Okay so I'm one that always tries to make sense of strange dreams and this one threw me for a loop. Let me know what my brain is trying to tell me after reading this weirdness lol.
So in my dream I was in jail for some reason. It was never revealed to me in the dream why I was there. I remember being booked in and the guy behind the counter going over my paperwork with me. He stated that I would be provided 4 meals a day and then proceeded to pull out chocolate and vanilla protein shakes. He asked which one I would like at that time. I asked him why on earth am I only being provided shakes for my meals and he insisted that is what I had signed up for in booking.
I went along with it and said chocolate would be fine for this meal. He then stated that I would have to pay for my meals on a weekly basis and the cost was $57.25 a week. Now I have no clue how much they really cost but that's what it was in my dream. I told him that was outlandish and why if I was in jail do I have to pay for my own meals. Again he stated that it was what I signed up for.
After booking is finished he tells me to pick out a cell/room of my liking. I saw several single rooms for one person but then I saw dorm room type of cells where there were around 6-8 girls in each. I went to one of those and tried to join them. The first question they asked me was what was I allowed to eat. I told them I was only allowed to have shakes. They all looked at me and laughed and said oh no you aren't allowed in here, go back to your room you special snowflake, you don't belong here with us. With tears in my eyes I went and found a single cell.
I went back to the desk and asked why I was not allowed to be in a dorm cell with the other ladies. He told me oh that's because you are a special snowflake and need more help and looking after than the regular ladies do. He said it was best for us to be isolated so that we wouldn't be tempted to follow the other ladies and we needed more care than they did. I went back to my cell/room and felt totally isolated and defeated and thought to myself why on earth did I sign up for this? I woke up shortly after that and said okay what the heck was that about.
It was all very strange so maybe some of you can tell me what you think.
It's not really important as to what we think it means, what do you think it means?
Referral - May 31/17; Orientation - June 15/17; First Appt Nurse - June 26/17; Bloodwork and ECG - June 27/17; Sleep Study - July 5/17; Dietician Appt - July 10/17; Counsellor Appt - July 10/17; Abdominal Ultrasound - July 10/17: Endoscopy/Colonoscopy - July 25/17; Second Dietician Appt - September 14/17; Internist Appt - October 2/17; Meet the Surgeon - November 21/17; Pre Surgery Nutrition Class - January 12/18; Surgery - January 16/18
I have thought about it a lot and think that maybe I am a bit terrified of the upcoming surgery. Perhaps I'm subconsciously thinking of how things will change and constantly having to choose what I eat and having to take vitamins forever and losing my relationship with food as being like a prison sentence. Perhaps I'm also wanting more attention and validation for what I'm doing and see myself as a special snowflake?
I just found it so odd because I really wasn't thinking any of these things until I had this dream. I had to do some soul searching. I feel that I'm in a good place and I'm ready for the surgery and all that it entails but I would be lying if I said I wasn't a bit apprehensive about it. I worry how life will change and I worry about complications as any normal person would but I don't think I'm totally nutty and paranoid.
I wonder if others have had dreams like this before their surgery? If so please share as I would love to know that I'm not the only one lol.