Vacation and Weight Gain What I have Learned
So I came back from my 2 week vacation in Disney World on Saturday December 8th. Sunday I got on the scale and I had gained 18 POUNDS. I am not lying 18 POUNDS!!!!! I almost threw up. Here is what I have learned.
1) While exercise is important for fitness and health and shaping my body, what I put into my mouth is much more important. While in Disney you walk nearly 6 hours or more per day. Obviously this did not help with the weight.
2) Eating out and not eating fresh has a lot of sodium. Which is scary since I used to have high BP. Within three days of following my old routine I lost 10 of the 18 pounds. This made me draw the conclusion that those 10 pounds were water weight.
3) I have avoided sugars and starches and even sugars in fruit like the plague. I had only started to introduce carbs (complex healthy carbs) back into my diet a couple of months ago. But, I have been devoid of the crap carbs for over a year (since I did a 3 week pre-op diet). I allowed myself to eat these foods and it was not a smart idea. You could have eaten bread and rice in front of me three weeks ago or licked on an icecream sandwich and it would not have phased me. Now that I have eaten these things I know for sure that I am addicted. For three days I have eaten clean and yesterday I went to the store with my mom and she picked up goodies at the store and I had a physical reaction to them. It was like crack my stomach started to make funny sensations and bile rose in my throat like acid reflux. I am so Angry at myself for letting this happen right around the Holidays. Sure enough 2 hours later the food was calling me and I lost the fight and fat girl mentality returned and not only did I binge , but I made terrible choices. I have to completely AVOID these foods going forward if I want to make it to goal and maintain the loss. I was 15.6 pounds away from goal and now I am 22 pounds away from goal. I am not changing my ticker though I am going to give myself a week and see where I am.
4) Vets are right Carbs are slider foods as I could eat double of my normal intake. While on vacation it was the first time since being sleeved that I vomited and felt dumping syndrome (I was sick as a dog I didn't think sleevers could get dumping syndrome) from over eating and eating carbs.
5) I need an accountability partner. My family tried to be great support but in the throws of an addiction I just took it as insults and was defensive. They were actually super nice about it. I need to find someone who I can call like a sponsor with an alcoholic who will walk me off the cliff and make some sense for me in these moments who I am not emotionally involved with LOL.
6) Most importantly I have learned that this is not a sad post. This was an eye opener and a learning experience. We all know the sleeve is not a magic bullet and it is all about our choices. I thought because I am nearly a year out I could try these things. I thought wrong. For me it doesn't work. So now I pushed goal back much further, but I know I will get there because I will tell you after three years of following the plan my restriction feels much better in my sleeve.
Sorry this post is so long. I needed to be accountable for my actions and I figured maybe it would help someone like me.
Good luck!