Today is my one year anniversary. It has been a crazy yet wonderful year. When I started this adventure I totally regretted having this surgery done. I was afraid I'd never be able to eat again lol. As the months went by I learned that I can still eat but just not as much. The one thing I do regret is that I can eat anything I want. As everyone knows, we have surgery on our stomachs not our brains and that has caused me problems. I thought I was mentally ready for this. I had convinced myself that I could make the changes needed to succeed. I was so wrong. Although I have lost 83 pounds since I began this journey I feel like I have failed myself by not learning to use this tool to the best of my ability. I have no one to blame but myself and I am the only one that can get on track and continue to lose weight. I know I still have some time, I just need to get my butt in gear and turn my thinking around.
Anyways, I try everyday to be thankful for the weight I have lost, the medication I don't have to take anymore and the energy I have to play with my grandkids. To those people thinking of having this surgery or those who have just had surgery, please do not try to cheat the process. Follow the rules and stay away from the triggers. Saying "just one little bite won't hurt me" is the wrong way to think.
Good luck and thank you to all the people on this board. I don't post alot but I do get allot of great advise and ideas from everyone.