Really scared..
I am less than a month out from my surgery, and every day I get more and more scared that I'm going to fail. I've been having nightmares that I blow my pouch out, or that I won't lose any weight at all. I've never wanted anything as much as I want this surgery so I have no idea why I'm so nervous/scared..
did anyone else experience this stuff?
I think we all go through all the motions of either success or failure. I went into with success in my head and it was for a while. I'm 10 yrs out and I tend to forget who I am and that I'm different inside then everybody else. I didn't expect to have a 30 lbs weight gain but considering many get heavier than that I'm okay with it. I did the revision and yet from that not much happened..of course I'm partly to blame. We have too many unrealistic expectation...on things - not just this. Take ONE DAY at a time..to be successful is living in that moment...Ruth
I've lost 171 lbs in 8 months and I still have that fear every day lol! If the scale doesn't move I become convinced that it's done. The weight loss is over. I know this is absurd because I continue to weigh my food and log every bite in MyFitnessPal and work out, but I think a little fear is healthy for me. I don't ever want to lose the vigilance that got me to 350+ lbs! So I would agree with tdbull - follow your plan and make the right choices and every day is a new day to be successful!
on 8/13/14 1:28 am
What you are feeling seems to be typical. We all have had some anxiety. After my surgery, I had dreams for several weeks that I had large meals at a buffet, that I had consumed all sorts of things, like candy and ice cream. This did pass. Just keep focused on your goals and why you are doing this.
I am feeling the same way. Surgery set for Sept 2nd and I get these times where I go through a panic attack I just keep reminding myself of all the things I will be able to do and wear when I loose the weight. Try to stay calm maybe write out a list of all the good reasons for getting the surgery or a list of after goals. Anything to keep your mind busy. Good luck and see you on the other side :D
I totally get it, I am less than 13 days away from my surgery. Get this just found out my surgeon of choice died in July. Was that ever a shock. Now have to decide whether to go to his young associate or start looking for another older surgeon. I am scared to death now. I am getting VBG revision to RNY. I understand the nerves, it is natural. Don't worry about the failure, just take one day at a time. So much to look forward to on the other side of surgery. I am 62 and about to go on insulin but if I get the surgery I will not have to do that. My goal is no more high blood sugar. Can't cheat on RNY with sugar without paying big time for it, lol. Good luck, take a deep breath over and over and over.