not as happy a birthday as i hoped
I woke up this morning, feeling fat and ugly, still seeing all 288 pounds of me when I look at my stomach to get dressed.
I know this will pass, but for this moment, I'm just sad.
Follow my vegan transition at www.bariatricvegan.com
HW:288 CW:146.4 GW: 140 RNY: 12/22/11
I'm sorry that work is difficult right now. I understand how stress and frustration can have an affect on your ability to deal with food in a healthy way. And the "funk" isn't necessarily something you can think your way out of, as people so often expect.
You've done so wonderfully on your journey. I confess that there are days I wake up and see 280 lbs of me too, even though it's been gone for a long time. When it happens, I try to take inventory of the positive changes that have happened in my life since I began the journey toward a healthier life. Sometimes it helps and sometimes it doesn't, but it's worth a shot.
Like you said, this *will* pass and you'll feel good again. So you made a few unwise choices while you're feeling emotionally vulnerable. Who hasn't? No one handles stress perfectly every time. Have compassion for yourself, be kind to yourself, and remember how hard you worked to get to where you are now. You are beautiful and you are worth it.
Long-term post-ops with regain struggles, click here to see some steps for getting back on track (without the 5-day pouch fad or liquid diet): http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/bananafish711/blog/2013/04/05/don-t-panic--believe-and-you-will-succeed-/
Always cooking at www.neensnotes.com!
Need a pick-me-up? Read this: http://www.lettersofnote.com/2009/10/it-will-be-sunny-one-day.html
RNY 01/23/12, HW 265, CW 115, Height 5'6"
Lora
14 years out; 190 pounds lost, 165 pound loss maintained
You don't drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there.
Perhaps it will make you feel better to know that I give thanks for your life. You are a great member of this board. You give down-to-earth, practical advice that we can all use, great vegetarian/vegan recipes and...heck...you're just an all-around nice person.
So thank you (God/Universe/whatever is your deal) for creating Wendy. She's enriched my life!!!
(A smile? Maybe? A little one? Pleeeeeeease???)
Happy Birthday, friend.
RNY Gastric Bypass 1-8-08 350/327/200 (HW/SW/CW). I spend most of my time playing with my food over at Bariatric Foodie - check me out!