 pm
The shame is a terrible thing. It was never my size that kept me from enjoying my life, it was my shame of my size that stopped me.
referred Jan 2016 intake May 2016 left programme returned June 2017 final pre-sx class Oct 2017 surgeon appt Oct 2017
Opti Wt Nov 4/17 226 lbs BMI 45 Sx Wt 212 lbs RNY surgery Nov 23/17 M1 -18 M2-9 M3-10 M4-8 M5-6 M6-7 M7-6 M8-3 M9-1(so far) Down to within one pound of my goal and 99 lbs down from my highest weight. I was not a fast loser but who cares as long as you get there! I know the newbies check the trackers and the signatures so although I kind of lost track of how the rest of the weight came off, you should know that it was not fast and furious but it was slow and steady!
current BMI 24.7 that, my friends, is NORMAL!!! Strong is the new pretty!