Why?

Why is it, when I'm so close to having all this pre-op stuff done, do I feel like giving up on all of it? Maybe it's just the impatience I'm feeling. I just don't feel like I'm getting anywhere anymore and I'm tired of waiting. I'm not going to give up, but part of me just feels like I don't want to do this anymore. Even though I know I want this more than anything right now.

I can understand. I went through almost a year of preop things before I had my surgery. I got denial at first from my insurance company.  I was starting to think that I was never going to have this surgery. My denial got changed and I got approval. I had my surgery May 17th. I know its discourging, but don't give up. You'll get your surgery :)

RIGHT THERE WITH YA HUN.

I got my surgery date for august 29th but wanna know something? I have been on this journey for 4 years. Starts, stalls, and mistakes made. I did not give up and you shouldn't either. You have made it this far, now give yourself a kick in the ass and move forward.