Feeling Really Emotional

I am not going to white wash this.  I am 4 days out and in pain, lots of pain.  I had the open RNY.  Today I woke up crying not because of the pain, but just feeling like why did I do this.  I can't bend, I can hardly move (I do it anyway), and just not feeling great.  I guess this is normal, but I sure hope that "this will be worth it" feeling comes in soon.  

Thanks for letting me vent.   

I can only begin to imagine how difficult this time must be for you, but I promise you that in a few short weeks you're going to know for certain that it was worth it.  Right now you're going through the worst of it, so it's all up hill from here.

Wishing you a speedy recovery!!! 

 I didn't even have mine open and certainly can commiserate! I remember standing after taking a shower and SOBBING that the pain was not worth it. BUT - it does get easier. Make sure you're taking pain meds (tylenol, lortab, whatever you have) b/c there's no need to suffer unnecessarily. The discomfort & pain really plays with your mind. Also be prepared for the emotional rollercoaster. I felt kinda crazy for weeks 1-3 but then really leveled out since then. Remember the saying "you can't see the forest for the trees" - when you're newly in the middle of this, it's hard to take perspective and understand it's worth it all but when you're further out and feeling better, you'll have more of those "thank god I had this surgery" moments. Good luck!

I had quuite a few of those moments myself, right around 4 days out when I was trying to sit down to go to the bathroom and was miserable.  2 months later, no pain.  None.  It will get better!!!!!

I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad.  I didn't have an Open RNY but I did have an Open hysterectomy a few years ago so I can relate.  It's not fun and it is so uncomfortable.  I feel your pain.  This is just a bump in the road.  In 8 weeks, you will look back and feel so much better.  Just take it one day at a time. 

 I can totally relate I had mine open in March and once i left the hospital the same amount of days you are out now i was like WTF did i do to myself!! It was horriblei couldnt move had to have help up and down i cried for 3 days straight i was also stubborn tho and didnt take my pain meds bc it was liquid and made me so sick but i finally sucked it up and for 3 days i was taking my pain  meds every 4 hours like it said trust me it works and they give you it for a reason. About 2 weeks out i felt SOOOO much better not the greatest but if you would have told me at 4 days out i would feel that way at 2 weeks iw ould have cursed you out. now i am a lil over 3 months out and it is worth it! It gets better and i know hearing it is like blahblah but PLEASE take your pain meds it helps I was an idiot for not taking them for the first few days home and im sure i would of felt much better sooner if i would of been smart. take care and feel free to add me if you like. 

 Thank you everyone.  I guess not being able to eat, the pain, just not doing things like I did before really got to me.  I'm a better today, but I do have faith this will be worth it in the end.  Its just going to take time for me to heal.  My family is wonderful, they have equipped my house today like the hospital so I will be able to do some things (especially going to bathroom) on my own which means a lot to me right now.   You guys are so wonderful, thank you again for the support!