I'm Baaaaacccckkkk!!

Hello all,

I've been away from here for a while and I will explain. I was having a very difficult time gaining some much needed weight and in speaking with my therapist (where would I be without my therapist?) we decided that too much emphasis on weight loss might have been a problem that was making it difficult for me to do what I needed to do. I am happy to say that it did help and I have now been sitting happily at 125 pounds and wearing a size 4 or 6. I was a size 2 for many years and I found it difficult to buy clothes. I like not having to be disappointed that something that I loved didn't come small enough. I have always loved Levi's and now have several pairs that are wonderful.

THEN, last September my oldest son (35) came home from Miami to live with me while he was receiving treatment in Boston for liver failure. He was an alcoholic who went back and forth between drinking and sobriety for many of the last 5 years. Things were going really well and he had made so much progress that the liver specialist told us that he most likely would not need a liver transplant! The very next day he had to go back into the hospital with a suspected case of pneumonia. Unfortunately it was a fungal pneumonia that spread quickly and traveled to his brain causing him to have a stroke the next day. Soon the infection spread through out his body and I was forced to honor his wishes and to remove life support when recovery was not possible. That was was in November. I can honestly say that the pain of losing my child, my firstborn and the love of my life has been the most difficult challenge I have ever faced. I don't know if I will ever recover fully from this loss, but I am doing as well as can be expected (or so they tell me!!).

I have been able to keep my weight stable through all of this but I did start drinking diet coke again. Hours of driving back and forth to Boston and being in the hospital it was what I did instead of water. I gave that up again a couple of weeks ago.

So, that's where I have been…..

Martha

PS Where did the spell check option go??

I am sorry you lost your son. I can not begin to imagine the pain you have been going through. I hope things get better for you

Hi, Martha!! We have missed you!!

I am so sorry about your son. Losing a child must be the worst pain in the world. Take care of yourself.

Laura

Hi Martha,

So terribly sorry to hear of your loss. Nice to see you back, we have missed you. Take care.

Annette 😄

So many hugs and welcome back.  

SO good to see you!!!  I am glad you are at a stable weight where you feel better.  You have been missed!

Lora

My condolences. I can't imagine how you feel.

Oh my gosh. I am so sorry for your loss. I can not imagine how horrible that was for you to go through,. ((((((((Hugs))))))))))  Glad you are back and maintaining a healthy weight. Good to have you back my dear!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so sorry to hear about your son. Welcome back. You have been missed.