I feel like a fraud. When will my brain catch up??

So when I started this journey I was wearing size 3x pants. A friend of mine brought over a size 12 pants for me and now after 3 weeks they are too big. I go to Target walk in the regular section and expect to be thrown out. I walked around the store for an hour with a size 10 jeans in my cart. When it can time to check out I freaked out and told the lady I didn't want them. I couldn't bring myself to buy them even though I knew they would fit. I almost expected the lady to say "yeah right like YOU are going to get into THOSE!" So here I sit typing this with size 12 jeans on that are sagging in the butt and loose in the thighs when they are supposed to be "skinny jeans"  UGH!!

 I feel the same way.  I got some jeans from a relative, size 12 and they are almost too big at this point.  a size 10 would be too small but I still cant imagine this situation.  People at work keep making comments lke you are getting so skinny but I can't accept the compliment 'cause I dont feel skinny. I am down 158 lbs - currently 178, size 12 jeans and L shirt, from 4x shirt and 28 jeans.  I want to know too, when will I feel it?

 It'll take a while or maybe never. No one can promise a time when your brain realizes what you're body's known. But you can help it by brainwashing yourself. Bombard yourself with positive messages, every day. Take lots of pictures. Try on tons of clothes. Tell yourself that no one gives a damn what size you are or should be or look like. Tell yourself you belong here. (when in the regular size section.... though honestly, you've always belonged to a good place on Earth!!). Good luck & keep fighting the good fight!!

Um, that is a mental therapy thing. I've never had thoughts like that...In fact the opposite...Always saw myself as LITTLER than I was.

Perhaps a support group or therapy can help your body dismorphia...It's not normal to "Freak Out" over a size 10. Honestly.  Pull up your big girl pants. (so to speak).

Warmly,
Jackie

It is weird!

It has really just been the last few months that I no longer worry that the size 5 jeans I am about to put on really will not go past my ankles!!!

I know.  Sometimes I feel like I am wearing a thin suit.
My biggest problem is I have always regained any weight that I have lost so I don't want to get to attached to being smaller because it won't last long.  I have no faith that I can maintain a normal size.

I understand...it is very hard.  I had the most difficult time  buying clothes once I started losing.  First I have no fashion sense...that from spending my adult life staying as far away  as possible from stores. Once I started shopping  I would walk around not knowing what to buy.  Then I would always choose sizes that were too big.  If my daughter was with me she would say, "Mom...those are not going to fit they're too big" as soon as I took them off the rack.  She could tell by looking at them.  Your progress is amazing.  Buy the skinny jeans and enjoy them.  You deserve it and worked for it.

I am experiencing the same thing.  Was in the Avenue last weekend with a friend and could not find anything that fit.  She said to me "that is because you do not shop in this store anymore"  WHAT????  I always shop at the Avenue.  Where else is there to shop?  LOL  One thing I have started doing is looking in mirrors more (full lenght ones)  I will go down the eisles at the Walmart or Target that displays the mirrors just to look.  I know it seems weird but it helps to remind me and makes me feel good.  I always avoided full lenght mirrors. When I get a compliment I have gotten very good at saying thank you even if I do not feel like I deserve it.  The weirdest thing is being checked out by guys...can't get my head around that one just yet :-)