Being Skinny hasnt fixed my life.
The subject says it all. I always thought that when I was skinny, my life would be so perfect. It's not. It's not all fabulous and awesome and amazing. I feel more alone now than I did when I was 320lbs.
I feel like nothing is better, everything sucks and I hate myself.
Anyone else have the blues these days? Wanna join my pity party?
; )
Someone told me this a long time ago and I've remembered it since: For every hill there is a valley, for every high there is a low - AND vice versa. When you're feeling down, remember that "this too shall pass" and the high will return.
(((hugs)))
I don't know what I expected, or what I wanted. I am not really sure who I am right now. I don't recognize myself in the mirror. My brain and my body don't match.
I feel sorta lost and like I dont fit in, and I'm just well... havin a lil identity crisis.
I'm gonna go find my big girl panties. LOL
I felt like that when my numbers dropped ... most of them were "OK" normal - but very low normal.
ON a surface - it looked like i was going crazy - but a smart person here on OH (Andrea U) review my labs and showed me where my proteins, my B12, D, ferritin were low normal. Just barely normal.
I had low Blood pressure.. Once I stared getting more supplements and introduced B12 shots (that I do like them weekly ) and Eventually got iron infusions - my feelings changed.
The depression - at least some of that was due to borderline vitamin - mineral deficiencies.
Also during that time - since I "was a perfect patient"my cholesterol dropped form my normal total 200 to barely 110... And even though some doc tell you that low cholesterol is great - too low may cause low energy, lethargy, and depression...
I like when my B12 is >800 I feel my best with my B12 1000-1500 (some doc will cringe calling it too high), my cholesterol I try to keep close to 150 (I work hard to raise
Making sure my proteins are 7+, ferritin 50+, D>50 (ideally would like 80 but >50 really helps) and so on.
If you have not have a full blood work done - now may be the time. And get a copy of results and look at them yourself. Ask for a full panel blood work. Good luck.
Hala. RNY 5/14/2008; Happy At Goal =HAG
"I can eat or do anything I want to - as long as I am willing to deal with the consequences"
"Failure is not falling down, It is not getting up once you fell... So pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again...."
IT may be good idea to look at the numbers. My docs were telling me my numbers were OK while I felt like walls are coming on top of me. And the truth is - they were OK... marginally OK.
I do give myself a B12 shot every week. once a month or every 2 weeks just did not cut it. i do fell when my B12 drops below 900 or 800. i feel normal 1000-1500. Even as high as up to 2000 may not be to high.
also - they may not checked all the numbers,,, (all that can be wrong) - many times they do not check D - and low D-s may cause low energy, and feeling blah... But too high D - may be toxic - so really you do not want to supplement very aggressively if you are not low.
Hala. RNY 5/14/2008; Happy At Goal =HAG
"I can eat or do anything I want to - as long as I am willing to deal with the consequences"
"Failure is not falling down, It is not getting up once you fell... So pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again...."
Seek help.
Sarah